[funny. laugh laugh.]

hey, this is my 600th post on this blog :D haha

i found new stuff to do lately. to watch WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE, SONNY WITH A CHANCE, JONAS and HANNAH MONTANA

hahaha crazy over disney shows, and movies.

i've been indulging myself in so much disney channel and disney shows online lately it's becoming an addiction. haha







disney is great :D

[you and me.]

feet sore from running
fingers sore from the guitar
eyes sore from tears
heart sore from missing

lord of the rings two towers part 2 is on now

[officially missing you.]

you will fall in love with these two girls.

you will fall in love with their voice and haha their hair.

yes, i like their hair, a LOT.

anyways, if i were a guy, i would go after them. hahaha



All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby, it's safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Oh it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially missing you

It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

[i'm a freaking spare tire.]

gee, i was really annoyed with you.

[broken promises. again.]

i should have known better.

actually, i have known right from the start. it's just a matter of time.

yeah, i knew that you were just saying it.

[maybe that's what i want from myself.]



Hey boy I would of thought that when you left me
I'd be broken with my confidence gone... so bummed...
Hey boy I would of thought that when you said that you don't want me
I'd feel ugly n sense something was wrong
Standing in front of the mirror... my skin's never been clearer
My smile's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Hey I'd never would of thought that when you left me
I'd feel sexy n so good in my skin again
And I'd never would of known that
I'd be dreamin' so much better without you in my head
Standing in front of the mirror... my clothes never fit better
My life's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Now baby my body's lookin' better than before
Ain't bitin' my nails since you walked out of that door
I realized now I deserve so much more than what you give
Than what you give (than what you give...)

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

[love drunk.]



Hey, hey, hey, hey

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)

The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)

You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over

[sigh.]

it's quite boring at home. seriously.

wished you could go out :(

[so much blue.]

i just spent an hour changing the layout. o.o

[here's a little heart for you.]

i think you have noticed, a CHUNK of my links are missing. i just realised it like NOW. good lar, aiyoh. nvm.

anyways i went to check the html code and i realised, that a chunk of it is missing too, prolly half of it gone. so if you come here, and your link is gone, please tag in the tagboard, cause i simply don't keep track of all my links and not that i memorised all of them. or most of them for that matter of fact.

that means, i have to find a new blogskin, AFTER MY EXAMS. yes, i'm in the midst of them. left two mcq papers. to tell the truth, anyone would easily neglect those papers, cause they're MCQ. but if you think about it, if you buang your mcq, thats it. it's something worth crying over, cause it's a stupid thing to let mcq affect your overall grade.

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the fact is, people still have that "retainees are kinda brainless" mindset which is retarded and untrue. i'm not biased or whatever, but it's what i observed. i have friends who up to today, still continue to say the wrong things like "you should have done that last year" when i go for consultations, or work hard for my promos. and there are people who say things like "at least i sleep sleep sleep, but still promote to j2 right?" yes. i'm not pin pointing, but just stating examples. yeah, i pretty much don't give a damn about what they say, but i still felt stupid (the opposite of clever) when people said that. like i'm just so freaking lousy you know?

i'm losing confidence in myself. in simple words, i'm fat and stupid. i'm starting to think i'm fat, and because of what other people say, i really think i'm stupid. the fact that i actually let myself be psychoed like that, does bother me. i'm sorry.

yes, i'm a sensitive person, and i'm hell trying my best to change that. but i guess the thing about people indirectly insulting me like that is really getting on my nerves. not to mention, it's really insensitive to say things like that you know? like why rub salt into the wound when that someone is already unhappy? yeah, sometimes they don't mean it, but still, THINK BEFORE YOU ACT or SPEAK or WHATEVER.

because i retained, i have had many people look down on me, say things to hurt me, and yes i remember all of them. but i try my best to ignore it, to be okay. there will always be that part of people who continue to have that mindset yet claiming they don't. and you know what they do next? try to say something good to make it seem better.

in my opinion, retaining has been a blessing in disguise for me. like what Moses said, he can tell that i really have improved a lot, doing so well now, and not struggling. when he said that, it really made me feel better. and yeah i agree that, retaining has allowed me to build a stronger foundation and i'll prolly do really well for As, hopefully. thats prolly one of the many things that just help me look away from all the stupid remarks i keep receiving.

i take into comfort that there are people who still believe in me. people like my other friends who are in the same boat as me, my mom, Moses, some of my ex-classmates and my friends. and i know that they have faith in me doing well for my promos this year.

thank you to all the people who have not stopped giving me the moral and emotional support up to now :) i thank God for putting you guys in my life so that i'll never feel alone. thank you :)

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Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

But if I should break,
If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take,
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time,
Walk a little line
Got the balance right
Give a little love,
Gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright,
I'll be by your side
I wont let you down
But I gotta know,
No matter how things go
That you will be alright

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you all
That I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

Your just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

You'll be the one
That I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you
High above it all
But don't let me fall

[absolutely zero.]

my life on pause.

i feel like i'm shunning the world.

[it only takes one wrong move.]

don't know why these small matters bother me.

i guess it was that look. the look that just sends me away.

and yeahh. i guess. i'm losing control over myself again.

maybe i'm better off on my own.

cause i don't want to talk to you now.

unimportant. i guess it's that same feeling i felt a long time. for months, weeks, days. expectations will only turn into hurts and tears, as well as heartaches.

and i feel like ripping that keychain out right now after i just put it on last night. you won't see it....

somehow. i think that what used to happen, didnt matter anymore.

E's right.

the fact is, i guess i just don't want to be there. because of the people. because of them, i just feel like i'm in the wrong place.

and i don't have to talk to you.

Momo :)

[you.]

finally! A new phone and laptop! :)

Nokia XpressMusic 5800
Dell Inspiron 14 (ice blue)

:)

And i'm blogging from my phone :)

[you.]

finally! A new phone and laptop! :)

Nokia XpressMusic 5800
Dell Inspiron 14 (ice blue)

:)

And i'm blogging from my phone :)

this is not my heart.
i'm not gonna waste these words.

[sailboat.]

i know this is random. but i kinda thought about it this afternoon when i left school to meet Isaac and Dom for mass at novena church.

actually, all of us is like this sailboat in the middle of the sea, or ocean, or whatever. basically in this huge body of water.

God is like the wind, that will guide the sailboat, blowing it in a particular direction which may seem rather aimless to the sailboat. this sailboat can go through rough waters, thunderstorms, but God will still be that wind to guide the sailboat out of those dangerous waters and eventually end up at shore. it's like how God guides us everyday, blowing us in a this direction which may or may not make sense to us. the rough waters and thunderstorms are like how we encounter all sorts of obstacles in our lives. hurts, broken relationships, death, unfairness, etc. all these things just leave us angry, broken and we lose faith in God. we don't understand why things happen or even blame God for these things that happen but God is still blowing us in that direction. the shore, is where we'll truly feel safe, because the Lord will all bring us to salvation and rescue us, give us that sense of security, to bring us home.

the sailboat is fragile on its own. because it's a puny tiny small sailboat. and there are other sailboats out there who are just as puny and fragile. but you know, when they are put together, these small sailboats are a composite to have a larger mass, and tiding through those rough waters and thunderstorms would be easier. that is why we have friends. people who are sailboats too. we stick together, providing the support we need, constantly reminding one another that God is still there in times of distress. a sailboat guided by the wind on its own will find more difficulty finding its way out of it than having other sailboats decrease its chance of perishing in the vast sea while being guided by that wind. we have our fellow sailboats to remind us that the wind is still there to guide everyone together. we pray for one another, remind each other God is still here and we never leave each other in a lurch.

haha i don't know if it makes sense to you, but yeah it's just some random things i thought about when i left school.

Good night people :) it's a long day tomorrow.

[open that door and walk into my life.]

move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder

and i'll hear it :)

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shouldn't have gone to school today.

such a weird day.

i'm trying to compile the amount of stuff i have to do, and will do.

H2 Chemistry

Thermochemistry Tutorial
Upcoming Thermochemistry test in two weeks (exactly 14 days)

H2 Mathematics

Promo Papers
Further Curve Sketching Tutorial
Equations and Inequalities Tutorial (soon enough)
Revision Set 9: Standard Graphs
Revision Set 10: Transformation of Graphs
Revision Set 11: Further Curve Sketching
Revision Set 12: Equations and Inequalities
Weekly Worksheet 4
Lecture Test next next friday, 14 Aug 09 (Standard Graphs, Trnasformation of Graphs, Further Curve Sketching)

H2 Economics

Economics Essay test next monday, 3 Aug 2009 (Cost and Production, Perfect Competition)
Perfect Competition Tutorial
Mission X

H1 Physics

Physics Test next monday, 3 Aug 2009 (Dynamics)

H1 GP

AQ assignment
Oral Presentation

Class Stuff

Fundraising
Will Run Shirts
Parents' Forms (OMG. i totally forgot about that today. ugh.)
and believe me, i'm sure there's so much more, but i can't remember what else... being CG rep this year, is really tiring.
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i believe my other classmates with chinese and pw have a longer list hahahaha. JIAYOU PEOPLE!

so yes. hell lot of work. okay, math is like given in advance. thats why it's so piled up. the math tutors just mass upload worksheets and stuff onto the school portal and they just compiled other school's math promo papers 2008. so yes, gotta start.

man i need to work hard. towards my goal of at least 65 points for my promos. i said yes to so many people to top the level and i will work hard man.

school was tiring today. i dont know. the day was real draggy. and i was falling asleep in lectures, spamming mentos strong mints into my mouth during chem lecture. i finished the whole stick in like 35 mins. and i was brain dead during the last few minutes of the lecture. i was pretty much stoning during math tutorial next. and by chem tutorial, i was like O.O

the results of not having enough sleep. man, that feeling's nostalgic.

it's damn sian. and i'm going to study later. UGH. yes. briana ang is gonna study... she usually goes home just to watch tv and nothing else. hahahaha.

i'm no closet mugger man, i mug in the open. i wonder what it's like though? to be one. hahaha

and i'm craving for frosties, hahaha breakfast cereal. (random lar.)

i'm gonna bring my own food to school tomorrow. i think i overate today lar. i ate much more than usual. it may seem like it's fine to eat that much today, because i eat very little, very little. like 1 to 2 meals a day. mind you, i'm not anorexic. i'm not trying to lose weight. i guess i just lack the appetite at times.

oh and i cut my hair last friday. Li An, Emeline, Edmond and Delaila followed me. quite nice lar. but everyone is shocked o.o cause i used to have super long hair, and i suddenly chopped it. hey, i just wanted to cut it. and i prolly did out of impulse. hahaha

went for the hillsongs conference with Moses in the afternoon and the concert with more people! WOO! with Ben, Dom, Li An, Jia Jia, and too many to list. hahaha it was pretty good. yo!

apparently, there's some issue with blogger? so i can't upload photos. i will later lar, like the next time i blog or when i fixed this problem. i have some interesting photos of Alton and Wenbin sleeping in class man. hahahaha

wahh i need a new laptop lar. this laptop chui already, keeps dying on me. i have to keep trying to fix it :(

oh wells. TIME TO STUDY! MUG MUG MUG. 7 weeks to PROMOTIONAL EXAMINATIONS (i think)

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i`m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It`s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you`re in love

the first time i heard this song, i really liked it. and i haven't heard it in 6 months. you played that song.
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awesome song :) i know it's old lar. but i was listening to it on the way home. brings back sweet nice memories.



The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there`s a voice inside my heart that`s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i`m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It`s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you`re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there`s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i`m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It`s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you`re in love

And it feels like it`s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i`m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It`s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you`re in love
Say it again

When you tell me you`re in love
Say it again

[the whole world will stop to listen.]

sometimes i worry, sometimes i panic.
and yes, i was overwhelmed.

'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else

you're special, real special :)
you're different, real different:)
and i like you the way you are.
don't ever forget that, always

[put you fist in the air, raise your voice and declare.]

student leaders' investiture today. hahaha man, the whole time i was laughing lar. it was funny cause of Kelly!

besides that. school has been rather mundane i must say.

and there's nothing much to blog also lar.

i just miss Esther a lot though. havent seen her in like a week plus!

to be honest, i'm quite tired of school... going to school for the same things. doing the same things everyday. go to school, take attendance, take temperature. lectures, tutorials, take temp again.

and not to mention, to have to be a super...... i dont know, like heck care about a lot of things.

it's boring. really boring. really wasting away.

and i'm studying to a point where i should just stop before i run out of work to do. wanna go do something more interesting that studying.

[joyful.]

i talked to my brother and we had a rather interesting conversation.

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[ Dj U-Nic ] Nicholas ANG says:
what anime -.-
anime are for small kids

[briana.] says:
EH WHAT SIA
you also watch right

[ Dj U-Nic ] Nicholas ANG says:
last time only watch ONE PIECE
lols

[briana.] says:
eeyer
one piece on kids central one
for SMALL KIDS
you = SMALL KID

[ Dj U-Nic ] Nicholas ANG says:
f*** -.-

[briana.] says:
like pokemon

[ Dj U-Nic ] Nicholas ANG says:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbhbLrSQKyY

[briana.] says:
what is that

[ Dj U-Nic ] Nicholas ANG says:
go watch la
your fav show

[briana.] says:
!!!!!!!!

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haha small kid.

[a cat with no name. a cat afraid of the rain.]

more photos from Esther!



Hearts on Fire Rally :D




Amplify Friday :D

oh, finally got SOME of the photos from the class outing!












fellow saikang warrior's sad bear bear face. hahaha AWWW. so cute.






haha i can't stop laughing at Ding Xuan's BHB shirt which says "BECAUSE EVERYBODY JUST WANTS TO BE LIKE ME..." BHB LAR.



nemo's happy face hah.







Wenbin spoil the photo lar.








Dory and Nemo.



Alson or Wilton. hahaha Wilson's head, Alton's body. nice composition huh? hahahaha





cam wars!








1S19 for you <3

this class is great :)

and i'm super tiredddddd....

my teeth are still not okay :(