[rainy afternoon]
yeah it didnt rain, but to me it did. you understand what i mean? it's pretty obvious, isnt it?
expect thunderstorms
blue monday each week.
sigh.
定心丸. heard of it? it is something capable of setting someone's mind at ease. i like that term.
sigh.
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Have You Ever - S Club 7
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go
Sunday, February 26, 2006
[fallen]
it hasnt come down to anything for the past few hours. it's still drifting like no one's business.
have you ever had this temptation to do something but felt that you couldnt because it just doesnt seem right to you, but possibly okay to others? i guess so everyone did... then again, it hurts either way you do it? because you cant do it when you want to and even if you did it, you'll feel hurt because someone got hurt because of what you did?
i seriously dont know what i'm saying, neither do i know what i'm doing. i'm just taking each step at a time. was it because it was just so wrong right from the start? or something happened? was it because of each and every one's negligence that it comes to to nothing but this? i'm a little confused and stuck at the moment.
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waiting for something to happen, and i shall go on waiting.... HAHA
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Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates
I wonder where you where
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder
Maybe your alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life's a mess
Cause I'm
cos I couldn't love you any less
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
Too soon
It's not right
It's not fair
It's in you baby cuts like a knife
what if you were the love of my life
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you too love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
it hasnt come down to anything for the past few hours. it's still drifting like no one's business.
have you ever had this temptation to do something but felt that you couldnt because it just doesnt seem right to you, but possibly okay to others? i guess so everyone did... then again, it hurts either way you do it? because you cant do it when you want to and even if you did it, you'll feel hurt because someone got hurt because of what you did?
i seriously dont know what i'm saying, neither do i know what i'm doing. i'm just taking each step at a time. was it because it was just so wrong right from the start? or something happened? was it because of each and every one's negligence that it comes to to nothing but this? i'm a little confused and stuck at the moment.
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waiting for something to happen, and i shall go on waiting.... HAHA
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Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates
I wonder where you where
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder
Maybe your alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life's a mess
Cause I'm
cos I couldn't love you any less
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
Too soon
It's not right
It's not fair
It's in you baby cuts like a knife
what if you were the love of my life
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you too love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
Saturday, February 25, 2006
[memoirs of a geisha]
watched i not stupid 2 today! yay! finally.
cried of course, well, will tend to cry when i see other people cry or sad. dom was crying a lil, 'minor tears', according to him. but the movie was cool and nice.
then had yoshinoya for dinner. i was eating incredibly slow, while dom was just making fun of me and eating so quickly. bleagh
the equalites were just super weird. haha we left school together and went to orchard together to meet dom, then ate at subway and stuff. they were just tricking each other with all the lame and funny tricks. dom was just stoning there and listening to them, while i just laughed and tried to figure out what they were saying. haha, bleagh.
back to the movie. hmmmm shawn lee doesnt look any diff. mag said he looked super good when he had dinner with his dad. hmmm actually he didnt. haha. but yeah, he's not too bad looking. and joshua ang is appealing to liz! haha. that jerry was simply too sweet. haha his innocence just tickles you.
gonna start on my work. bleagh... okay... bye
watched i not stupid 2 today! yay! finally.
cried of course, well, will tend to cry when i see other people cry or sad. dom was crying a lil, 'minor tears', according to him. but the movie was cool and nice.
then had yoshinoya for dinner. i was eating incredibly slow, while dom was just making fun of me and eating so quickly. bleagh
the equalites were just super weird. haha we left school together and went to orchard together to meet dom, then ate at subway and stuff. they were just tricking each other with all the lame and funny tricks. dom was just stoning there and listening to them, while i just laughed and tried to figure out what they were saying. haha, bleagh.
back to the movie. hmmmm shawn lee doesnt look any diff. mag said he looked super good when he had dinner with his dad. hmmm actually he didnt. haha. but yeah, he's not too bad looking. and joshua ang is appealing to liz! haha. that jerry was simply too sweet. haha his innocence just tickles you.
gonna start on my work. bleagh... okay... bye
[it's gonna be more than i can take]
all of a sudden, everyone decides to come. haha
too many cooks spoil the broth. it was a little confusing as to what to do and where the ingredients were. you wouldnt even know who exactly is standing next to you.
gonna fail ss for sure. everything, at least 90% was plain nonsense. prepare to fail. i still failed a maths, even after taking the retest. bleagh.
chem ca next wednesday, and i better work hard for it. i dont wanna fail chem. it'll be just weird. i did relatively okay for physics so i dont wanna do badly for chem.
suddenly the whole of 3/8 is looking for delle, which was really amusing. there were people shouting for delle on the corridors after recess, and there were people bugging me about who delle was and which class she belonged to. it was sure an adventure. haha.
sec 3 adventure camp next thursday and i simply cant wait for it. its gonna be so super fun. yeap! dragon-boating! but i dont know how i'll ever make it through the rope course. tall people tend to have a fear of heights. when i looked up at the statue of liberty from the top of the pedestal, which was relatively high, and the wind blowing in my face, i was like 'omigosh!' and was already sticking to the wall. haha. it depends on whether i have the guts. i really dont thnk i can make it through the rope course.
when i rock-climbed for the first time in p4, i completed it, reaching the top. when i rock-climbed for the second time, in p5, i just couldnt do it. haha, was like 6 feet above the ground and just practically froze there. bleagh.
my brother is an idiot. if he can stop disturbing the peaceful slumber of the other people around us, i would be so grateful. he has to talk on the phone at the top of his lungs as though his friend was deaf or something.
not gonna talk on the phone. hao peng you's dead already i think. haha joking lar.
i feel like just smashing my bro's com now. thank you. he has been irritating me ever since i came back home. argh. i'm gonna sleep, so that i can get up early tomorrow morning and do my work, at the same time, get rid of my brother.
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sorry but i think yahoo horoscopes are getting more and more accurate each day! haha. and dont know why i even started reading such stuff on the net nowadays.
Quickie:
It looks like all your plans are working! Everything is finally falling into place.
Overview:
Feel like you need to gain some insight into your own motivations, but not quite sure how to go about it? Never fear -- the stars are all set to help. Get ready to make a clean mental sweep of some old habits.
all of a sudden, everyone decides to come. haha
too many cooks spoil the broth. it was a little confusing as to what to do and where the ingredients were. you wouldnt even know who exactly is standing next to you.
gonna fail ss for sure. everything, at least 90% was plain nonsense. prepare to fail. i still failed a maths, even after taking the retest. bleagh.
chem ca next wednesday, and i better work hard for it. i dont wanna fail chem. it'll be just weird. i did relatively okay for physics so i dont wanna do badly for chem.
suddenly the whole of 3/8 is looking for delle, which was really amusing. there were people shouting for delle on the corridors after recess, and there were people bugging me about who delle was and which class she belonged to. it was sure an adventure. haha.
sec 3 adventure camp next thursday and i simply cant wait for it. its gonna be so super fun. yeap! dragon-boating! but i dont know how i'll ever make it through the rope course. tall people tend to have a fear of heights. when i looked up at the statue of liberty from the top of the pedestal, which was relatively high, and the wind blowing in my face, i was like 'omigosh!' and was already sticking to the wall. haha. it depends on whether i have the guts. i really dont thnk i can make it through the rope course.
when i rock-climbed for the first time in p4, i completed it, reaching the top. when i rock-climbed for the second time, in p5, i just couldnt do it. haha, was like 6 feet above the ground and just practically froze there. bleagh.
my brother is an idiot. if he can stop disturbing the peaceful slumber of the other people around us, i would be so grateful. he has to talk on the phone at the top of his lungs as though his friend was deaf or something.
not gonna talk on the phone. hao peng you's dead already i think. haha joking lar.
i feel like just smashing my bro's com now. thank you. he has been irritating me ever since i came back home. argh. i'm gonna sleep, so that i can get up early tomorrow morning and do my work, at the same time, get rid of my brother.
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sorry but i think yahoo horoscopes are getting more and more accurate each day! haha. and dont know why i even started reading such stuff on the net nowadays.
Quickie:
It looks like all your plans are working! Everything is finally falling into place.
Overview:
Feel like you need to gain some insight into your own motivations, but not quite sure how to go about it? Never fear -- the stars are all set to help. Get ready to make a clean mental sweep of some old habits.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
[you're safe in the knowledge]
wednesday went by well. but i was still a little guilty. okay, i still am now.
started off the day with mass. no chem and english due to the mass. the double ss period went by quickly, but we sure enjoyed it. after recess, we went to the com lab for a maths to ty out that ace-learning thing, which is actually kinda fun. yeap, might consider subscribing it. it was the briefing for next week's sec 3 adventure camp for the next two periods (pc and assembly) and school dimissed.
i dont know if i'm the one distancing myself from the others or i'm just invisible at times. i was told today im the one drifting away. it seems to me though, that THEY are drifting away. i'm kinda confused with all that, and no point trying to figure out either. i guess i'm just a pathetic loner.
ss test tomorrow. hmmm what can i say? nothing. and i actually passed my history ca. wow! haha surprising i really thought i would fail or something.
it was a little dry today. nah not the weather. dont worry about the weather. there was this sudden rain in the morning. got scolded early in the morning for i dont know why either, just got scolded although i was not that clear about what was going on. but oh wells. then tripped quite a few times. just being clumsy for the entire day.was 'enjoying' the loneliness and the corner during maths, like always. and the a maths retest is sure to be a goner. i bet i'm gonna flunk a maths again.
dont know why i should be getting all stressed over the stupid stuff that happens in school.
when you find no reason to do so, you wouldn't
yeah for some reason, i have been really disturbed ever since monday. well, if i didnt know, i probably would have been much happier now. not so... hmm... confused, stressed, sad, and troubled. i'm trying to be optimistic though, or should i simply throw it all away and not care. nvm, i'm worrying over stuff i dont even know its origin and its cause. i might not consider going for group study tomorrow. something happened and it sort of puts me off, and just spoils my interest already.
starting to lose that mutual trust now... lots of terrible things happened and after being stepped on too many times, i think the stubborn me finally lets go. i'm stubborn. when i get hurt by a certain someone because i trusted her too much, i start to trust her that much again after everything is well. but i'll get hurt again, and it just goes on and on. i will get hurt, recover, place too much trust again. maybe this time, i'll finally learn my lesson?
haivng the 'i-dont-care' attitude now. as you can see, all of a sudden, almost everything seems so unimportant. its not me. and i know i'll start being the silly me again after a while.
i hate to cry, but i do so often. so much happened and i've been degrading myself, making myself ultra sensitive. i dont want to be ultra sensitive, neither do i wanna be insensitive. i need to stand up on my own. and i need to start being strong once again. the name 'briana' is now nothing but a name, with no significance.
i'm going to study to forget about all these. bleagh, bye.
wednesday went by well. but i was still a little guilty. okay, i still am now.
started off the day with mass. no chem and english due to the mass. the double ss period went by quickly, but we sure enjoyed it. after recess, we went to the com lab for a maths to ty out that ace-learning thing, which is actually kinda fun. yeap, might consider subscribing it. it was the briefing for next week's sec 3 adventure camp for the next two periods (pc and assembly) and school dimissed.
i dont know if i'm the one distancing myself from the others or i'm just invisible at times. i was told today im the one drifting away. it seems to me though, that THEY are drifting away. i'm kinda confused with all that, and no point trying to figure out either. i guess i'm just a pathetic loner.
ss test tomorrow. hmmm what can i say? nothing. and i actually passed my history ca. wow! haha surprising i really thought i would fail or something.
it was a little dry today. nah not the weather. dont worry about the weather. there was this sudden rain in the morning. got scolded early in the morning for i dont know why either, just got scolded although i was not that clear about what was going on. but oh wells. then tripped quite a few times. just being clumsy for the entire day.was 'enjoying' the loneliness and the corner during maths, like always. and the a maths retest is sure to be a goner. i bet i'm gonna flunk a maths again.
dont know why i should be getting all stressed over the stupid stuff that happens in school.
when you find no reason to do so, you wouldn't
yeah for some reason, i have been really disturbed ever since monday. well, if i didnt know, i probably would have been much happier now. not so... hmm... confused, stressed, sad, and troubled. i'm trying to be optimistic though, or should i simply throw it all away and not care. nvm, i'm worrying over stuff i dont even know its origin and its cause. i might not consider going for group study tomorrow. something happened and it sort of puts me off, and just spoils my interest already.
starting to lose that mutual trust now... lots of terrible things happened and after being stepped on too many times, i think the stubborn me finally lets go. i'm stubborn. when i get hurt by a certain someone because i trusted her too much, i start to trust her that much again after everything is well. but i'll get hurt again, and it just goes on and on. i will get hurt, recover, place too much trust again. maybe this time, i'll finally learn my lesson?
haivng the 'i-dont-care' attitude now. as you can see, all of a sudden, almost everything seems so unimportant. its not me. and i know i'll start being the silly me again after a while.
i hate to cry, but i do so often. so much happened and i've been degrading myself, making myself ultra sensitive. i dont want to be ultra sensitive, neither do i wanna be insensitive. i need to stand up on my own. and i need to start being strong once again. the name 'briana' is now nothing but a name, with no significance.
i'm going to study to forget about all these. bleagh, bye.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
[lousy weeks are... hmmmm... lousy?]
i made someone a happier person today. i dont know if she's really happier or what. but whatever it is, on the the outside, she looks pretty okay i guess.
bad tuesday. yes broke down once again. like i would want to, but i've bottled everything inside me for two days, so when it comes out, it'll all pur out. yeah, thats me. i'm not as strong anymore. i'm pretty much a weaker being inside. but with encouragement from my hao peng youS, i feel much better. :)
zero carbon project officially closed. yes, the presentation was today, but it was screwy so bleagh. no point brooding over it anyway, so yeah.
feeling kinda bad for being chatty. ah sorry, i'll listen to you the next time and i will make sure you say something. haha. bleagh, i guess its torturous listening to me talk on the phone. haha, am i finally annoying?
not being sarcastic or anything. i'm not a very good mood. but not in a very bad mood either. the fact that its finally off my chest probably makes me feel much better, but i'm still worried as to what will happen in the upcoming future. you can say i'm a very sad and hopeless person. just gloomy at the moment. so yeah, maybe this time, that night's sleep will wash away my problems. depends... maybe talking on the phone at night will help, still depends on whether i would be on the phone tonight.
i finally read the 8 days magazine in a million years. yes, i havent been touching the 8 days mag ever since the exams. i think it was much earlier. well whatever it is, i dont really watch tv now, except for animax and disney, so no point reading the tv synopsis. but there were some singapore idol stuff. yeah was like !!! when i saw gayle's photo in there. well, not that i know her or anything, actually, i DON'T know her. but she sounds really good, so i'm not really surprised she passed the auditions. hmmm actually just shocked to see her in there.
finally touched the stronghold crusader pc after after 2 years? yeah old game, but never found the time to play it so yeah. its not that bad... dont know why i even played that.
praying for a good wednesday, filled with fun, joy and laughter. yeah. i know it'll be the same with all that yada and loneliness next to the window, but i guess i'm pretty much immune to it, i think. nvm, people change. too quickly. maybe i'm just too tortoise to catch up, you see?
wanna watch final destination 3, but i know i'll just freak out like i did when i watched the other two. but just watching it because its 'final destination', yeah get what i mean? and i wanna watch i not stupid too. i'm just stupid to not watch it yet okay? and yes, i do wanna watch it. need to know why so many people claim shawn li (lee?) is cute....? dont know... although i agreed he was good looking last thursday, i still think he looks the same so... so... haha nothing?
i'm just afraid i'll come down with something if i dont take care of myself. i cant just come down with something now. but it's just going up and down (you dont know what i'm saying? hmmm figure it out! haha)
i'm not a very outspoken person actually. it depends. i can be really quiet and reserved but i can be chatty too. so yeah, you might think i'm just weird or something, but i'm just saying it. for a reason.
the fear is eating into me. yes, for some reason, i'm just having this fear, but then again, it doesnt seem so bad. argh, dont know what i'm rambling about but yeah.
hey if i start talking about my hao peng youS, would you think its an imaginary friend? something i made up with? like those weird friends kids like to have?
haha nvm, dont need to answer if you dont want to, because the more i think i about it, i start to think that i'm pretty much nutzy myself. well, who ever said i wasnt? and haha i'm rambling again. i ramble all the time.
feeling random all of a sudden and thats why i'm talking about random stuff like the last two paragraphs. but anyway, i'm having another headache. not sure why, but its getting worse. bleagh. argh. its just squishing my brain and turning it into pulp. fluff and goo! haha oh man...
ah well, i shall go fluff and goo now. actually its nothing much. if you read part 4 of the entire log when i was in america, you probably get the basic idea of it just being a production of one of my retarded-ness. i think all that p.e. and breaking down has made me really exhausted, maybe that could be a good explaination for the headaches. haha ah well, good night.
i made someone a happier person today. i dont know if she's really happier or what. but whatever it is, on the the outside, she looks pretty okay i guess.
bad tuesday. yes broke down once again. like i would want to, but i've bottled everything inside me for two days, so when it comes out, it'll all pur out. yeah, thats me. i'm not as strong anymore. i'm pretty much a weaker being inside. but with encouragement from my hao peng youS, i feel much better. :)
zero carbon project officially closed. yes, the presentation was today, but it was screwy so bleagh. no point brooding over it anyway, so yeah.
feeling kinda bad for being chatty. ah sorry, i'll listen to you the next time and i will make sure you say something. haha. bleagh, i guess its torturous listening to me talk on the phone. haha, am i finally annoying?
not being sarcastic or anything. i'm not a very good mood. but not in a very bad mood either. the fact that its finally off my chest probably makes me feel much better, but i'm still worried as to what will happen in the upcoming future. you can say i'm a very sad and hopeless person. just gloomy at the moment. so yeah, maybe this time, that night's sleep will wash away my problems. depends... maybe talking on the phone at night will help, still depends on whether i would be on the phone tonight.
i finally read the 8 days magazine in a million years. yes, i havent been touching the 8 days mag ever since the exams. i think it was much earlier. well whatever it is, i dont really watch tv now, except for animax and disney, so no point reading the tv synopsis. but there were some singapore idol stuff. yeah was like !!! when i saw gayle's photo in there. well, not that i know her or anything, actually, i DON'T know her. but she sounds really good, so i'm not really surprised she passed the auditions. hmmm actually just shocked to see her in there.
finally touched the stronghold crusader pc after after 2 years? yeah old game, but never found the time to play it so yeah. its not that bad... dont know why i even played that.
praying for a good wednesday, filled with fun, joy and laughter. yeah. i know it'll be the same with all that yada and loneliness next to the window, but i guess i'm pretty much immune to it, i think. nvm, people change. too quickly. maybe i'm just too tortoise to catch up, you see?
wanna watch final destination 3, but i know i'll just freak out like i did when i watched the other two. but just watching it because its 'final destination', yeah get what i mean? and i wanna watch i not stupid too. i'm just stupid to not watch it yet okay? and yes, i do wanna watch it. need to know why so many people claim shawn li (lee?) is cute....? dont know... although i agreed he was good looking last thursday, i still think he looks the same so... so... haha nothing?
i'm just afraid i'll come down with something if i dont take care of myself. i cant just come down with something now. but it's just going up and down (you dont know what i'm saying? hmmm figure it out! haha)
i'm not a very outspoken person actually. it depends. i can be really quiet and reserved but i can be chatty too. so yeah, you might think i'm just weird or something, but i'm just saying it. for a reason.
the fear is eating into me. yes, for some reason, i'm just having this fear, but then again, it doesnt seem so bad. argh, dont know what i'm rambling about but yeah.
hey if i start talking about my hao peng youS, would you think its an imaginary friend? something i made up with? like those weird friends kids like to have?
haha nvm, dont need to answer if you dont want to, because the more i think i about it, i start to think that i'm pretty much nutzy myself. well, who ever said i wasnt? and haha i'm rambling again. i ramble all the time.
feeling random all of a sudden and thats why i'm talking about random stuff like the last two paragraphs. but anyway, i'm having another headache. not sure why, but its getting worse. bleagh. argh. its just squishing my brain and turning it into pulp. fluff and goo! haha oh man...
ah well, i shall go fluff and goo now. actually its nothing much. if you read part 4 of the entire log when i was in america, you probably get the basic idea of it just being a production of one of my retarded-ness. i think all that p.e. and breaking down has made me really exhausted, maybe that could be a good explaination for the headaches. haha ah well, good night.
Monday, February 20, 2006
[this clock never seems so alive]
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
I'M NOT GONNA CARE!
wth. if i could just convince myself now. after what mag told me, i just found it super annoying. not as if i don't feel a thing right? but sometimes if you could just tell me wth is going on, i'll probably understand and know at least what to do. yeah you'll just go: 'you would not understand at all, even if i told you, because you're just too stupid and insensitive to understand. it will never to get to you even if we start to argue.'
fine. so i'm just insensitive and stupid. fine, i get it. at least tell me, what if a miracle happened and i actually understood? i try to help, you push me away. not as if i'm not feeling terrible seeing you like this. do you know how much it will hurt me? but do i look like i care? i dont care about myself as long as you tell me, scream at me, shout at me, whatever. as long as telling me makes you feel better, i dont give a damn about anything else.
i already tried to forget about it every since she told me. i tried playing some happy music whatever, just do something to distract myself, like talking and talking on the phone non stop, about all the stupid things that happened, such as the fire alarm in school and all that kinda worthless and unimportant things happening everyday. now, i'm just a stupid loser not facing up to it okay? i'm just gonna tell myself "I'M NOT GONNA CARE" and i hope i can stop thinking about it, because it is seriously bothering me.
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we all had a bad day today. mag and i were just wasting away today until we played the elmo song. we started to laugh, and started to write about the hypocrites in ij on the whiteboard, because we were really unhappy about everything happened. what i heard and what happened to her, and about the many people who were angry with us, for reasons we dont know ourselves. stef was there to listen to us. and when we were leaving, mag made a fool of herself. it cheered us up a lil too. and i was a macs with mag, where we started to laugh hysterically. we both went home with a lighter mood. i dont know about mag, but i'm not feeling any more happier than i was earlier this afternoon.
i just know that, i really do wanna run away. i know its wrong to run away from your problems and all that stuff, but i really do feel like running into a corner to hide for a while until i'm found or decide to return, then face all these problems with a more positive attitude. i'm just feeling tired and lethargic thinking about all these. i guess it's teenage angst. i just dont wanna look up now. i just feel like looking down on the ground and thinking about nothing.
although my hao peng you tells me not to care about all these, because they're not worth it, i cant help it. they are the people i see practically everyday. if i could easily throw all my worries aside, i would. but i still wanna try to convince myself to stop thinking about all that and forget all about it.
i know you want me to disappear right? i want to, but where can i go to? do you want me to block you? so that you will not see me online and so you will feel much better? or you want me to completely vanish?
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after all that ranting, i hope i would feel much better. yi qi's entertaining me, so i feel much better just listening to her. yeah and 'fwny'.
Quickie:
If you want to make headway, focus on your objective. Ignore the distracting drama.
Overview:
Daydreams are extremely fun, but don't let them get out of hand. If you're so distracted that you're not taking care of some tasks that need immediate attention, it's time to find a way to focus.
ignore the distracting drama. i will try to.
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You And Me - Lifehouse
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
i'm not gonna care
I'M NOT GONNA CARE!
wth. if i could just convince myself now. after what mag told me, i just found it super annoying. not as if i don't feel a thing right? but sometimes if you could just tell me wth is going on, i'll probably understand and know at least what to do. yeah you'll just go: 'you would not understand at all, even if i told you, because you're just too stupid and insensitive to understand. it will never to get to you even if we start to argue.'
fine. so i'm just insensitive and stupid. fine, i get it. at least tell me, what if a miracle happened and i actually understood? i try to help, you push me away. not as if i'm not feeling terrible seeing you like this. do you know how much it will hurt me? but do i look like i care? i dont care about myself as long as you tell me, scream at me, shout at me, whatever. as long as telling me makes you feel better, i dont give a damn about anything else.
i already tried to forget about it every since she told me. i tried playing some happy music whatever, just do something to distract myself, like talking and talking on the phone non stop, about all the stupid things that happened, such as the fire alarm in school and all that kinda worthless and unimportant things happening everyday. now, i'm just a stupid loser not facing up to it okay? i'm just gonna tell myself "I'M NOT GONNA CARE" and i hope i can stop thinking about it, because it is seriously bothering me.
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we all had a bad day today. mag and i were just wasting away today until we played the elmo song. we started to laugh, and started to write about the hypocrites in ij on the whiteboard, because we were really unhappy about everything happened. what i heard and what happened to her, and about the many people who were angry with us, for reasons we dont know ourselves. stef was there to listen to us. and when we were leaving, mag made a fool of herself. it cheered us up a lil too. and i was a macs with mag, where we started to laugh hysterically. we both went home with a lighter mood. i dont know about mag, but i'm not feeling any more happier than i was earlier this afternoon.
i just know that, i really do wanna run away. i know its wrong to run away from your problems and all that stuff, but i really do feel like running into a corner to hide for a while until i'm found or decide to return, then face all these problems with a more positive attitude. i'm just feeling tired and lethargic thinking about all these. i guess it's teenage angst. i just dont wanna look up now. i just feel like looking down on the ground and thinking about nothing.
although my hao peng you tells me not to care about all these, because they're not worth it, i cant help it. they are the people i see practically everyday. if i could easily throw all my worries aside, i would. but i still wanna try to convince myself to stop thinking about all that and forget all about it.
i know you want me to disappear right? i want to, but where can i go to? do you want me to block you? so that you will not see me online and so you will feel much better? or you want me to completely vanish?
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after all that ranting, i hope i would feel much better. yi qi's entertaining me, so i feel much better just listening to her. yeah and 'fwny'.
Quickie:
If you want to make headway, focus on your objective. Ignore the distracting drama.
Overview:
Daydreams are extremely fun, but don't let them get out of hand. If you're so distracted that you're not taking care of some tasks that need immediate attention, it's time to find a way to focus.
ignore the distracting drama. i will try to.
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You And Me - Lifehouse
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
Sunday, February 19, 2006
[yahoo horoscopes are quite accurate]
Quickie:
Focus on the positive, not the negative, today. You have control over all decisions.
Overview:
Has the answer been staring you in the face this entire time? It's just like what the wise Dorothy Gale once said about finding everything she needed in her own backyard. Look closer to home.
i see why now. it's quite accurate, to my surprise.
currently feeling negative, with all that yada yada happening at home. its unhappy to be at home all of a sudden. it doesnt even feel like home. yeah so why bother right?
finished the ipw presentation but it was a tough time. yeah you would be thinking: 'whats so difficult?' yeah its difficult, i dont know why either.
feeling extremely tired now. after two nights, staying up, talking on the phone, i think i'm considerably tired now. haha actually its quite fun talking on the phone in the middle of the night. i slept for like 19 hours this weekend and it doesnt really fulfil my need. i need energy! and my vision is a little weird, as though there's fog covering my eyes. maybe because im straining my eyes...
ah well whatever it is, im gonna eat now and do my a maths homework. ta
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Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Quickie:
Focus on the positive, not the negative, today. You have control over all decisions.
Overview:
Has the answer been staring you in the face this entire time? It's just like what the wise Dorothy Gale once said about finding everything she needed in her own backyard. Look closer to home.
i see why now. it's quite accurate, to my surprise.
currently feeling negative, with all that yada yada happening at home. its unhappy to be at home all of a sudden. it doesnt even feel like home. yeah so why bother right?
finished the ipw presentation but it was a tough time. yeah you would be thinking: 'whats so difficult?' yeah its difficult, i dont know why either.
feeling extremely tired now. after two nights, staying up, talking on the phone, i think i'm considerably tired now. haha actually its quite fun talking on the phone in the middle of the night. i slept for like 19 hours this weekend and it doesnt really fulfil my need. i need energy! and my vision is a little weird, as though there's fog covering my eyes. maybe because im straining my eyes...
ah well whatever it is, im gonna eat now and do my a maths homework. ta
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Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
[it's gonna be true]
gina's sick, with severe gastric. and she's very stressed, thats why shes sick now.. she cant eat in peace. ahhh i dont know what i can do to help her...
was on the phone throughout the entire night, and was watching tv at the same time. did make it past 4.30am though. so i guess its not the entire night.
then slept for 11 hours and woke up at exactly 3pm, well, what are the odds?
was just stoning and.... stoning. yeah. then started on the bg of the ipw presentation and was talking to yi qi about her 'fei wen nan you'. haha it was just funny listening to her.
was kinda appallled with what someone said on her blog. yeah... sigh
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It's Gonna Be Love - Mandy Moore
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
Time I've been patient for so long
How can I pretend to be so strong?
Looking at you baby
Feeling it too baby
If I'm asking you to hold me tight
then it's gonna be all right
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love
Time am I restless or a fool?
How can you pretend to be so cruel?
Maybe it's me baby
Maybe it's true baby
Maybe it's everything were dreaming of
We waited long enough
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be your the one to do
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
[Backup singers] The sooner you let two hearts beat together
The sooner you know this love is forever
[Mandy] It's gonna be love
[Backup Singers] Love needs time now or never
[Mandy] It's gonna be love
[Backup Singers] You really got to believe
[Both] it's gonna be strong enough
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be your the one to do
It's gonna be hard
It's gonna be tough
It's gonna be more then just enough
It's gonna be LOVE
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you
It's gonna be real
It's gonna be love
gina's sick, with severe gastric. and she's very stressed, thats why shes sick now.. she cant eat in peace. ahhh i dont know what i can do to help her...
was on the phone throughout the entire night, and was watching tv at the same time. did make it past 4.30am though. so i guess its not the entire night.
then slept for 11 hours and woke up at exactly 3pm, well, what are the odds?
was just stoning and.... stoning. yeah. then started on the bg of the ipw presentation and was talking to yi qi about her 'fei wen nan you'. haha it was just funny listening to her.
was kinda appallled with what someone said on her blog. yeah... sigh
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It's Gonna Be Love - Mandy Moore
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
Time I've been patient for so long
How can I pretend to be so strong?
Looking at you baby
Feeling it too baby
If I'm asking you to hold me tight
then it's gonna be all right
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love
Time am I restless or a fool?
How can you pretend to be so cruel?
Maybe it's me baby
Maybe it's true baby
Maybe it's everything were dreaming of
We waited long enough
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be your the one to do
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
[Backup singers] The sooner you let two hearts beat together
The sooner you know this love is forever
[Mandy] It's gonna be love
[Backup Singers] Love needs time now or never
[Mandy] It's gonna be love
[Backup Singers] You really got to believe
[Both] it's gonna be strong enough
[Chorus]
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more then I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be your the one to do
It's gonna be hard
It's gonna be tough
It's gonna be more then just enough
It's gonna be LOVE
It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you
It's gonna be real
It's gonna be love
Saturday, February 18, 2006
[are we ever gonna learn to fly?]
i was finally able to accept it. although it hurts but i did anyway. i didnt think i was that much of an idiot.
i hope i'll feel better after a night's sleep.
yeah it's a little melancholy here and there.
having a bad day okay? sorry if i showed some attitude today.
i hate myself now. i hate myself to the core, i'm sick of living.
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maybe if you could just stop doing that because it was unnecessary. i'm looking forward to what you will say. is it because i didnt know you well enough? that i was taken aback by what you said and did? if yes, i blame no one but myself. just stop having that fucked up attitude that will just annoy people.
i'm trying to look at it very calmly and carefully okay. its not that i dont want to try. i have a limit. if i didnt live up to expectations, then i'm sorry.
i dont know how to take a step at a time anymore, i cant decide which direction to go okay? you always put me in a difficult position where i had to make a decision. and everything i tried doing is just so wrong to you. i know i'm wrong most of the time, but please let me live in denial just once.
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Angels Or Devils - Dishwalla
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
i was finally able to accept it. although it hurts but i did anyway. i didnt think i was that much of an idiot.
i hope i'll feel better after a night's sleep.
yeah it's a little melancholy here and there.
having a bad day okay? sorry if i showed some attitude today.
i hate myself now. i hate myself to the core, i'm sick of living.
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maybe if you could just stop doing that because it was unnecessary. i'm looking forward to what you will say. is it because i didnt know you well enough? that i was taken aback by what you said and did? if yes, i blame no one but myself. just stop having that fucked up attitude that will just annoy people.
i'm trying to look at it very calmly and carefully okay. its not that i dont want to try. i have a limit. if i didnt live up to expectations, then i'm sorry.
i dont know how to take a step at a time anymore, i cant decide which direction to go okay? you always put me in a difficult position where i had to make a decision. and everything i tried doing is just so wrong to you. i know i'm wrong most of the time, but please let me live in denial just once.
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Angels Or Devils - Dishwalla
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
[a walk to remember]
a walk to remember rocks. yes. its a real tear jerking movie as well. jaime died. sigh. but it was a really really amazing movie. i would like to thank julienne for urging me to watch the movie. haha! it was a really amazing movie... and mandy moore has an incredible voice.
now i'll just wait to watch the exorcist and the sixth sense. yeah decided to watch them since we were watching clips of them during english. yeap.
a walk to remember is a must watch!
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure in whatever comes.
quoted from the movie. it was something jaime's dad said at jaime and landon's wedding. it was actually something jaime's mom wrote. and when landon was reading that entire paragraph from jaime's mom's book, i can tell you, you'll be too touched to tears.
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mag, matilda and i went 'shopping' today and we met this really nice person. ahh feeling kinda bad. he gave us something, without charging us a cent and he spent so much time on it... but he was really nice. we were insisting to pay for it, and he was telling us to go ahead and take it. so yeah... he was a really nice person, a very generous one indeed.
i love the equalites!!!! haha dont know why i said that but i love them. yay!
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Only Hope - Mandy Moore
There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
a walk to remember rocks. yes. its a real tear jerking movie as well. jaime died. sigh. but it was a really really amazing movie. i would like to thank julienne for urging me to watch the movie. haha! it was a really amazing movie... and mandy moore has an incredible voice.
now i'll just wait to watch the exorcist and the sixth sense. yeah decided to watch them since we were watching clips of them during english. yeap.
a walk to remember is a must watch!
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure in whatever comes.
quoted from the movie. it was something jaime's dad said at jaime and landon's wedding. it was actually something jaime's mom wrote. and when landon was reading that entire paragraph from jaime's mom's book, i can tell you, you'll be too touched to tears.
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mag, matilda and i went 'shopping' today and we met this really nice person. ahh feeling kinda bad. he gave us something, without charging us a cent and he spent so much time on it... but he was really nice. we were insisting to pay for it, and he was telling us to go ahead and take it. so yeah... he was a really nice person, a very generous one indeed.
i love the equalites!!!! haha dont know why i said that but i love them. yay!
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Only Hope - Mandy Moore
There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
[the gift]
haha i was told i sound very monotonous when i blog. haha not really that surprised. well, i shall TRY to add some expression into this post!
MAG AND I HAVE MATCHING EARRINGS!!!! WOW! haha its cute. its this fork and spoon thing. yeah she bought it for me, its a LATE birthday present, but nvm! i still love it. yeah
we were 'shopping' today, when mag and i saw a dwp, and we were like 'OMG?' because well, we heard of it, not exactly seen it. HAHA!
i was reading debby's blog yest and the song 'the gift' reminded me that song existed. haha so i hurried to get it! and it's niceeeeeeeeeee! the lyrics are so cute.
well, shall go on with my work. ta! and happy valentine's day!
-----------------------------
yeah i just need to stop all that crap. and just stop it. please find me something that will keep me occupied. talk to me and joke with me. thanks. ARGH
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The Gift - Blue
It's funny how it starts, just how it all begins
You get your sights on dreams,
and man a thousand different things
You are on for yourself,you're chasing cool desire
You get addicted fast,
but man you're playin' with the fire
Then there's a day that comes to you
When you get all you want,
but there's a space inside, thats just still as empty as it was
'Till an angel comes your way and man she's fallin fast
You know she's so in need but she is too afraid to ask
So you hold out your hands and catch her best you can
And in givin' love you feel a better man
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
It's funny how she smiles, how grateful she is now
And that might touches me deep in my heart somehow
Yet the mirror laughs at me when I forget myself
When I complain about, this hand that I got dealt
And if I had know before,
how much she change my life
I'd sure go back in time
and tell that guy ...hey, man
You can do better than this,
you can answer your prays
You can grant your own wish
Just hold out your hands and give the most you can
And I swear to you you'll feel a better man
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
And it's better by far to do what you do now
And leave the rest to love
Just be strong in who you are
Once you start on that road
You're safe in the knowledge
That anyway you go
Will lead you home Lead you home
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
haha i was told i sound very monotonous when i blog. haha not really that surprised. well, i shall TRY to add some expression into this post!
MAG AND I HAVE MATCHING EARRINGS!!!! WOW! haha its cute. its this fork and spoon thing. yeah she bought it for me, its a LATE birthday present, but nvm! i still love it. yeah
we were 'shopping' today, when mag and i saw a dwp, and we were like 'OMG?' because well, we heard of it, not exactly seen it. HAHA!
i was reading debby's blog yest and the song 'the gift' reminded me that song existed. haha so i hurried to get it! and it's niceeeeeeeeeee! the lyrics are so cute.
well, shall go on with my work. ta! and happy valentine's day!
-----------------------------
yeah i just need to stop all that crap. and just stop it. please find me something that will keep me occupied. talk to me and joke with me. thanks. ARGH
-----------------------------
The Gift - Blue
It's funny how it starts, just how it all begins
You get your sights on dreams,
and man a thousand different things
You are on for yourself,you're chasing cool desire
You get addicted fast,
but man you're playin' with the fire
Then there's a day that comes to you
When you get all you want,
but there's a space inside, thats just still as empty as it was
'Till an angel comes your way and man she's fallin fast
You know she's so in need but she is too afraid to ask
So you hold out your hands and catch her best you can
And in givin' love you feel a better man
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
It's funny how she smiles, how grateful she is now
And that might touches me deep in my heart somehow
Yet the mirror laughs at me when I forget myself
When I complain about, this hand that I got dealt
And if I had know before,
how much she change my life
I'd sure go back in time
and tell that guy ...hey, man
You can do better than this,
you can answer your prays
You can grant your own wish
Just hold out your hands and give the most you can
And I swear to you you'll feel a better man
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
And it's better by far to do what you do now
And leave the rest to love
Just be strong in who you are
Once you start on that road
You're safe in the knowledge
That anyway you go
Will lead you home Lead you home
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
So precious precious precious...
And the gift is what you get
by givin' more than you receive
And you're learnin' fast
that maybe this is how you'll be happy
'Cause in takin' everything you lost,
the air you need to breath
But in givin' it away,
you found the precious thing you seek
Saturday, February 11, 2006
[on this unfateful day, i waited for you]
back from the bbq. yeah it was super fun... and we bought this little cake for amelia since her birthday was this monday. yeah... dom and xu chen ended up wearing the same shirt which really really made them look like a couple. haha gina gave me a flower!!! haha its a balloon actually.. and she gave me a note... yeah its a valentine gift. and i gave her a bear and this vcd i created this morning. she loves the disc. yeap.
dr chia was coming up with chinese names for those who had christian names. yeah was kinda funny. then i accidentally pushed dom. dang.. sorry... yeah his arm was like hurting and it was like reddish and all.. gah... yeah we played around a lot today and gina kept saying 'eh, stop flirting around lar' erm....?
well, it was indeed an enjoyable day today... yeap, loved it, was able to meet up with the smart team members and all, it was great. we had lots of fun and i love the team. i miss them now, although i was with them for the entire day. i just miss them now... and although it has only been 7 days ever since we returned, it feels like forever. yeah...
sigh the yahoo group is like kinda stale and all because there arent enough members. well, not that its not enough, but its just that not all the members are a part of it. there are still some people who havent joined the group yet. and why is it that i cant post anything in the inbox???
its like everytime i try sending a message, it sends me an email telling me its virus infected. wth? so i'm gonna scan my computer for any sick disease thats attacking my com, and stopping me. bleagh.
ahhhh well basically, this entire post is just about how fun the bbq was super fun and how much i miss the smart team, which is a lot. ahhh yes, i was just telling henrietta how much i miss them okay.... sigh i shall go now. i have english, maths, history, ss, geog, chem and physics hw to complete, and not to mention the upcoming dreadful cas that are simply haunting me every second. ah well, shall go now. bye and good night.
back from the bbq. yeah it was super fun... and we bought this little cake for amelia since her birthday was this monday. yeah... dom and xu chen ended up wearing the same shirt which really really made them look like a couple. haha gina gave me a flower!!! haha its a balloon actually.. and she gave me a note... yeah its a valentine gift. and i gave her a bear and this vcd i created this morning. she loves the disc. yeap.
dr chia was coming up with chinese names for those who had christian names. yeah was kinda funny. then i accidentally pushed dom. dang.. sorry... yeah his arm was like hurting and it was like reddish and all.. gah... yeah we played around a lot today and gina kept saying 'eh, stop flirting around lar' erm....?
well, it was indeed an enjoyable day today... yeap, loved it, was able to meet up with the smart team members and all, it was great. we had lots of fun and i love the team. i miss them now, although i was with them for the entire day. i just miss them now... and although it has only been 7 days ever since we returned, it feels like forever. yeah...
sigh the yahoo group is like kinda stale and all because there arent enough members. well, not that its not enough, but its just that not all the members are a part of it. there are still some people who havent joined the group yet. and why is it that i cant post anything in the inbox???
its like everytime i try sending a message, it sends me an email telling me its virus infected. wth? so i'm gonna scan my computer for any sick disease thats attacking my com, and stopping me. bleagh.
ahhhh well basically, this entire post is just about how fun the bbq was super fun and how much i miss the smart team, which is a lot. ahhh yes, i was just telling henrietta how much i miss them okay.... sigh i shall go now. i have english, maths, history, ss, geog, chem and physics hw to complete, and not to mention the upcoming dreadful cas that are simply haunting me every second. ah well, shall go now. bye and good night.
Friday, February 10, 2006
[i'll ignore it]
the o level results were released today. the seniors did very well. denise had a nice score. yeap. very happy for all of them. well it was great to see them so happy with their results and all and they were just constantly smiling from cheek to cheek. yeah, it was a blissful thing to see them once again.
i finally submitted the hard copy of my zero carbon city project. then, i found out savina's report is 26 pages long. mine's only... 8. and i spent 4 hours on it. according to geraldine, thats slow. well, i guess it is. i slept at 1+am last night. all thats left is to complete the presentation which will be due next wednesday and touch up on the drought presentation. well, we didnt have the presentation today, not sure why.
feeling very down now. was like that in the morning. was laughing away with julienne and liz earlier, and now, i'm back to this solemn state.
i'm tired and cant sleep. well, something just tells me at the back of my head to not go to sleep.
cant wait for the bbq tomorrow.
shall continue with part 4...
day 9+10
okay so well, i'll start right from where we were packing our luggages after we returned from new york. we didnt sleep. so i spent hours packing. we were supposed to be at the lodge at 3.30am. so at about 2.30am, i went over to gina's side and slept there for a while. then amanda woke me up at 3am, telling me it was 3.30am. yeah she bluffed me. it was only 3am, so i went back to sleep. and slept for about 5 mins or so before being asked to go back. so i did. we woke porsi up but she kept saying she wanted to rest her eyes (not sleeping). yeah right, she fell asleep. so she got up, and went to our room to sleep! and said she was resting her eyes. so i was making lots of noise and we were all asking her to get up and all. so she finally did and went back to get the luggage and all. and we dragged everything to the lodge and the guys helped us carry them up the bus and we were just waiting for the 321 people to come since they had to finish all their noodles and all. we took off at about 4am or so. most of all, or we all slept on the bus, since it was gonna be a long ride. i dont know if there were people awake or anything because i was asleep. so we finally arrived at the newark airport and had to check in. it was troublesome. that self check in thing really sucks. some of us had problems, and i was the last to check in. and then we were gathered outside this shop. i bought a book for delle there and after waiting for the rest from ij and tms to finish buying their stuff, we headed off. gina and i had ice cream which was super nice. the vanilla was really good. and then talked to gina for a while before watching bleach 65 on the laptop. so we had to borrow mr tan's psp charger to charge the laptop because the adapter couldnt fit into the power sotch right outside the gate. so dom, shawn, alton and i were just sitting there watching the first half of bleach before the gate was open.
slept for the entire flight from newark to detroit. it was really rushed in detroit. i wanted to buy something there but we had to go straight for the gate to board the plane 1 hour earlier. so i was sitting with diana and jn. was sleeping for a while, i think. yeah i think i did, i missed the part when the plane was taking off. so awoke to find diana sleeping and jn studying. by then, when the both of us looked out of the window, we could see ice. yeah somewhere near the north pole i think. it was just the ocean with large fragments of ice. forgot what they're called. we had either breakfast or lunch. well, i guess your sense of time just goes haywire when you're flying, especially from one continent to another, or halfway round the world. then gina came over to ask me to go over to sit with her and dom because the potato (alton) finally agreed to switch places with me. so i did. and sat right next to the isle. then gina went to the toilet or something, so i moved in, and sat in between the two of them. gina was just really tired and fell asleep. dom and i were just playing and fooling around. we were flying over the pacific ocean. yeah. then all three of us were sleeping. dom fell asleep first but he was shaking his leg. i didnt know how he did it. shaking his leg in his sleep. so i was awaken by gina byecause the air stewardess was gonna serve us dinner or lunch. oh i think it was breakfast because there was a muffin and the meal seemed very much like breakfast. so gina had like half a meal and went back to sleep. i finished everything. dom and i were using the toothpicks to attack the muffin. yeah, he was kinda overboard. the poor muffin was all powdery thanks to him. it was kinda embarrassing because someone else was looking at us, wondering if we were mad or something. haha. so yeah fell asleep again. and woke up, slept again, and when we were soon approaching tokyo, woke up again. gina was still sleeping and dom and i started playing again. the fluff fluff goo goo thing. yeah because of the fluffy clouds and the brains turning to goo. then was sleeping again. woke up when we were about to land and it was kinda smooth. so then we found out porsi's row had a pillow fight till they spoilt the pillow. it had a small torn hole. then was just playing and fooling around with dom and gina.
we had time to shop in tokyo for a while. well, thats why a lot of gifts were from tokyo. sorry... so bought orange soda there, which was nice and ate some curry thing with dom. gina cancelled her order because we were rushing for time and they refused to dao bao for us. so yeah. when we boarded the flight, i was sitting with jn and missed the taking off again. was sleeping on jn, while she studied. yeah... haha so when i awoke, i started to play the games on the lcd screens. i dont know why but for some reason only the flights between tokyo and singapore had the lcd screens. so we were playing the in-flight trivia challenge. shawn was playing at first so i joined in. bleagh he's good at the game because his general knowledge is like wow, just like geraldine, but the thing is, he doesnt have a good sense of direction unlike geraldine. so well, jn joined in too, so both of us were playing side by side. porsi and diana played too. they were sitting in front of us. soon, alvin and alton joined in, but alton left shortly after. so alvin was really good at the game. it was like a total smart team challenge. haha stopeed playing after a while and was watching cheaper by a dozen. yeah touching movie, all about family and all, with 12 children. 14-member family. so then was playing solitaire until dom decided to come look for me because both of us were bored. so we were chatting in that small compartment, like this cross over between the two isles in the plane. amelia joined us and the three of us were just crapping around. we were in there for like 2 hours and the other passengers were just walking past and were starting casual conversations with us too. well, the reason why the three of us were in there is because there werent any empty seats left so yeah. when we were landing soon, we returned to our respective seats and waited.
when we arrived in singapore, we gave our thank you letters to each other and stuff. haha i got something from xu chen. gina said she wanted to buy perfume and liquor so dom and i followed her. finally, we went through the arrival gates. it was about 1am, on the 28th of january. gina sort of disappeared, well, she was with her mum and dom and i, with my parents went to the pick up point since his parents would be picking him up there. so i left first. haha he was just there, waiting. yeah. and well, that was the end of the trip. the end of the programme. well, overall, what i really loved most were the people. i'm gonna miss lisha for all her sarcasm and her jokes. i'm gonna miss gina because she's my very good friend, dom too. i'm gonna miss the rest of the tms people. haha they were really a smart lot, and very funny too! woon chian and his cooking and all. and xu chen's really lame jokes and silly stuff he did like wrapping his scarf around his face to look like a terrorist. henrietta's weird jokes that were really amusing. yeah it was a wonderful trip.
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thats the end to part 4. yeah end of story. i've been on this entry for an hour... yeah... well, dont know if its bad news or anything. maybe it isnt, haha thanks to all that eye sore huh?
time went by really quickly. well, just today, i remembered my conversation with the equalites about having that 'i'm-still-a-sec-1' feeling. well, what do you know? we're sec 3s now. yeah, too quick. haha the years shall just go by.
well, i'm gonna start on work now... since i dont think i'll be doing any work tomorrow. haha i love this song. obvious - westlife. enjoy it.
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Obvious - Westlife
[Shane:]
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Bryan (Westlife):]
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
[Mark:]
You are my very first thought in the morning
[Shane:]
And my last at nightfall
[Mark:]
You are the love that came without warning
[Mark & Shane:]
I need you, I want you to know
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Westlife:]
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
[Shane:]
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song
the o level results were released today. the seniors did very well. denise had a nice score. yeap. very happy for all of them. well it was great to see them so happy with their results and all and they were just constantly smiling from cheek to cheek. yeah, it was a blissful thing to see them once again.
i finally submitted the hard copy of my zero carbon city project. then, i found out savina's report is 26 pages long. mine's only... 8. and i spent 4 hours on it. according to geraldine, thats slow. well, i guess it is. i slept at 1+am last night. all thats left is to complete the presentation which will be due next wednesday and touch up on the drought presentation. well, we didnt have the presentation today, not sure why.
feeling very down now. was like that in the morning. was laughing away with julienne and liz earlier, and now, i'm back to this solemn state.
i'm tired and cant sleep. well, something just tells me at the back of my head to not go to sleep.
cant wait for the bbq tomorrow.
shall continue with part 4...
day 9+10
okay so well, i'll start right from where we were packing our luggages after we returned from new york. we didnt sleep. so i spent hours packing. we were supposed to be at the lodge at 3.30am. so at about 2.30am, i went over to gina's side and slept there for a while. then amanda woke me up at 3am, telling me it was 3.30am. yeah she bluffed me. it was only 3am, so i went back to sleep. and slept for about 5 mins or so before being asked to go back. so i did. we woke porsi up but she kept saying she wanted to rest her eyes (not sleeping). yeah right, she fell asleep. so she got up, and went to our room to sleep! and said she was resting her eyes. so i was making lots of noise and we were all asking her to get up and all. so she finally did and went back to get the luggage and all. and we dragged everything to the lodge and the guys helped us carry them up the bus and we were just waiting for the 321 people to come since they had to finish all their noodles and all. we took off at about 4am or so. most of all, or we all slept on the bus, since it was gonna be a long ride. i dont know if there were people awake or anything because i was asleep. so we finally arrived at the newark airport and had to check in. it was troublesome. that self check in thing really sucks. some of us had problems, and i was the last to check in. and then we were gathered outside this shop. i bought a book for delle there and after waiting for the rest from ij and tms to finish buying their stuff, we headed off. gina and i had ice cream which was super nice. the vanilla was really good. and then talked to gina for a while before watching bleach 65 on the laptop. so we had to borrow mr tan's psp charger to charge the laptop because the adapter couldnt fit into the power sotch right outside the gate. so dom, shawn, alton and i were just sitting there watching the first half of bleach before the gate was open.
slept for the entire flight from newark to detroit. it was really rushed in detroit. i wanted to buy something there but we had to go straight for the gate to board the plane 1 hour earlier. so i was sitting with diana and jn. was sleeping for a while, i think. yeah i think i did, i missed the part when the plane was taking off. so awoke to find diana sleeping and jn studying. by then, when the both of us looked out of the window, we could see ice. yeah somewhere near the north pole i think. it was just the ocean with large fragments of ice. forgot what they're called. we had either breakfast or lunch. well, i guess your sense of time just goes haywire when you're flying, especially from one continent to another, or halfway round the world. then gina came over to ask me to go over to sit with her and dom because the potato (alton) finally agreed to switch places with me. so i did. and sat right next to the isle. then gina went to the toilet or something, so i moved in, and sat in between the two of them. gina was just really tired and fell asleep. dom and i were just playing and fooling around. we were flying over the pacific ocean. yeah. then all three of us were sleeping. dom fell asleep first but he was shaking his leg. i didnt know how he did it. shaking his leg in his sleep. so i was awaken by gina byecause the air stewardess was gonna serve us dinner or lunch. oh i think it was breakfast because there was a muffin and the meal seemed very much like breakfast. so gina had like half a meal and went back to sleep. i finished everything. dom and i were using the toothpicks to attack the muffin. yeah, he was kinda overboard. the poor muffin was all powdery thanks to him. it was kinda embarrassing because someone else was looking at us, wondering if we were mad or something. haha. so yeah fell asleep again. and woke up, slept again, and when we were soon approaching tokyo, woke up again. gina was still sleeping and dom and i started playing again. the fluff fluff goo goo thing. yeah because of the fluffy clouds and the brains turning to goo. then was sleeping again. woke up when we were about to land and it was kinda smooth. so then we found out porsi's row had a pillow fight till they spoilt the pillow. it had a small torn hole. then was just playing and fooling around with dom and gina.
we had time to shop in tokyo for a while. well, thats why a lot of gifts were from tokyo. sorry... so bought orange soda there, which was nice and ate some curry thing with dom. gina cancelled her order because we were rushing for time and they refused to dao bao for us. so yeah. when we boarded the flight, i was sitting with jn and missed the taking off again. was sleeping on jn, while she studied. yeah... haha so when i awoke, i started to play the games on the lcd screens. i dont know why but for some reason only the flights between tokyo and singapore had the lcd screens. so we were playing the in-flight trivia challenge. shawn was playing at first so i joined in. bleagh he's good at the game because his general knowledge is like wow, just like geraldine, but the thing is, he doesnt have a good sense of direction unlike geraldine. so well, jn joined in too, so both of us were playing side by side. porsi and diana played too. they were sitting in front of us. soon, alvin and alton joined in, but alton left shortly after. so alvin was really good at the game. it was like a total smart team challenge. haha stopeed playing after a while and was watching cheaper by a dozen. yeah touching movie, all about family and all, with 12 children. 14-member family. so then was playing solitaire until dom decided to come look for me because both of us were bored. so we were chatting in that small compartment, like this cross over between the two isles in the plane. amelia joined us and the three of us were just crapping around. we were in there for like 2 hours and the other passengers were just walking past and were starting casual conversations with us too. well, the reason why the three of us were in there is because there werent any empty seats left so yeah. when we were landing soon, we returned to our respective seats and waited.
when we arrived in singapore, we gave our thank you letters to each other and stuff. haha i got something from xu chen. gina said she wanted to buy perfume and liquor so dom and i followed her. finally, we went through the arrival gates. it was about 1am, on the 28th of january. gina sort of disappeared, well, she was with her mum and dom and i, with my parents went to the pick up point since his parents would be picking him up there. so i left first. haha he was just there, waiting. yeah. and well, that was the end of the trip. the end of the programme. well, overall, what i really loved most were the people. i'm gonna miss lisha for all her sarcasm and her jokes. i'm gonna miss gina because she's my very good friend, dom too. i'm gonna miss the rest of the tms people. haha they were really a smart lot, and very funny too! woon chian and his cooking and all. and xu chen's really lame jokes and silly stuff he did like wrapping his scarf around his face to look like a terrorist. henrietta's weird jokes that were really amusing. yeah it was a wonderful trip.
--------------------
thats the end to part 4. yeah end of story. i've been on this entry for an hour... yeah... well, dont know if its bad news or anything. maybe it isnt, haha thanks to all that eye sore huh?
time went by really quickly. well, just today, i remembered my conversation with the equalites about having that 'i'm-still-a-sec-1' feeling. well, what do you know? we're sec 3s now. yeah, too quick. haha the years shall just go by.
well, i'm gonna start on work now... since i dont think i'll be doing any work tomorrow. haha i love this song. obvious - westlife. enjoy it.
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Obvious - Westlife
[Shane:]
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Bryan (Westlife):]
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
[Mark:]
You are my very first thought in the morning
[Shane:]
And my last at nightfall
[Mark:]
You are the love that came without warning
[Mark & Shane:]
I need you, I want you to know
[Shane (Westlife):]
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
[Westlife:]
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
[Shane:]
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song
Thursday, February 09, 2006
[nothing]
i suddenly had the urge to blog.
too lazy to post part 4, ah well. will soon i guess.
still working on presentations. yeah on zero carbon project. gonna die. actually only the hard copy is due tomorrow i realised. but ah well. i still have to have the soft copy done right? well, if only the hard copy is due tomorrow, then i'll do the hard copy first.
english project presentation tomorrow. yeah, geraldine's doing it. this project isnt so bad, its all about movie appreciation and the movie we picked is constantine. yeap, nice movie.
bleagh i have the other geog presentation to complete. the drought one. well, i thought i completed it at first, but when the other teams presented today, there were so many loopholes and i guess i need to touch up on it.
i feel kinda out. just left out. yeah... thats it.
we had religious education today. well, its just catechism in school, but they decided to name it religious education. so anyway, we're currently at the stress module. yeah and the activity today was like uh. and my results were kinda shocking to ms ratulangi.
draggy day it has been. this is what happens if you have late recess and late day. history was kinda noisy. well, not kinda, but rather. well, the whole class just didnt really care about what mrs krishna was teaching... yeah, and they were either pchatting or pasting post-its everywhere. yeah savina stuck a post-it on herself. that post-it said 'kick me'. smelly and khym pasted it on geraldine and geraldine pasted it on savina, so savina took it and started playing with it.
ah i gtg.... do my zero carbon project... bye
i suddenly had the urge to blog.
too lazy to post part 4, ah well. will soon i guess.
still working on presentations. yeah on zero carbon project. gonna die. actually only the hard copy is due tomorrow i realised. but ah well. i still have to have the soft copy done right? well, if only the hard copy is due tomorrow, then i'll do the hard copy first.
english project presentation tomorrow. yeah, geraldine's doing it. this project isnt so bad, its all about movie appreciation and the movie we picked is constantine. yeap, nice movie.
bleagh i have the other geog presentation to complete. the drought one. well, i thought i completed it at first, but when the other teams presented today, there were so many loopholes and i guess i need to touch up on it.
i feel kinda out. just left out. yeah... thats it.
we had religious education today. well, its just catechism in school, but they decided to name it religious education. so anyway, we're currently at the stress module. yeah and the activity today was like uh. and my results were kinda shocking to ms ratulangi.
draggy day it has been. this is what happens if you have late recess and late day. history was kinda noisy. well, not kinda, but rather. well, the whole class just didnt really care about what mrs krishna was teaching... yeah, and they were either pchatting or pasting post-its everywhere. yeah savina stuck a post-it on herself. that post-it said 'kick me'. smelly and khym pasted it on geraldine and geraldine pasted it on savina, so savina took it and started playing with it.
ah i gtg.... do my zero carbon project... bye
Monday, February 06, 2006
[heaven knows i'm falling]
sigh.... have been working on projects for the past three days. yeah feeling kinda sick. working on the geography project, the one on droughts. just have to do the cursed presentation. well, i'm just glad i finished the english project and i'm now left with the other geography project, on a zero cabon community. i need to piece things together by wednesday. well, i still have to come up witht he speech cards for the the drought presentation.
i finally finished all my maths hw. and i finished my maths hw today, so i can concentrate on the presentation now. sigh. it'll never end. now i'm half dead., just very tired, and trying my very best to complete this presentation. and my case study doesnt have a name!!!!! ahhh. how how how?????? bleagh, maybe i'll just redo the part on the case study and just print and use glue to paste it over, so that it'll look ugly. ahhh, my printer isnt even functioning well. it cant even work although the only cartridge empty is yellow.
ah crap. i'm tired and i'm on the verge of falling sleeping when i need to finish the presentation! and i hvnt really started revising for the a maths ca.
i'm blogging now because i need to rant and complain.
complain
complain
complain
rant
rant
rant
rant
complain
complain
complain
rant
rant
rant
argh..... wish me good luck. bye
sigh.... have been working on projects for the past three days. yeah feeling kinda sick. working on the geography project, the one on droughts. just have to do the cursed presentation. well, i'm just glad i finished the english project and i'm now left with the other geography project, on a zero cabon community. i need to piece things together by wednesday. well, i still have to come up witht he speech cards for the the drought presentation.
i finally finished all my maths hw. and i finished my maths hw today, so i can concentrate on the presentation now. sigh. it'll never end. now i'm half dead., just very tired, and trying my very best to complete this presentation. and my case study doesnt have a name!!!!! ahhh. how how how?????? bleagh, maybe i'll just redo the part on the case study and just print and use glue to paste it over, so that it'll look ugly. ahhh, my printer isnt even functioning well. it cant even work although the only cartridge empty is yellow.
ah crap. i'm tired and i'm on the verge of falling sleeping when i need to finish the presentation! and i hvnt really started revising for the a maths ca.
i'm blogging now because i need to rant and complain.
complain
complain
complain
rant
rant
rant
rant
complain
complain
complain
rant
rant
rant
argh..... wish me good luck. bye
Saturday, February 04, 2006
[only the three of us]
mag showed me this page of her notebook. go to her blog to view that page cause she scanned it in. click here. yeah i said she would never abide it... haha well, wonder if she has been following it since she even wrote that on her notebook. well, good luck mag.
that pile of homework i have is growing at an astronomical rate. haha maybe i should do the same. haha then mag'll have a chance to say i would never ever abide it. well, true, haha i seriously lack self discipline. so i procrastinate too! hee...
well, shall continue with part 3, up to you if you wanna read it though, or you might choose to click on the 'X' on the top right hand corner of this window.
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day 7
woke up really early to get ready for school day 2. yeah, well, not much changed. just that we played volleyball during health and it was kinda fun. in the afternoon, ew had a chance to take a look at the different CCAs they had and all. well, a few of us stayed to look at what the robotics club were doing and all. yeah, their frc robot is like wow. haha, a few of them were playing games and all, and it was kinda cool. they were also building a playing field for themselves. yeap... we returned to the inn and started the iron chef competition. ij won, haha thanks to eliza. yeap, dinner was yummy although i didnt eat much. after that we were told we were going to new york the next day. then we were just going around, watching tv and all. and went to bed.
day 8
sort of our last day in pennsylvania because the next morning, we will be leaving, leaving behind our memories. well, we woke up really early to take the tour bus to new york. it was just that 2 and a half hours ride from pennsylvania to new york. well, the sunrise in america was really nice.
well this is the best photo i took from the bus. yeah i risked destroying my camera lens. dom was going on about how nice the toilet was and i was kinda amused. yeah, so a majority of the people on the bus were sleeping. i only fell asleep when we were 10 mins away from new york. so was just looking at the scenery and looking out for bird nests with dom, since we were 'bored'.
we took a ferry over to the statue of liberty since it was on another island. and it was even more cold in ny. the weather was kinda bad, according to dr chia. so we were sitting right on top and were freezing in the cold. a few of us were sitting there, eating nachos and drinking hot chocolate, but the wind kept blowing so we had to make sure our nachos didnt fly away.
when we got to the statue of liberty, there was this really tight security check. haha shant disclose anything... since yeah, i dont think i should. so anyway, there were a lot of different stuff about the statue of liverty, like the structure of it, there was a replica of its face and one of its foot. well, we could only go as far as the top of the pedestal. there were like rectangles on the floor so we had to stand in it and look up to see the statue of liberty. this was what it looked like from one of the rectangle.
well, when we got to the top of the pedestal, we spent so much time there. we took a whole lot of group photos and had lots of fun. yeap.
the girls...
the guys...
and the teachers.
yeap it was really fun up there... took lots of photos and it was the best time up there.
me (haha), dom (.com), gina (nana)
we spent a lot of time in the gift shop too. gina bought this necklace for me. it has a letter 'B' on it. she bought one for herself and one for sh too. so the three of us would just look like triplets if we wear it and stand together. haha. bought some stuff and a lollipop for my cousin. had lunch in chinatown. had a lot of tea and we kept sampling each other's food. so the food just went in circles and from one table to another. we went to times square to shop. so we first went into hard rock cafe, where i bought this jar of jellybeans for 3/8. well, the shape of the container was unique, it had the shape of a guitar. yeah... dom bought this t shirt which said 'my first hard rock cafe shirt'. it was really cute. it was for his lil bro. the words 'my first' and 't shirt' were like written in this childish handwriting over a hard rock cafe shirt. haha it was perfect for a lil kid. haha yeah. and i wanted to buy this drum bag there that costed 40usd. it was black with a nice blue shade. sigh... we had to head back to the tour bus already but we were allowed to go into the roxy shop for only 15 mins. bought a hoody with gina. mine's black and hers is brown. yeah. and bought many gifts there. there stuff there are like wow. we only got to shop in the two shops because we were running out of time and all. so we did. and was sitting next to dom instead of gina because all the stuff were placed on my seat. so we watched kangaroo jack on the bus and it was super funny. although it was stupid and retarded, it was amusinga and nice. yeah. the kangaroo was simply too adorable. haha. went back to the inn. some people were cooking. dom and i were watching high school musical on disney channel. adeline, tx and gina then joined in in the last part of the movie. separated the robot into smaller pieces and allocated a few people with the stuff to bring back to singapore. then we just went back to pack our luggages. well... we didnt sleep.
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haha well, thats part 3 for you. all thats left is day 9 and 10(?), well, thats part 4. i dont know if i'll still clump day 9 and day 10 together because by then, i wouldnt have been clear about the right date and time. so yeah... haha only day 8 has photos. well i have never used the blogger photo upload until now... haha, i never really wanted to explore blogger thats why... haha, well, i've been on this entry for more than hour.... yes i have. its 12.23am now. i think i shall really start on my homework... and revise for the ca next week. ta and good night.
mag showed me this page of her notebook. go to her blog to view that page cause she scanned it in. click here. yeah i said she would never abide it... haha well, wonder if she has been following it since she even wrote that on her notebook. well, good luck mag.
that pile of homework i have is growing at an astronomical rate. haha maybe i should do the same. haha then mag'll have a chance to say i would never ever abide it. well, true, haha i seriously lack self discipline. so i procrastinate too! hee...
well, shall continue with part 3, up to you if you wanna read it though, or you might choose to click on the 'X' on the top right hand corner of this window.
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day 7
woke up really early to get ready for school day 2. yeah, well, not much changed. just that we played volleyball during health and it was kinda fun. in the afternoon, ew had a chance to take a look at the different CCAs they had and all. well, a few of us stayed to look at what the robotics club were doing and all. yeah, their frc robot is like wow. haha, a few of them were playing games and all, and it was kinda cool. they were also building a playing field for themselves. yeap... we returned to the inn and started the iron chef competition. ij won, haha thanks to eliza. yeap, dinner was yummy although i didnt eat much. after that we were told we were going to new york the next day. then we were just going around, watching tv and all. and went to bed.
day 8
sort of our last day in pennsylvania because the next morning, we will be leaving, leaving behind our memories. well, we woke up really early to take the tour bus to new york. it was just that 2 and a half hours ride from pennsylvania to new york. well, the sunrise in america was really nice.
well this is the best photo i took from the bus. yeah i risked destroying my camera lens. dom was going on about how nice the toilet was and i was kinda amused. yeah, so a majority of the people on the bus were sleeping. i only fell asleep when we were 10 mins away from new york. so was just looking at the scenery and looking out for bird nests with dom, since we were 'bored'.
we took a ferry over to the statue of liberty since it was on another island. and it was even more cold in ny. the weather was kinda bad, according to dr chia. so we were sitting right on top and were freezing in the cold. a few of us were sitting there, eating nachos and drinking hot chocolate, but the wind kept blowing so we had to make sure our nachos didnt fly away.
when we got to the statue of liberty, there was this really tight security check. haha shant disclose anything... since yeah, i dont think i should. so anyway, there were a lot of different stuff about the statue of liverty, like the structure of it, there was a replica of its face and one of its foot. well, we could only go as far as the top of the pedestal. there were like rectangles on the floor so we had to stand in it and look up to see the statue of liberty. this was what it looked like from one of the rectangle.
well, when we got to the top of the pedestal, we spent so much time there. we took a whole lot of group photos and had lots of fun. yeap.
the girls...
the guys...
and the teachers.
yeap it was really fun up there... took lots of photos and it was the best time up there.
me (haha), dom (.com), gina (nana)
we spent a lot of time in the gift shop too. gina bought this necklace for me. it has a letter 'B' on it. she bought one for herself and one for sh too. so the three of us would just look like triplets if we wear it and stand together. haha. bought some stuff and a lollipop for my cousin. had lunch in chinatown. had a lot of tea and we kept sampling each other's food. so the food just went in circles and from one table to another. we went to times square to shop. so we first went into hard rock cafe, where i bought this jar of jellybeans for 3/8. well, the shape of the container was unique, it had the shape of a guitar. yeah... dom bought this t shirt which said 'my first hard rock cafe shirt'. it was really cute. it was for his lil bro. the words 'my first' and 't shirt' were like written in this childish handwriting over a hard rock cafe shirt. haha it was perfect for a lil kid. haha yeah. and i wanted to buy this drum bag there that costed 40usd. it was black with a nice blue shade. sigh... we had to head back to the tour bus already but we were allowed to go into the roxy shop for only 15 mins. bought a hoody with gina. mine's black and hers is brown. yeah. and bought many gifts there. there stuff there are like wow. we only got to shop in the two shops because we were running out of time and all. so we did. and was sitting next to dom instead of gina because all the stuff were placed on my seat. so we watched kangaroo jack on the bus and it was super funny. although it was stupid and retarded, it was amusinga and nice. yeah. the kangaroo was simply too adorable. haha. went back to the inn. some people were cooking. dom and i were watching high school musical on disney channel. adeline, tx and gina then joined in in the last part of the movie. separated the robot into smaller pieces and allocated a few people with the stuff to bring back to singapore. then we just went back to pack our luggages. well... we didnt sleep.
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haha well, thats part 3 for you. all thats left is day 9 and 10(?), well, thats part 4. i dont know if i'll still clump day 9 and day 10 together because by then, i wouldnt have been clear about the right date and time. so yeah... haha only day 8 has photos. well i have never used the blogger photo upload until now... haha, i never really wanted to explore blogger thats why... haha, well, i've been on this entry for more than hour.... yes i have. its 12.23am now. i think i shall really start on my homework... and revise for the ca next week. ta and good night.