i really need sum1 2 talk 2..........haiz.....:'( i'm really depressed n i cant tink, my brain has been officially shut down....................................how m i 2 take e exam 2mrw??? :'( :'(

english exam 2mrw.........kinda nervous.......haiz....shall revise again in 3min. 2dae has been a really mad day 4 me. after recess. had science, was waitin 4 mdm ismiralda outside lab. finally, but e whole class wanted 2 have lessons sumwhere else instead of the lab. ok so we had "lessons" at the stone benches near the bookshop. but instead of havin lessons, the class wanted mdm ismiralda 2 tell ghost stories, n she did. haiz, they were all crowding around mdm ismiralda at a table n listened. i wasnt real interested coz i wasnt in the right mood to listen to such stories and they were like screaming in broad daylight. i heard one of the stories. it was about that grave behind the st raphael canteen. ok fine, sum1 saw a white figure. n i heard a little abt dat huge tree. so charissa n i were kinda bored so we went over to dat so-called "ghost" tree n said hi to it. it was kinda lame though, the whole class stopped listening and turned to luk at us. haha, ok den cheryl, charissa n i were talkin abt the primary school bein torn down n stuff. charissa went over to beatrice n tapped her on the baq lightly, beatrice kinda freak out. haha.... charissa n i were like 2 laughin idiots. den i was left alone n started 2 feel real bored. i walked abt n sat down waitin 4 the whole class, watchin pple walk here n there.den charissa came over n sat wth me, guess she was kinda bored too. den mag came over n sat 2. she said the stories were real scary. it was really funny seein those pple screaming n when we were all abt 2 return to class at arnd 11.13am, evry1 were like walkin in threes bcoz of dat pontiana story geraldine's psl told mths ago. too bad i din go 4 peer support...hmmm...mdm ismiralda reminded a few of us 2 tell the class not to scream in class. well, sum of them did when i was juz abt 2 step in n dey were sayin prayers. ok, guessed they were really freaked out. beatrice n a few pple even went to dat grave behind the st raphael canteen to see the grave. haiz......i wasnt really interested as i wasnt in dt mood coz i had a lot in mind....i suddenly felt really sad n i felt real stressed out. i felt like crying, dunno y, juz felt like hidin in a corner n cry out. release stress... i only knew my eyes were wet but i din wan 2 cry. i juz wanted 2 b alone n den cry... i keep feelin dat i had to push myself. savina was rite. i din feel any happier after starin in2 space 4 a moment. evrytime i was in a dazed, i keep tinkin of unhappy stuff...

*a choo*ok juz came baq frm e docs...sufferin frm flu virus..waaaaaaaa...haha...juz a flu...dis mornin...sniff...snifff......had flu vaccination....arm kinda hurts.....fine....i asked my mum abt dat $2000 ting she initially said no......den i asked my dad coz my mum asked me 2. he was like ok ok lar....he wasnt in town so wateva lar. my mum said as long as my dad is willin 2 pay, den it was ok. den called diana. after a while, he called. asked my mum loads of questions. he asked y d sch isnt payin n my mum told him all e stuff n yar.....now i'm supposed 2 go find out more. haiz.....sry diana....sniff...sniff... *a choo*

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......i dun wan 2mrw 2 cum........ its art n i hvnt finished my work.......

m i destroyin myself?????? i tink i'm the lamest on earth...... i bein vry lame by sayin lame stuff n doin lame stuff......haiz.....i m e worst....-_- i'm really tired n i dun feel so good. wats e matter wif me? i've been gettin more headaches den usual. mayb i need more sleep. but i cant sleep, i have no choice. i'm beginnin 2 luk like a panda. my dark circles r so obvious. my eyelids were droppin durin geography but i had 2 hang on. kept washin my face. i wud slap myself during lessons 2 keep myself awake. since i was sittin right at the back, or rather e corner or watever of e classroom, me slappin myself, it wasnt so obvious. ok, slappin myself is really lame, LAME!!! haiz.......i keep gg 2 e washrm in btween lessons 2 wash my face..... dat actually helped a little. i mean, it kinda kept me awake. 'm now tryin 2 keep me awake b blastin me in my ears. well, dat din really help, but i've still gotta hang on. i tink i'm slipping off.........

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i'm sooo unhappy. evryday, the same ting happens. i get blamed juz 4 almost evryting......hmmmmm......m i at fault?????? m i the jinx?????? i tink i'm real irritatin n cant stop buggin others. i'm being a total idiot n i cant tink. i really dun noe hw i'm gonna pass my exams. i cant tink n i cant concentrate. i juz tink i'm gonna fail...fail fail fail.... its keeps poppin in my head. mayb i'm a failure..... i dun even noe wat i'm tinkin abt, let alone others rite? i feel so guilty, i dun noe y. i juz feel sooooo guilty, n evrytime i tink abt schoolwork, i get soooooo stressed....aw man, i'm hopeless. hopeless. i dun wanna go 2 school in the morning, but when its the afternoon, or rather evening, i dun wanna go home. i feel as though i done sumtin real bad n i shud juz 4get evryting, n i mean evryting. my name n all dat stuff. i dun noe wat i really did dese few days, coz i'm still blur n i cant tink. wats my problem???? can any1 tell me????????? or shud i not go find out????? wat wud happen if i found my problem??? wat wud i do???? i'm in confusion n i dun noe wat 2 do. i'm like lost in dis big world n i cant find a way out, i'm stuck n i'm lost.....i keep tellin myself i muz do it, but sumtin is pullin me baq, wat is it???? i'm simply oblivious 2 wats goin on arnd me...

really bored.......haiz.......cant stand my bro man. such a nuisance. haiz.......so much homework. i'm really glad i'm done wif the lit project. thanx liz, matilda, savina n her friend 4 stayin wif me till abt 7 yesterday n helpin me wif the lit. haiz.... i feel so guilty coz danielle did the powerpoint presentation all by herself. aw man, i feel so guilty. when was the last time i emailed sars??? omg, dat show is sooooooo freaky man. i'm watchin incredible tales n its real freaky....haiz....i'm still left wif science n maths.....hmmmmmm....

aw man, mdm ismiralda will b leaving at the end of the term.....booohooo.... n i tink dat wijaya guy will b takin over her. i saw him dat day when i was loiterin arnd the sch as usual bcoz i seriously hv notin 2 do durin recess...hmmm...haiz... gtg do my hw. cyaz!

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

this song really suits my life. yep, it does... almost evry word suits my life. thats like exactly how i feel. its currently 5.13pm n i hvnt done my lit stuff. i'm like so dead. its geraldine's b'dae dis sat, 24th....gotta hit the bks, sayonara. cyaz...

ok its the 16th not the 17th. i'm havin my pft is like seven hrs time. great, i tink i'm not gonna make it 2mrw...haiz. i'm tryin 2 kick dat 'wat the hell' habit. i keep sayin it n i decided 2 kick the habit. my windows media player is finally workin, yay!!! n my mum is drivin me 2 nyjc, yay, dun need 2 worry abt gettin dere. yay yay yay. n her bf mite b fetchin me baq home if he happens 2 b around coz joel(his son) has tuition 2mrw n he's playin wif my bro at the moment. yup at this hour. they were hoggin the pc juz now n finally, yay, dey decided 2 abandon the pc n enjoy the playstation. wat m i talkin abt????? haha... did i mention pe was kinda fun...yay ms liem juz made us run 8 rounds n did sum stretchin n play our own games. yup i was playin bball at first. juz shootin. den played soccer n badminton wif delle, jia neng n priscillia. haha. k den borin chinese n all.

aw man, got scolded twice 2day. haiz. i 4got 2 bring my lit tb home n i cudnt finish my lit hw. waaaaaaa. so i din complete it. ok den got scolded by ms ratulangi n made 2 copy the whole of chapter 6 & 7 of village by the sea. she actually wanted it by 2day, but tx 2 mag, she gave us a day. yay... clare n a few pple were doin the lit stuff in class. den ms ratulangi came in arnd 5.30pm n dey din finish copyin ch 6 & 7. so she was really kind 2 give us another choice. dat is: ch 6 by sat / ch 6 & 7 by mon. ok she rock. so i decided 2 copy only ch 6. its like 22 pgs long n the size of the words, haiz...

clare kinda went mad 2day. ok cant blame her lar. since 2day's international friendship day, my class did korea, not bad lar. clare borrowed the korean posters, masks, costume, doll n cute flag frm sum korean agency(i tink). the costume was gorgeous. hew lyn li provided the flag. she din actually buy it but her mum helped her sew it n its gorgeous 2. classes on the 4th storey in the st michael's block wud have seen it. i tink geraldine was the one hu provided the other korean doll. dere were 2 korean dolls. clare went mad coz the judgin was supposed 2 b held after sch but the judgin was held after recess instead. my class was like empty n almost notin was up on the board. 1/3 was in the aep studio so we din know abt it till sum1 told us when we were puttin up the koean stuff after sch. waaaaaaaaa was so mad at dat time. donna was dere n i was crazy. dat jessica teo 2!!! waaaaaaaaaaa she's a toot, a big toot!!! at first she sumhow din help out bcoz of i dunno y n she was 2 convey a msg 2 goh yi ping in the 1/4 classrm 4 clare. but she din. great. wats the matter wif her?

jessica teo's attitude has changed a lot since mrs leong changed our sittin arrangement n shes sittin nxt 2 me. great rite? shes sars close fren n she used 2 b esti's close fren. sumtin happened btween the both of dem n its jessica at fault. i dun even noe y i shud b talkin 2 her. shes sum1 hu juz ditches sum1 after gettin close 2 dat sum1. shes evil man. shes only nices 2 clare, n i dun care. shes so irritatin rude, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........argh.

o my, its sooooooooooo long n its like 1+. haha. 6 more hours 2 pft. the 2 toots r still playin, aiyah. go 2 bed 1st. o my, lotz happened 2day, waaaaaa i dun like jessica teo!!!!!!! li ting was soooooooooooooo rite!!!!!! shes really dat kind hu like suckin up 2 pple. argh, hope mrs leong wud change our sittin arrangement as soon as possible. i still dun get y i even wanted 2 b in her grp!!! omg, shes the general manager!!! haiz, gotta go 2 bed. cyaz

Science was horrible!!!! i'm gonna fail!!!! haiz.....k its past 12 but....nvm. went 2 netball finals 2day. ij's champion!!! YAY!!! k, den walked home wif valerie. went 2 HDB hub. since it was on the way, den y not take a luk at ë fabric of the nations. heehee. it was really cool. den we started lukin 4 valerie's patchwork. ok, at 1st we din find it, so we were like haiz nvm lar. den we walked 2wards the interchange n omg!!! more!!! so we started our search again n yay we found it!!!! :) gd job!!! haha... it was ok. den we met denise, ok. when we were viewin d patchworks, we met eunice(i mean frm 2/1) n jocelyn. ok juz a simple hi-bye n datz all. yup. den val n i pened our thoughts in the "Pen ur thoughts" book. the way i juz phrased it was kinda lame but nvm. anyway, the bk was almost full coz sum pple had huge handwritin n deir small msg took up the whole pg.....evry1 shud go take a luk at it...haha. savina, dun close ur blog...k? its friday 2mrw n i dun wanna have art. i suck at it. dun wanna fall asleep durin art again. haiz.... ok fine, my mum's bf is baq in singapore. wateva lar. dun really care. my parents r divorced. i shall not go in2 the details...cyaz

i hate myself!!! my mum doesnt trust me at all!!! n i mean at all!!! i juz cant believe it ok?!?!?! *sobz* she keeps thinkin i've a guy outside n i dont!!! whats the matter with her?!?!?! she checks my wallet too!!! that is soooooooo.......argh!!! once checked my inbox n read 1 of my SMSs. she is obviously invading my privacy!!! my dad too!!! 2 years ago, he read 1 of my SMSs. i was sooooooo upset!!! my parents juz dont trust me one bit!!! i hate this!!! i hate my life!!!! i feel like running away....but will that help?!?!?! argh.....everytime my mum questions me like mad, i feel so stressed out n i dont like the feeling!!! i hate her!!! both my parents r being biase!!!! my bro is their hot favourite!!! fine!! whatever!!! i'm already used 2 it!! parents prefer boys 2 girls!!! its stupid!!!!

i'm so sian at the moment... had fun playin basketball today. today's game was kinda wierd... anyway, i think the ixorians(2003) went mad today. yup, liz was mad, matilda was mad, eunice was mad and i was mad!!! haha.... so bored... waaaaaaaaaa.. my mum's back tomorrow... hmmmm..... anyway love d songs on delle's and savina's blog. heehee :) i think the song, ultimate doesnt suit my blog at all... i really got bad taste... haha... and health screening was sick today. gross, gross, gross... haha... no lit CA today yay :) practically no lit for the week. haha~ really worried about my njrc team. i mean what geri and mag told me about something and liz wans to switch roles with me and all that... haiz...5 months to go. and liz, matilda and eunice already planned for FLL. they decided to be grouped as elan. haiz...shouldnt have said it in front of me... feeling stressed again... haiz...haiz...

2dae was n awfully borin day... my bro's friend was here n he juz left. so bored. so few pple online 2dae. hardly any hw. mrs helen tan is gonna b 1/8's new form teacher since ms wong is leaving. :( haiz... wonder hus gonna b 1/3's new maths teacher??? geraldine told savina d new teacher mite b ms neo puay puay... hu on earth is she??? n we're gonna hv a new english teacher coz mrs tan is gonna teach 1/8 english n i 4got d new teacher's name. mrs tan was juz tellin us abt her yesterday...haiz... d whole class was kinda upset when mrs tan broke d news. kept sayin it was so unfair. hew lyn li was shoutin "no fair!!! y did it hv 2 b us n not 2/6 switchin classrms wif 1/2???!!! now dey wanna take our form teacher away from us???!!! no fair!!! 1st classrm, nw our teacher!!!" haiz... at first, ms wong told us she was resignin on thursday. she kept tellin us we will find out d reason y she's leavin on monday. haiz...

i really hate my life!!! i cant stand my bro callin me a bitch n all dat. i m really wu neng wei li. wat m i 2 do??? my mum juz wudnt care wat my bro calls me. he's juz utterly rude n vulgar... :'( i cant live my life lk dis 4eva. :'( :'(

its been quite a while since d last time i blogged, i tink... haiz. i'm feelin quite neglected, or issit d rite word??? nvm, i keep tinkin evry1 juz doesnt lk me. m i dumb??? m i n idiot??? i'm repeatin my mistakes over n over. dere IS sumtin wrong wif me. haiz. i juz cant bear wif it nemore. haiz...haiz... i've been really lonely... its lk no1 wans 2 tok 2 me. haiz it has always been lk dat. i guess sumtin wrong wif my personality... issit really bcoz of my personality? issit bcoz of it dat evry1 hates me. my friends r driftin away frm me, especially my closest friends. even though esti's class is lk nxt 2 mine, i feel s though evry1 is lk, i dun noe hw 2 say dis... its lk shes driftin away. i've failed. vry badly. in being a happy toot. diana is soooo rite...

i tink people hate me either bcoz of my vry lousy personality, i m always vry pessimistic or i'm plainly lousy n i suck... haiz... i'm hopeless!!! i'm juz sum1 hu really sux. i suck in almost evryting... haiz haiz...