[peer tutoring.]
haha it was nice catching up today.
the peer tutoring in the afternoon actually kinda helped -wow-. haha whatever. but yeah ayu was my tutor and yeah we accomplished a lot today.
after peer tutoring, went home with lijuin. it has been ages since the both of us went home together. well, ever since she moved to 157, we didnt really talk much or whatsoever because both of us are always busy. i will still walk past her house and wave HI lar... we're both the the 8th storey and her place is like right next to the lift. so yeah... was just hanging outside her house for like half an hour, talking and catching up lar... she will go on about her late days. seriously... it's crazy lar.. out of the 5 days, you have 4 late days? so yeah... was talking about lots of stuff until her mum came home at around 6pm and yeah i walked home. it's so near lar. and i just have to pop by her place if i ever forget to bring my amath textbook home.
lijuin and i were classmates since P1. well, right till P6 lar. we were "separated" in sec sch and now we're in the same chinese class. both of us were really good friends lar.. go for tuition together, go to school together, go home together (she used to live at 156) etc. haha the only times we go to school together now is when she calls me early in the morning before i leave for school and asks me to go pick her up because there's this bug right at her doorstep. it's either a bee, or some funny fly. yeah so i will grab my stuff and go "rescue" her, meet up with matilda, then go to school together.
i miss 6 ixora now... lar. sars went off to nygh. esti at tjc. hardly get to see them around. well if you wanna know the last time all of us went out together... that would be like months ago. july i think. haha cant remember. the month potc 2 was released cause we went out to watch it together. so yeah. everyone's busy with this and that. sars and her homework. me with njrc. esti with her schoolwork too... bleagh.
speaking of homework. i have haha tuition homework from 15 yr series. amath. physics. chem. ss. omg. okay gotta start... haha good night and bye =D
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
[viral infection.]
haha it was such a sleepy day for me. i slept for like an hr++ during chinese.. double period, so yeah. and thats the only class that's air conditioned, plus i'm sitting right underneath the aircon. so yeah. it's always like that. jaslyn and i will sleep and pearl right in the centre will be like up and prolly watch us sleep. but yeah was practically sleeping the entire day because i was up doing the english project till like 3.30am last night. and i hvnt really recovered from njrc, i think gerri and zong hvnt either...
yeah so mr tan! wahhhhhhh he threw something at my head this morning okay! you know in the geog classrooms, esp G302, there's this small pot of i dont know what crap it is on the teacher's table. a little soil and dont know what plastic thing lar.. so yeah he threw that at my head. so irritating. and he still asked deborah who was next to me if it was real soil. fine lar. but wanna wake me up, must throw something meh? but the whole class didnt know. even yiqi on my right didnt know.
yeah stinch penny was playing for today's assembly. and my class went for it all over again. well, it was almost the same lar... i still fell asleep at the very end despite the noise and all. and yeah...
i shall talk about how cool edmund's fish tank is okay! haha it has two clown fishes! and his fish tank is worth 1k or more. he was showing it to me through his webcam and i was watching in awe. just that his dory passed away and anemone is gone... so clown fishes wandering aimlessly. haha but so cool lar. then he had the mushroom and he takes good care of fishes thats why his fish tank looks so cool. which reminds me... haha of what lester told me about his friend's snake eating a rabbit once a month. omg so freaky lar... but yeah according to the owner, it's healthier to eat a rabbit than a rat. haha i dont know.. maybe... it kinda makes sense.
sat in for class for like 2 periods and left yest. was about to go to school when there was this sharp pain in my stomachache... so went to the clinic next to school. but the thing is, i had to wait about an hour for the clinic to open, so i was like sitting at the bus stop. then after it opened, waited another half hour just to see the doc. yeah got viral infection. so yeah went back to school to find the entire class dancing samba haha so not part of it and not gonna be next week. excused from pe for a week.
i slept 4 hours today in the evening. see lar, such a pig.
haiyah was totally down and out last night. seriously. i dont know lar... for some reason, i was greatly affected when i shouldnt be right?
haha it was such a sleepy day for me. i slept for like an hr++ during chinese.. double period, so yeah. and thats the only class that's air conditioned, plus i'm sitting right underneath the aircon. so yeah. it's always like that. jaslyn and i will sleep and pearl right in the centre will be like up and prolly watch us sleep. but yeah was practically sleeping the entire day because i was up doing the english project till like 3.30am last night. and i hvnt really recovered from njrc, i think gerri and zong hvnt either...
yeah so mr tan! wahhhhhhh he threw something at my head this morning okay! you know in the geog classrooms, esp G302, there's this small pot of i dont know what crap it is on the teacher's table. a little soil and dont know what plastic thing lar.. so yeah he threw that at my head. so irritating. and he still asked deborah who was next to me if it was real soil. fine lar. but wanna wake me up, must throw something meh? but the whole class didnt know. even yiqi on my right didnt know.
yeah stinch penny was playing for today's assembly. and my class went for it all over again. well, it was almost the same lar... i still fell asleep at the very end despite the noise and all. and yeah...
i shall talk about how cool edmund's fish tank is okay! haha it has two clown fishes! and his fish tank is worth 1k or more. he was showing it to me through his webcam and i was watching in awe. just that his dory passed away and anemone is gone... so clown fishes wandering aimlessly. haha but so cool lar. then he had the mushroom and he takes good care of fishes thats why his fish tank looks so cool. which reminds me... haha of what lester told me about his friend's snake eating a rabbit once a month. omg so freaky lar... but yeah according to the owner, it's healthier to eat a rabbit than a rat. haha i dont know.. maybe... it kinda makes sense.
sat in for class for like 2 periods and left yest. was about to go to school when there was this sharp pain in my stomachache... so went to the clinic next to school. but the thing is, i had to wait about an hour for the clinic to open, so i was like sitting at the bus stop. then after it opened, waited another half hour just to see the doc. yeah got viral infection. so yeah went back to school to find the entire class dancing samba haha so not part of it and not gonna be next week. excused from pe for a week.
i slept 4 hours today in the evening. see lar, such a pig.
haiyah was totally down and out last night. seriously. i dont know lar... for some reason, i was greatly affected when i shouldnt be right?
Sunday, September 10, 2006
[njrc.]
haha njrc is finally over. what can i say? well, we tried our best =) it's okay lar, ij will rock frs next year =D
all the sleepless nights are like haha unforgettable but miserable at the same time. and the sleepovers were fun haha. thanks click =) although we didn't really win anything in the end, we will still stick as one and i love you guys.
and i will never forget my fellow programmers. mag, liz, velda and julienne. it was sure fun with mag around. but we never got our top challenge (some lame game mag invented). yeah... haha and when varen followed val to school and was playing with zhenxiao. haha that was super adorable.
cheering didnt turn out well yest. the other schools were such a racket that we couldnt project our voices well. yeah i kinda lost my voice temporarily. gerri's was like really bad by the second cheer. thats how hard we were trying. i think we still have a lot of magazines to clear in school. omg =.=
yeah it was bad yest. well in the afternoon. so edmund and joseph were nice to hang out with me at macs. yeah was having a lot of fun chatting with them. i kinda cheered up a little with all that laughing. yeah... then edmund and i were walking about the science centre exhibits and stuff until lester called, and we went out. joseph was arm wrestling with someone else so he didnt come along.. haha dang. and the three of us actually agreed to go to the water works and try that squirt thing. dont know lar... it's some question thing and when you open the box to find the answer, water comes at you and yeah there's this laughter coming out of it. haha freaky right? haha it's dumb but yeah, wanted to see it. ah well, next year then, at frs haha.
i guess my day really got better all of a sudden. and yeah, it did haha.
hahaha omg friday was super amusing. okay although i got blasted at in the morning, yeah, it was much better later on. haha i was at the science centre in the afternoon. then was talking to jin wei, and he was telling me about his encounter with stef. yeah... haha because SAS has this team called flush, so jinwei actually bought this toilet bowl and like added wheels to it, so that it can move around. he made it last year for njrc. so then he was sitting on it, like selling shirts. all the shirts are in the toilet bowl. so stef wanted to buy a tshirt. then he took the shirt from underneath and haha stef literally jump backwards and had that omg face, her signature face. yeah it must have been really stupid haha. yeah and omg. zhonghan and jinwei were like sharing the toilet bowl lar. if you get what i mean. just that jinwei got tired and sat on it. then zhonghan got tired and sat on it too. but it looked wrong lar. and i was standing next to them. haha it was hilarious.. seriously.
it's like rah. when i talk to jinwei, his juniors will start thinking i'm either his girlfriend or his sister. haha omg. and when i was at joseph's booth, just to say hi and see how his robot was doing, the rest gave me that weird stare and asked him if i was his girlfriend. dang, terrible man. terrible.
but at least this year's njrc was a pretty good one. i was laughing and laughing and was amazingly calm about everything.
ah well. i have to finish 2 chapters of amath from the 15 yr series by 2.30pm haha. so dead man. logarithms and trigonometry. haha ah well. bye, have a nice day =)
haha njrc is finally over. what can i say? well, we tried our best =) it's okay lar, ij will rock frs next year =D
all the sleepless nights are like haha unforgettable but miserable at the same time. and the sleepovers were fun haha. thanks click =) although we didn't really win anything in the end, we will still stick as one and i love you guys.
and i will never forget my fellow programmers. mag, liz, velda and julienne. it was sure fun with mag around. but we never got our top challenge (some lame game mag invented). yeah... haha and when varen followed val to school and was playing with zhenxiao. haha that was super adorable.
cheering didnt turn out well yest. the other schools were such a racket that we couldnt project our voices well. yeah i kinda lost my voice temporarily. gerri's was like really bad by the second cheer. thats how hard we were trying. i think we still have a lot of magazines to clear in school. omg =.=
yeah it was bad yest. well in the afternoon. so edmund and joseph were nice to hang out with me at macs. yeah was having a lot of fun chatting with them. i kinda cheered up a little with all that laughing. yeah... then edmund and i were walking about the science centre exhibits and stuff until lester called, and we went out. joseph was arm wrestling with someone else so he didnt come along.. haha dang. and the three of us actually agreed to go to the water works and try that squirt thing. dont know lar... it's some question thing and when you open the box to find the answer, water comes at you and yeah there's this laughter coming out of it. haha freaky right? haha it's dumb but yeah, wanted to see it. ah well, next year then, at frs haha.
i guess my day really got better all of a sudden. and yeah, it did haha.
hahaha omg friday was super amusing. okay although i got blasted at in the morning, yeah, it was much better later on. haha i was at the science centre in the afternoon. then was talking to jin wei, and he was telling me about his encounter with stef. yeah... haha because SAS has this team called flush, so jinwei actually bought this toilet bowl and like added wheels to it, so that it can move around. he made it last year for njrc. so then he was sitting on it, like selling shirts. all the shirts are in the toilet bowl. so stef wanted to buy a tshirt. then he took the shirt from underneath and haha stef literally jump backwards and had that omg face, her signature face. yeah it must have been really stupid haha. yeah and omg. zhonghan and jinwei were like sharing the toilet bowl lar. if you get what i mean. just that jinwei got tired and sat on it. then zhonghan got tired and sat on it too. but it looked wrong lar. and i was standing next to them. haha it was hilarious.. seriously.
it's like rah. when i talk to jinwei, his juniors will start thinking i'm either his girlfriend or his sister. haha omg. and when i was at joseph's booth, just to say hi and see how his robot was doing, the rest gave me that weird stare and asked him if i was his girlfriend. dang, terrible man. terrible.
but at least this year's njrc was a pretty good one. i was laughing and laughing and was amazingly calm about everything.
ah well. i have to finish 2 chapters of amath from the 15 yr series by 2.30pm haha. so dead man. logarithms and trigonometry. haha ah well. bye, have a nice day =)
Thursday, August 31, 2006
[everglow.]
teachers' day. haha being the usual me, i slept through mass -.- according to savie, i was in a very "nice" postition. try sitting cross-legged and then resting your head on your knee, all the way down, on your knee... haha.. yeah was rudely awaken and turned off when one of the items included some sec 1s dancing and supposedly singing to the song bop to the top from the high school musical soundtrack because it sounded and looked really bad. there was a rock band too. yeah the bass and the drums rocked but the lead singer was like errr. and savie said she formed a band with jaslyn, jac and lijin, i was shocked and was in awe at the same time. haha i trust they will do a better job haha.
yeah savie was here for like 3 hours, playing games. ahaha then we played a little nfs. haha damn fun damn fun.
omg i have so many new stuff this week. new webcam, new microphone, and YAY a new bluetooth headset. yeah. haha rahhhh.
finally had my sleep yest. yes after surviving a week or more on just a few hours of sleep. yeah...
the seniors were back today. haha it was great seeing them again. debby has a new pair of specs that looked really nice. black and white. she happened to be wearing this jersey that was white with black stripes under the ij pinafore, so they looked so compatible haha. glory looked so much cuter haha, for some reason, she did. haha. all in all, they havent really changed much since the last time i saw them. yeah... so only anne marie, suhui, debby, glory and novita came... denise had school and clarissa had some rehearsal. haha. i miss them a lot actually. ever since they graduated, i guess arc would have been a little empty without them around, telling lame jokes and laughing together with them. i cant wait to see denise again, although i just met up with her like 3 mths ago. hope she's doing okay at lasalle.
mag and i had to clean the water today. okay maybe not clean, but change it. haha i can only tell you, dustpans and pails... they dont go as a pair. haha we were stupidly scooping the water out with two pails. but when the water's too shallow, try clearing the water with a pail? haha so on of the school's cleaners walk past and was like "use a dustpan!" haha so we did. guess it helped. but mag broke one of them. haha that was hilarious! she broke the handle and it was damn funny. so i dont know what she did in the end lar... she was the one who returned the dustpans to the classrooms. then because i was afraid of the pails, i didnt dare touch them. so yeah we had to carry them back. mag accidentally dropped the pail in front of me, because i failed to catch it properly and haha some of the water got onto my leg. i was like "OMG! RAH!" haha seriously... i kept saying "this is rahness man, RAHNESS" the entire time. haha
i just found out i actually speak like this
"wah lau eh how can like that?!"
haha yes, thanks to savie. because we were wathcing united 93 at my place earlier. then if you know the story, it's about thie plane hijacked on september 11, yeah the september 11 incident. so yeah 4 planes were supposed to hit the world trade centre, but only 3 did. 1 into the north tower, 1 into the south tower and the third into the pentagon. the 4th plane, united airline 93, didnt crash into the world trade centre because the passengers worked together to fight the hijackers (terrorists) and the plane crashed somewhere else, like in this field. so before the passengers decided to make phone calls to their family members to like tell them they were hijacked. some said their last goodbyes while some told their loved ones what was happening on the plane and to report it to the authorities. so i asked savie "haha savie, if you were one of the passengers making the phone call, who would you call?" she refused to answer the question! RAHH haha -.- so yeah... it's a good question. who would you call? who would you call to say your last goodbyes and stuff, when you had prolly only that one phonecall?
haha then we were talking about the ones who received the calls, basically the wives of those married and the mothers of the ones who were single. she said, "i will just die man!" i said, "omg, i dont know man, i will die too. never had such an exp" so she said, "haha you will be like "wah lau eh, how can like that?!"" haha i really didnt know i speak like that! haha dang. this is DANGNESS.
but yeah, united 93 is a sad movie. because it was like a dedication to the passengers of united airlines 93, that crashed on the september 11, 2002. yeah. thanks to the passengers who decided to do their very best to take control of the plane from the hijackers, they saved many other americans who could have been affected if united airlines 93 hit the world trade centre. but they sacrificed their lives. and most of them were like dads and moms. their kids werent even primary 1 yet. some of their kids were new-borns. i feel for them. but what i liked about them is that although they were complete strangers, they could still work together to defeat the hijackers. haha but they were protecting their own lives! haha who cares? if you were up there, would you have the courage to try to beat a man with a C3 bomb wrapped around his waist with a few other passengers and flight attendants?
gaya just called and reminded me about tomorrow's meeting. rah i still havent done my research since i had so much stuff to do this week. so it might mean a sleepless night again tonight. i have to try to finish my holiday homework asap before i will never get the chance to.
teachers' day. haha being the usual me, i slept through mass -.- according to savie, i was in a very "nice" postition. try sitting cross-legged and then resting your head on your knee, all the way down, on your knee... haha.. yeah was rudely awaken and turned off when one of the items included some sec 1s dancing and supposedly singing to the song bop to the top from the high school musical soundtrack because it sounded and looked really bad. there was a rock band too. yeah the bass and the drums rocked but the lead singer was like errr. and savie said she formed a band with jaslyn, jac and lijin, i was shocked and was in awe at the same time. haha i trust they will do a better job haha.
yeah savie was here for like 3 hours, playing games. ahaha then we played a little nfs. haha damn fun damn fun.
omg i have so many new stuff this week. new webcam, new microphone, and YAY a new bluetooth headset. yeah. haha rahhhh.
finally had my sleep yest. yes after surviving a week or more on just a few hours of sleep. yeah...
the seniors were back today. haha it was great seeing them again. debby has a new pair of specs that looked really nice. black and white. she happened to be wearing this jersey that was white with black stripes under the ij pinafore, so they looked so compatible haha. glory looked so much cuter haha, for some reason, she did. haha. all in all, they havent really changed much since the last time i saw them. yeah... so only anne marie, suhui, debby, glory and novita came... denise had school and clarissa had some rehearsal. haha. i miss them a lot actually. ever since they graduated, i guess arc would have been a little empty without them around, telling lame jokes and laughing together with them. i cant wait to see denise again, although i just met up with her like 3 mths ago. hope she's doing okay at lasalle.
mag and i had to clean the water today. okay maybe not clean, but change it. haha i can only tell you, dustpans and pails... they dont go as a pair. haha we were stupidly scooping the water out with two pails. but when the water's too shallow, try clearing the water with a pail? haha so on of the school's cleaners walk past and was like "use a dustpan!" haha so we did. guess it helped. but mag broke one of them. haha that was hilarious! she broke the handle and it was damn funny. so i dont know what she did in the end lar... she was the one who returned the dustpans to the classrooms. then because i was afraid of the pails, i didnt dare touch them. so yeah we had to carry them back. mag accidentally dropped the pail in front of me, because i failed to catch it properly and haha some of the water got onto my leg. i was like "OMG! RAH!" haha seriously... i kept saying "this is rahness man, RAHNESS" the entire time. haha
i just found out i actually speak like this
"wah lau eh how can like that?!"
haha yes, thanks to savie. because we were wathcing united 93 at my place earlier. then if you know the story, it's about thie plane hijacked on september 11, yeah the september 11 incident. so yeah 4 planes were supposed to hit the world trade centre, but only 3 did. 1 into the north tower, 1 into the south tower and the third into the pentagon. the 4th plane, united airline 93, didnt crash into the world trade centre because the passengers worked together to fight the hijackers (terrorists) and the plane crashed somewhere else, like in this field. so before the passengers decided to make phone calls to their family members to like tell them they were hijacked. some said their last goodbyes while some told their loved ones what was happening on the plane and to report it to the authorities. so i asked savie "haha savie, if you were one of the passengers making the phone call, who would you call?" she refused to answer the question! RAHH haha -.- so yeah... it's a good question. who would you call? who would you call to say your last goodbyes and stuff, when you had prolly only that one phonecall?
haha then we were talking about the ones who received the calls, basically the wives of those married and the mothers of the ones who were single. she said, "i will just die man!" i said, "omg, i dont know man, i will die too. never had such an exp" so she said, "haha you will be like "wah lau eh, how can like that?!"" haha i really didnt know i speak like that! haha dang. this is DANGNESS.
but yeah, united 93 is a sad movie. because it was like a dedication to the passengers of united airlines 93, that crashed on the september 11, 2002. yeah. thanks to the passengers who decided to do their very best to take control of the plane from the hijackers, they saved many other americans who could have been affected if united airlines 93 hit the world trade centre. but they sacrificed their lives. and most of them were like dads and moms. their kids werent even primary 1 yet. some of their kids were new-borns. i feel for them. but what i liked about them is that although they were complete strangers, they could still work together to defeat the hijackers. haha but they were protecting their own lives! haha who cares? if you were up there, would you have the courage to try to beat a man with a C3 bomb wrapped around his waist with a few other passengers and flight attendants?
gaya just called and reminded me about tomorrow's meeting. rah i still havent done my research since i had so much stuff to do this week. so it might mean a sleepless night again tonight. i have to try to finish my holiday homework asap before i will never get the chance to.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
[fish for sale. buy them. sell them.]
sigh. what am i to do with you man. stop harping on unnecessary things that upset you. i would really like to know what your purpose was when you said i had to read your blog. was that entire entry supposed to be pointing fingers at me as well? hmm i really wonder. i choose not to ask, neither am i gonna do anything to force the truth outta you. you feel they think alike, but thats cause they're only looking at it from your perspective, how can they understand they whole situation when they're being biased? well, if it's not about me, as an outsider, i really think you shouldnt think so self-centeredly. i mean yeah i know they said stuff to hurt you, but what good can you make out of it if you's so easily hurt by what they say when you know it's untrue, unless whoever that said that meant a lot to you. well, if he or she does, i have nothing to say.
i would love to say that i'm gonna die soon. yes i am. haha the workload is crazy and i feel lazy doing it. haha i think the rest are just feeling damn tired as well. but just gotta bear with it for another few weeks, and once it's finally over, we shall rejoice.
dont look at the negative side of everything, but instead believe something good will happen. i really felt like strangling her when she said she would rather think negatively. why give up on hope when it's just placed right in front of you. pointless right? dont think the world revolves around you. you think everthing depends on the two of you. think about it, without the rest, what would have happened. it would be obvious. everything will seriously crumble. why not turn other people's weaknesses into strengths? will it really kill to try? i doubt it will. and i dont see why you even deserve to complain about the lack of teamwork, because you're in no position to complain when you're not even willing to accept the rest for who they are and then go on about their weaknesses.
i'm sorry about the ranting. i just couldnt stand watching some people go on with their lives thinking they're always right.
i shall try to talk about happy stuff. haha i can never stop about how gerri and zong rock. haha yeah they're great equalites. both of them are so damn cute and i think i'm really lucky to have them as classmates and fellow equalites. although many people seem to dislike gerri for her insensitivity and her loudness, i still think it's perfectly fine with me. others call her the bitch or the irritating one, but to me, she is a good friend. because not everyone else knows her as well as a few of us do. haha because other than being a loud-mouth and insensitive, she's quite gentle and not mean like how other people look at her. haha thats why she's a great friend. it isnt that bad hanging out with her. really.
as for zong. yeah she can be really cute at times. haha sometimes she forgets stuff, just like liz, but she can be a great friend to talk to, and thats why i love her too. her bubbly chracter just cracks you up. haha she has great friends like lynette and cel, and she's really lucky to have them with her. haha.
haha dont ask what happened to me, because i seriously dont know.
ah well. there's still work.. gtg! bye!
sigh. what am i to do with you man. stop harping on unnecessary things that upset you. i would really like to know what your purpose was when you said i had to read your blog. was that entire entry supposed to be pointing fingers at me as well? hmm i really wonder. i choose not to ask, neither am i gonna do anything to force the truth outta you. you feel they think alike, but thats cause they're only looking at it from your perspective, how can they understand they whole situation when they're being biased? well, if it's not about me, as an outsider, i really think you shouldnt think so self-centeredly. i mean yeah i know they said stuff to hurt you, but what good can you make out of it if you's so easily hurt by what they say when you know it's untrue, unless whoever that said that meant a lot to you. well, if he or she does, i have nothing to say.
i would love to say that i'm gonna die soon. yes i am. haha the workload is crazy and i feel lazy doing it. haha i think the rest are just feeling damn tired as well. but just gotta bear with it for another few weeks, and once it's finally over, we shall rejoice.
dont look at the negative side of everything, but instead believe something good will happen. i really felt like strangling her when she said she would rather think negatively. why give up on hope when it's just placed right in front of you. pointless right? dont think the world revolves around you. you think everthing depends on the two of you. think about it, without the rest, what would have happened. it would be obvious. everything will seriously crumble. why not turn other people's weaknesses into strengths? will it really kill to try? i doubt it will. and i dont see why you even deserve to complain about the lack of teamwork, because you're in no position to complain when you're not even willing to accept the rest for who they are and then go on about their weaknesses.
i'm sorry about the ranting. i just couldnt stand watching some people go on with their lives thinking they're always right.
i shall try to talk about happy stuff. haha i can never stop about how gerri and zong rock. haha yeah they're great equalites. both of them are so damn cute and i think i'm really lucky to have them as classmates and fellow equalites. although many people seem to dislike gerri for her insensitivity and her loudness, i still think it's perfectly fine with me. others call her the bitch or the irritating one, but to me, she is a good friend. because not everyone else knows her as well as a few of us do. haha because other than being a loud-mouth and insensitive, she's quite gentle and not mean like how other people look at her. haha thats why she's a great friend. it isnt that bad hanging out with her. really.
as for zong. yeah she can be really cute at times. haha sometimes she forgets stuff, just like liz, but she can be a great friend to talk to, and thats why i love her too. her bubbly chracter just cracks you up. haha she has great friends like lynette and cel, and she's really lucky to have them with her. haha.
haha dont ask what happened to me, because i seriously dont know.
ah well. there's still work.. gtg! bye!
Friday, August 25, 2006
[...]
RAHHHHHH!
they're leaving... tomorrow. or rather today
yeah.. really gonna miss them man. it was super fun bringing them out to shop, playing with them at sentosa and having them come over to ij and stuff. yeah they're gonna leave in the morning. haha i'll never forget this week's assembly. when everyone was so shocked to know chris was 15. HAHA. it was hilarious. actually i didnt know it as well. thought he was gina or dom's age, like 18 or 19?
staying up tonight man. yeah lots to do lar. rah. i haven't been sleeping much which yeah drains a lot outta me.
to all who are staying up: JIAYOU! be it njrc or not, let's get stuff done tonight! haha ah well.
RAHHHHHH!
they're leaving... tomorrow. or rather today
yeah.. really gonna miss them man. it was super fun bringing them out to shop, playing with them at sentosa and having them come over to ij and stuff. yeah they're gonna leave in the morning. haha i'll never forget this week's assembly. when everyone was so shocked to know chris was 15. HAHA. it was hilarious. actually i didnt know it as well. thought he was gina or dom's age, like 18 or 19?
staying up tonight man. yeah lots to do lar. rah. i haven't been sleeping much which yeah drains a lot outta me.
to all who are staying up: JIAYOU! be it njrc or not, let's get stuff done tonight! haha ah well.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
[i will never let you fall.]
yeah, i'm really tired.
haha fell ill since i dont know when. when was the last time i hvnt gone to school because i fell sick? haha that would be... sec 1? yeah... and i dont think i'll get any better soon enough.
sorry to worry my classmates because of today, when my face was extremely red and i looked as though i was gonna collapse any moment.
lots of work to do, but i'm feeling very sleepy. no dont ask me to take a nap, it's a bad idea although i do think i need it now.
haha i just thought of something to say, but then i forgot. my mind is so screwed up today. simply cant absorb anything and always forgetting things like a minute later. yeah having the memory of a goldfish now, so if i give you that blur look, you know what happened. memory got erased.
i didnt think missing out one day of school would be that bad. i seriously missed out on a lot of details just cause i didnt go to school yest. and i didnt think it would be that obvious i didnt come to school because i came to school this morning and everyone started asking what happened to me, as though i'm the kid who goes to school everyday without fail.
i was reminded of my bad experiences in K1 and 2. then last year, when val sabotaged me and some kranji guy started to take out his stupid camera and snapped photos, rah, scary lar. i cant believe i actually still remember all that happened.
haha i feel much better now i guess, much more awake. i shall learn to hang on for a while more until everything is over. yeap. when everything is over, i shall............. do whatever i want. haha go out and seriously have fun. yeah maybe i'll do that. haha
i still have lots of math homework. yeah. haha piles of homework just dumped in front of me man. plus all my yada. i have to do things step by step. clear all that yada first lar!
haha because team 341 arrived in sg, i guess my schedule was screwed up man. haha have to reorganise already... haha well in the first place, i'm not that organised haha! so yeah... lots of projects. english and geog. gotta catch up on math as well. i really wonder how much i missed in a day. this is bad, really bad. yeah. rah... after i clear my IN box, and filled up my OUT box (if you understand my retardednessa nd lameness, then good), i can feel accomplished. haha.
i guess no experiment this week =( haha shall wait then, when i have practical next year. haha yeah i really enjoyed myself playing around with khym, playing with the indicators. haha we are just being boliao okay...
chrys isnt gonna be around for the rest of the week. no one to really talk to during math and history. this is rah-ness. yeah she's off to hwa chong institution for some eldds stuff. some sabaticals IMUN thing.. no idea but when she showed me the schedule, i was like "WTH, what is this man" yeah all the policies and stuff, my gosh. since i didnt go to school yest, i dont know man... but math today was a sleepy one indeed. i had no idea what i was doing. was doing some pair work with angie since she decided to sit next to me. yeah some properties of angles worksheet. so when both of us were trying to solve the questions, i was like on my way to lala land. if i remember correctly, after emath, i was still lying there like a corpse when ms krishna came in then was like touching my arm and kinda said something like "aiyoh sleepy sleepy" or something to that effect. WELL something about me sleeping. it was really bad lar... everyone was urging me to go home after school and gave painful expressions when they asked if i was okay. sorry guys... shar was like "nana you wanna go to the sick bay and sleep there?" haha i remember the last time i ended up there, that was like a month ago due to my sprained neck, getting out of the sick bay was difficult because shar wouldnt want to go back to class and i was her excuse to skip classes. yeah i missed out the entire introduction of temperature that day, because i missed physics.
on a brighter note, i guess i'm feeling much better. just that i look so zombified now due to the fatigue and yeah i'm still not that well yet. hope i dont come down with another fever soon lar. because i dont want to.
ah well, i shall go do my work then. if i dont start, i will seriously die later lar... and i think i'll have another sleepless night tonight. yeah, take care and bye!
yeah, i'm really tired.
haha fell ill since i dont know when. when was the last time i hvnt gone to school because i fell sick? haha that would be... sec 1? yeah... and i dont think i'll get any better soon enough.
sorry to worry my classmates because of today, when my face was extremely red and i looked as though i was gonna collapse any moment.
lots of work to do, but i'm feeling very sleepy. no dont ask me to take a nap, it's a bad idea although i do think i need it now.
haha i just thought of something to say, but then i forgot. my mind is so screwed up today. simply cant absorb anything and always forgetting things like a minute later. yeah having the memory of a goldfish now, so if i give you that blur look, you know what happened. memory got erased.
i didnt think missing out one day of school would be that bad. i seriously missed out on a lot of details just cause i didnt go to school yest. and i didnt think it would be that obvious i didnt come to school because i came to school this morning and everyone started asking what happened to me, as though i'm the kid who goes to school everyday without fail.
i was reminded of my bad experiences in K1 and 2. then last year, when val sabotaged me and some kranji guy started to take out his stupid camera and snapped photos, rah, scary lar. i cant believe i actually still remember all that happened.
haha i feel much better now i guess, much more awake. i shall learn to hang on for a while more until everything is over. yeap. when everything is over, i shall............. do whatever i want. haha go out and seriously have fun. yeah maybe i'll do that. haha
i still have lots of math homework. yeah. haha piles of homework just dumped in front of me man. plus all my yada. i have to do things step by step. clear all that yada first lar!
haha because team 341 arrived in sg, i guess my schedule was screwed up man. haha have to reorganise already... haha well in the first place, i'm not that organised haha! so yeah... lots of projects. english and geog. gotta catch up on math as well. i really wonder how much i missed in a day. this is bad, really bad. yeah. rah... after i clear my IN box, and filled up my OUT box (if you understand my retardednessa nd lameness, then good), i can feel accomplished. haha.
i guess no experiment this week =( haha shall wait then, when i have practical next year. haha yeah i really enjoyed myself playing around with khym, playing with the indicators. haha we are just being boliao okay...
chrys isnt gonna be around for the rest of the week. no one to really talk to during math and history. this is rah-ness. yeah she's off to hwa chong institution for some eldds stuff. some sabaticals IMUN thing.. no idea but when she showed me the schedule, i was like "WTH, what is this man" yeah all the policies and stuff, my gosh. since i didnt go to school yest, i dont know man... but math today was a sleepy one indeed. i had no idea what i was doing. was doing some pair work with angie since she decided to sit next to me. yeah some properties of angles worksheet. so when both of us were trying to solve the questions, i was like on my way to lala land. if i remember correctly, after emath, i was still lying there like a corpse when ms krishna came in then was like touching my arm and kinda said something like "aiyoh sleepy sleepy" or something to that effect. WELL something about me sleeping. it was really bad lar... everyone was urging me to go home after school and gave painful expressions when they asked if i was okay. sorry guys... shar was like "nana you wanna go to the sick bay and sleep there?" haha i remember the last time i ended up there, that was like a month ago due to my sprained neck, getting out of the sick bay was difficult because shar wouldnt want to go back to class and i was her excuse to skip classes. yeah i missed out the entire introduction of temperature that day, because i missed physics.
on a brighter note, i guess i'm feeling much better. just that i look so zombified now due to the fatigue and yeah i'm still not that well yet. hope i dont come down with another fever soon lar. because i dont want to.
ah well, i shall go do my work then. if i dont start, i will seriously die later lar... and i think i'll have another sleepless night tonight. yeah, take care and bye!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
[here without you.]
bad day. rah.
got locked out with a few other people because we were late for english. yeah then ms chow finally came out and said "act 1 finished, please come in" okay i dont know what all that act 1 was about.
haha on a brighter note, we had such an enjoyable chem lesson. haha i tell you, when your lab partner is khym, you'll have the time of your life. yeah. we were mixing potassium hydroxide with nitric acid and added methyl orange to it. yeah playing around with chemicals haha. that was after we done the experiment okay. so yeah. when mrs how was like telling us what to do and stuff, like doing a demo. haha so everything had to be cleaned. the burette, pipette, conical flasks, beakers and all. haha everyone was really thinking dirty. the burette looks really weird and the pipette filler really sounds damn gross man. haha zong was the one who was just.. haha bad. so the whole class was just hmm, laughing too. and it was really fun lar. titration right, so i couldnt get the right colour when khym got it at her first attempt. i did it three times, and i could never get the colour until the 4th attempt, what the hell. so then we had so much excess nitric acid and potassium hydroxide we played around with it. added lots of methyl orange to the nitric acid so it'll be red then added potassium hydroxide to change it's colour. what really fascinated khym was the change. haha it was so PRETTY haha. but yeah, last week's chem experiment was fun too, the bunsen burner and all, haha my gosh, it was damn fun making fun of everything. guess there's one more experiment next week. HAHA
haha i havent stopped chatting since 8.30pm... after a long nap man. just woke up to find myself flooded with messages. so was just there chatting with everyone for more than two hours. haha. and not to mention i found so many tags
i shall give reasons as to why chrystal shall smile on the webcam although she still looks really good being super dao on webcam.
1. she looks really sweet when she's smiling
2. she should smile for us! haha
3. she looks sane smiling, really. haha
haha i cant think of any...
ah well ots of work.. since i took a long nap! bye! have a nice day.
bad day. rah.
got locked out with a few other people because we were late for english. yeah then ms chow finally came out and said "act 1 finished, please come in" okay i dont know what all that act 1 was about.
haha on a brighter note, we had such an enjoyable chem lesson. haha i tell you, when your lab partner is khym, you'll have the time of your life. yeah. we were mixing potassium hydroxide with nitric acid and added methyl orange to it. yeah playing around with chemicals haha. that was after we done the experiment okay. so yeah. when mrs how was like telling us what to do and stuff, like doing a demo. haha so everything had to be cleaned. the burette, pipette, conical flasks, beakers and all. haha everyone was really thinking dirty. the burette looks really weird and the pipette filler really sounds damn gross man. haha zong was the one who was just.. haha bad. so the whole class was just hmm, laughing too. and it was really fun lar. titration right, so i couldnt get the right colour when khym got it at her first attempt. i did it three times, and i could never get the colour until the 4th attempt, what the hell. so then we had so much excess nitric acid and potassium hydroxide we played around with it. added lots of methyl orange to the nitric acid so it'll be red then added potassium hydroxide to change it's colour. what really fascinated khym was the change. haha it was so PRETTY haha. but yeah, last week's chem experiment was fun too, the bunsen burner and all, haha my gosh, it was damn fun making fun of everything. guess there's one more experiment next week. HAHA
haha i havent stopped chatting since 8.30pm... after a long nap man. just woke up to find myself flooded with messages. so was just there chatting with everyone for more than two hours. haha. and not to mention i found so many tags
i shall give reasons as to why chrystal shall smile on the webcam although she still looks really good being super dao on webcam.
1. she looks really sweet when she's smiling
2. she should smile for us! haha
3. she looks sane smiling, really. haha
haha i cant think of any...
ah well ots of work.. since i took a long nap! bye! have a nice day.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
[painted skies.]
i'm too disappointed to go to school tomorrow.. i'm sorry. i dont want to, but in the end, i still have to.
don't sound as though you really do know me when you don't. there are a lot of things yall just don't know, so don't assume you know me that well. for the past 2 years, i have blindly given in to you people. sometimes i know yall just take it for granted but since when did i ever stop lending yall a hand? i'm doing all these because i like all of you as my friends and i do treasure yall a lot. you can say i'm being totally selfish whatsoever, but the least you could ever do was to stop thinking you're in the right all the time.
i'm hell disappointed now okay? in yall. i could easily forget the last time, but please lar, don't go too far. i can easily forgive what you did, despite my disappointment, but you need to stop thinking that you can say whatever you want.
i will get over it soon. yes i will. i just need some time for me to stop feeling disappointed and upset. after 2 damn years, do you really think i'm someone like that? sheesh. i don't wanna go to school because of this.
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i shall stop with the angsty and angry stuff.
it's dom's birthday today. so lester and i met up in tp before asking dom out for lunch. yeap! we headed for orchard and ate at pepper lunch. it was lester's treat, dang. ex sia... haha hung around for a while, listening to them chat and left. dom went home since we had nothing to do... so yeah... lester and i headed back to tp, searched for his friend at the library, did some browsing at comics connection and then went to watch ant bully. haha well, the movie wasnt that bad i guess... then haha we went home.
yeah we saw this cat that haha fell in love with lester's bag. so we were like playing with it for a while then left. haha you should know how cats can be really attached to you once you're really nice to them right? so yeah.. that happened. it's was really cute lar. haha
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i shall try my best to forget what i heard... i shouldn't be wasting away being so upset over what happened lar. so yeah i will get over it. i must have that resolve. yeah thanks for listening. bye =)
i'm too disappointed to go to school tomorrow.. i'm sorry. i dont want to, but in the end, i still have to.
don't sound as though you really do know me when you don't. there are a lot of things yall just don't know, so don't assume you know me that well. for the past 2 years, i have blindly given in to you people. sometimes i know yall just take it for granted but since when did i ever stop lending yall a hand? i'm doing all these because i like all of you as my friends and i do treasure yall a lot. you can say i'm being totally selfish whatsoever, but the least you could ever do was to stop thinking you're in the right all the time.
i'm hell disappointed now okay? in yall. i could easily forget the last time, but please lar, don't go too far. i can easily forgive what you did, despite my disappointment, but you need to stop thinking that you can say whatever you want.
i will get over it soon. yes i will. i just need some time for me to stop feeling disappointed and upset. after 2 damn years, do you really think i'm someone like that? sheesh. i don't wanna go to school because of this.
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i shall stop with the angsty and angry stuff.
it's dom's birthday today. so lester and i met up in tp before asking dom out for lunch. yeap! we headed for orchard and ate at pepper lunch. it was lester's treat, dang. ex sia... haha hung around for a while, listening to them chat and left. dom went home since we had nothing to do... so yeah... lester and i headed back to tp, searched for his friend at the library, did some browsing at comics connection and then went to watch ant bully. haha well, the movie wasnt that bad i guess... then haha we went home.
yeah we saw this cat that haha fell in love with lester's bag. so we were like playing with it for a while then left. haha you should know how cats can be really attached to you once you're really nice to them right? so yeah.. that happened. it's was really cute lar. haha
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i shall try my best to forget what i heard... i shouldn't be wasting away being so upset over what happened lar. so yeah i will get over it. i must have that resolve. yeah thanks for listening. bye =)
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
[something.]
something you work so hard for just slips away, into the hands of the unintended.
was so drained for the entire day. spent the entire night doing some work, resulting in my fatigue in the day. yeah. and yeah i got the cough. i have no idea how. i just did. so i was feeling tired and sickly. RAH. not the time for this, really not the time for this.
i was on the train from admiralty to tp, and i was dozing off... standing. so i kept having the tendency of falling each time my legs almost gave way. i was carrying so much stuff, that just made me feel worse. yeah julienne spotted gina when we were heading to admiralty for bubble tea. well, guess gina was heading home. so yeah, just saw her for that split second. hmmm, it was just different seeing her again after a month later. well when was the last time i saw her? her birthday party. yeah more than a month ago. so yeah... things did change and all of us have so much blah blah going on, absolutely no time. plus the recent incident, i seriously dont know.
the amazing thing that happened yesterday was the fact that my webcam works but my microphone doesnt. yeah havent used the webcam in like ages i guess.....
the sudden pile of homework was enough to shock all of us. well, for the past week or so, there hasnt been much homework and yeah... i still have math and geog.
i actually did pretty well for my emath test, AMAZINGLY. yeah..
so much to do in that short period of time, yeah taht feeling really does suck. and the school just made the upper sec go to school at the end of term 4 for an extra 3 weeks.
am i irritating? please say so if i am. i know i asked this question many times and i get the same answer, but yeah, really, am i irritating and annoying?
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nice song...
The Acoustic Song - the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
ill be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Cause you're my
you're my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay...
Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know ill be okay
though my skies are turning gray.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
(repeat)
something you work so hard for just slips away, into the hands of the unintended.
was so drained for the entire day. spent the entire night doing some work, resulting in my fatigue in the day. yeah. and yeah i got the cough. i have no idea how. i just did. so i was feeling tired and sickly. RAH. not the time for this, really not the time for this.
i was on the train from admiralty to tp, and i was dozing off... standing. so i kept having the tendency of falling each time my legs almost gave way. i was carrying so much stuff, that just made me feel worse. yeah julienne spotted gina when we were heading to admiralty for bubble tea. well, guess gina was heading home. so yeah, just saw her for that split second. hmmm, it was just different seeing her again after a month later. well when was the last time i saw her? her birthday party. yeah more than a month ago. so yeah... things did change and all of us have so much blah blah going on, absolutely no time. plus the recent incident, i seriously dont know.
the amazing thing that happened yesterday was the fact that my webcam works but my microphone doesnt. yeah havent used the webcam in like ages i guess.....
the sudden pile of homework was enough to shock all of us. well, for the past week or so, there hasnt been much homework and yeah... i still have math and geog.
i actually did pretty well for my emath test, AMAZINGLY. yeah..
so much to do in that short period of time, yeah taht feeling really does suck. and the school just made the upper sec go to school at the end of term 4 for an extra 3 weeks.
am i irritating? please say so if i am. i know i asked this question many times and i get the same answer, but yeah, really, am i irritating and annoying?
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nice song...
The Acoustic Song - the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
ill be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Cause you're my
you're my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay...
Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know ill be okay
though my skies are turning gray.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
(repeat)
Monday, August 14, 2006
[conducive environment.]
we are finally back in J405 man. haha adeline tay's foot got better so we're finally back in the air-conditioned classroom for chinese. yeah so i guess the class would be looking forward to our chinese lessons and stuff. yeah and we have eskimos in our class. after switching on the air-conditioners, they still wanted the fans. haha weird people. the air conditioners make the classroom a conducive place to take a snooze. haha
speaking of which. because of the netball carnival, so many people sprained their feet, broke their fingers, hurt their wrists, etc. yeah i cant think of what other injuries were sustained on that day itself. so our entire geog and chinese class had to go all the way down to the needlework room that's on the ground floor because adeline tay couldnt get around easily. so yeah.... i've been spending all my geog and chinese classes downstairs. not that i actually enjoy it when my locker and my other classes are actually on the 3rd and 4th floors, i have to walk ALL the way down to the ground floor and back up. wastes time and yeah i was late for geog once because of that. and when we got back to school after the june holidays, we started having lessons in the needlework room when the school just installed the air conditioners into the chinese classrooms. so yeah, we did groan and complain about it at first, but soon got over everything and yeah we're finally back in J405! haha
the world cyber games seriously kept me occupied. haha i didnt play , mind you. i'm too lousy lar. haha. so anyway spent the entire day at suntec, playing games with people and watching lar. yeah the dota match yest was simply exciting, although i didn't like dota, because yes i cant play it for nuts, but it was simply too exciting. was there for a couple of hours on saturday as well. haha felt so malu on saturday lar. because i got there at the start of a dota match between sg team zenith and philippines team 129. i was wearing my zenith team shirt from last year. so the people standing behind me prolly saw it. rah. but i didnt really care in the end and still stuck around for that one hour plus.
so i was at suntec with zong, just yesterday lar. but she left early, and we had starbucks. i dont think i can ever learn how to enjoy coffee. so then i stuck around alone for another 4 hours. it was the last dota match between sg team Mi2 and thai team Lz. well, Mi2 won, so they were champs for dota. Lz second and zenith third. and i was playing fifa with this guy. we continued someone else's paused game. i should have chosen player 2 lar..... because the country i took was france (okay not too bad lar) so the other guy who was playing with me had germany. so i lost to him!!! 1-2. greatness... then played pgr with this other guy, lost too. haha. and i only found out this morning that jaslyn was there okay! all evening. haha we're just not fated to bump into each other. but i sure hoped i met her there. if she told me she was gonna be there, then i would have joined her! HAHA!
when i see the programme on my desk, i suddenly feel damn tired lar. it's like adding something onto my list of things-to-do. yeah well, clear them one by one bah.
what happened to you lar. for some damn reason, you suddenly look so..... sad. and damn depressed. you're always in a world of your own, no one will know what you're thinking and what's wrong with you. i dare not ask if you're okay because it's just the same. so yeah, if i guessed it, then don't keep letting things like these bother you, because you're getting upset and worried when it isn't really your fault to begin with. your friends dont want to see you like that, no one would anyway, unless there's this person out there who hates you, which i highly doubt. i know you're worried about other people's issues and stuff. not as if i dont understand, but yeah, try your best to not let it get to you.
after last night, i kinda understood a lot. seriously... what have i been doing with myself?
on a random note, i feel the urge to listen to corrinne may. haha
to love or to hate? i guess some already know i have this friend of mine, that prolly hates me to the core. yeah, and because of that, i cannot stand her freaking attitude when she can insult everyone without realising it. believe me, i'm one of her victimes who was verbally abused and her words come out of her mouth without being processed through her brain. yeah basically, she can be full of bs and crap. thats why i hated her because of that stuck up attitude she has. yeah but i'm trying hard to forgive everything she did and yes i'm still trying. so many FAs already... i'm sorry i cant forgive and forget what she did so easily, because each time i think about trying hard, i'm just reminded of what she did, RAH thats wht whole point of forgiving and FORGETTING right? of course, i would still prefer to love than hate her.
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this song is far too cute. haha get the lyrics =) i like the first verse haha.
If I Kissed You - Corrinne May
If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Woud angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you
If I kissed you
What would Michaelangelo say
Would he still have sculpted David
Would we be immortalized in clay
Would the poets write of love like ours
Would John Donne have his say
If I kissed you
You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But I guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you
You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But I guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you
If I kissed you
Would you lose track of time
Would you feel a surge of happiness
Running up your spine
Would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
If I kissed you.
Oh, if I kissed you
Yeah, if I kissed you
we are finally back in J405 man. haha adeline tay's foot got better so we're finally back in the air-conditioned classroom for chinese. yeah so i guess the class would be looking forward to our chinese lessons and stuff. yeah and we have eskimos in our class. after switching on the air-conditioners, they still wanted the fans. haha weird people. the air conditioners make the classroom a conducive place to take a snooze. haha
speaking of which. because of the netball carnival, so many people sprained their feet, broke their fingers, hurt their wrists, etc. yeah i cant think of what other injuries were sustained on that day itself. so our entire geog and chinese class had to go all the way down to the needlework room that's on the ground floor because adeline tay couldnt get around easily. so yeah.... i've been spending all my geog and chinese classes downstairs. not that i actually enjoy it when my locker and my other classes are actually on the 3rd and 4th floors, i have to walk ALL the way down to the ground floor and back up. wastes time and yeah i was late for geog once because of that. and when we got back to school after the june holidays, we started having lessons in the needlework room when the school just installed the air conditioners into the chinese classrooms. so yeah, we did groan and complain about it at first, but soon got over everything and yeah we're finally back in J405! haha
the world cyber games seriously kept me occupied. haha i didnt play , mind you. i'm too lousy lar. haha. so anyway spent the entire day at suntec, playing games with people and watching lar. yeah the dota match yest was simply exciting, although i didn't like dota, because yes i cant play it for nuts, but it was simply too exciting. was there for a couple of hours on saturday as well. haha felt so malu on saturday lar. because i got there at the start of a dota match between sg team zenith and philippines team 129. i was wearing my zenith team shirt from last year. so the people standing behind me prolly saw it. rah. but i didnt really care in the end and still stuck around for that one hour plus.
so i was at suntec with zong, just yesterday lar. but she left early, and we had starbucks. i dont think i can ever learn how to enjoy coffee. so then i stuck around alone for another 4 hours. it was the last dota match between sg team Mi2 and thai team Lz. well, Mi2 won, so they were champs for dota. Lz second and zenith third. and i was playing fifa with this guy. we continued someone else's paused game. i should have chosen player 2 lar..... because the country i took was france (okay not too bad lar) so the other guy who was playing with me had germany. so i lost to him!!! 1-2. greatness... then played pgr with this other guy, lost too. haha. and i only found out this morning that jaslyn was there okay! all evening. haha we're just not fated to bump into each other. but i sure hoped i met her there. if she told me she was gonna be there, then i would have joined her! HAHA!
when i see the programme on my desk, i suddenly feel damn tired lar. it's like adding something onto my list of things-to-do. yeah well, clear them one by one bah.
what happened to you lar. for some damn reason, you suddenly look so..... sad. and damn depressed. you're always in a world of your own, no one will know what you're thinking and what's wrong with you. i dare not ask if you're okay because it's just the same. so yeah, if i guessed it, then don't keep letting things like these bother you, because you're getting upset and worried when it isn't really your fault to begin with. your friends dont want to see you like that, no one would anyway, unless there's this person out there who hates you, which i highly doubt. i know you're worried about other people's issues and stuff. not as if i dont understand, but yeah, try your best to not let it get to you.
after last night, i kinda understood a lot. seriously... what have i been doing with myself?
on a random note, i feel the urge to listen to corrinne may. haha
to love or to hate? i guess some already know i have this friend of mine, that prolly hates me to the core. yeah, and because of that, i cannot stand her freaking attitude when she can insult everyone without realising it. believe me, i'm one of her victimes who was verbally abused and her words come out of her mouth without being processed through her brain. yeah basically, she can be full of bs and crap. thats why i hated her because of that stuck up attitude she has. yeah but i'm trying hard to forgive everything she did and yes i'm still trying. so many FAs already... i'm sorry i cant forgive and forget what she did so easily, because each time i think about trying hard, i'm just reminded of what she did, RAH thats wht whole point of forgiving and FORGETTING right? of course, i would still prefer to love than hate her.
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this song is far too cute. haha get the lyrics =) i like the first verse haha.
If I Kissed You - Corrinne May
If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Woud angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you
If I kissed you
What would Michaelangelo say
Would he still have sculpted David
Would we be immortalized in clay
Would the poets write of love like ours
Would John Donne have his say
If I kissed you
You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But I guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you
You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But I guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you
If I kissed you
Would you lose track of time
Would you feel a surge of happiness
Running up your spine
Would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
If I kissed you.
Oh, if I kissed you
Yeah, if I kissed you
Sunday, August 13, 2006
[the quiz.]
mag's idea to do this thing. because she chose me to do it.
Name twenty people you can think of right now. Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose five people to do this.
1) Geraldine
2) Zong Ling
3) Magdalene
4) Elizabeth
5) Matilda
6) Dominic
7) Lester
8) Darren (aka Peihan)
9) Denise
10) Yi Qi
11) Marissa Yee
12) Esti
13) En Chou
14) Shawn
15) Debby
16) Savie (Savina)
17) Stefhani
18) Velda
19) Su Hui
20) Chrystal
How did you meet #14 (Shawn)?
Oh.. through a robotics competition this year in Jan.
What would you do if you didn't meet #1(Geraldine)?
haha no one will stay over at my place for no reason sometimes and no one will talk to me about stuff
What if #9 (Denise) and #20 (Chrystal) dated?
haha number 1, they're both girls
and number 2, they dont know each other
finally number 3, haha denise is my lao gong! =x haha for fun lar.
Would #6 (Dominic) and #17 (Stefhani) make a good couple?
OMG NO.
yes because of many reasons. omg, when i realised #6 and #17 are the both of them, i swear i was gonna laugh out loud.
Describe #3(Magdalene).
omg why is mag number 3????? haha change change! joking lar.
okay here it goes
MAGDALENE ARH! hmmm other than being the crappiest person other than dom,
she's nice lar. despite being one of the noisiest and big-mouthed people i know, she's one of my close friends lar. because we make a lot of noise together i guess. haha no guessing, it's a fact. haha =x oh mag is also a smart alec, believe me she is. and she gets worked up each time she starts to procrastinate. have you seen anyone procrastinate and get worked up about it at the same time? well mag's the first. haha she's a nice girl lar, and like what we all said, she'll be the first among the equalites to get a boyfriend. i still support that statement. haha
Is #8 (Darren aka Peihan) attractive?
haha he's my famine camp papa, so what am i supposed to say?
haha okay, i shall talk about the good qualities he possesses okay?
my famine camp papa is 18, amazingly, just 3 years older than me but he's damn fun to chat with. haha yeah he's like a dad to me, or prolly a big brother. and he is super funny. haha and a smart guy too. haha i dont know what to say about papa lar, but i just know that he's the kind of friend who you want to be friends with for life. yeah!
Describe #7 (Lester).
Lester?
hmm haha he's a great friend to start with. yeah, he's someone willing to listen, haha yeah. and yeap, he's super nice lar. he's always giving in to me and yeah he does really sweet things for all of his friends. Lester's a really busy guy, but yeah, he's never a slacker, never ever one. which is good!
Do you know any of #12 (Esti) family members?
YES. i know them and they know me! haha we were classmates since the day she stepped into ijm which is in P4. yeah classmates for 3 years and have been really good friends with her for about 6 years, so we all know each other.
What would you do if #18 (Velda) confess to you that she likes you?
haha well, what can i say?
Velda is like one of my really close juniors and i dote on her too.
but yeah, if she ever confesses to me, haha wouldnt be surprised i guess. HAHA!
What language does #15 (Debby) speak?
i'm asking her now... haha okay, she said English and Indonesian.
Who is #9 (Denise) going out with?
NO ONE LAR! she dare to have an affair behind my back. haha I'M JUST JOKING. DONT TAKE THAT SERIOUSLY. haha as far as i know, no one. but if she is, i'll kill her not because she's having an affair but because she didnt tell me!!!!
How old is #16 (Savie / Savina)?
sweet sixteen this year =)
When is the last time you spoke to #13 (En Chou)?
about an hour ago... we were playing minesweeper flags haha.
Who is #2's (Zong Ling) favourite band/singer?
haha wah... i know she loves Teddy Geiger.
well will ask her again when i see her... i know there's this long list, but i cant remember. haha
Would you ever date #4 (Elizabeth)?
haha hmmmm maybe i will. liz just asked me out on thursday but i rejected her. i know i'm evil. haha
Would you ever date #1 (Geraldine)?
haha if gerri hears this, she will instantly say no. well, not date, but go out lar. well, considered a date i guess.
Is #19 (Su Hui) single?
yeah! hahahahahaha and she's my idol. haha according to her. haha
What's #10's (Yi Qi) last name?
Yeong
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (Marissa)?
haha we're best friends since P6 :) we're just in different schools. call it long-distance friendship if you want haha.
School of #3 (Magdalene)?
CHIJ SECONDARY (TP) =)
Where does #6 (Dominic) live?
haha the east lar. i'm not going any further.
What's your fave thing about #5 (Matilda)?
hahahahahahah what can i say? hmmm well, i like Matilda for her cheerful being and her frankness. yeap! and she's super cute! haha yeah both looks and personality.
Have you seen #2(Zong Ling) naked before?
GAWD NO. WHAT KIND OF A FREAK QUESTION IS THAT?!
5 people to do this stupid thing:
Debby
Darren
Dominic
Yi Qi
Su Hui
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okay so there you have it. debby is starting to wonder why i asked her two really weird questions... hahahahahahahaha. good night people!
mag's idea to do this thing. because she chose me to do it.
Name twenty people you can think of right now. Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose five people to do this.
1) Geraldine
2) Zong Ling
3) Magdalene
4) Elizabeth
5) Matilda
6) Dominic
7) Lester
8) Darren (aka Peihan)
9) Denise
10) Yi Qi
11) Marissa Yee
12) Esti
13) En Chou
14) Shawn
15) Debby
16) Savie (Savina)
17) Stefhani
18) Velda
19) Su Hui
20) Chrystal
How did you meet #14 (Shawn)?
Oh.. through a robotics competition this year in Jan.
What would you do if you didn't meet #1(Geraldine)?
haha no one will stay over at my place for no reason sometimes and no one will talk to me about stuff
What if #9 (Denise) and #20 (Chrystal) dated?
haha number 1, they're both girls
and number 2, they dont know each other
finally number 3, haha denise is my lao gong! =x haha for fun lar.
Would #6 (Dominic) and #17 (Stefhani) make a good couple?
OMG NO.
yes because of many reasons. omg, when i realised #6 and #17 are the both of them, i swear i was gonna laugh out loud.
Describe #3(Magdalene).
omg why is mag number 3????? haha change change! joking lar.
okay here it goes
MAGDALENE ARH! hmmm other than being the crappiest person other than dom,
she's nice lar. despite being one of the noisiest and big-mouthed people i know, she's one of my close friends lar. because we make a lot of noise together i guess. haha no guessing, it's a fact. haha =x oh mag is also a smart alec, believe me she is. and she gets worked up each time she starts to procrastinate. have you seen anyone procrastinate and get worked up about it at the same time? well mag's the first. haha she's a nice girl lar, and like what we all said, she'll be the first among the equalites to get a boyfriend. i still support that statement. haha
Is #8 (Darren aka Peihan) attractive?
haha he's my famine camp papa, so what am i supposed to say?
haha okay, i shall talk about the good qualities he possesses okay?
my famine camp papa is 18, amazingly, just 3 years older than me but he's damn fun to chat with. haha yeah he's like a dad to me, or prolly a big brother. and he is super funny. haha and a smart guy too. haha i dont know what to say about papa lar, but i just know that he's the kind of friend who you want to be friends with for life. yeah!
Describe #7 (Lester).
Lester?
hmm haha he's a great friend to start with. yeah, he's someone willing to listen, haha yeah. and yeap, he's super nice lar. he's always giving in to me and yeah he does really sweet things for all of his friends. Lester's a really busy guy, but yeah, he's never a slacker, never ever one. which is good!
Do you know any of #12 (Esti) family members?
YES. i know them and they know me! haha we were classmates since the day she stepped into ijm which is in P4. yeah classmates for 3 years and have been really good friends with her for about 6 years, so we all know each other.
What would you do if #18 (Velda) confess to you that she likes you?
haha well, what can i say?
Velda is like one of my really close juniors and i dote on her too.
but yeah, if she ever confesses to me, haha wouldnt be surprised i guess. HAHA!
What language does #15 (Debby) speak?
i'm asking her now... haha okay, she said English and Indonesian.
Who is #9 (Denise) going out with?
NO ONE LAR! she dare to have an affair behind my back. haha I'M JUST JOKING. DONT TAKE THAT SERIOUSLY. haha as far as i know, no one. but if she is, i'll kill her not because she's having an affair but because she didnt tell me!!!!
How old is #16 (Savie / Savina)?
sweet sixteen this year =)
When is the last time you spoke to #13 (En Chou)?
about an hour ago... we were playing minesweeper flags haha.
Who is #2's (Zong Ling) favourite band/singer?
haha wah... i know she loves Teddy Geiger.
well will ask her again when i see her... i know there's this long list, but i cant remember. haha
Would you ever date #4 (Elizabeth)?
haha hmmmm maybe i will. liz just asked me out on thursday but i rejected her. i know i'm evil. haha
Would you ever date #1 (Geraldine)?
haha if gerri hears this, she will instantly say no. well, not date, but go out lar. well, considered a date i guess.
Is #19 (Su Hui) single?
yeah! hahahahahaha and she's my idol. haha according to her. haha
What's #10's (Yi Qi) last name?
Yeong
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (Marissa)?
haha we're best friends since P6 :) we're just in different schools. call it long-distance friendship if you want haha.
School of #3 (Magdalene)?
CHIJ SECONDARY (TP) =)
Where does #6 (Dominic) live?
haha the east lar. i'm not going any further.
What's your fave thing about #5 (Matilda)?
hahahahahahah what can i say? hmmm well, i like Matilda for her cheerful being and her frankness. yeap! and she's super cute! haha yeah both looks and personality.
Have you seen #2(Zong Ling) naked before?
GAWD NO. WHAT KIND OF A FREAK QUESTION IS THAT?!
5 people to do this stupid thing:
Debby
Darren
Dominic
Yi Qi
Su Hui
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okay so there you have it. debby is starting to wonder why i asked her two really weird questions... hahahahahahahaha. good night people!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
[hmmm?]
yeah it's national day today.
celebrations yest didnt turn out too bad i guess. haha school band played (as usual). mass, performance. and back to class. haha none out of the ordinary i guess. then wah hell lot of stuff to do in the afternoon. fell asleep for like two hours before doing more work.
life has been pretty much boring i guess. haha i created another asiasoft account. haha dont ask how i did it =x
but anyway, after 12 long hours, i still havent received my invitation code to create a kongkong account. yeah. haha maybe asiasoft doesnt like me but HECK. i'm just hoping for it to come soon. haha
haha the emath test on monday was kinda OKAY i guess. and i have a physics test this friday. yeah, and i had to buy that book just for this test. yeah, and i already bought all the 5 yr series sold in school, so yeah a lot of books at home. then i refused to bring my geography 10 yr series home because it was thicker than my marianne chong book. basically my textbooks are in school, and my assessments are at home. my locker is so packed and since i recently arranged the books in it really nicely, it looks really decent now. haha.
okay a few nights ago, i heard this gunshot in the middle of the night like 1am in the morning. a bit freaky right? i mean if its like 3pm or something, in the DAY then fine maybe there's some crow-shooting going on, but 1am?! sheesh, either someone got murdered or i dont know man... it's just too freaky. or maybe someone dropped something. well, i was listening to music and lying in bed so i dont know man. but if it really is a gunshot, then what just happened?
this morning, i woke up just to hear some people shouting outside. okay not angry shouting but like yeah someone making a spoeech or something. then i heard this year's ndp theme song, my island home. so yeah some national day thing going on outside. yeah so then it was over and haha it was quiet all again.
gotta finish all my tuition homework. emath, kinematics and trigonometry. amath, 15 yr series, dang, whole chapter of circular measure.
haha i just remembered something really sweet. haha i was buying some food from the canteen yesterday, before i had to do some work. okay so no food in the canteen except for fruits. so yeah bought a packet of soy milk and yeah intended to buy 1 slice of watermelon. then the canteen vendor came out with 2 slices of watermelon. she was like 'just take, i give you one for free' ad i was just standing there like waiting for myself to do something... so i felt bad and kinda refused the offer but she kept insisting for me to take it, erm so...., erm i did. maybe she knew that was gonna be my lunch and decided to give me an extra slice. haha nice right?
haha everyone has been giving me that skeptical look when i buy soy milk from the canteen. haha because i seem to like soy milk a lot. yeah it's in my genes. my mum likes to drink soy milk so i inherited it. nothing wrong.
my famine camp dad isnt feeling happy, hope he finally manages to do what he needed to do and cheer up soon =)
maybe, JUST MAYBE, i'll go out with the equalites tomorrow. haha zong and i might wanna go down to suntec to take a look at wcg. haha yeah...
ah well. haha bye!
yeah it's national day today.
celebrations yest didnt turn out too bad i guess. haha school band played (as usual). mass, performance. and back to class. haha none out of the ordinary i guess. then wah hell lot of stuff to do in the afternoon. fell asleep for like two hours before doing more work.
life has been pretty much boring i guess. haha i created another asiasoft account. haha dont ask how i did it =x
but anyway, after 12 long hours, i still havent received my invitation code to create a kongkong account. yeah. haha maybe asiasoft doesnt like me but HECK. i'm just hoping for it to come soon. haha
haha the emath test on monday was kinda OKAY i guess. and i have a physics test this friday. yeah, and i had to buy that book just for this test. yeah, and i already bought all the 5 yr series sold in school, so yeah a lot of books at home. then i refused to bring my geography 10 yr series home because it was thicker than my marianne chong book. basically my textbooks are in school, and my assessments are at home. my locker is so packed and since i recently arranged the books in it really nicely, it looks really decent now. haha.
okay a few nights ago, i heard this gunshot in the middle of the night like 1am in the morning. a bit freaky right? i mean if its like 3pm or something, in the DAY then fine maybe there's some crow-shooting going on, but 1am?! sheesh, either someone got murdered or i dont know man... it's just too freaky. or maybe someone dropped something. well, i was listening to music and lying in bed so i dont know man. but if it really is a gunshot, then what just happened?
this morning, i woke up just to hear some people shouting outside. okay not angry shouting but like yeah someone making a spoeech or something. then i heard this year's ndp theme song, my island home. so yeah some national day thing going on outside. yeah so then it was over and haha it was quiet all again.
gotta finish all my tuition homework. emath, kinematics and trigonometry. amath, 15 yr series, dang, whole chapter of circular measure.
haha i just remembered something really sweet. haha i was buying some food from the canteen yesterday, before i had to do some work. okay so no food in the canteen except for fruits. so yeah bought a packet of soy milk and yeah intended to buy 1 slice of watermelon. then the canteen vendor came out with 2 slices of watermelon. she was like 'just take, i give you one for free' ad i was just standing there like waiting for myself to do something... so i felt bad and kinda refused the offer but she kept insisting for me to take it, erm so...., erm i did. maybe she knew that was gonna be my lunch and decided to give me an extra slice. haha nice right?
haha everyone has been giving me that skeptical look when i buy soy milk from the canteen. haha because i seem to like soy milk a lot. yeah it's in my genes. my mum likes to drink soy milk so i inherited it. nothing wrong.
my famine camp dad isnt feeling happy, hope he finally manages to do what he needed to do and cheer up soon =)
maybe, JUST MAYBE, i'll go out with the equalites tomorrow. haha zong and i might wanna go down to suntec to take a look at wcg. haha yeah...
ah well. haha bye!
Sunday, August 06, 2006
[miscommunication.]
yeah i really needed to write another entry because i myself couldnt stand looking at the depressing one. so yeah
sometimes, we neglect. yeah we do. the ones who were neglected, yeah they so have the right to get angry but can they do anything about it? well, those who neglect, they probably just cant tell. those who were neglected, please, try to forget all that happened.
yeah everyone been there, experienced it. sometimes, the person who neglects gets misunderstood by the neglected. yeah, sometimes, it's just a case of miscomminucation. well, sometimes, it isnt.
there is a time when everyone is seriously down and out. when you feel like crying and just breaking down. but if you put in effort to smile, you'll feel better. of course, you're smiling because you know that you aren't that bad instead of putting up a facade.
enough with angsty stuff.
today was rah boring man! other than just stoning at home, i played a few games. and spent an hour writing this 7-page entry in my diary. wowness, spent an hour on it.
was trying to kill time and seriously i did by sitting in front of the monitor and stoning.
guess i just am now. other than chatting with denise and my famine camp dad and blogging, i'm just stoning and waiting for 12 midnight. RAHHH.
yiqi wrote me another letter during chinese.. haha it was still heartwarming lar... and the letter from chrystal was really inspiring too... so in return, i wrote them a letter too. yeah.. yiqi has been giving me stuff and all, rah i feel so bad because i'm not that used to people giving me stuff.... haha sorry... but yeah i love them too.
thanks to yq, mag, debby and xinmin for the consolation =) i love you guys! HAHA i'm okay already thanks again!
yeah i really needed to write another entry because i myself couldnt stand looking at the depressing one. so yeah
sometimes, we neglect. yeah we do. the ones who were neglected, yeah they so have the right to get angry but can they do anything about it? well, those who neglect, they probably just cant tell. those who were neglected, please, try to forget all that happened.
yeah everyone been there, experienced it. sometimes, the person who neglects gets misunderstood by the neglected. yeah, sometimes, it's just a case of miscomminucation. well, sometimes, it isnt.
there is a time when everyone is seriously down and out. when you feel like crying and just breaking down. but if you put in effort to smile, you'll feel better. of course, you're smiling because you know that you aren't that bad instead of putting up a facade.
enough with angsty stuff.
today was rah boring man! other than just stoning at home, i played a few games. and spent an hour writing this 7-page entry in my diary. wowness, spent an hour on it.
was trying to kill time and seriously i did by sitting in front of the monitor and stoning.
guess i just am now. other than chatting with denise and my famine camp dad and blogging, i'm just stoning and waiting for 12 midnight. RAHHH.
yiqi wrote me another letter during chinese.. haha it was still heartwarming lar... and the letter from chrystal was really inspiring too... so in return, i wrote them a letter too. yeah.. yiqi has been giving me stuff and all, rah i feel so bad because i'm not that used to people giving me stuff.... haha sorry... but yeah i love them too.
thanks to yq, mag, debby and xinmin for the consolation =) i love you guys! HAHA i'm okay already thanks again!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
[caged bird.]
i wont be online for a long time.
yeah, i may not even have the chance to blog for a long time, so yeah.
something happened.
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for some reason, the upper sec had assembly today instead of tomorrow. well, the singapore chinese orchestra was here to perfom at ij. well, i was seriously getting irritated at the fact that there were so much buzzing and talking when the SCO were performing or when the conductor was talking and like telling us stuff. it was really pissing me off as to how much respect we actually have for the guests. seriously, it really annoyed me.
on a random note, i finally know how a suo-na sounds and looks like. since zhen xiao said he plays it and was attempting to draw it out on msn.
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maybe i can finally learn how to live without internet connection. yeah like living without a best friend. that means no bleach for i dont know how long. and i'll probably stick to the ps2 or the tv or playing warcraft ALONE. yeah. will learn to live with that, dont really have a choice.
now i really do understand what he is going through. i always tried to have that positive attitude and try to encourage him to believe. now that i experienced it, i wonder if i can do it myself. no connection means no chance of helping one other person. great. just great. as if i dont have enough on my mind. the month just gets worse day by day, doesnt it? now i understand why he said life lost its meaning.
yeah i want to be cheerful again. it's so damn difficult now because i just cant, there are so many guidelines and all i have no idea what i can do with myself. say i'm angsty say i'm being pathetic, say i'm seeking sympathy, because i dont give a damn. i'm feeling sick and it's just this sudden. rah. i didnt think i had to sound so negative and angsty again.
i'm feeling so damn exhausted of everything. so exhausted of the bickering, so tired of the rain. i'll try to keep believing things will turn out better in the nearby future. i'm just feeling very very tired. just very very very tired...
if you're having problems with me feeling depressed,
really, then dont ever come here.
if it really does annoy you
then easy, dont listen
nobody forced you to
you just wanted to be hero and for all i know
you're bitching about everything under the sun
do you know how many people you have angered?
you complain about us
but it's the pot calling the kettle black
i have been suppressing a lot. i just need to let it all out. i want to go back to east coast.
i wont be online for a long time.
yeah, i may not even have the chance to blog for a long time, so yeah.
something happened.
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for some reason, the upper sec had assembly today instead of tomorrow. well, the singapore chinese orchestra was here to perfom at ij. well, i was seriously getting irritated at the fact that there were so much buzzing and talking when the SCO were performing or when the conductor was talking and like telling us stuff. it was really pissing me off as to how much respect we actually have for the guests. seriously, it really annoyed me.
on a random note, i finally know how a suo-na sounds and looks like. since zhen xiao said he plays it and was attempting to draw it out on msn.
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maybe i can finally learn how to live without internet connection. yeah like living without a best friend. that means no bleach for i dont know how long. and i'll probably stick to the ps2 or the tv or playing warcraft ALONE. yeah. will learn to live with that, dont really have a choice.
now i really do understand what he is going through. i always tried to have that positive attitude and try to encourage him to believe. now that i experienced it, i wonder if i can do it myself. no connection means no chance of helping one other person. great. just great. as if i dont have enough on my mind. the month just gets worse day by day, doesnt it? now i understand why he said life lost its meaning.
yeah i want to be cheerful again. it's so damn difficult now because i just cant, there are so many guidelines and all i have no idea what i can do with myself. say i'm angsty say i'm being pathetic, say i'm seeking sympathy, because i dont give a damn. i'm feeling sick and it's just this sudden. rah. i didnt think i had to sound so negative and angsty again.
i'm feeling so damn exhausted of everything. so exhausted of the bickering, so tired of the rain. i'll try to keep believing things will turn out better in the nearby future. i'm just feeling very very tired. just very very very tired...
really, then dont ever come here.
if it really does annoy you
then easy, dont listen
nobody forced you to
you just wanted to be hero and for all i know
you're bitching about everything under the sun
do you know how many people you have angered?
you complain about us
but it's the pot calling the kettle black
i have been suppressing a lot. i just need to let it all out. i want to go back to east coast.
Monday, July 31, 2006
[mistaken.]
RAH someone thought i was admiring myself. rah i don't do that. O.O
yeah. i was out with gerri and stef at 7-11, buying "lunch". well i bought some cheese macaroni, corn and milo before gerri and stef decided to go out to 7-11 to buy food. so yeah i couldnt go in because i was holding onto an unopened packet of milo, so i waited outside. i was actually looking at this poster that said 'buy two gulps and stand a chance to win an XBOX 360 with three games. so i was just looking at the other posters as well. some ad with taufika nd ruien. i mean they're there for people to look right?! then suddenly these group of juniors. sec 1 or 2s. they were like shouting at me outside the clinic 'are you admiring yourself?'
'err no. i AM NOT admiring myself'
'but you kept looking there, as though you're admiring yourself.'
'NO, i am not admiring myself, but looking at the poster.'
'haha no need to admire lar, you chio bu already'
-me with that wtf? look-
'errrr i'm seriously looking at the poster!'
yeah stef and gerri finally came out and we got out of there fast. like wtf? what is their problem. i was really looking at the poster and not looking at my damn face. besides, i'm born with an ugly face that no one will ever like HAHA. so yeah. when she said that 'haha no need to admire lar, you chio bu already', i simply gave that wtf look and was so damn ticked off. these people seriously have nothing better to do. =| irritating gits. i'm telling you, a majority of the juniors are like that. some are really extreme bimboes and some seriously like to disturb you without a good reason instead of minding their own damn business. i'm pretty disappointed in the fact that the future generation of ij has people who like to piss people off. but i'm still glad i have juniors who are hardworking and not like them. ARGH.
enough with the rant. i'm not gonna waste my effort on these worthless people.
it was ms tan's farewell concert today and 3/8 rocked. haha i didnt dance today but i did help with hair. yeah. they put up a fab performance. and they were all so cute. haha. the end of the concert was a tear-jerking one. i cried a little, while there were others who were really gonna miss ms tan. yeah she was a great principal. she was like a friend to all of us and always encouraging us and stuff. she was a motivational leader and her values have inspired us to be who we are. she always believed in us and trusting us to be the best we are. even though we do the wrong things sometimes, she will always have that benevolence and kinda like a gentle aura surrounding her. it was always a pleasure to see her around school. like one of the dedications, "ms tan, your smile just makes our day" haha it really does. she was indeed a wonfderful principal, but she has to leave now to further her studies. i personally feel very sad as well.
i'll probably take a short nap sigh. bye.
RAH someone thought i was admiring myself. rah i don't do that. O.O
yeah. i was out with gerri and stef at 7-11, buying "lunch". well i bought some cheese macaroni, corn and milo before gerri and stef decided to go out to 7-11 to buy food. so yeah i couldnt go in because i was holding onto an unopened packet of milo, so i waited outside. i was actually looking at this poster that said 'buy two gulps and stand a chance to win an XBOX 360 with three games. so i was just looking at the other posters as well. some ad with taufika nd ruien. i mean they're there for people to look right?! then suddenly these group of juniors. sec 1 or 2s. they were like shouting at me outside the clinic 'are you admiring yourself?'
'err no. i AM NOT admiring myself'
'but you kept looking there, as though you're admiring yourself.'
'NO, i am not admiring myself, but looking at the poster.'
'haha no need to admire lar, you chio bu already'
-me with that wtf? look-
'errrr i'm seriously looking at the poster!'
yeah stef and gerri finally came out and we got out of there fast. like wtf? what is their problem. i was really looking at the poster and not looking at my damn face. besides, i'm born with an ugly face that no one will ever like HAHA. so yeah. when she said that 'haha no need to admire lar, you chio bu already', i simply gave that wtf look and was so damn ticked off. these people seriously have nothing better to do. =| irritating gits. i'm telling you, a majority of the juniors are like that. some are really extreme bimboes and some seriously like to disturb you without a good reason instead of minding their own damn business. i'm pretty disappointed in the fact that the future generation of ij has people who like to piss people off. but i'm still glad i have juniors who are hardworking and not like them. ARGH.
enough with the rant. i'm not gonna waste my effort on these worthless people.
it was ms tan's farewell concert today and 3/8 rocked. haha i didnt dance today but i did help with hair. yeah. they put up a fab performance. and they were all so cute. haha. the end of the concert was a tear-jerking one. i cried a little, while there were others who were really gonna miss ms tan. yeah she was a great principal. she was like a friend to all of us and always encouraging us and stuff. she was a motivational leader and her values have inspired us to be who we are. she always believed in us and trusting us to be the best we are. even though we do the wrong things sometimes, she will always have that benevolence and kinda like a gentle aura surrounding her. it was always a pleasure to see her around school. like one of the dedications, "ms tan, your smile just makes our day" haha it really does. she was indeed a wonfderful principal, but she has to leave now to further her studies. i personally feel very sad as well.
i'll probably take a short nap sigh. bye.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
[passing off as 16. right. haha.]
went for mass with stef and marcus yest, haha it was really fun. we had dinner at fork and spoon and i was really shocked how quick marcus can finish his chicken rice. he didnt even take 10 mins! yeah freaky but still cool. haha.
haha i'm trying to enjoy my peaceful sunday. but i stil have a lot of homework! and A LOT OF TUITION HOMEWORK. thats cause i left for tuition earlier than usual. in fact MUCH earlier than usual. had tuition for like 35 mins and then off i went. thats cause stef and marcus came up to my house and all so yeah. and stef was really quiet (surprise surprise). haha i'm joking. but i refused to let them into my room, considering the mess in there. haha it's actually quite fun going out with stef lar.
yes, that panic attack probably didnt pay off. or maybe it did. it did because everything went smoothly. it didnt because it kinda went to waste. hours of work only for that half hour.
yeah. the honours day concert was really good. haha because the dance ensemble put up a really good performance. haha not that i never seen that dance routine before because i was at dance night. but yeah, it was still good.
i shall try to do something today. not gonna game today, not in the mood at all. haha
ciao.
went for mass with stef and marcus yest, haha it was really fun. we had dinner at fork and spoon and i was really shocked how quick marcus can finish his chicken rice. he didnt even take 10 mins! yeah freaky but still cool. haha.
haha i'm trying to enjoy my peaceful sunday. but i stil have a lot of homework! and A LOT OF TUITION HOMEWORK. thats cause i left for tuition earlier than usual. in fact MUCH earlier than usual. had tuition for like 35 mins and then off i went. thats cause stef and marcus came up to my house and all so yeah. and stef was really quiet (surprise surprise). haha i'm joking. but i refused to let them into my room, considering the mess in there. haha it's actually quite fun going out with stef lar.
yes, that panic attack probably didnt pay off. or maybe it did. it did because everything went smoothly. it didnt because it kinda went to waste. hours of work only for that half hour.
yeah. the honours day concert was really good. haha because the dance ensemble put up a really good performance. haha not that i never seen that dance routine before because i was at dance night. but yeah, it was still good.
i shall try to do something today. not gonna game today, not in the mood at all. haha
ciao.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
[bad day.]
had a lousy week. so debby, dont feel so sad okay?
rah yes i did have a lousy week. in fact for the past 2 weeks i guess. my sprained neck, whatever that happened on sunday, and then what i read. wah. adding onto the crazy amount of work i was being piled underneath. i keep seeing things happening but hell can i do anything about it. just have this rotten feeling. but gotta snap out of it asap. no time to mull over things and stuff... sigh..
yq, capri and gerri cheered my morning by giving me my SUPER belated BIRTHDAY PRESENT. yes a stuffed toy pig. haha jane said it looked like me. mr moh said it looked like me. and savie said it looked like me! haha wth. is that a compliment or an insult? haha because pigs are the smartest domestic animals on this planet. so all the people i've been calling pigs, i'm complimenting you okay! haha joking lar... i called yall pigs just for the fun of it, don't take it to heart. but anyway, yq was really sweet lar. it had a letter in there that was so sweet it could give me a tooth decay. haha that's what i love about yiqi. she can be so damn funny, but she's such a sweet friend. haha i remember this week's pc lesson, mr ng made two people talk about what they do to show their appreciation for their friends. sarah said to give them flowers if they are performing. yq said to make cards for them, doesnt have to be on rare occasions, just make them because you want to. it was really sweet lar. khym turned around and was signalling to me. haha she knows about the card. but yeah, thanks to yq for making my week slightly brighter although it has been rather saddened. just she got sabo-ed by tyanne to have to say somehting for pc. it was the most enjoyable pc lesson ever.
yeah i'm really glad to have yq as a good friend. really. she has been really sweet and cheerful, inspiring me with her cheerfulness and stuff like that. she has been a really great pal! thanks!!! haha although she likes to suan me and make fun of the stupid things i do... haha
haha thinking about the nice things yq did for me these past two weeks really does cheer me up. so i've gotta do something for her too! haha yeah!
i hope all that panic attack will pay off tomorrow. so that i didnt get myself so tired for no reason. and yes i am very tired, just that i'm so tied down by the amount of hw i have. got home at like what? 11pm today, because i was doing lots of stuff. and spent my last 45 mins at macs with stef, having my dinner and suaning her. rhian and i are such experts! haha.
rah shall go retreat into lala land. seriously beat and dying. i need to get rid of that rotten feeling by sleeping, i'll probably feel much better by tomorrow. yeah hope so. that's the only thing i feel like doing now. ciao good night!
had a lousy week. so debby, dont feel so sad okay?
rah yes i did have a lousy week. in fact for the past 2 weeks i guess. my sprained neck, whatever that happened on sunday, and then what i read. wah. adding onto the crazy amount of work i was being piled underneath. i keep seeing things happening but hell can i do anything about it. just have this rotten feeling. but gotta snap out of it asap. no time to mull over things and stuff... sigh..
yq, capri and gerri cheered my morning by giving me my SUPER belated BIRTHDAY PRESENT. yes a stuffed toy pig. haha jane said it looked like me. mr moh said it looked like me. and savie said it looked like me! haha wth. is that a compliment or an insult? haha because pigs are the smartest domestic animals on this planet. so all the people i've been calling pigs, i'm complimenting you okay! haha joking lar... i called yall pigs just for the fun of it, don't take it to heart. but anyway, yq was really sweet lar. it had a letter in there that was so sweet it could give me a tooth decay. haha that's what i love about yiqi. she can be so damn funny, but she's such a sweet friend. haha i remember this week's pc lesson, mr ng made two people talk about what they do to show their appreciation for their friends. sarah said to give them flowers if they are performing. yq said to make cards for them, doesnt have to be on rare occasions, just make them because you want to. it was really sweet lar. khym turned around and was signalling to me. haha she knows about the card. but yeah, thanks to yq for making my week slightly brighter although it has been rather saddened. just she got sabo-ed by tyanne to have to say somehting for pc. it was the most enjoyable pc lesson ever.
yeah i'm really glad to have yq as a good friend. really. she has been really sweet and cheerful, inspiring me with her cheerfulness and stuff like that. she has been a really great pal! thanks!!! haha although she likes to suan me and make fun of the stupid things i do... haha
haha thinking about the nice things yq did for me these past two weeks really does cheer me up. so i've gotta do something for her too! haha yeah!
i hope all that panic attack will pay off tomorrow. so that i didnt get myself so tired for no reason. and yes i am very tired, just that i'm so tied down by the amount of hw i have. got home at like what? 11pm today, because i was doing lots of stuff. and spent my last 45 mins at macs with stef, having my dinner and suaning her. rhian and i are such experts! haha.
rah shall go retreat into lala land. seriously beat and dying. i need to get rid of that rotten feeling by sleeping, i'll probably feel much better by tomorrow. yeah hope so. that's the only thing i feel like doing now. ciao good night!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
[idiot lar.]
yeah i just remembered. why did you lie to me? when i asked if you were serious or not? rah... no point now right?
stef is nuts. yes she is.
had dinner with denise. at crystal jade (haha rich man rich. whatever). but anyway, it was damn fun hanging out with her all again. we then went to the arcade to race. seriously i suck at racing. haha and i'm only good with the shooting games because it's like the game denise and i both always play. besides, i dont really go to the arcade. that place swallows your money man! i would usually go to the arcade either with denise or something. but not so often. so house of the dead 3 was super tiring. reloading manually. now she's at lasalle and all, so she's gonna be really busy. that means the list of things we wanted to do will have to wait. man we planned that since last year or something.
rah tired, damn tired. because i slept at like 3.40am. was a zombie today. hahahahaha anyway good night and ciao!
yeah i just remembered. why did you lie to me? when i asked if you were serious or not? rah... no point now right?
stef is nuts. yes she is.
had dinner with denise. at crystal jade (haha rich man rich. whatever). but anyway, it was damn fun hanging out with her all again. we then went to the arcade to race. seriously i suck at racing. haha and i'm only good with the shooting games because it's like the game denise and i both always play. besides, i dont really go to the arcade. that place swallows your money man! i would usually go to the arcade either with denise or something. but not so often. so house of the dead 3 was super tiring. reloading manually. now she's at lasalle and all, so she's gonna be really busy. that means the list of things we wanted to do will have to wait. man we planned that since last year or something.
rah tired, damn tired. because i slept at like 3.40am. was a zombie today. hahahahaha anyway good night and ciao!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
[basketball!]
pe was surprisingly amusing. we had to learn jive, haha basically dance. but anyways, my FEMALE partner took rather long to to learn the steps, and it is the wonderful yiqi. haha yeah, i'm the guy. haha she's the girl. and it was damn funny dancing with her. haha cj and huda were even more hilarious.
i was really in a daze after school when i was watching 3/8 practice for ms tan's farewell. thinking about that again. OH and i learnt how to do that thing thing the cheerleaders recently invented. hha yeah it's quite cool. and when the cheerleaders do it together, it's even coller and it looks so perfect.
bonnie saved the day today. haha she was alert and defeated mr fernadez during emath, in some game thing. if we lost, our homework will double. but yeah since he kinda lost to bonnie's alertness, haha no homework man! so i'm pretty much slacking at home, and waiting for 10.30pm (DN Angel on Animax)
this morning, i refused to get up even at 5.50am, although i knew my digimon was about to start in 10 mins, i refused to get up, was just too tired and lazy. so i lazed in bed for like a minute before falling back into my slumber up till 6.40am. haha lazy pig.
played bball today and it was fun, super fun. the juniors were wonderful. haha jade was constantly fouling (without getting caught) and haha her team got away with attacking people and tickling them. haha. they won =x but it was hell fun. mag was a mad woman when she was screaming like a fire alarm and savie was octopus lim jie ying. haha that name sounds so wrong but gerri came up with it. then gerri got hit in the face twice.. poor her. but she was one of the culprits who attacked me man. haha. velda and tiara rocked too. they're so damn funny and fun. all in all, i really enjoyed myself this afternoon with all that laughter and amusement. we were all sweaty and thirsty after that. mag was trying to steal my drink and we still had the energy to fool around haha. yeah, it really worked out alright. hope we get to play this wild again in future with more people! haha and i havent played bball like that in ages man.
wahahaha i found out what's cj's twin brothers' names, after many months. i really mean it. gerri and i have been asking her for months! haha clement and colin. haha and she cheated us.... she said both of their names started with 'cle'. so we all thought clement and clementi. yeah clementi, lame i know. but yeah finally on the 25th of july, i finally know. gerri and i shall bombard her tomorrow.
CAs are here. and gotta start studying man. bleagh gonna be tough all again. and i must keep strong and make it through the next few months. then another year when the Os are here. everything happens so quickly. in less than half a year, i'll be sec 4 already. cant bear to leave ij though. 10 years in ij, seriously... dont wanna leave yet. it has been such an adventure here, with the wonderful friends i have here. and that ij spirit, although it may live in each of us, i hope i can still be able to remember what it's like after leaving ij. i know it's a little too early to start thinking about what it'll be like after leaving.
okay playing minesweeper flags with mag now. ciao! 4 more mins to DN Angel!!! ciao and take care!
pe was surprisingly amusing. we had to learn jive, haha basically dance. but anyways, my FEMALE partner took rather long to to learn the steps, and it is the wonderful yiqi. haha yeah, i'm the guy. haha she's the girl. and it was damn funny dancing with her. haha cj and huda were even more hilarious.
i was really in a daze after school when i was watching 3/8 practice for ms tan's farewell. thinking about that again. OH and i learnt how to do that thing thing the cheerleaders recently invented. hha yeah it's quite cool. and when the cheerleaders do it together, it's even coller and it looks so perfect.
bonnie saved the day today. haha she was alert and defeated mr fernadez during emath, in some game thing. if we lost, our homework will double. but yeah since he kinda lost to bonnie's alertness, haha no homework man! so i'm pretty much slacking at home, and waiting for 10.30pm (DN Angel on Animax)
this morning, i refused to get up even at 5.50am, although i knew my digimon was about to start in 10 mins, i refused to get up, was just too tired and lazy. so i lazed in bed for like a minute before falling back into my slumber up till 6.40am. haha lazy pig.
played bball today and it was fun, super fun. the juniors were wonderful. haha jade was constantly fouling (without getting caught) and haha her team got away with attacking people and tickling them. haha. they won =x but it was hell fun. mag was a mad woman when she was screaming like a fire alarm and savie was octopus lim jie ying. haha that name sounds so wrong but gerri came up with it. then gerri got hit in the face twice.. poor her. but she was one of the culprits who attacked me man. haha. velda and tiara rocked too. they're so damn funny and fun. all in all, i really enjoyed myself this afternoon with all that laughter and amusement. we were all sweaty and thirsty after that. mag was trying to steal my drink and we still had the energy to fool around haha. yeah, it really worked out alright. hope we get to play this wild again in future with more people! haha and i havent played bball like that in ages man.
wahahaha i found out what's cj's twin brothers' names, after many months. i really mean it. gerri and i have been asking her for months! haha clement and colin. haha and she cheated us.... she said both of their names started with 'cle'. so we all thought clement and clementi. yeah clementi, lame i know. but yeah finally on the 25th of july, i finally know. gerri and i shall bombard her tomorrow.
CAs are here. and gotta start studying man. bleagh gonna be tough all again. and i must keep strong and make it through the next few months. then another year when the Os are here. everything happens so quickly. in less than half a year, i'll be sec 4 already. cant bear to leave ij though. 10 years in ij, seriously... dont wanna leave yet. it has been such an adventure here, with the wonderful friends i have here. and that ij spirit, although it may live in each of us, i hope i can still be able to remember what it's like after leaving ij. i know it's a little too early to start thinking about what it'll be like after leaving.
okay playing minesweeper flags with mag now. ciao! 4 more mins to DN Angel!!! ciao and take care!