[not-so-merry christmas.]

haha merry christmas... hahaha how ironic. thats the first thing i say after putting up such a title.

i spent the entire day watching nana. yes jinwei, i'm slow when it comes to anime too haha.

anyway, come to think of it. i've been having this nickname "nana" since i was P5... erm you wouldnt be able to guess who first called me that... it's jiaying... well i admit i didnt like that name at first, but i guess i kinda got used to it when the whole class knew about it and started calling me that. then lyn li had to call me nana-sai. dang. i think nana is nicer. if you break my email address up, you get three words... "nana say haha". i know it's cheesy and stupid, but i guess my mind went blank when i had to think of a new email address. i didnt want to stick to nana_sai2003 in 2005! so i changed it. hahaha yeah... i think thats an easier name than briana right?

going to genting and KL tomorrow. bus leaving at around 7 i think. turtle said it's foggy, so if the bus falls off on the way there and i die, haha, gg sia... at least i died watching anime, HAHA, on my mp3 player.

yeah i finally got my creative zen vision m. yayness. my dad didnt get it for me, my mum did, haha. i've taken up half the space in a day, with all the anime and songs i transferred into it.

i hvnt packed for the trip tomorrow, haha. i better do after blogging. ah well.

i'm having a moody christmas... my christmas last year... cant remember. but yeah, i'm having a moody christmas. so much for MERRY christmas. i need santa to cheer me up, haha just joking. but yeah, strike out the "err" in merry and replace it with "ood"

merry
moody

okay lame.

christmas eve was pretty okay i guess... went out with en chou and asther... to countdown. haha we spent 20 bucks at the arcade... thats cause if you spend 20 bucks, you get another 20 bucks free. so yeah.

haha ah well, back on the 29th... yeah seeya! have fun and merry christmas!

[10 day substitute.]

hahaha i'm sick.

yeah thatnks to the rain. okay i like rain alright? i just got caught in it for three days.

sunday.

newspaper collection. haha it's always fun when you see all sorts of things. haha yeah, there was this unit i went up to and there was this huge mistletoe on the door, blocking the peep-hole. DANG. anyway, i was walking in the rain before i got to macs. and then ran in the ran just to get to the other block.

monday.

vex... jianeng was there. yeah when we were going home, the rain was so heavy and despite standing at the bus stop, we still got wet, because the rain got in and our pinafores were wet, except for where the belt is supposed to be. in the end, we missed the 506 bus and instead of waiting for the next one (which will take another half hour), we took a cab to bishan. it was long ride and i was telling her stories. BLEAGH!!! the fare waws $15.40, cause it was also the peak hour, damn. so suay lar.

tueday.

hahaha vex again. went out for lunch with en chou and james. was caught in the rain on the way back. yeah we ran from the bus stop opposite the school to into the school, which is about 10m??? so anyway, after vex, went to eleos with james, which is all the way at tanjong pagar. he was having an interview with mr kang and stuff so i waited till like 8pm. then we headed to some food centre to eat. getting outta there was the worst part. we got lost. walked in the rain, trying to hail a cab. okay we were in between chinatown and tanjong pagar. well, hailing a cab at chinatown isnt the best idea because the drivers dont give a damn and they either switch to busy the moment they see you flagging their cab or purposely be "on call" and wait in a corner for i dont what either. it was raining of course. so after half an hour of trying to hail a cab, we decided to TRY to find our way to the train station. haha we found our way, or rather james remembered how to get there and yay, we were outta there. it was freezing and it felt like winter. well, at least to me lar. finally got home.

there, three days. i started coughing on tuesday and was down with a little cold on wednesday. ll a little sick at this moment.

i think the real shock was from those cab drivers who totally dont care about passengers in the rain. please lar!!! CHINATOWN... equals to tourists.... equals to singapore's image. dang.

started watching a new anime yesterday. it's called NANA. i can say the story's pretty interesting. it's mostly about two girls of the same age, same name (their names are nana... and nana), same origin and they're both going to tokyo. now they're living together as roomates in a apartment they rented. haha although one's a sweet kinda girl and the other's a rock star (the gothic kind), haha they both get along pretty well. i'm only on the 3rd episode. haha. i see why chrystal keeps urging me to watch NANA.

i was just reminded of why this "10-day substitute" thing even existed. it's a long story. haha

[bus 506.]

i saved an old man from a worm.

i was on the way home no bus 506. this old man boarded the bus and much to my horror, i saw this worm on the collar of his polo tee. i went over and told him. he was a little freaked out too. i took out a piece of tissue paper and "collected" the bug, it crawled onto the tissue paper and i didnt know what to do with it except hold that piece of tissue paper and watch it crawl on it. the old man took the tissue paper and i think he crushed it. BLEAGH.

well, there you have it, the events that keep happening on bus 506, haha.

went shopping with my mum today. it turned out pretty unpleasant at first. look, i'm not the kind who shops. especially clothes. she just wanted to get some clothes for chinese new year. sigh. and becuase my mind was drifting off somewhere, i got scolded.

newspaper collection tomorrow. yay.

i shall make a trip to ikea tomorrow =D

no frs, that's crappy...

[the things we all have to worry about.]

the bus broke down today.

was on the way home after vex, on bus 506, when the bus broke down 2 stops before the stop where i was gonna alight. well i was sleeping, and edmund woke me up when people were starting to alight the bus.

well when the bus uncle wanted to hand us the free ticket to the next bus, his hands were shivering. i could tell he was pretty nervous. come on lar, the bus you just drove broke down leh... i was afraid for him, seeing him like that. come on lar, the poor guy's hands were shivering. so i told him not to be nervous and it's okay, we'll just take the ticket and separate them ourselves.

took the bus 59 instead since i can alight it right in front of school, which is just right across the street from my place.

tiring day. haha not enough sleep lar.

it rained. hahaha yeah. ruixue was caught in the rain. i caused felix to miss his bus, haha that was hilarious. haha mr chong and ms lim were really funny with the cable ties... hahaha hmm...

anyway, late. i've been at this window for 3 and a half hours. it's 1.45am now. no kidding. haha ah well, bye, enjoy your day :)

[the blatant truth - substitution.]

yeah i'm still awake at this hour (5.26am, look at the time this entry was posted). i'm just afraid i wont be able to wake up at 9am later

just got off the phone with dom. i guess our conversation kinda got me thinking about a lot of things.

wow (world of warcraft) is fun. yeah was wowing with dom for like 4 hours? haha yeah, completed a lot of quests in two days.

that was the past. think about the past and present if you dont wanna think of the future. i wonder if i'm doing the right thing by looking into the past and trying hard to figure it out all over again. i guess the sweet memories are much more difficult to remember than the not-so-sweet ones because they're linked, somehow.

thinking of the people who hurt me, made me feel terrible and guilty, i will feel bitter inside that makes me wanna cry. i guess that explains why.

thats the past. thinking back, i would wanna laugh at the silly things i have done. however, there's nothing i can do about it, just live with it. yeah just like all the misfortunes i have met so far, that placed me in a situations leading to who i am now, i'll just live with it.

well, my eyebags are popping out, which means to say i'm really tired. ah well, good night/morning =)

[memory stick.]

a girl just knocked on my door. well i was the one who opened it. she spoke to me in chinese. she told me she was from ********* **** sec sch (i won't disclose the school name) and there are students from her school who are taking their o levels next year but their families have no income, so she wanted me to buy an ice cream. well i declined to but felt super bad once i got back to my room. yeah, i felt like running out of the house, running after her, and buying an ice cream.

well, i'm taking my o levels next year as well and yeah, it is important. in fact, it's important to all of us. i guess my mum would prolly just say she was a fake or something. what would you think of someone going up to your doorstep at 8.30pm at night and asking you to buy an ice cream cause there are people out there who cant take their o levels? would you buy an ice cream? an ice cream sold would mean a lot to them, then why didn't i buy one? regret regret.

and yeah, the story in my previous entry was from an email my mum sent me. when i read it, it got me thinking. we all do have that choice to be that positive person, or to be that negative person. rah, i shall stop thinking so much about this and take each step at a time, keeping in mind that we can all be happy happy people and lead happy happy lives.

it was a hectic day. went to school at noon just to collect some goods and a lot of flyers. i guess it's so much easier when you're living right across the street and it'll only take you at most 5 mins to get to school.

had to meet mag at bugis straight away cause we had some stuff to do. spent half an hour buying her dad's memory stick for her computer. yeah, we got it. it's $57. today was the first time i saw a memory stick.

we bought a lot of food. okay not a lot. i bought chicken balls and ice lemon tea from tori q, spring rolls from old chang kee and soy milk from lavender.

chicken balls + ice lemon tea -> $2.50
spring rolls -> $0.90
soy milk -> $1.30

TOTAL = $4.70

okay i just realised i spent that much on lunch. and i didnt really eat that much, if you look at it again.

hahaha so it was a day out with mag. haha i guess i cant remember when was the last time i went out with mag. hahaha that would have been a real long time ago.

i guess you cant really say it was hectic, cause i came home and i went to sleep, for 2 hours. yeah i sure did.

i packed my room. it looks neater. haha, but it's still messy. i know it's ironic, but you'll get the idea =)

rah, tuition tomorrow. then i gotta go all the way to paya lebar, rah rah.

once again, my bro is off to some chalet. this time, i dont know what chalet it is. i think it's some chalet they organised themselves. hahaha all the rich people. ah well.

[and all my tears will air dry with just a little time.]

spent the entire day playing games with lester. haha yeah. bf2 was a killer. i got killed way too many times. i'm like ranked somewhere near the bottom of the list.

read this. it's a story my mum sent me weeks back.

choices

Jerry is a manager at a restaurant. He is always in a good mood.
When someone asked him how he was doing, he would alwyas reply, "If I were better, I would be twins!"
Many of the waiters quit their jobs when he changed jobs,
so they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant
Why?

Because, Jerry was a natural motivator.
If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry would always be there, telling him or her how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him:
"I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"
Jerry replied,

"Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood.

Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it.

Everytime someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life."

"But it's not that easy", I protested.

"Yes it is", Jerry said.

"Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk every situation is a choice.

You choose how to react to situations.

You choose how people will affect our mood.

You choose to be in a good mood.

It's your choice how you live your life."

Several years later,
I heard Jerry accidentally did something you are never supposed to do in the business.
He left the back door of his restaurant open.
And then???
In the morning, he was robbed by three armed men.
They want?
#123*+!@$%&*~
While Jerry tried to open the safe box,
his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination.
The robbers panicked and shot him.
Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to hospital.
After 18 hours of surgery,
and weeks of intensive care,
Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of bullets still in his body...
I saw Jerry six months after the accident.
When I asked him how he was,
he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?"
I declined to see his wounds, but did not ask him what he went through his mind as the robbery took place.

"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door", Jerry replied.

"Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared?", I asked.

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine." But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw the expression on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Well there was this big nurseshouting questions at me", said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything."

"Yes", I replied.

"The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, "Bullets!" Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live, please operate on me as though I'm alive, not dead."

Jerry lived, thanks to the skills of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude.

I learned from him that everyday you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it. The only thing that is truly yours - that no one can control or take from you

is your attitude, so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much easier.

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yeah, and thats it... sayonara, enjoy your hols =)

[kingdom hearts II.]

upgraded my blogger acc to the new version.. and maybe i like the old one better. haha

finished my chem and emath homework... WHEE yeah man. haha if you realised, i always procrastinate and leave my homework to the last two days of hols... there are three more weeks to school. haha maybe cause chrystal said she finished her homework that made me wanna finish up my homework as well. it isn't a bad thing what. all i have left is

1 amath paper
4 chinese essays
1 chinese compre
1 history project (group work i suppose)
i english book review

re-reading pendragon for my book review. SIAN LAR. elizabeth is still holding to my other three pendragon books. i'm only left with the first book, that is pendragon: the merchant of death. pendragon: the lost city of faar, pendragon: the never war and pendragon: the reality bug is still with her!!! rah... i hvnt read pendragon: black water and hvnt bought the next two books (the rivers of zadaa and the quillan games). haiyah i havent touched pendragon for a long time. i have the rough idea of what the story is like but if you asked me about details, i prolly forgotten half of them.

have been spending my week on vex and homework. hahaha oh yeah, i actually started playing kingdom hearts II again after knowing dom is ahead of me! rah.... if i'm not wrong, he's stuck at the sephiroth part. and you know what? i'm at the revisiting-of-worlds part. rah.

jinwei's in japan now and hahaha nice of him to tag from japan. haha lester still reads my blog and tags from thailand. haiyah, many people leaving for holiday. enchou leaving for malaysia for the whole week next week. kor going to malaysia once enchou returns. oh yeah, jasper's back. zhen xiao's still in taiwan. matilda's in tasmania. gerri's leaving for beijing soon. amanda pai's in malaysia now.

yeah, christmas up soon. can say i'm not rich enough to buy presents. hahaha unlike last year, i'm not working as temp this year. so no money to go christmas shopping haha.

i shall go play now =) i'll do my homework later larrr. i did chem till 3 last night. haha

[stand up.]

everything's made to be broken.

i hope everything will turn out fine for you guys... stay strong yeah?

this is second time i'm going through this. maybe cause it happened to me before that i kinda understand how it feels when someone else is going through it. it's a real bitter feeling when you see it happening and next thing you know, you just break, just like that. please be okay alright?

fll day 2 today. well, i dont know why but there were some performances. okay. all ballet. NO IDEA WHY. i wonder how you put ballet with robotics... but well, they did it, and it didnt look good =.= it looked extremely weird... even without robotics... yeah.

then went to expo for siteX... stef was there, selling ipods. hahaha. yeah a lot of stuff there...

wahhh many people leaving the country... jinwei, tricia and jasper.

gotta go to e2max tomorrow.

bleagh i dont know what to say. hahaha omg i finished 2/3 of my emath homework... haha but it doesnt mean i still dont have hw...

shall play 1 dota match with mr moh.... and then do my hw hahaha... finish up the remaining 1/3 hahaha...

i'm exhausted man haha... was already pretty sleepy in the morning haha.

have fun people =)