[no such thing as a real world]

i need lots of money now, at least $1225. yes i need it. so i'm gonna work and work form day to night until i die off just to raise that sum. i'm just getting myself so stressed over this and i'm just killing my mental self. i just need it to prove to my parents. gah.

watched chicken little today, and it was really adorable. i think the characters are just too adorable, i just love the aliens.

went to far east with liz, matilda and stef. found so many bleach and tsubasa manga there. yeah it rocks. and the price isnt that bad. each book costs $5. but its in chinese.

just ironic how we can even watch chicken little... and i'm really financially disabled now.

i'm really stuck in a dilemma... i dont now if i should pursue the matter... sigh.

[Final Fantasy XII Advent Children]

just done watching final fantasy XII advent children. and it's fantastic. i like the animation. cg has always been done so well. i like cloud's motorcycle, just dont know how many swords he puts in there. but the speed is cool.

i'm currently searching for another anime created back in 2003. i dont think i can find it. chances are really slim. but then again, rurouni kenshin (1996) is still all over the net, available for download. but the anime i'm looking for isnt as popular as rurouni kenshin. i dont know either... i didnt really recognize anime when i was in p6. i know i would not be able to find that anime, but i'll still try. i know i watched one or two episodes of it in p6, every sunday at 2.30am, when i stayed up late at night, to either study or complete some project. i think its really difficult to search for it now. sigh. i wonder... when did people start downloading anime from the net? before or after 2003? anyway, 20% of the fansites i have been featuring that anime are in a foreign language... gah... it's either french or something i dont know.

argh.. still searching..

[christmas shopping]

back from jurong point...

watched exorcism of emily rose with denise this afternoon. i can only say that show just scared the hell outta me but i was okay after the movie. i dont know if i will be tonight. probably not. after that 3am thing, some trinity thing. then the father moore (the priest) said it would be 3pm in the other realm and its like THE time for demons and blah to enter the real world. haiyah, since it's based on a true story, then i guess its real right? haiyah

well then we went to pizza hut for dinner and we talked about a lot of things. cant believe we could squeeze so many topics in just one meal. then we walked about jurong point, browsing shops. we then played jurassic park and completed the entire game, of course spending a sum of money, in order to just complete it.

well i'm home, and gonna sleep earlier tonight. so that i can stop worrying about 3am and replenish my energy, i fall asleep everywhere i go now. almost fell asleep during the movie when emily rose was talking to the virgin mary...

i also bought the 7flower album yesterday. finally bought it. i have been waiting for it to be released since i dont know when. it really does take a long time to fly to singapore. geez... but anyway, its not bad and the reason why i'm not downloading instead because it'll be much more meaningful to buy the original. well it's really not bad and the vcd rocks. yeap. encouraged to buy.

downloaded the bleach manga, and i'm far ahead of the anime, although i still prefer the anime. yeah, many unexpected things happen after rukia was rescued and ichigo returned to the real world. and toushiro such is a weird captain, but he's super adorable because he's a child with a cool hairstyle. he's cool because he achieved bankai and became a captain at such a young age, so i think he's super cool. i've also decided kuchiki byakuya isnt so bad after all, he actually took ichimaru gin's sword right in the stomach to shield rukia. and he almost died, so when he told rukia about his wife/her sister, it was as if he wanted to tell her the truth before he died or something. and he sounded different. he didnt die. haha.

well, i'm just gonna sit and stone here for a while then. tata.

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Houki Boshi (Abandoned Star) - Younha (Bleach Closing Theme 3)

yozora o miage hitori houkiboshi o mita no
isshun de hajikete wa kiete shimatta kedo
anata no koto omou to mune ga itaku naru no
ima sugu aitai yo dakedo sora wa tobenai kara

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tonde iku donna
ashita ga kite mo ko no omoi wa tsuyoi
dakara houkiboshi zutto kowarenai yo

ame ga futte iyada to boyaiteita toki ni
anata ga itta koto ima demo oboeteru
ame no ato no yozora wa kirei ni hoshi ga deru
sore o kangaeru to ame mo suki ni nareru yo ne to

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
afureru hikari furasu yo itsumo
kanashii toki yozora miru anata ga
egao ni naru youni motto kagayakitai

anata wa itsumo hitori nanika to tatakatteru
soba ni iru koto shika atashi ni wa dekinai kedo

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tonde iku kitto
kanarazu todoku ko no isshun no hikari de
anata no IMA terashi sora o megurou
atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
kitto soba ni ite ageru donna toki mo

[houki boshi]

came back from the confirmation. yeap.

working ot from now till friday. wish me good luck.

i'm gonna watch the last two episodes i have after blogging. theres no one to chat with anyway

i guess thats the only way to cheer myself up. i'm just feeling very sick and tired, and this melancholic feeling inside me is slowly consuming me.

yeah. i am very worried, upset. i really need peace and quiet. i just need the people at home to stop screaming their heads off for no apparent reason and leave me alone. is that a lot? i just dont want to hear anyone thrashing their stuff about, making so much noise, for i already have had a terrible day. i dont want to hear any voices except the music playng from my computer

i had a glimpse of it
whatever that happened
i stood against the wall
and waited...

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D-tecnoLife - UVERworld (Bleach opening song 2)

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo
kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de

tsunaida kimi no te wo

itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana
usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara
hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare
toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte
kimi wo mitsuke dasu

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro

sabikitta hito no you ni

kasanari au dake ga munashikute
hitori de ikite ikerutte ittta
arifureta yasashisa kotobajya
ima wa mou todokanai hodo ni kimi wa uzukidasu

tsunai da kimi no te wa nanigenai yasashisa wo motome
Do you remember
itami wo shiru koto de hito ni yasashiku nareru kara

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro

How can I see the meaning of life
kieteku you're the only...

kowarenai you ni to hanarete iku kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
ima wa by and by mie nakuttatte subete ni imi ga aru kara
kesenai kako mo seoi attekou ikiru koto wo nagedasanai de

You'd better forget everything. Remember... your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember... modoranai kedo

hizunda kioku no you na toki no naka de itsuka wakari aeru kara

[ichigo]

i love bleach. haha its so funny and cool. i love rukia, haha she's so cute. i love yourichi too, haha shes so funny. i'm so glad liz urged me to watch it. haha. i still have more than 50 epoisodes left. but i can slowly watch them. wahahaha.

http://www.bleachportal.net

ichigo's name is also very cute, because it means strawberry, but its still weird for a death god (Shinigami). and he has a new soul slayer, which looks super cool. its addictive too. i mean the anime.

i finally got my hands on the sims 2. and the other expension packs as well. wheee...

haha i just realised i have practically nothing to post. because i'm still mad at what i heard today. sorry.

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This song is nice.

Life Is Like a Boat - Rie Fu

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

[bleach]

streaming results released. not really happy with the outcome, but i was prepared for it. in fact, i expected it. ah well, got over it. and got over the shocking news. but then again, what can happen?

i decided bleach is good anime since liz was urging me to watch it, i've watched only the first 2 episodes, because thats all i have. but its cool. i've also decided DN angel rocks! haha i like dark, he's super dao. daisuke looks really childish, probably because of his weird hairdo and his small figure. but oh wells. liz is coming over tomorrow, so i can watch even more bleach! haha. i think that its really funny because that ichigo person, who is the new death god, has a much larger soul-slayer (sword) than the previous death god.

oh i just finished westside story today. it was tear-jerking right till the end. but it was still exciting. its the second time watching it. i'm gonna watch wang zi bian qing again. the same goes to the rest of my other vcds at home. i might not consider watching meteor garden 1, neither am i considering meteor garden 2. actually, meteor garden 2 is worse than meteor garden 1. hmm.

i'm gonna sleep now. feeling super lethargic, as usual. well, i've been dozing off in school, when i'm doing my stuff. my mum said she found a temp job for me at the ais(australian international school), under the purchase department... maybe its similar to the green shop or the manna store. sounds like fun, but they only need one person, so i'm sorry matilda, for not being able to bring you along. just hope i dont doze off when i cross the road, because i feel like i'm gonna fall asleep even when i'm crossing the road from philips to econs, which is gonna be dangerous for me if i cross the road alone.

ah well, i think the chance of me being run over by a car is pretty slim, but if i really end up sleeping on the road and the driver cant see me, then haha, its the end of briana ang. then again, its just my vivid imagination... its never gonna happen actually...

haha okay... good night :)

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No Such Thing - John Mayer

'Welcome to the real world', she said to me
Condescendingly
'Take a seat, take your life
Plot it out in black and white'
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
But something's better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take
the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits, maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't
Find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
But something's better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
as long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
As the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait till my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

[dell dimension 5150]

its finally here. haha the new computer has a 19-inch LCD screen. its kinda big and scary. haha.

i hope shes okay... its sounds pretty serious.

finally able to play maple story... haha and i'm mage now. level 8. because i finally have a video card. which means i can play sims 2. but i guess i'll have to wait a long time to buy it, and after buying it, i have to wait a long time before i can actually sit down and play it. haha.

i am extremely hungry and tired. look at the time now. i should be sleeping... haha i will after posting.

i feel kinda bad for not going for the 2/3 outing today... well its just that christine sounded so excited when she was telling me the entire programme for the day. then when i said i couldnt go... she didnt really have anything to say after that. so i feeling guilty for not going... but i dont really regret now. haha i did have fun in school. :D

my bro's not at home. i dont know how he can keep up... he had some leadership camp on monday. and he's off for some chalet now. but heck. i cant even keep awake for one day. i dozed off while setting up the new computer. i was so eager to set it up myself, and my mum did it in the end. gah. but its so empty now. no files, no software. nothing. except a few music files, a few pictures (only 3), gunbound and maple story. then there's msn, ulead and the mcafee virus thing. other than that, its really bare. there are no ms softwares, but there are games. hmmm...

i love the keyboard and the mouse though. they're wireless! and the design is cool. the speakers dont look unique though, but heck.

[confusion]

zong ling:
hey zl! thanks for being shall a cool equalite. thanks for entertaining me when i was bored. haha although i seldom talk to you, but you're still a rare friend. thanks :D

val:
hey spasticated leader! haha sorry for arguing with you for practically the entire year... but still thanks, for teaching me many stuff and helping me when i needed it. i have learnt a lot after the whole experience. thanks val :)
P.S. oh and i dont think j*** has given up yet... haha

julienne:
hey! thanks for cheering me up with that perky personality you have. haha i still cant believe i wrote that in the minutes... but anyway, thanks for being such a wonderful junior. haha i will never ever forget how you almost fell and how you reacted during the presentations. haha. thanks for being such a sunshine and the most hardworking member. most of all, thanks for being a great friend. :D

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i realised i have forgotten to do something very important... haha actualyl its not THAT important. but oh wells. thats eating. so i guess its important...

???

the dimension 5150 is arriving tomorrow. i dont know if thats late or early. but its one day early. yay.

[thank you]

after reading mag's and julienne's blogs, i decided to do the same as well. :)

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elizabeth:
thanks for being such a nice a cute friend for almost 4 years. actually we didnt really know each other for the first two years... so anyway. thanks for being so understanding and calm when it comes to almost anything. i've enjoyed your ramblings about certain issues and it's really fun hanging out with you. well, i'll take this oppurtuinity to apologize for the times i offended you in any way. sorry... thanks for being a wonderful friend. :)

matilda:
heyhey! thanks for always being there to speak your mind. well that amuses me in some way. haha. anyway, i got to know you better last year. haha i still remember back in P6, when we were going home, a woman came up to us. and she mistook matilda for fatimah. dont know if you still remember, but its okay. thanks for giving me advice and helping me out in any way. you're a great equalite. :)

magdalene:
thanks for being there to hear me out when i needed a listening ear. it was really fun being in 2/3 and playing around with the rest of the equalites. you have a bright personality. haha two years felt like 10 years or something. thanks for being a great friend. :)

geraldine:
hey! thanks for able to tolerate my lameness and nonsense. thanks for listening to my problems and i guess that really helped alot. although we've known each other for only two years, i got to know a lot about you. thanks for being a BRIGHT person and thanks for helping me out when i needed ny help. thanks

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erm, shall stop for now.