[you and me.]

feet sore from running
fingers sore from the guitar
eyes sore from tears
heart sore from missing

lord of the rings two towers part 2 is on now

[officially missing you.]

you will fall in love with these two girls.

you will fall in love with their voice and haha their hair.

yes, i like their hair, a LOT.

anyways, if i were a guy, i would go after them. hahaha



All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby, it's safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Oh it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially missing you

It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

[i'm a freaking spare tire.]

gee, i was really annoyed with you.

[broken promises. again.]

i should have known better.

actually, i have known right from the start. it's just a matter of time.

yeah, i knew that you were just saying it.

[maybe that's what i want from myself.]



Hey boy I would of thought that when you left me
I'd be broken with my confidence gone... so bummed...
Hey boy I would of thought that when you said that you don't want me
I'd feel ugly n sense something was wrong
Standing in front of the mirror... my skin's never been clearer
My smile's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Hey I'd never would of thought that when you left me
I'd feel sexy n so good in my skin again
And I'd never would of known that
I'd be dreamin' so much better without you in my head
Standing in front of the mirror... my clothes never fit better
My life's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Now baby my body's lookin' better than before
Ain't bitin' my nails since you walked out of that door
I realized now I deserve so much more than what you give
Than what you give (than what you give...)

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done... with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

[love drunk.]



Hey, hey, hey, hey

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)

The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over
(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)

You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye
(Oh yeah!)

There's just one thing would make me say
(Oh yeah!)
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now it's over

[sigh.]

it's quite boring at home. seriously.

wished you could go out :(

[so much blue.]

i just spent an hour changing the layout. o.o

[here's a little heart for you.]

i think you have noticed, a CHUNK of my links are missing. i just realised it like NOW. good lar, aiyoh. nvm.

anyways i went to check the html code and i realised, that a chunk of it is missing too, prolly half of it gone. so if you come here, and your link is gone, please tag in the tagboard, cause i simply don't keep track of all my links and not that i memorised all of them. or most of them for that matter of fact.

that means, i have to find a new blogskin, AFTER MY EXAMS. yes, i'm in the midst of them. left two mcq papers. to tell the truth, anyone would easily neglect those papers, cause they're MCQ. but if you think about it, if you buang your mcq, thats it. it's something worth crying over, cause it's a stupid thing to let mcq affect your overall grade.

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the fact is, people still have that "retainees are kinda brainless" mindset which is retarded and untrue. i'm not biased or whatever, but it's what i observed. i have friends who up to today, still continue to say the wrong things like "you should have done that last year" when i go for consultations, or work hard for my promos. and there are people who say things like "at least i sleep sleep sleep, but still promote to j2 right?" yes. i'm not pin pointing, but just stating examples. yeah, i pretty much don't give a damn about what they say, but i still felt stupid (the opposite of clever) when people said that. like i'm just so freaking lousy you know?

i'm losing confidence in myself. in simple words, i'm fat and stupid. i'm starting to think i'm fat, and because of what other people say, i really think i'm stupid. the fact that i actually let myself be psychoed like that, does bother me. i'm sorry.

yes, i'm a sensitive person, and i'm hell trying my best to change that. but i guess the thing about people indirectly insulting me like that is really getting on my nerves. not to mention, it's really insensitive to say things like that you know? like why rub salt into the wound when that someone is already unhappy? yeah, sometimes they don't mean it, but still, THINK BEFORE YOU ACT or SPEAK or WHATEVER.

because i retained, i have had many people look down on me, say things to hurt me, and yes i remember all of them. but i try my best to ignore it, to be okay. there will always be that part of people who continue to have that mindset yet claiming they don't. and you know what they do next? try to say something good to make it seem better.

in my opinion, retaining has been a blessing in disguise for me. like what Moses said, he can tell that i really have improved a lot, doing so well now, and not struggling. when he said that, it really made me feel better. and yeah i agree that, retaining has allowed me to build a stronger foundation and i'll prolly do really well for As, hopefully. thats prolly one of the many things that just help me look away from all the stupid remarks i keep receiving.

i take into comfort that there are people who still believe in me. people like my other friends who are in the same boat as me, my mom, Moses, some of my ex-classmates and my friends. and i know that they have faith in me doing well for my promos this year.

thank you to all the people who have not stopped giving me the moral and emotional support up to now :) i thank God for putting you guys in my life so that i'll never feel alone. thank you :)

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Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

But if I should break,
If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take,
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time,
Walk a little line
Got the balance right
Give a little love,
Gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright,
I'll be by your side
I wont let you down
But I gotta know,
No matter how things go
That you will be alright

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you all
That I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

Your just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

You'll be the one
That I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you
High above it all
But don't let me fall