[inexplicable aegis.]

exams are here. the horror. the nightmare.

chinese prelims tomorrow... RAH.

i dont wanna talk about today's eng exam, i just dont.

rah.

i'm tired.

[meet the robinsons =D.]

on the way home, i was smelling the perfume off someone else's clothes. not my fault, the train was too packed. haha random.

i think i failed my 2.4km run sia... FIRST time. i was having a terrible headache when i was running, which totally made me lose it. rah..... the headache wasnt that bad last year lor... and hannah decided to run the final lap with me. she was driving nuts in a good way lar. haha. she damn cute lar.

lemme think..... i had a lot of things to blog about before i came home, now it's just stuck at the back of my mind... DANG.

i realised. i cant sleep late... since i've been going to bed at like 12am, or 1am, i seem to just ko atound that time. rah.

ij fiesta this friday... other than the $5 coupons we all HAD to buy, i'm really broke. hahha shall sit at the booth all day then...

meet the robinsons is nice, please watch. the dino is damn funny. haha



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S396-fnLldk

hahaha damn cute sia.... it's a damn cool movie...

okay i shall go do my work first.. take care :) bye

[a part of me is dead and in the ground.]

just woke up from a nightmare. a nightmare that never happened but i had it before. every single detail did not change. all the tears, the deaths, the bitterness. just woke up in tears.

today is good friday. no school. what am i going to do today?

i guess i wanted to watch a movie this afternoon, but now i cant, unless i choose to watch it alone. i know i'm letting another day pass away. it seems like today is another rare day when i'm free for a movie, but i'm waiting, seems like i'll be waiting for nothing today. even if i tell myself to not mind it at all, i'll still be greatly affected by it at the end of the day. i dont know if what i just said made any impact, well, i cant hope for much.

i'll build a bigger and better dam this time.

the clock is ticking away...

i just laid in bed for half an hour, hoping for all that bitterness in me to fade away. it isnt enough. it isnt at all. i was replaying the same song over and over again. about an hour has past since i just woke up... and it's still there.

no one will save me. i wont bother to scream for help. i just thought to myself, maybe some coincidence will happen, and save me from myself right now. however, i seem to doubt that. sigh.

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Where We Gonna Go From Here - Mat Kearney

All of your ways and all your thunder
Get me in a haze running for cover
Where we gonna go from here
We we gonna go from here

Car lights in the driveway
I wonder who's going coming my way
Tomorrow we're turning down the highway
With another bright state on a weekday
Green grass and a radio
Watching it fly past and away we go
Seven hundred places seven hundred faces more

[chorus]
All your ways and all your thunder
Got me in a haze running for cover
Where we gonna go from here
Where we gonna go from here
The back of your eyes look like my mothers
When we talk your like my brother
Where we gonna go from here
Where we gonna go from here

Time is moving on our side
How could I miss you to another guy
Pull of the ocean and the roaring tide
Is bigger than my eyes or my design
Father got a best plan
Saving his daughter for the best man
Seven hundred places seven hundred faces more

[chorus]

I've waited and I'll wait some more
Won't see me knocking on another door
But all this is crazy and amazing
There's only one half of us that I'm saving
So I'm praying just to let it go
Watch from a distance just to see you glow
Seven hundred places seven hundred faces more

[chorus]

[where we gonna go from here.]

no news. sucks. i feel dead.

it feels great just having to tell dom something and you start to realise something, he's a great friend, thanks dom...

i got angry over really trivial and stuff and over childish reasons... at first i didnt wanna tell anyone, but it felt better after talking to him about it, thanks man :)

i was reading this week's newsweek during english today. it was about the soldiers in iraq who perished... there were soldiers as young as 18... and as i read a letter by this 26 year old soldier who died... in one of his last sentences, he wrote "tell ashlea that i was sorry and stupid and i really did love her." i almost cried reading that.. it's like not being able to tell someone you love whatever you wanted to say and you're gone... and ashlea must be damn sad to know this... and this guy... he willingly went for it... there was this sergeant who wrote to either his wife, or girlfriend "hi honey, i hope you had a good valentine's day. i love you soooo much! i can't wait for all this to be over. five guys..." it's like he missed spending an important day with that special someone and he'll never get that chance... and we're all here celebrating it so happily. sheesh, why did the iraq war have to happen. each letter that was published in this week's issue of newsweek really wanted to make me cry. there was this guy who was a lance coporal and he was enlisted straight out of high school.... even though his handwriting was messy and scribbly, but every word he said just really wanted to make me cry. he was reminiscing his happy past with every family member and a good friend he had... rah, so damn sad.

sigh...

[and the pain you feel is a different kind of pain.]

i didnt want to, but i still listened to the radio the whole night last night. i didnt mean it, because i fell asleep before i could switch it off. haha.

lots of homework... geog is like crazy.. oh wait, there's a probability test tomorrow, crap.

had to put up with a lot of things this afternoon. even when i came home... sigh sigh.

i'm just having another bad day. sucks....

it sucks to have too much homework to handle, and to complete

1 history essay
1 chinese essay
a lot of geog homework
amath sums

it doesnt seem a lot, but it feels a lot. oh not to forget. tuition homework

whole of probability in emath TYS
whole of waves in physics TYS
functions in amath TYS

yes, 3 chapters... but it's due sat...

and not to mention, i'm really tired right now... and broke too..... yes. ARGH.

i hate it when i have to think of money too... RAHRAH

rant
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end of ranting. haha take care, off to do my work, bye!

[but these places and these faces are getting old.]

it's been a really hectic two weeks since the school term started. have been rushing my work for two weeks, i can say, it's much lighter now...

sports day (22nd march 07) - we won. yeah green house clinched the house cup this year. hahaha we clinched it when i was in sec 1 and now we're clinching it again in my sec 4 year. savina's lion banner won though... hahaha. i dont know how but i slept for half an hour when it's so noisy there...

kbox after that, it turned out only jesmine and i were the last ones who actually went. sad, but ah well, i promised her i would go like months ago.

cnc 3 tiberium wars game launch on 26th, hahaha hell lot of people... sadly, i didnt have the money to buy it, unlike jinwei who spent all and i really mean ALL his money on cnc3.... that would include his savings... he pre-ordered it just like dom and lester, and they all got the kane edition. i dont even have the money to buy the game, rah.

mid years in a few weeks. in a FEW WEEKS. i feel dead, seriously i just do. and i cant stop wanting to play games. why now........... WHY NOW?! hahaha. rah.

dots, and i hvnt watched hana kimi for days... the last time i watched it was last saturday, the 24th. rah.

lester's sick rah, i dont know what to do, i think i passed it to him.

no school this friday... there's always a day off every week since school term started... week 1, monday, thursday and friday free. week 2, monday free. this week, friday free... what is this man????

i should stop listening to the radio overnight, before i toast my brain. rah.

count the number of rahs i already said. haha rahrahrahrahrah.

this is a nice song... it's about how the troops in iraq and afghanistan felt. meaningful.. really..

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Home - Daughtry

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.