i cooked dinner today. veggies n steamed fish... ok, it didnt taste too bad, but i tink i'll may not b able to b to b a good housewife after all, haha.

my grandma's in the emergency ward now... bcoz her right leg swollen. my mum's bf went down to the hospital n i cooked dinner, thanks to my aunt's supervision. harhar... well, i do hope everything is ok. she has diabetes, so thats why her leg swelled... but she hasnt seen the doctor yet... still queing... she might have to be warded in the hospital... ok... juz received the news, she has been admitted to hospital.... argh!!!

why did things like these happen?

sometimes... i'm a really spoilt brat, so immature... sigh, i feel like dying now... how great!!! n 2mrw, i still have that 4day-3night chalet at downtown. my grandma wasnt gonna stay over, but i dun know.... i will rather stay at home than go to the chalet. she'll b left home alone, if she is not warded n doesnt stay over at my aunt's place at trellis towers. sigh...

the whole thing is a mess, i never expected it to happen now
please don't....

i think she'll b laughing now, at how things turned out for me. i really judged her wrongly... she was not the goody two shoes i tght, u changed... for the worst...

i don't care about you
you can laugh all you want abt it
but you wanna know wat?
you are the worst person i've ever met
you're the worst friend

go ahead and laugh
about my tragedy and failure
i don't care abt you ONE BIT!
I HATE YOU!

sad story
so christmas didnt go that well for me... woke up in the morning and got a scolding, how great. then my mum gave me hell the entire afternoon. my worst christmas... HOW GREAT YEAH? and then i was sort of treated as sum kind of disease and so i was sort of... i played ps2 the entire day n it felt as though i totally skipped christmas...

after playing ffx n ffx2, i decided i like ffx more, coz there r more events n the story is much more interesting, mayb bcoz of tidus' presence, makes the story more interesting, bcoz of the yuna-tidus relationship. n i'm craving for ffx3!!!!!!!! argh... i'll juz hope squaresoft will create a ffx3. n if there is, i will rejoice. haha, i tght abt it, ffx3, ffx4, ffx5.... ffx100??? ok, that was lame, that was stupid, n it was silly of me to bear these tghts. but if only they didnt end the story with yuna and tidus in zarnarkand, yuna pushing tidus into the water and all, then mayb i wudnt b like this, craving for the ffx3. argh... so useless...

and today... i ate n watched tv, like a pig right? hmmmm, i had spaghetti, then log cake(now where did that come frm? arh, my grandma bought it today), bread, chocolate. yeah then was watching n watching tv. then my bro's boyfriend came. haha, justin wee. they were making heel noise in the room, as usual. n my mum recently got addicted to that neopets game, sutek's tomb. hmmm, ok........ well shes been playing it like the entire day. coz the computer was in my room, so there was once when i woke up at 5+ n saw her playing that game, but then i went back to sleep, coz the night b4, when i was playing ffx, she played it till she was pissed off, n then my bro n i bcum the victims.

just now, my mum was saying how organised my bro's sec sch was n how DISorganized ij was... like watever lar. was really pissed n walked away when i heard her say that. i juz said in a rather pissed tone "u never know" coz she was describing how organized my bro's sch was. n she said "well, so far", n i still said "u never know" n walked away, i was pissed coz she said all those, as though ij was the worst sch. her tone... i cudnt stand it. n this was the second time! the first time was abt the sch u. haiyoh... its not ur sch n u dun even know how the system in ij works...

how much do u know abt balestier hill?
u only went to the sch once, n u start comparing?

haiz. i guess things will not turn out good for me. even though others may say good things happen after bad things, but i think my good happenings may b too late. argh, its so sick lar. so shittified.

unpredictable events
they happen at the times we least expect

i guess..............
its the end

I'll Stand By You - Girls Aloud

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!!

haha... open ur prezzies now n all.... haha... i have... when got them. haha, i got a few but most of the ew presents i got are ff stuff.. haha. wat m i to do with the two gifts i bought for iz n mag???

THX DEBBY AND DONNA FOR THE GIFTS!!!

i was on my way back frm sumone's hse... in the car... as i was listening to class 95 fm, i tght abt my childhood. when i was 5 or so. well, i remembered when i was in k1, my bro was four, we were studying in the same sch. the principal was my grandma's sis-in-law. b4 the sch bus came, my bro n i wud sit in front of the tv screen n watch magic sch bus.. haha, only the first part. that was when i was still staying in the east, sumwhere pretty close to east coast. everyday, at 4pm, the maid will bring my bro n i to the playground. n on weekends, i wud juz go to the beach, n build sandcastles... haha, yeah, those were the times.

then the break up of my family... when i saw them quarelling in the new hse on the 9th floor in tp, b4 i moved to the 8th floor. my bro n i stood out side the kitchen n watched them fight. i was in tears then, i stood there. i remembered evrything. it was one of my darkest moments in life. shall not go into the details coz seriously.. i usually share this with pple i'm really close with. n then the next thing i knew... they got a divorce, n my family broke up.

then i carried on my life all the way. had friends who were totally hypocrites, sum whom u cudnt trust, sum who are backstabbers, act really nice n friendly towards u n totally stab u right in the back. yeah, many kinds of pple... all the way until now. n will still learn abt mankind yeah?

i guess sum juz wudnt understand how i feel. there r pple who tell u "i will always b there for u, when u need help, whether i can help or not", but when u turn to them, they tell u to go solve it urself... n leave u in a lurch. n sumtimes, pple take u as a spare tyre.

i may seem strong
but i'm weak inside

ok juz came back frm ymca like 30 mins ago...

haha, was attacked by the kids... ok, i'm one who is easily bullied but not by so many at the same time... did i break my record? well... i dun know coz i have p5 juniors who bully me... pull my hair, chase me around n attack me... so i dun know lar. well, i did have fun lar. zhihui is a p5 girl frm macpherson primary sch.

initially, when the kids first came in, they were taking the lego men, n making lots of noise, so i got a little worried and all... but then, after assisting the girl, zhihui(i tink her name is spelt like this... i dun know lar), she sort of started to calm down. yeah sumtin like that. so then it went well lar... except our robot was too fast n too slow. we had to keep changing the power. frm 3 to 2, 2 to 1... 3 n 2 were actually too fast, n 1 was too slow but in the end, the power was 2 n it worked fine... happiness. well my team won the against all odds awards, haha ok. yeah, then the kids were tokin lar, abt whether savina was a girl or a boy... ok shall not tok abt it... haha, watever it is, the kids tght savina was a boy, n kept calling her "boyboy". haha... that was hilarious. then we took a group foto. n when zhihui actually wanted to give me a hug, her arms were actually strangling me... so i was moaning in agony, haha. yeah. i was playing dead on the ground n denise was crying over my "death", n then zhihui came to tickle me, n i started to run. then the other 5 came after me, i was attacked by them. my tshirt was pulled frm the back. haiyoh, finally, i didnt feel anymore ticklish, n they finally let me go... i was so worn out already, bcoz of the running n laughing n screaming. i almost ost my voice. then we played captain's ball. ok, it was a little impossible to play in a room, but we made it possible in the end. frm captain's ball, it gradually changed into rugby, n i was fighting for the ball wif gary, haha, i felt to the ground. coz i was there, struggling... n i finally let go when the teacher said stop. yeah... n when gary was kicking the ball. it went straight for my face. ah great lar... but it was a float ball, deflated actually, so it wasnt really that pain, but my face was really warm after that n i was all dizzy n getting a headache n i was even more worn out. ok, i did have fun lar... so then gary n jiashun(i tink) were fighting for the ball on the floor, so their position was rather sick lar. we were all laughing coz their position was like having sexual intercourse. guy n guy. yeah, that was sick lar... then gary got the ball n came over to the other side of the room, where we were coz they were gg for the ball (ahem) at the other end of the room, far frm us. he said "great f*****g" yeah, we were all shocked lar. the look on savina's face was funny, n evryone was really taken aback coz he was only in primary sch n he oredi knew that word... freaky...

then played the playing cards debby bought for me... yay!!! n we had pizza, coke, etc. matilda n i left straight after we ate... but they were still eating so anyway, we left first. n we found our way out, thanx to savina's directions... haha, she wanted to accompany us lar... but i guess dun need lar. so we left on our own. we talked abt selection camp n other stuff. n i got home, finding my mum's bf back frm bangkok. haha, i juz remembered, liz came back frm bangkok too today. haha, mayb it was the same plane? arh, nvm.

this morning's gift exchange was ok lar. i was sitting between stef quek n porsi, so both of them were trying to snatch things frm each other n i ended up getting hit in the eye once. isnt dat serious but yeah. it wasnt good sitting there, thats all i can say. then i got this cute calendar pig, frm i dunno hu. n denise got my jar of cranes. n i got the santa hat for matilda, but mag n liz didnt cum so i guess i have to give them the gift sum other time then...

Curtain Falls - Blue

[Duncan]
We come from humble beginnings and
Who could have guessed it when
You sit and doubt it and
Things aint all that bright
But we made it though the night
It's like a game of truth or dare
If you can make it here
You'll make it anywhere
That's what we've been told
But the stories getting old

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We started out many years ago
No one will ever know
How far we've really come
Since we walked away
And no more words to say

[Antony]
And we made a lot of sacrifice
Undid a lot of ties
Fought a lot of fights
To get where we are now
Just don't ask me how

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
In the script of my life

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz i'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And i've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

wahaha.... i finally got the ffx game!!!! woohoo!! my mum bought it for me as a christmas prezzie. haha, i can actually choose btween the jap version n the english version, coz both r in the dvd... whee =] she bought it the day b4. i hardly played it yet. m i juz weird? i was so eager to get the game n i barely played it yet??? yeah... n i bought the harry potter n the prisoner of azkaban game like months ago n i only started playing it yesterday... thats slow. n i hvnt finished ffx2 yet... i'm too slow liao. still stuck there trying to defeat that demon in bikanel desert, the magus sisters in the farplane, the boss fiend in the thunder plains n getting past the cloister of traits. arh, even though i'm in the last story level but i still have so much to finish... i cant wait for the day i finish the game.... coz i wanna see the ending. even though i've seen it in the vcd suhui lent me, but i still wanna finish the game. my bro was nagging at me, yeah he was nagging at me, y m i always playing ffx2 n not the other games... haha, yeah, i agree.

i really do enjoy morning madness... listened to it this morning, was laughing my head off... ok nvm.

haiz.... after reading debby's post... i have to say that i feel the same too. i have put arc as my first priority. my priorities are jumbled up. haiz mayb my life really had to suck this much. what is the freaking matter with me? all that happened, the problem does lie with me. i have caused all these. my incapability was the cause.

i dun know wat to do now.... to hide? to run? to run n hide? as u can see, useless me is trying to run away frm reality.

went to give out flyers in the morning for the newspaper collection on saturday. was grped with suhui debby n geraldine. ok, we started at block 153 n when we came across our first dog-guarded house, debby was all excited, haha. but when she saw the dog, she said it was ugly coz it was a black dog with a really black face. haha... then next house, a cute doggy, brown. debby said it was a mad dog, i have to agree lar. i heard it bark like two storeys away so it is considerably mad lar. we finished two blocks. but when we came over to our third block, we only managed to finished storeys four to eleven, coz we ran out of flyers.

then had lunch. geraldine didnt eat anything, debby had nasi lemak, and suhui had chicken rice n i was stealing soup frm her, ok not stealing frm her but was sipping some lar, argh nvm. the four of us talked abt out primary sch food. abt the dirty noodles stall n debby's primary sch drink stall, haha, the tght of it makes me wanna roar with laughter. :D

we went back to sch to help pack the kits for the ymca thing after waiting for the rain to stop... then debby, suhui n i left at arnd 4.30pm.

we went to more than words... i forgot wat debby bought, hehe. the stuff there were cute, but expensive. then we came across the vcd shop next to kfc. hehe, saw the ffx vcd among the anime vcd... argh, i was getting all excited... :D then we headed for the comics store in central. i saw the ffx2 ps2 game... excited again, dunno y, haha, but i oredi have that. then suhui showed me the ffx n ffx2 playing cards. debby bought a box of the playing cards for me as a christmas gift, yay!!!! thx debby!!! then i saw the ffx n ffx2 game strategy guide!!!! argh!!!! i want that too!!! but it cost $29! argh... y did it have to be so ex??? :'( n we saw the ffxi online game!!! arh i want that game, which cost like $69+??? evrything is so ex... then when debby was paying for the stuff, i was looking at the ezlink card stickers, for nth... haha, so many ffx n ffx2!!!! argh, i was making that noise whenever i saw sumtin relating ff, it wasnt a scream... not exactly, coz it wasnt loud lar... haha, thx debby for reminding me. then i was looking n looking thru until suhui said "u're not gonna make ur ez link card look like that right?" haha, i quickly put the booklet back n we walked out of the shop. suhui noticed the posters hanging outside, so the three of us went to take a look. suhui then said to look for ff posters. hehe, i saw them first n made that noise when i saw the first one, then made that noise again when i saw the second one... haha... it was a ff craze day for me lar.... i love that shop!!! haha

then i went to the salon to meet my mum, to cut my hair! yay, i finally cut it short. n the hair dresser had to spend 10 mins juz to shampoo my hair, great huh? n wats great? she used so much shampoo... dunno y. yeah, then another hairdresser, who was really friendly, helped me cut my hair. hehe, i cut it short n now i have to say i do look a little like a boy, but nvm... when she was done cutting my hair, she said i looked like a little girl, like thx lar... anyway, she layered my hair, n i like it as it is now. :D

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

today was a rather useless day for me.... ok mayb not... i was lazing in bed... argh, like a pig...

then i was juz playing ps2 games... and did some of the accounts for my mum... and watched star awards... arhhh... thats all

i'm now all worried bcoz of the whole prefect thing.... i think jess wans to reject it. n it seems dan wants to reject it too. n clare is the only one left. well, i'm still a little worried abt the whole thing. to be frank, i'm really worried abt 1/3 and all, bcoz of the many incidents that happened in 1/3. i juz hope that 1/3 will have less backstabbers n all. n a better class comm (sorry class comm, if wat i said was really offending in anyway) coz i dun think the class comm really did what they were suppose to do. n i do hope next year's class comm will know wat exactly i'm tokin abt. wat i really hope for now is a class with a better student body. actually, everything that happened... it isnt juz 1/3's fault, it is too the class comm's fault.
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1/3: if u all tght that we were blaming u for watever that happened, then i'm very sorry. but if u tght that it was all the class comm's fault that evrything bad that happened had to turn out that way, u r wrong. it isnt juz the class comm's fault. it is too ur fault. if the class had been cooperative, then the class comm wudnt have problems, n the class comm was wrong to do things that shudnt have been done...

1/3 class comm: well, it was really nice working with u all... n will always remember 213, yeah... but actually it isnt exactly the class at fault. we too r at fault. we have raised our voices at them, trying to intimidate them. but actually, it doesnt work... i'm not saying that we needed to find another way to intimidate the class. but actually, if we werent so harsh, then mayb problems like this wudnt happen. sum things... we have to be responsible for. it isnt always the class' fault, so sumtimes we have to think thru wat went wrong... n abt wat happened abt the class gathering, it was really too much.
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i realized my mistake... but wat was done cannot b undone.

well i miss 6 ixora 2003... haha all the craziness. and the class anthem. haha, it was the best class ever, even though we were the most mischievious, i like 6 ixora bcoz we were united. haiz... 1 year has past. but i still miss 6 ixora lar... haha.
anyone still has that foto taken back when we were p5s? the one we took coz oinky was migrating?

ok... came back frm suntec like... 30 mins ago...

ok, so the dance thing did go well... n so many fotos..... haha, finally saw delle in a SKIRT!!! hehe... yeah... all of us in skirts, i hate skirts. so sickening. when i got there i saw sumone wearing jeans... so... argh. delle, jianeng n i were like pigs coz we took a lot of dessert... we werent that full until we had dessert, which was too sweet. n we were rather worried abt our table manners and all. priscilla was holding the fork in the right n the spoon in the left. n delle, jianeng n i forgot abt the handkerchiefs provided for us on the table... n the seven of us were sitting with another 4 adults... so then we finally used those handkerchiefs.... haiyoh that was embarassing. then we took fotos and all.

after the dinner, i was walking arnd for an hour in heels, waiting for my mum. argh... my skin was peeling even b4 we got to the dinner. then i had to bear with the pain and all whenever i take a step. i walked all the way to hmv at citylink to wait for my mum. but when i got there, they said they were closing in 5 mins. so i had no choice but to leave. n i had to go back to suntec to meet my mum. so i struggled back there... it was so eerie, dark n empty. the lights were like dim. n the escalators were stopped. so i had to climb up in heels. n finally at suntec tower 4. then i had to walk a big round juz to take the bus... the whole thing was tormenting. haiz... n now i'm home. but i enjoyed the church choir's performance. it was wonderful... it was really good lar. they're having a concert next saturday but i cant go lar... i doubt my mum will let me go so yeah.... arh... my feet still hurt... i'm gonna sleep now. toodles!

Vertigo - U2

Uno, dos, tres... catorce
[Spoken vocal]
Turn it up loud, Captain!

Lights go down it's dark
The jungle is your head - can't rule your heart
I'm feeling so much stronger than before
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul it can't be bought
Your mind can wonder

Hello, hello... (Hola)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (donde estas?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something...
I can feel, feel

The night is full of holes
There's bullets ripping sky of ink with gold
They twinkle as the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can’t dance - at least they know

I can't stand the beat
I'm asking for the cheque
Girl with crimson nails
It's Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music Whoooaaa
Swinging to the music Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa

Hello, hello... (Hola)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (donde estas?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something...
I can feel, feel

Shake it...
Just for...
Jumping in... yeah

[Edge solo]

All of this... all of this can be yours
All of this... all of this can be yours
All of this... all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want and no one gets hurt

Hello, hello... (Hola)
We're at a place called Vertigo (dónde estás?)
Lights go down and no one knows
That you give me something...
I can feel your love teaching me
Aaahhhhh-aaahhh-aaahhh-aaahhh...
Your love is teaching me
Aaahhhhh-aaahhh-aaahhh-aaahhh...
How to kneel, kneel

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, YEAH,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, YEEEAAAAH!

today i overslept... woke up at 3pm today... coz i slept at abt 1am... but i guess i was too tired coz i was dozing off while watching the ffx n ffx2 vcds su hui lent me, THANX SU HUI!!!

n last night, sumting weird happened. when i was resting my head on the bed, without my blanket... with the lights still switched on... n my bro went to my dad's place... so then i laid there with my eyes closed, i felt like a cane hitting my hand n my mum scolding me... then i sort of expected a slap... coz i felt sumtin like whoosh across my face, but i didnt open my eyes, the cane on my hand, it wasnt exactly pain but i felt sumtin thin touching me hand... like sumtin as hitting me with force, but not really pain, i think u know wat i mean right? yeah... i suddenly heard as though my bro was scolding me, in my ear or sumtin as though my mum n bro were really in the room... i dun know why it was like that... but i didnt want to open my eyes coz i didnt dare to coz i knew my mum n bro werent in the room... but it was as though i felt their presence... so then i had to force open my eyes... the first thing aftert opening my eyes was to sit up, and surveyed the room, no one... i was puzzled y i had that experience. it was really a mystery to me. then i quickly switched off the lights n went to bed, i was rather scared as i tried to fall asleep... it was weird... how cud i have heard or felt stuff when i wasnt even sleeping coz i knew i was not sleeping, i know it myself...

i did fall asleep in the end n woke up at 3pm, still as tired... but i had to get up, to pack up my room, even though my bro wasnt home n i still had to... then i went to bathe n went out wif my mum to eat... on the way home, sumone gave me this invitation thing to go to sum concert at the church next to my block... so yeah, then was on my way home n bumped into bonnie, actually, she called out to me coz i was in my own world n did not realize wat was happening arnd me. then she was trying to persuade me to go, but then i told her i had sumtin on... so i didnt go... but actually i was gg home to watch tv... sorry bonnie... then reached home at 6.30pm. started on ffx disc one... n watched till now... finished the entire thing. shall watch ffx2 2mrw, if possible... yeah... so my sumtin was watching vcd... i dun tink bonnie will b reading this lar, coz no one cums to my blog so why bother? yeah... so it was all in jap, but thanx t the chinese subtitles, i understood it... it was rather sad lar, the story, to think that tidus got sucked by sin n ended up in a place he didnt know... if im not wrong, yuna didnt even know his name... n then tidus disappeared... but i know he did come back in ffx2, so unlucky he was juz a dream. at least i got a better picture of wat happened in ffx... hehe, i feel like writing another "short" paragraph abt ff... but i guess sum other time lar... yeah, hearing wat happened in ffx frm mouths are difficult, coz i'm a visual not audio so yeah...

then that was wat i did all day, ONLY... my life is BORINGGGG... n the mash potato i made last night was horrible.... ugh, i forgot how to make liaox haha. shall go to bed later, coz i'm dying liao, n phoenix said i had eye bags, or eye circles... i cant remember, but sleeping cant change me back lar... my bro's jabbering in my ear. argh...

i recived a letter frm nkf... not that i got kidney failure or anything... but its this children medical fund, which i guess evryone knows... i donated sum money back in primary sch, did i? thats what that person said when she called to ask me to check my particulars... dun noe lar, but i got this card thing to ask pple to donate... so pple, pls help those who need help yeah... not me lar, but u can if u donate money... so look for me, coz i need u to sign the thing... yeah... i dun remember a single thing abt donating lar, i do evry year, but i cant remember...

shud i change the song on my blog?? but if i do, i'm changing it to a jap song click to play the song... it may sound weird and all but yeah... shud i change it?

the retreat was fun... i enjoyed the water games and all but i had sand in my pockets... was having a hard time getting them out of there... there r still sum stuck inside... i think.... n the movie marathon...

the first night... mag, priscilla teo, michele, celestine n i were sleeping in the corridor of the chalet next to us while liz n matilda went for a night walk. we were pretty freaked coz it wasnt occupied n it was dark n eerie inside, but we still overcame it. then mag was worrying abt insects crawling onto her... well celestine, michele, mag n priscilla were already sleeping, esp mag, after the meeting. as for me, i was trying to sleep, closing n opening eyes... for like 15 mins. coz we had two sides... liz, matilda, michele n i will b sleeping on one side, while mag, priscilla n cel were sleeping on the other. mag was sleeping on the outside, next to the steps... so actually liz n matilda will b sleeping on the outside but they went out so i cud see clearly if any insect wud wanna crawl up. so mag was sleeping on the outside n specifically told us to alert her if we see stuff she hates(insects) when i was laying down, opening my eyes, i saw a cockroach crawling up, gg for mag's head(at least i tink its her head) yeah, so i quickly sat up n was whacking mag... "mag, get up get up!!!" she was startled n stood up almost immediately. michele n cel got up too. priscilla was still sleeping, haha... n we were making so much noise. mag was like jumping abt, gg "wat wat" then i said a roach was gg for her head, n so i woke her up... the cockroach crawled away after realizing sumone has discovered it snooping arnd. i tght i saw a frog coz earlier, when liz, matilda, mag n i went out for a nightwalk, i saw a really small one, so when i saw the puny size, i tght it was a frog, but it started to crawl, so it wasnt a frog... then we woke priscilla up... n moved out, coz the cockroach was abt to cum back again when i frightened it away. so we ended up watching movies back in the chalet... n fell asleep at 6+ while watching soul guardians, all the way to 8.10am.

the second night, we did this encouragement thing... yeah... i think i liked doing that lar... n then was watching incredibles upstairs when fell asleep n woke up at 2am, coz of sum issue... n didnt sleep till 5+ when evryone was already sleeping except for me n liz, who was half sleeping, half awake. then i decided to sleep lar, since pple inside, downstairs n upstairs, outside too, were sleeping.. n it was boring staying up alone... so i decided to try to sleep. n i did, till 8+.

was tokin to donna abt certain stuff... after the sec 4s left n michele was in the room upstairs... we were tokin abt stuff which u dun really need to know. so donna, keep it to urself. we were tokin till brenda came in, then more pple came in so we started taking fotos... there was one when clarissa, grace n i were doin some pose but i looked as though i was eating grace, haha... then had dinner at the lobby. we had pizza... nice, n after dinner, denise n i went to buy a big bottle of coke to share during the movie marathon, but we cudnt eat n drink upstairs so we drank a little when we cum down. n bought those bubbly games, not bubbles lar, but those that u blow up, n they stick on the table. but we didnt play that either, but nvm.

all in all, i enjoyed the retreat a lot lar... even though didnt sleep much but bonded a lot... haha, so i really did have fun.

Christmas soon.... i must get the ffx game!!! argh, haha, i dun mean anything... yeah... i suddenly wanna eat a honeydew...

here are the lyrics for the jap song... but i tink theres an english version. after all it came frm the ffx game so i guess there is... right?

Suteki Da Ne - Final Fantasy X theme song(i think?)

kaze na yoseta kotoba ni
oyoida kokoro
kumo ga hakobu ashita ni
hazunda koe

tsuki ga yureru kagami ni
furueta kokoro
hoshi ga nagare koboreta
yawarakai namida

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
kimi no machi ie ude no naka

sono mune
karada azuke
yoi ni magire
yumemiru

kaze wa tomari kotoba wa
yasashii maboroshi
kumo wa yabure ashita wa
tooku no koe

tsuki ga nijimu kagami wo
nagareta kokoro
hoshi ga yurete koboreta
kakusenai namida

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
kimi no machi ie ude no naka

sono kao
sotto furete
asa ni tokeru
yumemiru