[condemned]
okay, now i know the entire class is gonna hate me, for i was the one who posted the message about the chalet being postponed. what am i saying? im pretty much hated by everyone. so i do feel guilty, regretting it lar. but then again, i'm still quite mad. whatever it is, if the class wants to blame me for all this, then fine, im fine with that. i will put up with all that for as long as i can.
the spot where the pin poked me is like swollen and that tiny hole where the pin was stuck in in like really red and obvious. okay, its starting to scare me. really... i know the pin was rusty and i think it was really hard, the way it cut through my flesh and all, as if its a smaller version of a stab, but a million times smaller or something, but i didnt know it will be this bad now... sigh... i'll just hope it'll be okay soon. even when walking around, my foot still hurts a little. it's really scaring me...
i have to gulp down 1.5 litres of coke by tomorrow, so i am obviously forcing the coke down my throat. because i need three 1.5 litre bottles for the science camp tomorrow. im not the worst. i think liz has to finish three bottles by tonight. sigh... its torturing. so i have a new best friend, the coke bottle. but i guess the coke bottle is gonna be cut up and stuff to make a rocket tomorrow. okay... that was lame, just trying to humour myself. i still have like half the bottle of coke left. too much coke before i go to bed... hmmm seems interesting. haha.
i've started on my holiday homework, which is really not i usually do, haha. o now you know... ah well, maybe you knew like a billion year, its just i didnt know you knew. haha. so i've started on maths. which was relatively easier because the last exam was maths and considering how much i have studied, i still didnt do well for maths. im so stupid.
did i mention my brother going for this 3day-2night sec 1 camp. he is coming back tomorrow, at 1pm. i'll be at science camp. sigh... so my nightmare will start again. he scolded me for taking his torchlight, well i didnt. because he blames me when whatever that belongs to him goes missing. so i dont really care about him. no point protesting. get maligned most of the time, which is of course ridiculous.
spent the entire day packing, cleaning up and yes, i am tired, but then im doing some stuff, so i cant sleep yet. some stuff, including drinking coke. and then while sitting there drinking coke, im gonna sink myself into deep thought again... haha. or probably do something to cheer myself up. i played internet games last night to cheer myself up. so i'll probably read, watch movies till late late late, until im happier, then i'll sleep.
i didnt have a very good dinner... because now i'm having coke. i think by the end of this, some of us might have this phobia of drinking and stuff. but i dont really think it'll happen.
i have like 1/4 left and i believe my poor stomach is gonna blow. besides that, im having a headache now.
charmed tomorrow. finally. i think its the last season, so its a must watch, since i keep forgetting to watch the one on star world. i think i missed so much i will go huh when i watch the show and might end up asking around what on earth happened in the previous season. and i have this strong feeling i might forget to watch it too although i just labelled it a must-watch show.
im gonna stop blogging now, although i have a lot to blog about, but dont know how to blog it out. haha sounds weird.. never mind.
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Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
Monday, May 30, 2005
[torn into pieces]
the results turned out to be a little of what i expected. like i feared, the science ca really did pull me down. sigh. even though i did slightly better than last year, but then its like i'm still disappointed in myself. i felt like crying on the spot, but i didnt, thank god. even though my mum said she knows i had done my best, but then i still feel very guilty. no point saying all these now right? what was done cant be undone, just blame it on myself.
stepped on a pin in the arc room while cleaning up. i was walking when i felt a sharp pain on my right sole. so i looked at it and was in shocked. i gasped because i saw a pin sticking out of my foot. so i pulled it out and realised it was rusty. my socks saved me. i removed my socks to check if it was bleeding. that was kinda stupid, because i know it'll definitely bleed, and have a pin stuck in you flesh, and it was rather deep. it wasnt bleeding but it did after a while. so i walked around school, one foot with socks and shoes, and the other completely bare. people were of course staring at me, as if i lost a shoe or something. was at st gabs with carmen and see kei when we saw thu, she went to sajc and said the people there slacked andslacked. haha, so we talked for a while before returning to the arc room. now my foot hurts a little. weird...
i feel like im totally clueless about everything. but then i dont really blame anyone... i feel like a total loser, thats all. i dont blame anyone for mostly anything. i have this awful feeling inside, and i want to blog about it, but then, i simply cant put it in words, i simply cant describe it. because i cant find anything to describe. its this really awful and sickening feeling i have had all along and i never knew how to express it.
the results turned out to be a little of what i expected. like i feared, the science ca really did pull me down. sigh. even though i did slightly better than last year, but then its like i'm still disappointed in myself. i felt like crying on the spot, but i didnt, thank god. even though my mum said she knows i had done my best, but then i still feel very guilty. no point saying all these now right? what was done cant be undone, just blame it on myself.
stepped on a pin in the arc room while cleaning up. i was walking when i felt a sharp pain on my right sole. so i looked at it and was in shocked. i gasped because i saw a pin sticking out of my foot. so i pulled it out and realised it was rusty. my socks saved me. i removed my socks to check if it was bleeding. that was kinda stupid, because i know it'll definitely bleed, and have a pin stuck in you flesh, and it was rather deep. it wasnt bleeding but it did after a while. so i walked around school, one foot with socks and shoes, and the other completely bare. people were of course staring at me, as if i lost a shoe or something. was at st gabs with carmen and see kei when we saw thu, she went to sajc and said the people there slacked andslacked. haha, so we talked for a while before returning to the arc room. now my foot hurts a little. weird...
i feel like im totally clueless about everything. but then i dont really blame anyone... i feel like a total loser, thats all. i dont blame anyone for mostly anything. i have this awful feeling inside, and i want to blog about it, but then, i simply cant put it in words, i simply cant describe it. because i cant find anything to describe. its this really awful and sickening feeling i have had all along and i never knew how to express it.
[you won't get to see the tears i cry]
listening to kelly clarkson's behind these hazel eyes. well listening to it, but its the video, its just that im not watching it. the video is a really good video. its about kelly getting married, but before the wedding, in this room, dressed in her bridal gown, she came across of this photo with her fiance and this other girl acting really intimately. so she dropped the bouquet of red roses she was holding on to and the photo frame. she started to imagine herself walking down the isle in this black dress. the bride isnt her, but that girl. then the girl and her fiance kissed after putting the rings on each other fingers. so when she, back to reality, was walking down the isle in the bridal gown and was about to have the ring on her finger, she glanced at that girl sitting somewhere, that girl was invited. so the girl was like flirting with the groom and kelly saw it. she ran out of the church to this forest which as rather creepy, because the trees had a few leaves, the ground was like foggy, probably dry ice, then the trees and stuff were black with the leaves falling. so she was running and stood there. she feel to her knees then laid there, covered with soil. it was raining and the bridal gown was destroyed with the mud. so she started to look really miserable. but it was really a good music video. it's almost like the music video of chemical romance's helena, very nice. but this video seemed more depressing and gives me this dark feeling. click here to view video.
sigh. in exactly 13 hours and 28 minutes, i can mock at myself for doing so badly. sigh.. the thought of the really disgusting grades and scores im gonna get is really scary... i feel like digging a hole in the ground and sticking my head in that hole like what the ostrich do or something just to save myself now... sigh...
whats even more demoralising is the dwindling numbers. more and more twothree-ers are calling up and telling mich and i they cant make it for the class chalet. then in the first place, tell us you didnt want it. why is it that yall had to make so much noise about wanting a class chalet last year, and now tell us you arent coming... it really does get on my nerves, you know. and each time someone calls me to say "hello. oh nana, i cant make it for the class chalet, is that okay?" i may seem cool, and say "okay, its okay" but then im actually not cool and wished they never called me to tell me all these. i feel like boxing them, argh. what a waste of time. finally, being able to organize a chalet for you fussy people, two duplez chalets at downtown east, where yall wanted, then you tell us you dont wanna go? what? everything that happened at novena church is gonna happen again? just tell me you cant come and thats it? it isnt your problem anymore, but has unknowingly become mine. i know i cant force yall to come for it, because who knows whose parents might just pursue me with a chopper, but i BEG yall to at least persuade your parents or make an effort to try to come, instead of being an idiot. i beg yall on my knees. i know it is our fault it was screwed last year, but now, after i did tell beverly and dawn last year we will have a class chalet this year, please do come.
sigh... im getting really stressed over the really bad response. i really wished they can make an effort to at least come for the bbq. at least the bbq, thats all i ask. sigh... being there for a few hours just bonding with the rest isnt that bad. i really want to scream because of this. now i also need anger management. im starting to hate 2/3. sigh, thats bad...
by the time we all receive our results, maybe there will be a miracle. everything will turn 180 degrees and probably more people will come i hope.
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i have to admit i have had enough of this. not because of ****. but things at home and in my social life. not only am i having an identity crisis at the moment, but also a really huge social crisis. i think my fear of people has just... i dont know... grown?
a strong front
be brave
pretence
no.
i feel really demoralised, very.
swallow me and spit me out
no i dont cry on the outside anymore
now all that's left of me...
is what I pretend to be
so together...
but so broken up inside
i'm barely hanging on
tired, exhausted. only these few words to describe how im feeling now. blame it on my lack of vocabulary. but i feel like my days are dwindling, closing in on me. sigh.
i remember what carmen, geraldine, val, brenda, see kei, velda and i were playing when we were at bugis after cip on saturday. we played this wheel thingy, a little like wheel of fortune. but then they have like a few chinese characters and each character meant something. mine meant that i had to smile more often in order for good things to happen. so i did, erm at least im trying to... sigh.
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Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
listening to kelly clarkson's behind these hazel eyes. well listening to it, but its the video, its just that im not watching it. the video is a really good video. its about kelly getting married, but before the wedding, in this room, dressed in her bridal gown, she came across of this photo with her fiance and this other girl acting really intimately. so she dropped the bouquet of red roses she was holding on to and the photo frame. she started to imagine herself walking down the isle in this black dress. the bride isnt her, but that girl. then the girl and her fiance kissed after putting the rings on each other fingers. so when she, back to reality, was walking down the isle in the bridal gown and was about to have the ring on her finger, she glanced at that girl sitting somewhere, that girl was invited. so the girl was like flirting with the groom and kelly saw it. she ran out of the church to this forest which as rather creepy, because the trees had a few leaves, the ground was like foggy, probably dry ice, then the trees and stuff were black with the leaves falling. so she was running and stood there. she feel to her knees then laid there, covered with soil. it was raining and the bridal gown was destroyed with the mud. so she started to look really miserable. but it was really a good music video. it's almost like the music video of chemical romance's helena, very nice. but this video seemed more depressing and gives me this dark feeling. click here to view video.
sigh. in exactly 13 hours and 28 minutes, i can mock at myself for doing so badly. sigh.. the thought of the really disgusting grades and scores im gonna get is really scary... i feel like digging a hole in the ground and sticking my head in that hole like what the ostrich do or something just to save myself now... sigh...
whats even more demoralising is the dwindling numbers. more and more twothree-ers are calling up and telling mich and i they cant make it for the class chalet. then in the first place, tell us you didnt want it. why is it that yall had to make so much noise about wanting a class chalet last year, and now tell us you arent coming... it really does get on my nerves, you know. and each time someone calls me to say "hello. oh nana, i cant make it for the class chalet, is that okay?" i may seem cool, and say "okay, its okay" but then im actually not cool and wished they never called me to tell me all these. i feel like boxing them, argh. what a waste of time. finally, being able to organize a chalet for you fussy people, two duplez chalets at downtown east, where yall wanted, then you tell us you dont wanna go? what? everything that happened at novena church is gonna happen again? just tell me you cant come and thats it? it isnt your problem anymore, but has unknowingly become mine. i know i cant force yall to come for it, because who knows whose parents might just pursue me with a chopper, but i BEG yall to at least persuade your parents or make an effort to try to come, instead of being an idiot. i beg yall on my knees. i know it is our fault it was screwed last year, but now, after i did tell beverly and dawn last year we will have a class chalet this year, please do come.
sigh... im getting really stressed over the really bad response. i really wished they can make an effort to at least come for the bbq. at least the bbq, thats all i ask. sigh... being there for a few hours just bonding with the rest isnt that bad. i really want to scream because of this. now i also need anger management. im starting to hate 2/3. sigh, thats bad...
by the time we all receive our results, maybe there will be a miracle. everything will turn 180 degrees and probably more people will come i hope.
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i have to admit i have had enough of this. not because of ****. but things at home and in my social life. not only am i having an identity crisis at the moment, but also a really huge social crisis. i think my fear of people has just... i dont know... grown?
a strong front
be brave
pretence
no.
i feel really demoralised, very.
swallow me and spit me out
no i dont cry on the outside anymore
now all that's left of me...
is what I pretend to be
so together...
but so broken up inside
i'm barely hanging on
tired, exhausted. only these few words to describe how im feeling now. blame it on my lack of vocabulary. but i feel like my days are dwindling, closing in on me. sigh.
i remember what carmen, geraldine, val, brenda, see kei, velda and i were playing when we were at bugis after cip on saturday. we played this wheel thingy, a little like wheel of fortune. but then they have like a few chinese characters and each character meant something. mine meant that i had to smile more often in order for good things to happen. so i did, erm at least im trying to... sigh.
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Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Friday, May 27, 2005
[what's going on?]
the ij heartbeat was really good. it was really nice and... nice. it was very very good. the band played well, the guitar played well, the choir was okay, i have never heard the choir sing before, except next to the ava.. haha. the dance ensemble was great and eldds was really good, they could act really well. then the second half of the concert was really cool too, it was a musical and mr chan was really amusiing. and i was sitting alone during the first half of the concert, because i bought the ticket like the day before the concert and i wasnt able to enter with teh sec 4 seniors. so i joined them in the second half. it wasnt so bad watching alone actually. for me. i was sitting in a corner and no one was around me, haha.
founder's day mass today, i had fun, as expected. went out with geraldine, matilda and velda after the mass. was suppose to meet mag at yio chu kang mrt but was late. we decided to take the train to dohby gaut, then take the north east line to seng kang just to take the lrt train. haha i know it was pretty dumb, but we're were all curious so we decided to make that trip down. we all sort of knew we wouldnt have enough time because it was already 11.45am and mag and velda hadnt eaten, but we didnt stop. when we got to somerset, mag looked really pale so we decided to take a rest at somerset. we decided to send mag home so we called her mother and we waited outside the mrt station so that mag could get some fresh air. she looked a little better after that but we still sent her home.
im pretty scared of # and %, dont ask me why. to be more precise, im afraid of !@#$%^&*(), thats probably all of them. sigh, why did i turn out like that? and now, im afraid of ++ and ==, im using symbols to avoid misunderstandings. then i dont know. am i drifting away or are they drifting away? i guess what mag said was true... sigh... it seems as though it isnt meant to be, and i dont seem to want to accept it at all... but i have to, no matter what right? it really pays to be alone. thank you.
the ij heartbeat was really good. it was really nice and... nice. it was very very good. the band played well, the guitar played well, the choir was okay, i have never heard the choir sing before, except next to the ava.. haha. the dance ensemble was great and eldds was really good, they could act really well. then the second half of the concert was really cool too, it was a musical and mr chan was really amusiing. and i was sitting alone during the first half of the concert, because i bought the ticket like the day before the concert and i wasnt able to enter with teh sec 4 seniors. so i joined them in the second half. it wasnt so bad watching alone actually. for me. i was sitting in a corner and no one was around me, haha.
founder's day mass today, i had fun, as expected. went out with geraldine, matilda and velda after the mass. was suppose to meet mag at yio chu kang mrt but was late. we decided to take the train to dohby gaut, then take the north east line to seng kang just to take the lrt train. haha i know it was pretty dumb, but we're were all curious so we decided to make that trip down. we all sort of knew we wouldnt have enough time because it was already 11.45am and mag and velda hadnt eaten, but we didnt stop. when we got to somerset, mag looked really pale so we decided to take a rest at somerset. we decided to send mag home so we called her mother and we waited outside the mrt station so that mag could get some fresh air. she looked a little better after that but we still sent her home.
im pretty scared of # and %, dont ask me why. to be more precise, im afraid of !@#$%^&*(), thats probably all of them. sigh, why did i turn out like that? and now, im afraid of ++ and ==, im using symbols to avoid misunderstandings. then i dont know. am i drifting away or are they drifting away? i guess what mag said was true... sigh... it seems as though it isnt meant to be, and i dont seem to want to accept it at all... but i have to, no matter what right? it really pays to be alone. thank you.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
[space]
we won third, mostly... by luck, considering the fact we didnt practice well, and there were so many loopholes. it was really luck, purely luck. i feel guilty because of three things. i wont tell you about no. 1 because it is really making me very very guilty. no. 2 it seems as though i didnt do my part in the team well and finally, no. 3, i should have balanced the soccer competition and the space competition equally, i feel rather guilty for the soccer competition. im sorry.
went out with mag and geraldine after school, after i have gotten over my guilt, well, not completely, still feeling guilty because of no. 1. anyway last year, after founders day mass, ma, liz, matilda and i went out together and it was super fun, we said to go together again this year, but i guess not. sigh... so the three of us went to j8 as mag wanted to buy the ear sticks at where i bought them since they were rather cheap. we did and wandered about j8, it was quite fun going out with them, since we had so many stuff to comment on, geraldine was like a shopping expert which seemed to know everything. she knew the price, where to buy stuff that were cheaper, its like shes a walking shopping guide you know. haha i bet she'll say im crippled because i said that.
ij heartbeat later, decided to go since denise convinced me. i got the free seating ticket so im not sure if i can sit with them. i'll probably sit alone, haha, actually that wasnt so bad, i did sit alone during the band concert. eunice was trying to get me to wear a skirt, well.... i wont. yea i will not wear a skirt. geez... it's 5.13pm and i m still in my school uniform, i better drop that habit of taking my own sweet time. haha.
i guess this competition sort of changed us a little, or maybe a lot. MAYBE... it did, but whatever it is, it did change us. probably how we communicate and bond with each other now. it's rather cool, joking so much, and working at the same time. i dont usually get that a lot, since people working with me will die because im far too serious and far too crazy, it makes people go bonkers. but this competition was like a second eye-opener. not that it hasnt opened my eye to that, but it has once again did.
what gloria said yesterday was really stuck in my head the entire day. as for today, i have tried my very best to stop thinking about it and focus on other things. it is a real irony, i havent done anything worth it. geez... but anyway, it is an irony. maybe i should start doing more...
ok shall go prepare now, i shall just wear jeans and tshirt. what tshirt? maybe the i love robotics shirt, since mag and geraldine kept telling me to wear it... haha anyway, bye! i think by the time i get home, my brother would be sitting in this chair and then hell give excuses like "you went out what!" arh heck him. being offline for a day is okay to me now, unlike him, he's addicted to the internet and msn. thats why you see me online so seldom huh?
we won third, mostly... by luck, considering the fact we didnt practice well, and there were so many loopholes. it was really luck, purely luck. i feel guilty because of three things. i wont tell you about no. 1 because it is really making me very very guilty. no. 2 it seems as though i didnt do my part in the team well and finally, no. 3, i should have balanced the soccer competition and the space competition equally, i feel rather guilty for the soccer competition. im sorry.
went out with mag and geraldine after school, after i have gotten over my guilt, well, not completely, still feeling guilty because of no. 1. anyway last year, after founders day mass, ma, liz, matilda and i went out together and it was super fun, we said to go together again this year, but i guess not. sigh... so the three of us went to j8 as mag wanted to buy the ear sticks at where i bought them since they were rather cheap. we did and wandered about j8, it was quite fun going out with them, since we had so many stuff to comment on, geraldine was like a shopping expert which seemed to know everything. she knew the price, where to buy stuff that were cheaper, its like shes a walking shopping guide you know. haha i bet she'll say im crippled because i said that.
ij heartbeat later, decided to go since denise convinced me. i got the free seating ticket so im not sure if i can sit with them. i'll probably sit alone, haha, actually that wasnt so bad, i did sit alone during the band concert. eunice was trying to get me to wear a skirt, well.... i wont. yea i will not wear a skirt. geez... it's 5.13pm and i m still in my school uniform, i better drop that habit of taking my own sweet time. haha.
i guess this competition sort of changed us a little, or maybe a lot. MAYBE... it did, but whatever it is, it did change us. probably how we communicate and bond with each other now. it's rather cool, joking so much, and working at the same time. i dont usually get that a lot, since people working with me will die because im far too serious and far too crazy, it makes people go bonkers. but this competition was like a second eye-opener. not that it hasnt opened my eye to that, but it has once again did.
what gloria said yesterday was really stuck in my head the entire day. as for today, i have tried my very best to stop thinking about it and focus on other things. it is a real irony, i havent done anything worth it. geez... but anyway, it is an irony. maybe i should start doing more...
ok shall go prepare now, i shall just wear jeans and tshirt. what tshirt? maybe the i love robotics shirt, since mag and geraldine kept telling me to wear it... haha anyway, bye! i think by the time i get home, my brother would be sitting in this chair and then hell give excuses like "you went out what!" arh heck him. being offline for a day is okay to me now, unlike him, he's addicted to the internet and msn. thats why you see me online so seldom huh?
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
[fairytale]
accomplished much today. banner 3/4 done, so proud, haha. and the - is working perfectly now, well, it's good.
just finished watching the harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban dvd celine lent me, my vcd is screwy, expected. harry potter and the goblet of fire is gonna be out on the 19th november. probably like star wars, full, waiting once again.
i love the class banner now. the "3" is so nice and shiny with the aluminium foil. i hope it wins the banner competition. after all that effort of looking for glue when the pva glue ran out, but i guess no one is able to stay back tomorrow to finish it. i shall try to finish it during recess i guess. just the handprints and the footprints, and the soccer ball, we're done!
decided to miss csi, since i have already missed the first half.
i wonder why the school hasnt said anything about the founder's day mass this friday. are we even having a mass?
i'm doing some weird quizzes on this website mag was going to earlier. haha it has weird quizzes with weird results, really... haha i have a nice jap name... Sachiko Shimizudani. actually i pretty much like that name.
today's maths trail was okay. my group won the champion for 2/3, a little ironic, since our answers were crap crap and crap, but we still won, haha. then my bag is too full now to even fit a trophy. we had the maths trail at the esplanade, which was of course pretty cool. mag and i were laughing our heads off talking about something on the way there. i was telling her this really really very funny story which was as disgusting but still funny. so i was grouped with astrid, cj and min su. min su and astrid were the smarties (haha chocolate!). cj and i were standing by and watching them, assisting hem in any way we could. thanks to astrid and min su's logical thinking, we won. which was of course good.
actually a lot happened today, but i dont know how to blog about them now; i am currently having a mental block, like i always do. so i'm sorry if you really think this post is so crappy it cant be anymore crappier. heh, well i need to go sleep anyway, feeling extremely lethargic. good night =]
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i'm trying to keep my spirits up, always cheering myself up, i sure hope it works. it sounds like im running away from my problems, cheating myself. but am i? i sue do not know. maybe to me, happiness can sometimes be a sin. =]
i hope that not only will i be able to stop worrying certain people, but to also make them much happier. it doesnt make a difference. it doesnt at all, why bother right?
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to ###: take care.
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Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete
accomplished much today. banner 3/4 done, so proud, haha. and the - is working perfectly now, well, it's good.
just finished watching the harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban dvd celine lent me, my vcd is screwy, expected. harry potter and the goblet of fire is gonna be out on the 19th november. probably like star wars, full, waiting once again.
i love the class banner now. the "3" is so nice and shiny with the aluminium foil. i hope it wins the banner competition. after all that effort of looking for glue when the pva glue ran out, but i guess no one is able to stay back tomorrow to finish it. i shall try to finish it during recess i guess. just the handprints and the footprints, and the soccer ball, we're done!
decided to miss csi, since i have already missed the first half.
i wonder why the school hasnt said anything about the founder's day mass this friday. are we even having a mass?
i'm doing some weird quizzes on this website mag was going to earlier. haha it has weird quizzes with weird results, really... haha i have a nice jap name... Sachiko Shimizudani. actually i pretty much like that name.
today's maths trail was okay. my group won the champion for 2/3, a little ironic, since our answers were crap crap and crap, but we still won, haha. then my bag is too full now to even fit a trophy. we had the maths trail at the esplanade, which was of course pretty cool. mag and i were laughing our heads off talking about something on the way there. i was telling her this really really very funny story which was as disgusting but still funny. so i was grouped with astrid, cj and min su. min su and astrid were the smarties (haha chocolate!). cj and i were standing by and watching them, assisting hem in any way we could. thanks to astrid and min su's logical thinking, we won. which was of course good.
actually a lot happened today, but i dont know how to blog about them now; i am currently having a mental block, like i always do. so i'm sorry if you really think this post is so crappy it cant be anymore crappier. heh, well i need to go sleep anyway, feeling extremely lethargic. good night =]
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i'm trying to keep my spirits up, always cheering myself up, i sure hope it works. it sounds like im running away from my problems, cheating myself. but am i? i sue do not know. maybe to me, happiness can sometimes be a sin. =]
i hope that not only will i be able to stop worrying certain people, but to also make them much happier. it doesnt make a difference. it doesnt at all, why bother right?
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to ###: take care.
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Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete
Monday, May 23, 2005
[forget the sorrow]
haha this weekend has been a pretty good weekend for me. thats good =]
ended cip early again yesterday. but went to bugis with mag, matilda, savie, delle, novita and suhui to eat. mag, matilda and i had this pepsi competition. unfortunately for me, i had a large pepsi because i dont know why mag bought it and she was bugging me to share it with her, so i bought a regular pepsi for her and she gave me the large one instead. matilda had the medium one, dont know why either. we all almost died with 2/3 of our stomachs filled with pepsi. so mag bought a zinger burger while both matilda and i bought a shrooms burger. we felt better after that. i managed to finish the large pepsi with mag's help, we all finished our pepsi, haha. then talked about certain stuuff and they left first. since someone wanted to sit at the table, i moved away, finding myself nowhere to sit, thus leaving my bag at the table where the seniors were sitting and walked around seiyu, since i didnt wanna stand there and do nothing. so i went to kinokuniya and start to look for books and read. then the seniors were kind to bring my bag up to the third floor. we hung around there and i went to j8 with savie and delle before meeting gretchen and christine to buy the banner and the materials for the banner.
after sitting in delifrance for about 30 minutes or so, watching them sleep on the table and other stuff, we left. i headed for plaza sing, to meet gretchen and christine. did i mention gretchen and christine being my elder sisters, haha so nice. but they're far smarter than i am, topping the class, unlike me, my skull is empty, hehe. due to my ignorance, i was amazed when i stepped into spotlight, which was of course embarrassing, considering the fact that i have never been there and not knowing what kind of place is that. we spent about an hour there, looking for the right cloth and then cutting it and looking for the right paint sure took us long enough. we spent a total of $54.20 on those stuff. ex...
gretchen and i then went all the way to art friend to buy banner paint but was mad to find the shop close. so we were mad for a period of like 5 minutes? haha she told me about the perfect 10 dares you to earlier that day and was telling me all about the disgusting dares. one of which this guy had to smash his phone for $20. and the phone still looked new. i will only say thats crazy.
i love gretchen's ipod! was listening from spotlight, to art friend, to the mrt station. it has 1257 songs and its really cool. i dont really like the ipod mini though. i kept telling her "gretchen, your ipod rocks" and i think i told her that for about 20 times. haha i still love it.
i went to christine and celine's house today. did nothing at celine's house except watching tv and watching 1 disc of 100% senorita. had lunch and i had to guess which was celine's bed, she's sharing a room with her other two sisters. so i made a guess because there was a harry potter book there. she denied it, but i was right. the walls of the room are pasted with lindsay lohan and hilary duff's posters and pictures. another reason why i knew it was celine's bed was because i noticed the kingdom hearts calendar i made for her. haha
then we headed for christine's house. it's so far in, i kept asking "are we there yet? is it that one?" celine was starting to get annoyed wit me. haha. and christine's room is on the third floor of a semi-detached. my stamina must be low, i almost died climbing all the way up. so we had fun drawing the banner and painting it. pui foong has this weird sense of humour and i cant stop laughing just listening to her ridiculous jokes. haha
finally bought ear sticks. slow right? haha never mind. =]
Last Train Home - Lost Prophets
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
haha this weekend has been a pretty good weekend for me. thats good =]
ended cip early again yesterday. but went to bugis with mag, matilda, savie, delle, novita and suhui to eat. mag, matilda and i had this pepsi competition. unfortunately for me, i had a large pepsi because i dont know why mag bought it and she was bugging me to share it with her, so i bought a regular pepsi for her and she gave me the large one instead. matilda had the medium one, dont know why either. we all almost died with 2/3 of our stomachs filled with pepsi. so mag bought a zinger burger while both matilda and i bought a shrooms burger. we felt better after that. i managed to finish the large pepsi with mag's help, we all finished our pepsi, haha. then talked about certain stuuff and they left first. since someone wanted to sit at the table, i moved away, finding myself nowhere to sit, thus leaving my bag at the table where the seniors were sitting and walked around seiyu, since i didnt wanna stand there and do nothing. so i went to kinokuniya and start to look for books and read. then the seniors were kind to bring my bag up to the third floor. we hung around there and i went to j8 with savie and delle before meeting gretchen and christine to buy the banner and the materials for the banner.
after sitting in delifrance for about 30 minutes or so, watching them sleep on the table and other stuff, we left. i headed for plaza sing, to meet gretchen and christine. did i mention gretchen and christine being my elder sisters, haha so nice. but they're far smarter than i am, topping the class, unlike me, my skull is empty, hehe. due to my ignorance, i was amazed when i stepped into spotlight, which was of course embarrassing, considering the fact that i have never been there and not knowing what kind of place is that. we spent about an hour there, looking for the right cloth and then cutting it and looking for the right paint sure took us long enough. we spent a total of $54.20 on those stuff. ex...
gretchen and i then went all the way to art friend to buy banner paint but was mad to find the shop close. so we were mad for a period of like 5 minutes? haha she told me about the perfect 10 dares you to earlier that day and was telling me all about the disgusting dares. one of which this guy had to smash his phone for $20. and the phone still looked new. i will only say thats crazy.
i love gretchen's ipod! was listening from spotlight, to art friend, to the mrt station. it has 1257 songs and its really cool. i dont really like the ipod mini though. i kept telling her "gretchen, your ipod rocks" and i think i told her that for about 20 times. haha i still love it.
i went to christine and celine's house today. did nothing at celine's house except watching tv and watching 1 disc of 100% senorita. had lunch and i had to guess which was celine's bed, she's sharing a room with her other two sisters. so i made a guess because there was a harry potter book there. she denied it, but i was right. the walls of the room are pasted with lindsay lohan and hilary duff's posters and pictures. another reason why i knew it was celine's bed was because i noticed the kingdom hearts calendar i made for her. haha
then we headed for christine's house. it's so far in, i kept asking "are we there yet? is it that one?" celine was starting to get annoyed wit me. haha. and christine's room is on the third floor of a semi-detached. my stamina must be low, i almost died climbing all the way up. so we had fun drawing the banner and painting it. pui foong has this weird sense of humour and i cant stop laughing just listening to her ridiculous jokes. haha
finally bought ear sticks. slow right? haha never mind. =]
Last Train Home - Lost Prophets
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Life is good and bad. You know it can never be
perfect and that it never have been, and you're
fine with that. You still feel it's important
to live life since it can end any day and not
sulk because of some little failure in life.
You are often a happy person, still you don't
laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm
aura and most people feel comfortable around
you.
How do you see life?
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haha thats nice =]
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Your element is Fire. Like fire, you have a hot
temper and you can be warm and loving as well
and angry and wild. It all really comes down to
what you are feeling. You have a lot of close
friends who you are very protective over, and
with your temper probably some enemies too. You
are not Miss Popular in school since you are
your own person and don't want to be forced
into behaving this or that way. You are the
untamed wild horse, the kind that everyone
wants to catch. But you don't want to be tied
down for the moment and just keep going with
your little crushes. Your will is strong and if
you set your mind to do something, you will
most likely succeed. But beware, your friends
may not always accept your mood-swinging
behaviour. Even if you don't mean to be mean,
they can still feel hurt. You just need to
start thinking some things through before you
do them, and not always jump in with so much
courage. One day you may be hurt because of
that, but then again, your element isn't fire
if you start to analyse situations before you
act. After all, your nature is to shoot first
and ask the questions later. Rate and message!
What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]
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haha most likely succeed? haha weird... never seemed to happen.
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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quite true... thats probably why people think im so anti-social? haha sounds bad to them...
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Your Evanescence song is: Give Unto Me
A person you care deeply about is in mental
pain. You don't really understand why, but
somehow helping him/her means more to you than
if you was the one in pain. You want to make
them feel better but don't really know what to
do. This person you care about probably
isolates himself and that makes you hurt
inside.
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
What Evanescence song are you?[many outcomes + wonderful pictures]
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yea its probably true...
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You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.
Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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samurai! cool! haha but isnt very true though...
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
brought to you by Quizilla
the cracked face is scary and gothic-like... reminds me of evanescence's my immortal. sheesh... the other pictures are kinda freaky as well...
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was reading debby's blog when i came across these. so decided to do them all. i have almost the same results as hers... then again, some are half-true but some are plain crap. maybe 1 or 2 are true.
cip was fun. there was this dog when i was at one of the houses. i pressed the doorbell, and it was running out, stood at the door, stared at me and ran back, as if it was gonna call its owner or something. it was simply adorable. haha then went to sim lim with carmen, val, velda, seekei and geraldine to get something. geraldine, carmen and i then went to pray at the temple and slacked in macs. we were making everything look funny, had lots of fun with them. then geraldine left and we were doing lame stuff on the mrt train. we did that star thing with our fingers and the feet together and all. carmen left and the four of us were doing this "ARC" thing with our fingers and took photos of the star, our feet and the "ARC" thing. i then went to the library, but i didnt manage to get my hands on the pendragon fifth book, black water, by DJ Machale. was rather disappointed since i didnt manage to find that book liz and jaime borrowed that day, looks like they borrowed both the books that were available. so spent an hour there looking for good books and yea i did find myself four nice books that would not bore me for now. haha
i shall go watch the elektra vcd i bought on thursday, its probably gonna be cool and a little boring... but anyway, im still gonna watch it. and i wanna watch star wars. i wanna see anakin skywalker turn to darkness and padme is gonna have twins, luke and leia. yea. its difficult for anyone to watch it now, since all the tickets for star wars are selling fast and it is probably available if i book it online... i shall wait patiently then...
[let go of your disguise]
i dont know what the heck is wrong with me.. geez, im so dumb man... i keep missing either the A2 of B4 grade by a mere 1 or 2 marks. and i didnt do well for geography. history was unexpected.... lit was expected. maths was frustrating. chinese was frustrating as well... gah i have to blame it on myself, for not being able to focus better and not being able to absorb more knowledge, maybe i have absorbed very little knowledge. the CA will pull me up right? i hope.
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sometimes i really hope my friends dont hurt themselves or do anything wrong to themselves because of certain reasons. it isnt the end of the world yet. and doing the extreme does mean something. it does make a difference. and a big difference to us. i dont find any valid reason to do such things.
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i shall stop being a hypocrite as well, start reflecting briana, and admit it, if things were meant to go this way, then there's no stopping to it. i have these thoughts in my head that are really distracting me from doing things right. these thoughts are mostly what has happened and i have looked deeper into it, leaving more questions and searching for more answers. this is ridiculous, maybe. if one day i really died, i dont know what will actually happen. maybe that difference would be.. erm... hmmm... people's life better? or a pest less in this world? haha i don't know what im saying as well. i will better after a while, i will.
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Are you waiting for that day
when your pain disappears
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you couldn't care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
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this song makes me wanna smile sometimes, because it really has what i wanna say but unable to express =]
that is probabaly why i'm such a stupid idiot. because of this. sigh =]
i dont know what the heck is wrong with me.. geez, im so dumb man... i keep missing either the A2 of B4 grade by a mere 1 or 2 marks. and i didnt do well for geography. history was unexpected.... lit was expected. maths was frustrating. chinese was frustrating as well... gah i have to blame it on myself, for not being able to focus better and not being able to absorb more knowledge, maybe i have absorbed very little knowledge. the CA will pull me up right? i hope.
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sometimes i really hope my friends dont hurt themselves or do anything wrong to themselves because of certain reasons. it isnt the end of the world yet. and doing the extreme does mean something. it does make a difference. and a big difference to us. i dont find any valid reason to do such things.
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i shall stop being a hypocrite as well, start reflecting briana, and admit it, if things were meant to go this way, then there's no stopping to it. i have these thoughts in my head that are really distracting me from doing things right. these thoughts are mostly what has happened and i have looked deeper into it, leaving more questions and searching for more answers. this is ridiculous, maybe. if one day i really died, i dont know what will actually happen. maybe that difference would be.. erm... hmmm... people's life better? or a pest less in this world? haha i don't know what im saying as well. i will better after a while, i will.
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Are you waiting for that day
when your pain disappears
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you couldn't care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
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this song makes me wanna smile sometimes, because it really has what i wanna say but unable to express =]
that is probabaly why i'm such a stupid idiot. because of this. sigh =]
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
[yayness?]
im tired, very very tired. i dont know why either. probably because i have been running around like mad, haha no choice.
received science and english papers today. english was a horror (it's always a horror) and science was pretty ok... i might wanna consider working harder the next time. literature is definitely gonna give me a fatal stab right into my vital organs tomorrow, not to mention geography, history and maths. geez... i think i'll just die of shock.
interclass fashion competition was okay. well we didnt win, but i still had fun when we were preparing for it. now its the interclass soccer competition. its a pity i cant participate in it because its next thursday, the 26th. so i have to be in banner now. just finished designing the banner and i guess its really plain and ugly. having this lack of inspiration now, very bad.
i feel like the slackiest person walking this planet now. i suddenly lost the motivation to work, and i know it isnt the time for this. this is bad and i have to start forcing myself now, or else.... or else... never mind.
my brother is next to me now, making sure i dont sign into msn, ah fine. i wont. he wants to make sure i get off this computer asap. he seems to be very okay with me blogging now, for i dont know why either.
we had this praxis thing today. played some board game and it was super fun. i got retrenched like 4 times. but my luck isnt that that bad after all. well maybe thats just what i think.this praxis thing is supposed to be some course on saving money. haha everyone, including me seems to be more interested in the board game than what that mr chiew is saying. we're playing the game again tomorrow, ahah yayness. i think i picked up the "yayness" from betina because she kept saying "yayness" during the game that i picked it up, haha i better stop that... now...
okay i dont know what on earth to blog about now. my mind is a blank and i'm gonna start stoning again before i go sleep. i better go eat something or do something. ah well i shall then! good night! haha
im tired, very very tired. i dont know why either. probably because i have been running around like mad, haha no choice.
received science and english papers today. english was a horror (it's always a horror) and science was pretty ok... i might wanna consider working harder the next time. literature is definitely gonna give me a fatal stab right into my vital organs tomorrow, not to mention geography, history and maths. geez... i think i'll just die of shock.
interclass fashion competition was okay. well we didnt win, but i still had fun when we were preparing for it. now its the interclass soccer competition. its a pity i cant participate in it because its next thursday, the 26th. so i have to be in banner now. just finished designing the banner and i guess its really plain and ugly. having this lack of inspiration now, very bad.
i feel like the slackiest person walking this planet now. i suddenly lost the motivation to work, and i know it isnt the time for this. this is bad and i have to start forcing myself now, or else.... or else... never mind.
my brother is next to me now, making sure i dont sign into msn, ah fine. i wont. he wants to make sure i get off this computer asap. he seems to be very okay with me blogging now, for i dont know why either.
we had this praxis thing today. played some board game and it was super fun. i got retrenched like 4 times. but my luck isnt that that bad after all. well maybe thats just what i think.this praxis thing is supposed to be some course on saving money. haha everyone, including me seems to be more interested in the board game than what that mr chiew is saying. we're playing the game again tomorrow, ahah yayness. i think i picked up the "yayness" from betina because she kept saying "yayness" during the game that i picked it up, haha i better stop that... now...
okay i dont know what on earth to blog about now. my mind is a blank and i'm gonna start stoning again before i go sleep. i better go eat something or do something. ah well i shall then! good night! haha
Monday, May 16, 2005
[the stupid things]
overslept today. well expected. haha its funny to have two people outside your house banging on the window when there isnt anyone at home but yourself. haha i was such a pig man. celine and min su were banging on the window and then min su shouted for me, now, thats a shocking. she would never scream and shout like what she did today. i had a weird dream again, but was strangely awoken by the banging of my bedroom window. yea then watched 2 eps of 100% senorita today. was fooling around as usual. but we got things done. haha today was an extraordinary day for me, i had the most fun, haha, even though we spent it at home. celine started telling min su and i about harry potter and the goblet fire, the movie and was telling us how pretty the new cho chang was, how ugly victor krum was and how shuai cedric diggory was. it was a laugh when she was showing us this website, http://www.danradcliffe.co.uk/, and daniel radcliffe in this david copperfield film in 2000, when he was very young. she was going mad over how adorable the young boy looked. min su n i did nothing but stare at her, then at the computer.
its gonna be slightly hectic these few days. i hope we do well for tomorrow's interclass fashion competition tomorrow. to me, ours is very good. but maybe tomorrow, there are other groups who are better than us. still have to prepare the music cd now. and then i have to burn the part 2 of 100% senorita.
ah well i realised i have practically nothing to say, since i overslept till 2pm today... haha
overslept today. well expected. haha its funny to have two people outside your house banging on the window when there isnt anyone at home but yourself. haha i was such a pig man. celine and min su were banging on the window and then min su shouted for me, now, thats a shocking. she would never scream and shout like what she did today. i had a weird dream again, but was strangely awoken by the banging of my bedroom window. yea then watched 2 eps of 100% senorita today. was fooling around as usual. but we got things done. haha today was an extraordinary day for me, i had the most fun, haha, even though we spent it at home. celine started telling min su and i about harry potter and the goblet fire, the movie and was telling us how pretty the new cho chang was, how ugly victor krum was and how shuai cedric diggory was. it was a laugh when she was showing us this website, http://www.danradcliffe.co.uk/, and daniel radcliffe in this david copperfield film in 2000, when he was very young. she was going mad over how adorable the young boy looked. min su n i did nothing but stare at her, then at the computer.
its gonna be slightly hectic these few days. i hope we do well for tomorrow's interclass fashion competition tomorrow. to me, ours is very good. but maybe tomorrow, there are other groups who are better than us. still have to prepare the music cd now. and then i have to burn the part 2 of 100% senorita.
ah well i realised i have practically nothing to say, since i overslept till 2pm today... haha
[100% Senorita]
its gonna be dawn soon. i cant sleep. because i havent slept for two nights. and i slept till 3pm today (sunday). i finished watching 100% senorita. it have a wonderful ending! except it didnt include the wedding and all. and the other stuff about that guy being released from prison and what. everything ended with the twin sisters steeping out of the car and the company welcoming them. then xiao feng's shoe flew and zhelin caught it and put the shoe on for her, then blah and blah, everyone cheered and the end. abrupt but still a happy ending. penny lin, who played feiyang in 100% senorita and shanni in dolphin bay, contracted cancer. but luckily, in 100% senorita, she was cured, unlike shanni who died. both have to be sick. but since feiyang is the main character, i guess she shouldnt die. haha. well, i dont like seeing people die, its just so sad.
it's almost 4am, and i can hear people shouting in the neighbourhood. what is their problem? sounds like scolding a child, quite scary... actually very, im a little freaked by it now. trying to look for someone to chat to distract myself. unfortunately, there isnt anyone online, so i signed in to my yahoo acc, and was glad to see my us pen pal online, so i chatted with her, only saying hi and what time is it now. yea... no one is online. yes no on. what am i saying? its 4am! there isnt suppose to be anyone online.
celine, min su and fiona coming over later. to do the costume for the inter class fashion competition. haha we had fun yesterday (saturday). when i went completely mad while watching 100% senorita and having lunch at the same time. i was making funny faces and celine was teasing me about it. well these are casual gestures. but still, i had fun because i was coming up with weird ideas that were quite impossible and was losing my mind. haha.
i still wanna go on about 100% senorita. i sound like an advertisement person or whatever. anyway, liz isnt as bad as me. she will just type one sentence "DEEP BLUE SEA AT 7.30PM" but i will be long winded and type a whole lot of crap about a certain thing. maybe it isnt crap to me, but maybe to the people who are reading it. haha heck, i shall include it for me, myself and i to read. up to you whether you wanna read it or not. 100% senorita is a wonderful show, the difference between this show and dolphin bay is 100% senorita is a happier show, with of course a good storyline. theres still the crying but this show brings lots of fun and laughter as well.
haha the story is about a pair of twins separated at birth. because of this woman being a fertility mother for another family. and this another family is a wealthy family, owning a very big company, Formosa Enterprise. this fertility mother was gifted with a pair of twni daughters. so she took one daughter with her and left the other daughter behind, for the wealthy family. 20 years later, zhuang fei yang, the daughter who was left behind, grew up in the wealthy family. she was an intelligent girl, with a high education level and excellent temperament. but she was like a child, very spoilt. it was her 20th birthday and she never forget about it. her dad, the chairman of Formosa Enterprise, with the intention to give her daughter a surprise, died on the way back from the airport in a helicopter. the helicopter dropped and he died. so she was greatly affected. she had to take over the company at 20, haiyah poor thing. she had the help of the general manager of formosa, peter pan. he has a weird name. yea but he was evil. he sweet talked fei yang, then was "proposing" to her, and then stuff her in a damaged car and pushed it off the cliff. she was disfigured in the end, but some weird doctor who was crazy saved her and made her face like his daughter who died 3 years ago.
feiyang couldnt go anywhere. no one knew who she was, she had no identification. so she couldnt return to the company, neither could she go home. she was saved by this guy, weixiang, from some idiot on the street. then she fainted and weixiang brought her home. weixiang was part of the IM group. this group, consisting of five people living together, started a small business, since they needed money badly, to pay rent and stuff. so then they were actually waiters and waitresses at feiyang's 20th birthday. then, weixiang saved feiyang from a fall and they fell in love and stuff, haha that part was super dramatic. yea... then when they were out working, they met this girl, liang xiao feng. liang xiao feng looked exactly like feiyang, before the accident. actually is it an accident, or an attempted murder? haha i look at it as an accident. so yea. in order to get back what belonged to her, feiyang begged xiao feng to pose as feiyang and take revenge on peter pan, then get back what belongs to her. they didnt realise they were actually twin sisters, but they had the same habits and had some sort of telepathy going on between them. peter pan told the company and everyone that feiyang went to europe, and doesnt know when she'll be back. so everyone thought feiyang was there to enjoy herself. but of course the stupid peter pan pushed her off a cliff.
then a lot of stuff happened, like xiao feng being unable to read english, so she couldnt cope with the work in formosa. then haiyah, lots of like love triangles, like dolphin bay. according to liz, this show is very cliche, like what she said about dolphin bay. well... shes right. but i still like it lar. i strongly recommend this show. haha lyn wants it too, because wallace huo is in it. actually i was quite shocked when she was squealing about wallace huo and all in class because even though i've known her for the past five years, i didnt know she would like anything to do with chinese, including wallace huo, who is a taiwanese actor. haha, i am actually quite shocked. dolphin bay probably changed her mind. haha.
i have done two paragraphs on the show. im gonna leave a few links here.
Xing Fu De Di Tu - Elva Hsiao
Somebody - Wallace huo
geez, i better get some sleep so that i can start work. CHEESE. sayonara!
to all the people feeling down now: hey!!! cheer up, dont feel sad okay?
Disguise - Lene Marlin
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Are you waiting for that day
when your pain disappears
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you couldn't care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come
its gonna be dawn soon. i cant sleep. because i havent slept for two nights. and i slept till 3pm today (sunday). i finished watching 100% senorita. it have a wonderful ending! except it didnt include the wedding and all. and the other stuff about that guy being released from prison and what. everything ended with the twin sisters steeping out of the car and the company welcoming them. then xiao feng's shoe flew and zhelin caught it and put the shoe on for her, then blah and blah, everyone cheered and the end. abrupt but still a happy ending. penny lin, who played feiyang in 100% senorita and shanni in dolphin bay, contracted cancer. but luckily, in 100% senorita, she was cured, unlike shanni who died. both have to be sick. but since feiyang is the main character, i guess she shouldnt die. haha. well, i dont like seeing people die, its just so sad.
it's almost 4am, and i can hear people shouting in the neighbourhood. what is their problem? sounds like scolding a child, quite scary... actually very, im a little freaked by it now. trying to look for someone to chat to distract myself. unfortunately, there isnt anyone online, so i signed in to my yahoo acc, and was glad to see my us pen pal online, so i chatted with her, only saying hi and what time is it now. yea... no one is online. yes no on. what am i saying? its 4am! there isnt suppose to be anyone online.
celine, min su and fiona coming over later. to do the costume for the inter class fashion competition. haha we had fun yesterday (saturday). when i went completely mad while watching 100% senorita and having lunch at the same time. i was making funny faces and celine was teasing me about it. well these are casual gestures. but still, i had fun because i was coming up with weird ideas that were quite impossible and was losing my mind. haha.
i still wanna go on about 100% senorita. i sound like an advertisement person or whatever. anyway, liz isnt as bad as me. she will just type one sentence "DEEP BLUE SEA AT 7.30PM" but i will be long winded and type a whole lot of crap about a certain thing. maybe it isnt crap to me, but maybe to the people who are reading it. haha heck, i shall include it for me, myself and i to read. up to you whether you wanna read it or not. 100% senorita is a wonderful show, the difference between this show and dolphin bay is 100% senorita is a happier show, with of course a good storyline. theres still the crying but this show brings lots of fun and laughter as well.
haha the story is about a pair of twins separated at birth. because of this woman being a fertility mother for another family. and this another family is a wealthy family, owning a very big company, Formosa Enterprise. this fertility mother was gifted with a pair of twni daughters. so she took one daughter with her and left the other daughter behind, for the wealthy family. 20 years later, zhuang fei yang, the daughter who was left behind, grew up in the wealthy family. she was an intelligent girl, with a high education level and excellent temperament. but she was like a child, very spoilt. it was her 20th birthday and she never forget about it. her dad, the chairman of Formosa Enterprise, with the intention to give her daughter a surprise, died on the way back from the airport in a helicopter. the helicopter dropped and he died. so she was greatly affected. she had to take over the company at 20, haiyah poor thing. she had the help of the general manager of formosa, peter pan. he has a weird name. yea but he was evil. he sweet talked fei yang, then was "proposing" to her, and then stuff her in a damaged car and pushed it off the cliff. she was disfigured in the end, but some weird doctor who was crazy saved her and made her face like his daughter who died 3 years ago.
feiyang couldnt go anywhere. no one knew who she was, she had no identification. so she couldnt return to the company, neither could she go home. she was saved by this guy, weixiang, from some idiot on the street. then she fainted and weixiang brought her home. weixiang was part of the IM group. this group, consisting of five people living together, started a small business, since they needed money badly, to pay rent and stuff. so then they were actually waiters and waitresses at feiyang's 20th birthday. then, weixiang saved feiyang from a fall and they fell in love and stuff, haha that part was super dramatic. yea... then when they were out working, they met this girl, liang xiao feng. liang xiao feng looked exactly like feiyang, before the accident. actually is it an accident, or an attempted murder? haha i look at it as an accident. so yea. in order to get back what belonged to her, feiyang begged xiao feng to pose as feiyang and take revenge on peter pan, then get back what belongs to her. they didnt realise they were actually twin sisters, but they had the same habits and had some sort of telepathy going on between them. peter pan told the company and everyone that feiyang went to europe, and doesnt know when she'll be back. so everyone thought feiyang was there to enjoy herself. but of course the stupid peter pan pushed her off a cliff.
then a lot of stuff happened, like xiao feng being unable to read english, so she couldnt cope with the work in formosa. then haiyah, lots of like love triangles, like dolphin bay. according to liz, this show is very cliche, like what she said about dolphin bay. well... shes right. but i still like it lar. i strongly recommend this show. haha lyn wants it too, because wallace huo is in it. actually i was quite shocked when she was squealing about wallace huo and all in class because even though i've known her for the past five years, i didnt know she would like anything to do with chinese, including wallace huo, who is a taiwanese actor. haha, i am actually quite shocked. dolphin bay probably changed her mind. haha.
i have done two paragraphs on the show. im gonna leave a few links here.
Xing Fu De Di Tu - Elva Hsiao
Somebody - Wallace huo
geez, i better get some sleep so that i can start work. CHEESE. sayonara!
to all the people feeling down now: hey!!! cheer up, dont feel sad okay?
Disguise - Lene Marlin
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Are you waiting for that day
when your pain disappears
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you couldn't care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come
Friday, May 13, 2005
[joy & laughter?]
exams - over. i dont need to worry now. at least thats off my mind. now its time to focus on the sec 2 interclass fashion competition and other stuff... im tired, but i cant sleep. so yea...
bought 100% snorita today, watched 3 discs already.
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
yea i cant find it. and i m 200% sure its in this room. i just misplaced it... argh. 100% senorita is a nice show. and cliche(qupted from liz) but its still nice. haha what am i saying? i've said that a thousand times. but i have to say that taiwanese dramas are good. the cast can act well. yeah. they can like cry, then its so real. so i'm trying to waste my energy by watching vcds, like that i'll probably fall asleep and yeah, i'll fall asleep.
went out to have lunch with mag, liz, matilda, khym and jaime. mag, jaime and khym were so hilarious i couldnt swallow my food. sometimes i dont know what jaime is talking about, but just watching her laugh is just so amusing. then went to the library and was reading and reading. then we left. since i didnt go back to school after that, matilda and liz came to my house. liz and matilda were watching samurai x. and it feels a little weird to have the dvd absent now.. haha... then we watched 100% senorita and were having fun.
i better look for that stupid piece of treasure. my dolphin bay vcd... argh argh argh. im gonna cry if i really lose it. well not cry, but im gonna be very sad. very very very very sad. sigh sigh sigh
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sigh, i wish i can help them. i really do. but then its like i dont know how. i'm having that rotten feeling too. sometimes, i just dont know what to say to console them. sigh...
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She's No You - Jesse McCartney
They got a lotta girls
Who know they got it going on
But nothing's ever a comparison to you
Now can't you see that your the only one I really want
And everything I need
Is everything you do?
Any girl walk by, don't matter
'Cause your looking so much better
Don't ever need to get
Caught up in jealousy
She could be a super-model
Every magazine... the cover
She'll never, ever mean a thing to me...
[Chorus:]
She's no you... oh, no
You give me more than I could ever want
She's no you
I'm satisfied with the one I've got
'cause your all the girl
That I've ever dreamed
She's only a picture on a magazine
She's no you... she's no you
They got a lot of girls
Who dance in all the videos
But I prefer the way you do,
The way you move
You're more than beautiful
And I just wanna let you know
That all I ever need
Is what I've got with you
Any girl walk by, don't matter
Every time your looking better
I think your perfect
There ain't nothing I would change
She could be a super-model
Every magazine... the cover
She'll never, ever take my heart away
[Repeat chorus]
No one's ever gonna get to me
Oh, the way you do
Now baby can't you see
That you're the one... the only one
Who's ever made me feel this way?
Nothings ever coming even close
No one's ever been comparable to you
I don't want nothing I don't got
I don't need nothing but you
I can't get more than you're given me
Don't stop anything you do.
Your all that... all that, and then some
You know what... just what I need
And no girl, no place and no where
Could mean a thing to me.
[Repeat chorus]
exams - over. i dont need to worry now. at least thats off my mind. now its time to focus on the sec 2 interclass fashion competition and other stuff... im tired, but i cant sleep. so yea...
bought 100% snorita today, watched 3 discs already.
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
I CANT FIND MY DOLPHIN BAY VCD
yea i cant find it. and i m 200% sure its in this room. i just misplaced it... argh. 100% senorita is a nice show. and cliche(qupted from liz) but its still nice. haha what am i saying? i've said that a thousand times. but i have to say that taiwanese dramas are good. the cast can act well. yeah. they can like cry, then its so real. so i'm trying to waste my energy by watching vcds, like that i'll probably fall asleep and yeah, i'll fall asleep.
went out to have lunch with mag, liz, matilda, khym and jaime. mag, jaime and khym were so hilarious i couldnt swallow my food. sometimes i dont know what jaime is talking about, but just watching her laugh is just so amusing. then went to the library and was reading and reading. then we left. since i didnt go back to school after that, matilda and liz came to my house. liz and matilda were watching samurai x. and it feels a little weird to have the dvd absent now.. haha... then we watched 100% senorita and were having fun.
i better look for that stupid piece of treasure. my dolphin bay vcd... argh argh argh. im gonna cry if i really lose it. well not cry, but im gonna be very sad. very very very very sad. sigh sigh sigh
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sigh, i wish i can help them. i really do. but then its like i dont know how. i'm having that rotten feeling too. sometimes, i just dont know what to say to console them. sigh...
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She's No You - Jesse McCartney
They got a lotta girls
Who know they got it going on
But nothing's ever a comparison to you
Now can't you see that your the only one I really want
And everything I need
Is everything you do?
Any girl walk by, don't matter
'Cause your looking so much better
Don't ever need to get
Caught up in jealousy
She could be a super-model
Every magazine... the cover
She'll never, ever mean a thing to me...
[Chorus:]
She's no you... oh, no
You give me more than I could ever want
She's no you
I'm satisfied with the one I've got
'cause your all the girl
That I've ever dreamed
She's only a picture on a magazine
She's no you... she's no you
They got a lot of girls
Who dance in all the videos
But I prefer the way you do,
The way you move
You're more than beautiful
And I just wanna let you know
That all I ever need
Is what I've got with you
Any girl walk by, don't matter
Every time your looking better
I think your perfect
There ain't nothing I would change
She could be a super-model
Every magazine... the cover
She'll never, ever take my heart away
[Repeat chorus]
No one's ever gonna get to me
Oh, the way you do
Now baby can't you see
That you're the one... the only one
Who's ever made me feel this way?
Nothings ever coming even close
No one's ever been comparable to you
I don't want nothing I don't got
I don't need nothing but you
I can't get more than you're given me
Don't stop anything you do.
Your all that... all that, and then some
You know what... just what I need
And no girl, no place and no where
Could mean a thing to me.
[Repeat chorus]
Thursday, May 12, 2005
[immortal]
the thought of failing my exams is demoralising. whats worse is the thought of getting back my history and geography results. or maybe the rest. but anyway, the geog paper was a sad case. the history was worse. i didnt manage to finish the paper. now, that is demoralising. tomorrow's the maths paper. im gonna flunk it too. yes i am.
the last two days were rather useless. i think the three of us did nothing but discuss stuff. yesterday, we were discussing on whether abortion should be allowed in singapore. how did we get to that topic? hmm... haha i dont know either, or maybe i forgot. but we were talking and talking, about stuff. like abortion. haha but there's more. oh, now i remember how got there. or maybe im wrong. ah well. i cant stop eating. i just had 10 peanut candy. and now im munching on pola snacks. geez...
the dry run thing for the inter class fashion competition is tomorrow. actually i've got to agree with khym. min su's hat is too big and heavy for her. but then theres no way celine and i are gonna catwalk in that thing. modelling is already scary to me... i cant do it man, and I DONT WANNA DO IT fullstop
besides listening to the same samurai x song for more than 6 hours, i didnt know i can stick to my immortal for 5 hours. well, i always change after an hour. i still have to admit my immortal is a great song, even though the lyrics are geez... but then its still a nice song. haha i love it <3
my mind is so preoccupied with something i cant study. i can study, but only absorbing 60% of the text. then after a while, 10% gets wiped out. because i forget.
i just realized for the past i dont know how long, i have been complaining on this blog, rather than really blogging. maybe my definition of blogging is so different from yours. haha im not sure myself either.
class chalet is closing in on us. i just hope everyone did well, so more people can turn up, i'll probably not, if my results are lousy, but then again, my mum may relent. haha i dont know... she has been much more i dont know... nicer. yea.
My Immortal - Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
the thought of failing my exams is demoralising. whats worse is the thought of getting back my history and geography results. or maybe the rest. but anyway, the geog paper was a sad case. the history was worse. i didnt manage to finish the paper. now, that is demoralising. tomorrow's the maths paper. im gonna flunk it too. yes i am.
the last two days were rather useless. i think the three of us did nothing but discuss stuff. yesterday, we were discussing on whether abortion should be allowed in singapore. how did we get to that topic? hmm... haha i dont know either, or maybe i forgot. but we were talking and talking, about stuff. like abortion. haha but there's more. oh, now i remember how got there. or maybe im wrong. ah well. i cant stop eating. i just had 10 peanut candy. and now im munching on pola snacks. geez...
the dry run thing for the inter class fashion competition is tomorrow. actually i've got to agree with khym. min su's hat is too big and heavy for her. but then theres no way celine and i are gonna catwalk in that thing. modelling is already scary to me... i cant do it man, and I DONT WANNA DO IT fullstop
besides listening to the same samurai x song for more than 6 hours, i didnt know i can stick to my immortal for 5 hours. well, i always change after an hour. i still have to admit my immortal is a great song, even though the lyrics are geez... but then its still a nice song. haha i love it <3
my mind is so preoccupied with something i cant study. i can study, but only absorbing 60% of the text. then after a while, 10% gets wiped out. because i forget.
i just realized for the past i dont know how long, i have been complaining on this blog, rather than really blogging. maybe my definition of blogging is so different from yours. haha im not sure myself either.
class chalet is closing in on us. i just hope everyone did well, so more people can turn up, i'll probably not, if my results are lousy, but then again, my mum may relent. haha i dont know... she has been much more i dont know... nicer. yea.
My Immortal - Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
Monday, May 09, 2005
[inflexible stationery]
if liz said she screwed the exams, then that means i did as well. haha, well thats common sense right? anyway liz, i dont think you did. even if you didnt, it doesnt mean i didnt, haha. the science diagrams were annoying. they were. the root hairs one were. section c was a killer. gah...
chinese tomorrow and my intuition tells me im gonna die. yea i think im gonna die this week. no confidence at all, which is BAD!!! man... i better do some preparations, haha.
it's liz's birthday tomorrow, hehe... actually the "hehe" doesnt mean anything. but then again it was suppose to mean something, i ust cant think of what it is. haha =] actually liz, im not that shocked when you said its thought that counts. haha actually.... im not shocked, haha am i being mean now? if i am, its unintentional =]
our very own inflexible stationery! haha long story, im not gonna post it even if it isnt a long story! but then i enjoy that inflexible stationery joke... haha
im trying my best to avoid the exam stress, but then my defence barrier is weak, so cant help it. =] it suddenly became the exam of life and death, for a funny reason. geez i might have been taking it too seriously, but then again... I AM SUPPOSE TO TAKE IT SERIOUSLY, haha
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argh, i dont know whats with the pop-ups, i have the pop-ups block, but then i dont know why it isnt working very well. maybe its because my brother downloaded the kazaa thing. is the kazaa thing illegal? i thought it was, diana said at the start of last year it was illegal. is it? haha... i dont know. a few months ago, there was this "100% illegal" thing at the bottom of the page, now its like copyrighted and haiyah dont know, it just seems like its legal.
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are you ok? i hope you are. you are not a disappointment, trust me, you arent. we all love you, but you're hurting us by doing that. we all care. i managed to escape my darkness, even though i keep getting sucked in, but then i will not stop trying. i try to be happier, what about you? can you be happier? i know you can, dont belittle yourself, you are far better than you think. we'll all be happy to see you happy. really... you are strong, dont let anything affect you, overcome it, you do have the courage, dont think that you dont.
i'm worried, worried sick. i seriously dont know what to do. i dont know how to help, therefore making me feel helpless and useless. i have completely no idea how to help, because one mistake could make things worse, and i dont want it to happen. i dont want to know what will happen if things worsen, i dont think anyone would wanna know, anyone, namely me. it really does hurt when you see a bad situation and not being able to help. it will just give you this i'm-useless-get-out-of-my-way feeling. yeah.. maybe not "get-out-of-my-way" but then u will start to feel like you wanna start rotting and die.
Closer To Me - 5ive
Constantly girl you're on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.
[BRIDGE]
If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling it's you I believe in baby can't you see that I need you?
[CHORUS]
You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.
Nobody's there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.
[BRIDGE]
[CHORUS]
Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can't forget
there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things
I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you.
[CHORUS]
if liz said she screwed the exams, then that means i did as well. haha, well thats common sense right? anyway liz, i dont think you did. even if you didnt, it doesnt mean i didnt, haha. the science diagrams were annoying. they were. the root hairs one were. section c was a killer. gah...
chinese tomorrow and my intuition tells me im gonna die. yea i think im gonna die this week. no confidence at all, which is BAD!!! man... i better do some preparations, haha.
it's liz's birthday tomorrow, hehe... actually the "hehe" doesnt mean anything. but then again it was suppose to mean something, i ust cant think of what it is. haha =] actually liz, im not that shocked when you said its thought that counts. haha actually.... im not shocked, haha am i being mean now? if i am, its unintentional =]
our very own inflexible stationery! haha long story, im not gonna post it even if it isnt a long story! but then i enjoy that inflexible stationery joke... haha
im trying my best to avoid the exam stress, but then my defence barrier is weak, so cant help it. =] it suddenly became the exam of life and death, for a funny reason. geez i might have been taking it too seriously, but then again... I AM SUPPOSE TO TAKE IT SERIOUSLY, haha
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argh, i dont know whats with the pop-ups, i have the pop-ups block, but then i dont know why it isnt working very well. maybe its because my brother downloaded the kazaa thing. is the kazaa thing illegal? i thought it was, diana said at the start of last year it was illegal. is it? haha... i dont know. a few months ago, there was this "100% illegal" thing at the bottom of the page, now its like copyrighted and haiyah dont know, it just seems like its legal.
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are you ok? i hope you are. you are not a disappointment, trust me, you arent. we all love you, but you're hurting us by doing that. we all care. i managed to escape my darkness, even though i keep getting sucked in, but then i will not stop trying. i try to be happier, what about you? can you be happier? i know you can, dont belittle yourself, you are far better than you think. we'll all be happy to see you happy. really... you are strong, dont let anything affect you, overcome it, you do have the courage, dont think that you dont.
i'm worried, worried sick. i seriously dont know what to do. i dont know how to help, therefore making me feel helpless and useless. i have completely no idea how to help, because one mistake could make things worse, and i dont want it to happen. i dont want to know what will happen if things worsen, i dont think anyone would wanna know, anyone, namely me. it really does hurt when you see a bad situation and not being able to help. it will just give you this i'm-useless-get-out-of-my-way feeling. yeah.. maybe not "get-out-of-my-way" but then u will start to feel like you wanna start rotting and die.
Closer To Me - 5ive
Constantly girl you're on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.
[BRIDGE]
If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling it's you I believe in baby can't you see that I need you?
[CHORUS]
You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.
Nobody's there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.
[BRIDGE]
[CHORUS]
Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can't forget
there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things
I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you.
[CHORUS]
Friday, May 06, 2005
[a day of sorrow]
sorry for being such an idiot, such an irritating pest. thank you for making me a spare tire. i am grateful for the hurt you inflicted on me.
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sick now. matilda and liz had to send me home. im sorry... but then again, thanks, im better now, since they were nagging at me to go sleep. haha
i survived the lit exam today. and i was right, since my intuition told me just lather thats all was gonna be the passage, haha. now my only concern is whether i can make it for monday's exam, since it is really important. i thnk im gonna screw the entire thing, but at least i tried. well yea...
i am trying to keep this attitude up even though i know i will definitely die tonight, because my brother will start bothering me, saying stuff like "if i see you and im not happy, i will punch you, and it will make me happy. i will punch you whenever im unhappy" geez of course i tried not to bother. since i was already cramming last night, with all the lit book and notes, and already very frustrated, he had to say all that to agitate me, and i ended breaking down on my own. i just hope i can dump that stupid attitude and stop being so immature for i m an immature freak, not being able to control my own emotions. well he just threw his blardy temper at me, and i am trying to distract myself of course. im fine. there are at least two reasons why he is cursing me now. firstly, he doesnt get to hog the computer now, and secondly, he wanted to watch smallville in the room, and since it was too soft, he threw his temper, switched off the tv and stomped out. you can hear the thumping and i think the neighbours downstairs might have heard it as well. i try to totally ignore this mindless brat for now, but who knows when i have totally lost it? he had his history exam today, and he didnt even touch his history book yesterday. when he fails, i get blamed, what an irony right? well yeah, thats reality at home. because spoilt pampered brats like him cant do anything, cant even sweep the floor properly, the other siblings will have to cover for him. that just helped increase my workload. well thats not so bad, since i get to work till i die right? this was what he did when he came home:
-switched on ps2 and started playing
-started talking to friend on HANDPHONE at home for at least 40 minutes
-went straight to the bed to sleep after talking with friend in his school uniform
-had to spend more than an hour trying to wake him up for dinner and got scolded by him for doing so
-then does nothing except watching tv
and his friend on the phone, he was singing some westlife song on the phone, my brother was obviously what? trying to show off how great his friend can sing and put the call on loudspeaker. his friend has disgraced westlife. geez... out of tune... haha, i was trying to hold my laughter of course, if not, i'll probably get a shelling for doing so.
im quite glad i have something to do during the june holidays, i'll probably try to stay outside where my brother is absent to save myself as well. i know he would do anything to get rid of me, except murder i guess. but i think he has plans already, ah wells, shall play by ear =]
my maths book and desk has been vandalised. yeah, my most precious textbook has been vandalised. apparently my brother was bored during tuition and decided to do a masterpiece on my belongings, and they are really masterpieces. argh
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i didnt get it earlier, but i think i do now. they changed, they dont believe in us, or maybe they never did.
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****** called again, earlier. actually i was suppose to encourage her to be her listening ear, but tonight, i ended up being a burden. im sorry. i hope ****** is able to keep reminding herself that we, as a class will be behind her, regardless of whether she is in ij or not. i think her new family is making use of her. i do not wish to see her like that, hurting herself time and time again.
believe.
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Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
[Repeat 1 (3x)]
sorry for being such an idiot, such an irritating pest. thank you for making me a spare tire. i am grateful for the hurt you inflicted on me.
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sick now. matilda and liz had to send me home. im sorry... but then again, thanks, im better now, since they were nagging at me to go sleep. haha
i survived the lit exam today. and i was right, since my intuition told me just lather thats all was gonna be the passage, haha. now my only concern is whether i can make it for monday's exam, since it is really important. i thnk im gonna screw the entire thing, but at least i tried. well yea...
i am trying to keep this attitude up even though i know i will definitely die tonight, because my brother will start bothering me, saying stuff like "if i see you and im not happy, i will punch you, and it will make me happy. i will punch you whenever im unhappy" geez of course i tried not to bother. since i was already cramming last night, with all the lit book and notes, and already very frustrated, he had to say all that to agitate me, and i ended breaking down on my own. i just hope i can dump that stupid attitude and stop being so immature for i m an immature freak, not being able to control my own emotions. well he just threw his blardy temper at me, and i am trying to distract myself of course. im fine. there are at least two reasons why he is cursing me now. firstly, he doesnt get to hog the computer now, and secondly, he wanted to watch smallville in the room, and since it was too soft, he threw his temper, switched off the tv and stomped out. you can hear the thumping and i think the neighbours downstairs might have heard it as well. i try to totally ignore this mindless brat for now, but who knows when i have totally lost it? he had his history exam today, and he didnt even touch his history book yesterday. when he fails, i get blamed, what an irony right? well yeah, thats reality at home. because spoilt pampered brats like him cant do anything, cant even sweep the floor properly, the other siblings will have to cover for him. that just helped increase my workload. well thats not so bad, since i get to work till i die right? this was what he did when he came home:
-switched on ps2 and started playing
-started talking to friend on HANDPHONE at home for at least 40 minutes
-went straight to the bed to sleep after talking with friend in his school uniform
-had to spend more than an hour trying to wake him up for dinner and got scolded by him for doing so
-then does nothing except watching tv
and his friend on the phone, he was singing some westlife song on the phone, my brother was obviously what? trying to show off how great his friend can sing and put the call on loudspeaker. his friend has disgraced westlife. geez... out of tune... haha, i was trying to hold my laughter of course, if not, i'll probably get a shelling for doing so.
im quite glad i have something to do during the june holidays, i'll probably try to stay outside where my brother is absent to save myself as well. i know he would do anything to get rid of me, except murder i guess. but i think he has plans already, ah wells, shall play by ear =]
my maths book and desk has been vandalised. yeah, my most precious textbook has been vandalised. apparently my brother was bored during tuition and decided to do a masterpiece on my belongings, and they are really masterpieces. argh
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i didnt get it earlier, but i think i do now. they changed, they dont believe in us, or maybe they never did.
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****** called again, earlier. actually i was suppose to encourage her to be her listening ear, but tonight, i ended up being a burden. im sorry. i hope ****** is able to keep reminding herself that we, as a class will be behind her, regardless of whether she is in ij or not. i think her new family is making use of her. i do not wish to see her like that, hurting herself time and time again.
believe.
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Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
[Repeat 1 (3x)]
Thursday, May 05, 2005
[chalet]
im happier now? haha maybe? then dont worry about me. see? im much more cheerful and i have succeeded in changing that mindset, isnt that what you told me to do? i hope you'll cheer up too yea? no point telling me to cheer up when you dont you know. =]
i was under the exam stress yesterday for the first time during this critical period, and for me, i thought it was kinda ironic. but then i dont know why but then i just had problems. yeah. geez. anyway, all the best for the exams everyone. lit tomorrow and i can tell you i am dying now. blogging here is just to destress. so that i wont go bonkers later.
we watched an anime movie yesterday, during art. well i think the title is nausicca of the valley of the wind, or something like that. yeah it was abt the world 1000 yeas later, and theres this sea of decay and there were no animals involved. there were huge insects though. insects that are actually nice but can get nasty when provoked. haha yeah, it was a nice movie and i stayed in the art studio till 3pm to finish it.
i am feeling very lethargic at the moment. well thats me. haha yea. haha i think the next time i blog will be in a million years. yea. my brother is hogging the computer, so i cant listen to al the songs i downloaded frm the net and all. haha... i need music to study better. =]
i think the class chalet is gonna flop. FLOP. F-L-O-P. yea since i can tell PRACTICALLY no one is interested after bugging us abt it last year. and then not being able to get the class together to make a decision, even to whether have a bbq or not, is just difficult and we take forever to make a decision. i hope the two duplex chalets dont go to waste man... only 16 people gg... for 2 duplex chalets, is gonna be like omigosh. wasted. so people please come lar. those gg, get more people to come. the more people going, the less you have to pay man. and DON'T YOU DARE BACK OUT THE LAST MINUTE, or i'll personally come after you and you will die a horrible death!. haha you're not gonna die, but you will end up with a horrible ending. and dont ask stupid questions like what yee hui asked "can we back out the last minute?" cause im telling you now, NO WAY!
actually im blogging now with a calm state of mind and im laughing my head off, because im blowing up the matter, but im still serious man. dont back out. or else i will still come after you. and now its useless having only 16 people going, it will be so worthless and meaningless. then a supposed class gathering turns out to be a mini gathering and it wouldnt be fun. then i will have to force myself to finish the food and then i will die in the end. then again, i cant eat that much since my stomach is weak and eating too much will put me in a hospital, ok that was exaggerated. haha.
liz, tagboard please, i wanna tag your board. haha.
all the best for the exams!
Good Life - Jesse McCartney
If I were you I'd be taking it easy
Kick back and relax for a little while
We'll all still be here tomorrow
Take time just to act like a little child
No matter what the world has in store for us
You got the ring that better get off of us
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice and throw your arms in the air
[Chorus]
'Cause it's a good life so why y'all trippin'
The good life slippin' away
If you're boss is giving you pressure
Let go, take a breather in the park
You've got to find out what's your pleasure
In time you'll be singing like a lark
Pretty soon your sorry will chime for all
Somebody will heed your call
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice, throw your arms in the air
[Chorus]
Trade in some misery for some tender loving care
Cast aside those cloudy days fuses are all to bear
Make up your mind get a whole new lease on life
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice throw your hands in the air
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice throw your hands in the air
[Chorus]
im happier now? haha maybe? then dont worry about me. see? im much more cheerful and i have succeeded in changing that mindset, isnt that what you told me to do? i hope you'll cheer up too yea? no point telling me to cheer up when you dont you know. =]
i was under the exam stress yesterday for the first time during this critical period, and for me, i thought it was kinda ironic. but then i dont know why but then i just had problems. yeah. geez. anyway, all the best for the exams everyone. lit tomorrow and i can tell you i am dying now. blogging here is just to destress. so that i wont go bonkers later.
we watched an anime movie yesterday, during art. well i think the title is nausicca of the valley of the wind, or something like that. yeah it was abt the world 1000 yeas later, and theres this sea of decay and there were no animals involved. there were huge insects though. insects that are actually nice but can get nasty when provoked. haha yeah, it was a nice movie and i stayed in the art studio till 3pm to finish it.
i am feeling very lethargic at the moment. well thats me. haha yea. haha i think the next time i blog will be in a million years. yea. my brother is hogging the computer, so i cant listen to al the songs i downloaded frm the net and all. haha... i need music to study better. =]
i think the class chalet is gonna flop. FLOP. F-L-O-P. yea since i can tell PRACTICALLY no one is interested after bugging us abt it last year. and then not being able to get the class together to make a decision, even to whether have a bbq or not, is just difficult and we take forever to make a decision. i hope the two duplex chalets dont go to waste man... only 16 people gg... for 2 duplex chalets, is gonna be like omigosh. wasted. so people please come lar. those gg, get more people to come. the more people going, the less you have to pay man. and DON'T YOU DARE BACK OUT THE LAST MINUTE, or i'll personally come after you and you will die a horrible death!. haha you're not gonna die, but you will end up with a horrible ending. and dont ask stupid questions like what yee hui asked "can we back out the last minute?" cause im telling you now, NO WAY!
actually im blogging now with a calm state of mind and im laughing my head off, because im blowing up the matter, but im still serious man. dont back out. or else i will still come after you. and now its useless having only 16 people going, it will be so worthless and meaningless. then a supposed class gathering turns out to be a mini gathering and it wouldnt be fun. then i will have to force myself to finish the food and then i will die in the end. then again, i cant eat that much since my stomach is weak and eating too much will put me in a hospital, ok that was exaggerated. haha.
liz, tagboard please, i wanna tag your board. haha.
all the best for the exams!
Good Life - Jesse McCartney
If I were you I'd be taking it easy
Kick back and relax for a little while
We'll all still be here tomorrow
Take time just to act like a little child
No matter what the world has in store for us
You got the ring that better get off of us
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice and throw your arms in the air
[Chorus]
'Cause it's a good life so why y'all trippin'
The good life slippin' away
If you're boss is giving you pressure
Let go, take a breather in the park
You've got to find out what's your pleasure
In time you'll be singing like a lark
Pretty soon your sorry will chime for all
Somebody will heed your call
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice, throw your arms in the air
[Chorus]
Trade in some misery for some tender loving care
Cast aside those cloudy days fuses are all to bear
Make up your mind get a whole new lease on life
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice throw your hands in the air
Reach out for a comfortable chair
Rejoice throw your hands in the air
[Chorus]
Monday, May 02, 2005
[exams, dread it]
its very very late now. haha 1 hour 18 minutes past minight.
the reason why i hvnt blogged is because
1)i decided to keep away from the computer for a while
2)my brother is wasting a lot of electricity by playing gunbound with his friend and chatting on the handphone with THAT friend. yea... played for more than 15 hours on saturday (or rather yesterday, its still sunday to me now) and even longer today(sunday)
it rained on thusday, well, everyone knows. what made me say it was raining was because. i was carrying that box like i always did every morning i walk to school. so when i was walking, well the sky gave me the warning that it was gonna rain. so i thought i could get to school before it rains. when i was walking just outside oleander towers, it started to pour, i was drenched. not to forget my box. so i tried to save the box, and i didnt use my umbrella since i wouldnt be able to hang on to it without dropping my box right? so i went to school all drenched with my hair dripping wet and covering my face since i lowered my head when i was walking to school. the gel, supposedly keeping my hair neat was of course washed off, since i used very very little gel. so my hair was all funny. then i had to walk around st gabs bare footed because my shoes and socks were throughly wet. clare, cj and i tried blow drying our shoes and socks using the hand dryer in the toilet and hung our pinafores on the windows. well, my socks were wet by the time school was dimisssed. my shoes were damp and my pinafore was dry. i only wore shoes without socks for the rest of the day, and it felt funny. haha
friday was a much more interesting day i guess. liz, matilda and i were studying at the st raphael shed when there was this bird eating a lizard. quite scary. matilda couldnt bear to look at it. liz n i were watching it lar... since the lizard was thick-skinned (literally) the bird was trying to tear it apart, or maybe the body was like elastic, haha... so the bird was flipping it about as if it was roti prata or something. by the time the bird gave up, the lizard was like flat and the body was twisted. the tail was either squashed o gone. and the head was bleeding. the bird was going for the head. liz and i were squatting there, examining the lizard, haha. when i asked if we could return to st michael canteen, matilda was very agreeable and she climbed over the table and we went off. im a sadist. i was describing the lizard and matilda was utterly disgusted of course. haha
yesterday's study session didnt go well. haha liz couldnt come. novita and debby went to school to study until the guard chased them out. i was alone so i thought i went to library. so novita called me at around 2pm. they decided not to come in the end. i met michelle and cherlynn by coincidence and studied with them, but they left in the end, n i studied alone in the library and still left in the end.
my mum had some attitude prblems today like i dont know why either. then i couldnt study with my brother's annoying gang poems his friends sent him. he likes techno, i dont. i dont know whats so great abt techno... i just... dont like it. haha...
almost done with science revision. my brain shuts down when i start on history. i've yet to start on geog and chinese. i've started on maths and lit. i realised science is relatively easier, but i cant assure an A1, depends on whether i can trust myself, since im super dumb and canot trust myself to do such stuff even after doing it for like 8 years. geez....
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All About You - Mcfly
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you, baby (It's all about you)
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you
Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to,
Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.
Yeah...
[Solo]
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile...
It's all about you.
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you, baby (It's all about you)
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you
its very very late now. haha 1 hour 18 minutes past minight.
the reason why i hvnt blogged is because
1)i decided to keep away from the computer for a while
2)my brother is wasting a lot of electricity by playing gunbound with his friend and chatting on the handphone with THAT friend. yea... played for more than 15 hours on saturday (or rather yesterday, its still sunday to me now) and even longer today(sunday)
it rained on thusday, well, everyone knows. what made me say it was raining was because. i was carrying that box like i always did every morning i walk to school. so when i was walking, well the sky gave me the warning that it was gonna rain. so i thought i could get to school before it rains. when i was walking just outside oleander towers, it started to pour, i was drenched. not to forget my box. so i tried to save the box, and i didnt use my umbrella since i wouldnt be able to hang on to it without dropping my box right? so i went to school all drenched with my hair dripping wet and covering my face since i lowered my head when i was walking to school. the gel, supposedly keeping my hair neat was of course washed off, since i used very very little gel. so my hair was all funny. then i had to walk around st gabs bare footed because my shoes and socks were throughly wet. clare, cj and i tried blow drying our shoes and socks using the hand dryer in the toilet and hung our pinafores on the windows. well, my socks were wet by the time school was dimisssed. my shoes were damp and my pinafore was dry. i only wore shoes without socks for the rest of the day, and it felt funny. haha
friday was a much more interesting day i guess. liz, matilda and i were studying at the st raphael shed when there was this bird eating a lizard. quite scary. matilda couldnt bear to look at it. liz n i were watching it lar... since the lizard was thick-skinned (literally) the bird was trying to tear it apart, or maybe the body was like elastic, haha... so the bird was flipping it about as if it was roti prata or something. by the time the bird gave up, the lizard was like flat and the body was twisted. the tail was either squashed o gone. and the head was bleeding. the bird was going for the head. liz and i were squatting there, examining the lizard, haha. when i asked if we could return to st michael canteen, matilda was very agreeable and she climbed over the table and we went off. im a sadist. i was describing the lizard and matilda was utterly disgusted of course. haha
yesterday's study session didnt go well. haha liz couldnt come. novita and debby went to school to study until the guard chased them out. i was alone so i thought i went to library. so novita called me at around 2pm. they decided not to come in the end. i met michelle and cherlynn by coincidence and studied with them, but they left in the end, n i studied alone in the library and still left in the end.
my mum had some attitude prblems today like i dont know why either. then i couldnt study with my brother's annoying gang poems his friends sent him. he likes techno, i dont. i dont know whats so great abt techno... i just... dont like it. haha...
almost done with science revision. my brain shuts down when i start on history. i've yet to start on geog and chinese. i've started on maths and lit. i realised science is relatively easier, but i cant assure an A1, depends on whether i can trust myself, since im super dumb and canot trust myself to do such stuff even after doing it for like 8 years. geez....
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All About You - Mcfly
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you, baby (It's all about you)
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you
Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to,
Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.
Yeah...
[Solo]
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile...
It's all about you.
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you, baby (It's all about you)
It's all about you (It's about you)
It's all about you