[goodbye days // don't do the wrong thing.]
just when you thought you would be feeling all better after retreat.
damn. maybe i was getting too worried, which kinda explains why i'm feeling so down and all. and when i came home, log onto the com, went through some websites and spotted something just so not in the right place, i just felt worse. really. if you decided on something, and was so excited about doing it, then why come to me as though it was such a big problem of whether you should do it or not. because if you really wanted it so much, i'm in no position to stop you or anything. neither do i want to give in to you, having the idea of you just trying it out and then the next day, i realised your eagerness to do it. so may i ask again, why ask me that funny question?
argh. when problems arise, i cant stop thinking about it. dragging me back into my old problems that i havent got the guts to solve them, because i needed to confront in order to do so. my fear of a bad outcome just stops me from doing so.
during retreat today, father was urging us to believe in ourselves. although it was the right thing to do, i cant seem to find a reason to believe in myself now. all that's in my mind is the tiny and whiny problems i've been facing all this while. i feel extremely lethargic and just sick.
and i know its not pms.
damn. damn. damn.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
[taiyo no uta]
was in the mood to blog so i did.
was watching animax this afternoon and happened to come across one of yui's music videos. the song's tokyo. super nice.
yeah she can sing very well. was randomly looking at her website and since it was japanese i could only guess. so i clicked on something and it brought me to another website. a new movie. released in japan on 17th june. looks really nice. so yui is a main character with another guy. the synopsis was really good. storyline is good too.
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synopsis:
A girl who can only live at night and a high school student who loves to surf as the sun rises... The two had nothing in common...
Kaoru Amane, 16 years old, did not attend school but instead sang herself away every night after dark at a square in front of a train station with a guitar in her hands. She led a lifestyle opposite the norm, sleeping during the day and active at night. Kaoru was suffering from xeroderma pigmentosum (XP), an illness, which also might be described as the allergy to the sun, and was not allowed to be exposed to sunlight. The only motivation in her life was singing, which also was the only connection to the outside world. One day, an incident drastically changes her life...
Kaoru returns home at 4:00 am, before sunrise. Outside her room window, she spots a high school student standing with a surf board in his hands. It becomes her routine to watch him and his friends come and go to the ocean every morning, before going to sleep.
Their destined encounter takes place during the few hours before the break of day, drawing together two individuals that would have never met in daylight. However, Kouji does not know about her illness. The two rapidly fall for one another and continues to meet in the city at night. Then one day, an incident leads Kouji to learn of Kaoru's illness. Kaoru gives up her first love telling herself that, "I shouldn't have allowed myself to dream of a happy life. I am not normal after all." She even gives up singing. Kouji seeing Kaoru at such a state encourages her by suggesting, "Let's meet only at night," and comes up with a brilliant present for her.
She had been leading a life carefully placing herself beyond the reach of harm, with no intent to pursue a dream. However, Kouji had shone a light on her heart making her want to sing once again. However, her illness which has quietly progressed, has started to pressure her nerve system, keeping her from playing the guitar at her will
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poor girl... so the trailer is really good. there are two. the short one is subbed but the official trailer isnt. it shows a lot though.
short trailer:
official trailer:
yeah... and the theme song for this movie also rocks.
Good-bye Days - YUI
not to mention YUI being a really cool person. she was a songwriter cum singer at the age of 16. she plays the guitar too, sings really well and can play the guitar really well. she sung one of bleach's ending themes. but sadly, taiyo no uta, the movie is only released in japan so far. i hope it'll come to sg. it looks really good, but i dont think i will have the chance to watch it.
was just blog hopping round the usual blogs and things started to answer for themselves. like who is who and what is what. i started to think about why things happened that way and how ridiculous they have turned out. turning it back would of course be difficult because it has left a mark, a scar. no matter what happens, our thoughts and feelings about these would never vanish but live in us and when we think of it once again, we feel a sense of guilt.
ah well... staying up till 3am again to watch digimon adventure. shall go do my homework. and the sound of the rain at this hour sounds really pleasant. i like the rain :)
was in the mood to blog so i did.
was watching animax this afternoon and happened to come across one of yui's music videos. the song's tokyo. super nice.
yeah she can sing very well. was randomly looking at her website and since it was japanese i could only guess. so i clicked on something and it brought me to another website. a new movie. released in japan on 17th june. looks really nice. so yui is a main character with another guy. the synopsis was really good. storyline is good too.
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synopsis:
A girl who can only live at night and a high school student who loves to surf as the sun rises... The two had nothing in common...
Kaoru Amane, 16 years old, did not attend school but instead sang herself away every night after dark at a square in front of a train station with a guitar in her hands. She led a lifestyle opposite the norm, sleeping during the day and active at night. Kaoru was suffering from xeroderma pigmentosum (XP), an illness, which also might be described as the allergy to the sun, and was not allowed to be exposed to sunlight. The only motivation in her life was singing, which also was the only connection to the outside world. One day, an incident drastically changes her life...
Kaoru returns home at 4:00 am, before sunrise. Outside her room window, she spots a high school student standing with a surf board in his hands. It becomes her routine to watch him and his friends come and go to the ocean every morning, before going to sleep.
Their destined encounter takes place during the few hours before the break of day, drawing together two individuals that would have never met in daylight. However, Kouji does not know about her illness. The two rapidly fall for one another and continues to meet in the city at night. Then one day, an incident leads Kouji to learn of Kaoru's illness. Kaoru gives up her first love telling herself that, "I shouldn't have allowed myself to dream of a happy life. I am not normal after all." She even gives up singing. Kouji seeing Kaoru at such a state encourages her by suggesting, "Let's meet only at night," and comes up with a brilliant present for her.
She had been leading a life carefully placing herself beyond the reach of harm, with no intent to pursue a dream. However, Kouji had shone a light on her heart making her want to sing once again. However, her illness which has quietly progressed, has started to pressure her nerve system, keeping her from playing the guitar at her will
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poor girl... so the trailer is really good. there are two. the short one is subbed but the official trailer isnt. it shows a lot though.
short trailer:
official trailer:
yeah... and the theme song for this movie also rocks.
Good-bye Days - YUI
not to mention YUI being a really cool person. she was a songwriter cum singer at the age of 16. she plays the guitar too, sings really well and can play the guitar really well. she sung one of bleach's ending themes. but sadly, taiyo no uta, the movie is only released in japan so far. i hope it'll come to sg. it looks really good, but i dont think i will have the chance to watch it.
was just blog hopping round the usual blogs and things started to answer for themselves. like who is who and what is what. i started to think about why things happened that way and how ridiculous they have turned out. turning it back would of course be difficult because it has left a mark, a scar. no matter what happens, our thoughts and feelings about these would never vanish but live in us and when we think of it once again, we feel a sense of guilt.
ah well... staying up till 3am again to watch digimon adventure. shall go do my homework. and the sound of the rain at this hour sounds really pleasant. i like the rain :)
Thursday, June 22, 2006
[torchlight]
I HAVE BEEN TAGGED. (not exactly.... just that i saw this on debby's blog)
Golden Rules:
[] Do the following WITHOUT complaint. *GRUMBLE D:*
[] Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
[] Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
[] Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
(sorry, I just think the rules are pointless. T_T)
Your 10 Favourites::
Favourite Colour -- white
Favourite Food -- dimsum (haha they are tasty!)
Favourite Song -- dont have particular one, just have lots of them.
Favourite Movie -- X-Men 3 (at the moment)
Favourite Sport -- haha i don't know! oh! oh! rollerblading!
Favourite Season -- winter :)
Favourite Day of the week -- saturday
Favourite Ice-cream Flavour -- chocolate chip (love the chips)
Favourite Book -- pendragon (black water)
9 currents::
Current mood -- jealous (because dom and en chou are watching bleach! and i'm still dling) and rather tired
Current clothes -- tshirt and shorts
Current desktop -- kenshin! from rurouni kenshin. haha damn cool lar.
Current Toe-nail colour -- natural colour. dont like to paint toe nail.
Current Time -- 1.28am!
Current Annoyance(s) --
1. doomic and enchou are watching bleach
2. my slow downloads
3. school reopening.
Current thought -- guilt.
Current boyfriend/girlfriend -- i don't have one -.-
Current book you are reading -- none actually.
8 Firsts::
First Best Friend -- marissa (in ij, still in ij)
First Crush -- erm. not gonna answer.
First Movie -- i dont know... some disney movie... maybe cinderella or snow white. haha.
First Piercing -- ears.
First Lie -- haha i think i lied to my maid. told her i drunk the soup, but actually i didnt. haha. she found out -.-
First Music -- nursery rhymes. unless my mum plays classical music when i was still a baby. bleagh?
First Handphone -- nokia 3315
Lasts::
Last Cigarette -- none. i'm underaged.
Last Drink -- green tea from gina's birthday bbq
Last Car Ride -- cab ride? from east coast park to home
Last Crush -- please dont aske me.
Last movie seen -- X-Men III: The Last Stand.
Last Phone Call -- gina. told her i was home :)
Last CD played -- ermmm cant remember. oh the corrs' borrowed heaven
Have you evers::
Have you ever dated one of your best friends -- no.
Have you ever broken the law -- yeah downloading
Have you ever been arrested -- no. what kind of question is that?
Have you ever skinny-dipped -- no. man no way.
Have you ever been on TV -- yeah in the bg. haha.
Have you ever kissed someone u didnt know -- no.
5 things you are wearing:
1. T shirt
2. shorts
3. underwear
4. the usual necklace with the ring
5. and this tired expression
4 things you've done today::
1. went to gina's birthday bbq
2. bbq-ed for a while
3. came home
4. cycled
3 Things you can hear right now::
1. my bro on his phone with his friend
2. my bro's dota game
3. let me go by 3 doors down
2 things you cant live without::
1. computer
2. sleep
Things you do when you are bored: i just stare at the monitor
people to do this quiz:
anyone who reads this.
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decided to do that quiz after reading debby's blog.
gina's bbq party today. hvnt been to ecp for a long time. so kinda miss that place. so ate and played. switching songs. yeah... haha it was quite entertaining.
i'm waiting for digimon adventures on animax. haha miss that show after i knew it was on animax, haha was so happy.
I HAVE BEEN TAGGED. (not exactly.... just that i saw this on debby's blog)
Golden Rules:
[] Do the following WITHOUT complaint. *GRUMBLE D:*
[] Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
[] Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
[] Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
(sorry, I just think the rules are pointless. T_T)
Your 10 Favourites::
Favourite Colour -- white
Favourite Food -- dimsum (haha they are tasty!)
Favourite Song -- dont have particular one, just have lots of them.
Favourite Movie -- X-Men 3 (at the moment)
Favourite Sport -- haha i don't know! oh! oh! rollerblading!
Favourite Season -- winter :)
Favourite Day of the week -- saturday
Favourite Ice-cream Flavour -- chocolate chip (love the chips)
Favourite Book -- pendragon (black water)
9 currents::
Current mood -- jealous (because dom and en chou are watching bleach! and i'm still dling) and rather tired
Current clothes -- tshirt and shorts
Current desktop -- kenshin! from rurouni kenshin. haha damn cool lar.
Current Toe-nail colour -- natural colour. dont like to paint toe nail.
Current Time -- 1.28am!
Current Annoyance(s) --
1. doomic and enchou are watching bleach
2. my slow downloads
3. school reopening.
Current thought -- guilt.
Current boyfriend/girlfriend -- i don't have one -.-
Current book you are reading -- none actually.
8 Firsts::
First Best Friend -- marissa (in ij, still in ij)
First Crush -- erm. not gonna answer.
First Movie -- i dont know... some disney movie... maybe cinderella or snow white. haha.
First Piercing -- ears.
First Lie -- haha i think i lied to my maid. told her i drunk the soup, but actually i didnt. haha. she found out -.-
First Music -- nursery rhymes. unless my mum plays classical music when i was still a baby. bleagh?
First Handphone -- nokia 3315
Lasts::
Last Cigarette -- none. i'm underaged.
Last Drink -- green tea from gina's birthday bbq
Last Car Ride -- cab ride? from east coast park to home
Last Crush -- please dont aske me.
Last movie seen -- X-Men III: The Last Stand.
Last Phone Call -- gina. told her i was home :)
Last CD played -- ermmm cant remember. oh the corrs' borrowed heaven
Have you evers::
Have you ever dated one of your best friends -- no.
Have you ever broken the law -- yeah downloading
Have you ever been arrested -- no. what kind of question is that?
Have you ever skinny-dipped -- no. man no way.
Have you ever been on TV -- yeah in the bg. haha.
Have you ever kissed someone u didnt know -- no.
5 things you are wearing:
1. T shirt
2. shorts
3. underwear
4. the usual necklace with the ring
5. and this tired expression
4 things you've done today::
1. went to gina's birthday bbq
2. bbq-ed for a while
3. came home
4. cycled
3 Things you can hear right now::
1. my bro on his phone with his friend
2. my bro's dota game
3. let me go by 3 doors down
2 things you cant live without::
1. computer
2. sleep
Things you do when you are bored: i just stare at the monitor
people to do this quiz:
anyone who reads this.
------------
decided to do that quiz after reading debby's blog.
gina's bbq party today. hvnt been to ecp for a long time. so kinda miss that place. so ate and played. switching songs. yeah... haha it was quite entertaining.
i'm waiting for digimon adventures on animax. haha miss that show after i knew it was on animax, haha was so happy.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
[famine camp]
famine camp rocked. got that photo from mag's blog because i was too lazy to scan in my id card.
17 June '06
haha started out day 1 with a disaster and everyone had to look for their family members. so my dad had to look for me, while i was out in the field (evacuation centre 3) folding cranes. i remember mag with that big tag on her that said 'I HAVE AIDS'. haha. but anyways i was found shortly after and reunited with the rest of my family. i was the youngest though. haha the rest of my family were all pre u students. felt totally out. haha. a sibling died (he/she didnt come for the camp), so we were a family of 12. we then had workshops and talks. bleagh i guess lots of people were like sleeping during the presentations but awoke when there were videos. it was rather heart-wrenching to see the poor children and the families in poverty. there was so much learnt from famine camp.
on day 2, we all had to earn money to survive, make a shelter. so there were jobs like prostitution, bean picking, crane folding, etc. haha the first job our family took up was prostitution because we could earn money quick. 5 mins = $12. haha it was rather popular i guess, but bad of course. haha so mama had aids. then papa lost his id card, so he got aids too. haha. when you have aids, you get thrashed (thrash bag put over you and you get taped up) it was quite cute. all the moral jobs like crane folding were paid less but the likely chance of being caught by the police would be none. we even got caught on day 3 at the prostitution centre. haha a few more got aids and had to pay a fine of $10. not to mention the black market, where children could be sold. haha our parents couldnt bear to sell us so we were still a happy family of 12 we so we bought tables, chairs, cardboards, rafia string and thrash bags for our shelter. we had to build out shelter out in the field, on the track. no tent so we spent lots of time building the shelter. in the end, the guys had to sleep in the shelters and the girls at the parade square. by then, i was really tired.
haha instead of sleeping, i spent the entire night folding cranes with glory and suhui despite my fatigue. haha ever since they graduated from ij, hardly ever saw them... and was kinda missing them, so we were kinda catching up. the reason why we were folding cranes was because there was this thing from songhe, a rice company. each crane folded would be equivalent to a bowl of rice, that was 100g of rice, for charity organisations. world vision was intending to fold 12 000 cranes, that would be over a thousand packets of rice for the needy. so glory, suhui and i were getting really high on folding cranes. we folded a lot in the parade square where everyone else was sleeping. haha many folded till they fell asleep so we, including stef, her friends and matilda were still awake and all with jn's friends. i guess ij girls like to stay up. from the parade square, we moved out and went over to the foyer because stef and her friends wanted to sleep already. so we realised we ran out of paper and started hunting for more. moved over to the canteen where we found the facilitators folding cranes, we decided to sette ourselves in the canteen and continued folding. the facilitators left shortly to go sleep. guess they were even more tired. we folded like over 200 cranes by 5am. and were pretty much satisfied. haha we were laughing and joking for 5 hours, without stopping. haha we looked drunk. after folding everything, glory started to arrange them as though they were an army. haha i will post some of the photos the next time. it was a fun night.
18 June '06
we could either go for the exercise or worship. i went for worship instead, but fainted. well, they did give us sugared drinks but maybe cause i didnt sleep the night before and my fatigue, i fainted. for a few seconds. it was a horrible feeling. bleagh the world was like black to me and i felt nausea eating my stomach walls. mingna (mummy) and alicia (sis) grabbed hold of me before i really fell to the ground. so they helped me to my chair and i took a little nap. felt better but extremely tired. haha thanks to them, i made it through that day without fainting a second time. haha i never fainted in my life.
by the time i awoke, the other teams were leaving for the buses to tampines to collect newspapers. yeah, we were supposed to cover block 272 - 279, but we didnt finish in time. so we collected lots of newspapers and it was kind of a happy thing. on our way back, mingna was massaging my right hand for me. haha she's kinda good at it. then darren (daddy), mingna and i were watching the people sitting at the back who were sleeping rather amusingly. haha. when we got back, we cleaned up our shelter. then i was sleeping on xiaohui's (sis) shoulder since she realised i was like swaying and swaying. so she offered. and later, we headed out to get our bags. went back to where we were and i was sleeping there. when i awoke 2 hours later, no one was around. felt lost. but fortunately, lizhen (sis) and nelly (sis) came along. yeah searched for the rest and headed to the cc for the concert.
the concert rocked!!! definition crew was there too! haha they were performed the same dance as the one at dance night but yeah it was still enjoyable. then joi chua was there too. she sung two songs and made zhiyang sing a line or two. haha yeah he was here. but he looked different from what i expected. the entire concert rocked! there were two bands performing and all. oh man, it was so totally cool.
after the concert, there was dinner. haha we had burger king. but it was difficult to have food down your throat after not eating for 30 hours. but it was still enjoyable. will upload group photo once i get it.
all in all, famine camp rocked. and i miss my papa, my mama and my 9 siblings!!!! haha. yeah miss them a little. and i've really learnt a lot from this.
whoa i spent an hour on this post. ah well.
haha love this song. and the music video rocks.
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For You I Will - Teddy Geiger
Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
famine camp rocked. got that photo from mag's blog because i was too lazy to scan in my id card.
17 June '06
haha started out day 1 with a disaster and everyone had to look for their family members. so my dad had to look for me, while i was out in the field (evacuation centre 3) folding cranes. i remember mag with that big tag on her that said 'I HAVE AIDS'. haha. but anyways i was found shortly after and reunited with the rest of my family. i was the youngest though. haha the rest of my family were all pre u students. felt totally out. haha. a sibling died (he/she didnt come for the camp), so we were a family of 12. we then had workshops and talks. bleagh i guess lots of people were like sleeping during the presentations but awoke when there were videos. it was rather heart-wrenching to see the poor children and the families in poverty. there was so much learnt from famine camp.
on day 2, we all had to earn money to survive, make a shelter. so there were jobs like prostitution, bean picking, crane folding, etc. haha the first job our family took up was prostitution because we could earn money quick. 5 mins = $12. haha it was rather popular i guess, but bad of course. haha so mama had aids. then papa lost his id card, so he got aids too. haha. when you have aids, you get thrashed (thrash bag put over you and you get taped up) it was quite cute. all the moral jobs like crane folding were paid less but the likely chance of being caught by the police would be none. we even got caught on day 3 at the prostitution centre. haha a few more got aids and had to pay a fine of $10. not to mention the black market, where children could be sold. haha our parents couldnt bear to sell us so we were still a happy family of 12 we so we bought tables, chairs, cardboards, rafia string and thrash bags for our shelter. we had to build out shelter out in the field, on the track. no tent so we spent lots of time building the shelter. in the end, the guys had to sleep in the shelters and the girls at the parade square. by then, i was really tired.
haha instead of sleeping, i spent the entire night folding cranes with glory and suhui despite my fatigue. haha ever since they graduated from ij, hardly ever saw them... and was kinda missing them, so we were kinda catching up. the reason why we were folding cranes was because there was this thing from songhe, a rice company. each crane folded would be equivalent to a bowl of rice, that was 100g of rice, for charity organisations. world vision was intending to fold 12 000 cranes, that would be over a thousand packets of rice for the needy. so glory, suhui and i were getting really high on folding cranes. we folded a lot in the parade square where everyone else was sleeping. haha many folded till they fell asleep so we, including stef, her friends and matilda were still awake and all with jn's friends. i guess ij girls like to stay up. from the parade square, we moved out and went over to the foyer because stef and her friends wanted to sleep already. so we realised we ran out of paper and started hunting for more. moved over to the canteen where we found the facilitators folding cranes, we decided to sette ourselves in the canteen and continued folding. the facilitators left shortly to go sleep. guess they were even more tired. we folded like over 200 cranes by 5am. and were pretty much satisfied. haha we were laughing and joking for 5 hours, without stopping. haha we looked drunk. after folding everything, glory started to arrange them as though they were an army. haha i will post some of the photos the next time. it was a fun night.
18 June '06
we could either go for the exercise or worship. i went for worship instead, but fainted. well, they did give us sugared drinks but maybe cause i didnt sleep the night before and my fatigue, i fainted. for a few seconds. it was a horrible feeling. bleagh the world was like black to me and i felt nausea eating my stomach walls. mingna (mummy) and alicia (sis) grabbed hold of me before i really fell to the ground. so they helped me to my chair and i took a little nap. felt better but extremely tired. haha thanks to them, i made it through that day without fainting a second time. haha i never fainted in my life.
by the time i awoke, the other teams were leaving for the buses to tampines to collect newspapers. yeah, we were supposed to cover block 272 - 279, but we didnt finish in time. so we collected lots of newspapers and it was kind of a happy thing. on our way back, mingna was massaging my right hand for me. haha she's kinda good at it. then darren (daddy), mingna and i were watching the people sitting at the back who were sleeping rather amusingly. haha. when we got back, we cleaned up our shelter. then i was sleeping on xiaohui's (sis) shoulder since she realised i was like swaying and swaying. so she offered. and later, we headed out to get our bags. went back to where we were and i was sleeping there. when i awoke 2 hours later, no one was around. felt lost. but fortunately, lizhen (sis) and nelly (sis) came along. yeah searched for the rest and headed to the cc for the concert.
the concert rocked!!! definition crew was there too! haha they were performed the same dance as the one at dance night but yeah it was still enjoyable. then joi chua was there too. she sung two songs and made zhiyang sing a line or two. haha yeah he was here. but he looked different from what i expected. the entire concert rocked! there were two bands performing and all. oh man, it was so totally cool.
after the concert, there was dinner. haha we had burger king. but it was difficult to have food down your throat after not eating for 30 hours. but it was still enjoyable. will upload group photo once i get it.
all in all, famine camp rocked. and i miss my papa, my mama and my 9 siblings!!!! haha. yeah miss them a little. and i've really learnt a lot from this.
whoa i spent an hour on this post. ah well.
haha love this song. and the music video rocks.
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For You I Will - Teddy Geiger
Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
Sunday, June 11, 2006
[shining like the sun]
wahhhhh
hee
okay... random random random. CHEESE! haha
okay... so i'm going "nuts" for no reason. bleagh... finished lu guang sen lin. it was nice nice nice. yeap...
have been playing warcraft for three nights or so and it's super exciting. haha. i get up at like 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
world cup! haha dont know much but.. just last night, germany won with 4 goals. costa rica with one goal. dont know about the 3am match though... hmmm...
nothing to blog about because i'm grounded... and haha have been wasting away on games and such. haha have i done anything productive? lets see... i finished my chem homework and done like half my physics homework... haha and guess what? its almost the third week already! man.. need to start soon.
my mum gave me a new pair of headphones! ah whee... now i hear better... haha kidding. but yeah, its new and nice. and yeah it kinda sounds better. haha.. but bring it out will be haha troublesome? haha dont know...
cant wait for famine camp! gonna be super fun!
wahhhhh
hee
okay... random random random. CHEESE! haha
okay... so i'm going "nuts" for no reason. bleagh... finished lu guang sen lin. it was nice nice nice. yeap...
have been playing warcraft for three nights or so and it's super exciting. haha. i get up at like 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
world cup! haha dont know much but.. just last night, germany won with 4 goals. costa rica with one goal. dont know about the 3am match though... hmmm...
nothing to blog about because i'm grounded... and haha have been wasting away on games and such. haha have i done anything productive? lets see... i finished my chem homework and done like half my physics homework... haha and guess what? its almost the third week already! man.. need to start soon.
my mum gave me a new pair of headphones! ah whee... now i hear better... haha kidding. but yeah, its new and nice. and yeah it kinda sounds better. haha.. but bring it out will be haha troublesome? haha dont know...
cant wait for famine camp! gonna be super fun!
Sunday, June 04, 2006
[dumdeedum]
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wahahaha. i do kinda agree with a few points.
dance night was fab, but short... well, if they made it longer, the dancers would die of exhaustion so yeah... intermission was way too long. but yeah. haha bumped into navin there! haha have no idea how come he was there, but he was. gerri, zl and i had nice seats in front because we bought the $30 tickets. right next to jaslyn, savie, smelly and clara. after dance night, clara, savie zl and i went to kap for macs! haha had DUPPER!. decided to combine supper and dinner. it was either sinner or dupper, but yeah, settled with dupper. so zl went home, savie and i sent clara home before i headed home. haha the journey home with clara was interesting. we had like two experiences with roaches. haha okay maybe the first one was a false alarm.... but the second was not. yeah... it was quite funny.
haha the entire afternoon was really fun. sentosa! no sun-tanning. dont like it. but played in the sea and in the sand. fun. haha. bleagh just cant say much because..... maybe i shouldnt. haha ah well.
fell in love with another ou xiang ju. green forest my home. lu guang sen lin. haha super nice. like the 1st episode. its super nice. so watch it on ch u, wed - fri, 7pm, if you wanted to watch. yeap yeap.
Your #1 Match: ISFJ |
The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. |
Your #2 Match: ISFP |
The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. |
Your #3 Match: ESFJ |
The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. |
Your #4 Match: ESFP |
The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor. |
Your #5 Match: ISTJ |
The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. |
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wahahaha. i do kinda agree with a few points.
dance night was fab, but short... well, if they made it longer, the dancers would die of exhaustion so yeah... intermission was way too long. but yeah. haha bumped into navin there! haha have no idea how come he was there, but he was. gerri, zl and i had nice seats in front because we bought the $30 tickets. right next to jaslyn, savie, smelly and clara. after dance night, clara, savie zl and i went to kap for macs! haha had DUPPER!. decided to combine supper and dinner. it was either sinner or dupper, but yeah, settled with dupper. so zl went home, savie and i sent clara home before i headed home. haha the journey home with clara was interesting. we had like two experiences with roaches. haha okay maybe the first one was a false alarm.... but the second was not. yeah... it was quite funny.
haha the entire afternoon was really fun. sentosa! no sun-tanning. dont like it. but played in the sea and in the sand. fun. haha. bleagh just cant say much because..... maybe i shouldnt. haha ah well.
fell in love with another ou xiang ju. green forest my home. lu guang sen lin. haha super nice. like the 1st episode. its super nice. so watch it on ch u, wed - fri, 7pm, if you wanted to watch. yeap yeap.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
[torn between this life i lead and where i stand]
whenever someone apologises to me, i feel sad. for some reason i do... i know that particular person feels guilty and all, but i just feel very irritated with myself. before someone apologises, i would be totally fine, taking it as though nothing happened. sigh.
i've been wanting to go to bed early... whenever i'm not watching anything. for some reason, things start to take a turn and remind me of what seems so unhappy, even though i didnt ask for it. i want to sleep early so that i can forget about all these. it is a fact that i can never seem to forget and it is also a fact that what i've always seen, isn't exactly what i'll see now.
if i told you how abandoned i feel now, would you believe? would you have that shocked expression printed on your face? but in fact, i do. when i look at every particular person, i will recall one bad incident. one that made me feel helpless and abandoned by that particular person.
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
-let me go
whenever someone apologises to me, i feel sad. for some reason i do... i know that particular person feels guilty and all, but i just feel very irritated with myself. before someone apologises, i would be totally fine, taking it as though nothing happened. sigh.
i've been wanting to go to bed early... whenever i'm not watching anything. for some reason, things start to take a turn and remind me of what seems so unhappy, even though i didnt ask for it. i want to sleep early so that i can forget about all these. it is a fact that i can never seem to forget and it is also a fact that what i've always seen, isn't exactly what i'll see now.
if i told you how abandoned i feel now, would you believe? would you have that shocked expression printed on your face? but in fact, i do. when i look at every particular person, i will recall one bad incident. one that made me feel helpless and abandoned by that particular person.
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
-let me go
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
[sick and out.]
it was the teachers' conference today... had to wear councillor's uniform and the shoes. my feet is still sore from all that walking, because eliza and i had to walk up and down suntec for like an hour. and we were walking in a big circle... when we exited, we realised and were so regretting it. BLEAGH
haha it turned out okay though. someone commented on how good the presentation was by the students. haha ij didnt present... tms and mi did. well, they presented well.. haha so met was suaning me about my phone!!! said it was to pound chili into powder... bleagh. and was comparing his SLIM razor to my 'FAT' 6680. oh gee! haha
bleagh i'm just afraid she's breaking down.... i hope she isnt... something must have happened... i really hope she's okay and all because she's getting me all worried because of what she said. ahh although she said she's okay.. i know she isnt. i can tell!!! but she isnt saying anything and i cant force her to say anything. AHHH. i really odnt know what to do...
it was the teachers' conference today... had to wear councillor's uniform and the shoes. my feet is still sore from all that walking, because eliza and i had to walk up and down suntec for like an hour. and we were walking in a big circle... when we exited, we realised and were so regretting it. BLEAGH
haha it turned out okay though. someone commented on how good the presentation was by the students. haha ij didnt present... tms and mi did. well, they presented well.. haha so met was suaning me about my phone!!! said it was to pound chili into powder... bleagh. and was comparing his SLIM razor to my 'FAT' 6680. oh gee! haha
bleagh i'm just afraid she's breaking down.... i hope she isnt... something must have happened... i really hope she's okay and all because she's getting me all worried because of what she said. ahh although she said she's okay.. i know she isnt. i can tell!!! but she isnt saying anything and i cant force her to say anything. AHHH. i really odnt know what to do...
Saturday, May 27, 2006
[confuse it for another]
the netball carnival rocked. 3eight came in 1st for cheerleading, 2nd for banner and 3rd for netball and finally, overall champion! well the hours of cheerleading practice, netball training and time spent on the banner sure did pay off.
i was having so much fun with hannah when we were doing yiqi and cj's hair. hannah spiked yiqi's hair and i made the sides and fringe look cool. as for cj, i did the fringe and hannah andi tied her hair into many many pigtails which really made her hair too cool.
cheerleading was definitely an interesting one. hannah, huda and khym did really well with the mission impossible part. and the run for cover part was a masterpiece.
watch X-MEN III : THE LAST STAND today. it totally rocked. angel was really cool! his wings are super cool. and although jean grey turned into phoenix, well i still kinda like her, despite the stuff she did. many people died and some lost their powers. there were disadvantages and advantages to their loss of powers but yeah. hope they have X-MEN 4 with something as interesting or better.
brought jac to the sinseh today. follow-up today and gotta go with her on monday too. she sprained her ankle at the netball carnival and has been cursing maple ever since for deliberately stepping on her foot with so much force and causing her to trip. maple hurt clara's fingers and although the netball carnival was 3 days ago, clara's finger is still just as swollen. she dislocated her finger... savie was pissed off with maple because she accused savie of touching her and then all that contact crap. sheesh, she really does need to get a life. i really wonder if she really did hurt jac and clara on purpose. well i think she is.
the founders' day mass was all i can say, hot. the sun was scorching over our heads, and now my scalp is probably burnt. it's all red now and i swear it was white when i left for school this morning. hello! we were peacefully sitting in the bball court when the sun decided to talk a walk. and not to mention the three sec 1s in front of us that seriously were making so much nonsense especially during mass! they tore the hymn sheets and foldered them into paper planes and boxes. they picked up those stuff from the running track that ended up on the court into those boxes and were pushing each other. when we were all supposed to join hands and sing the our father, they were hooking pinky fingers. may i know if thats even okay? i doubt so... christine then said they seriously needed to spend another year in primary school. thats not the worst. they're catholics! oh gee... what is this?
its like 1am and i'm seriously gonna die of exhaustion if i dont konk out sooner or later... so yeah ciao!
the netball carnival rocked. 3eight came in 1st for cheerleading, 2nd for banner and 3rd for netball and finally, overall champion! well the hours of cheerleading practice, netball training and time spent on the banner sure did pay off.
i was having so much fun with hannah when we were doing yiqi and cj's hair. hannah spiked yiqi's hair and i made the sides and fringe look cool. as for cj, i did the fringe and hannah andi tied her hair into many many pigtails which really made her hair too cool.
cheerleading was definitely an interesting one. hannah, huda and khym did really well with the mission impossible part. and the run for cover part was a masterpiece.
watch X-MEN III : THE LAST STAND today. it totally rocked. angel was really cool! his wings are super cool. and although jean grey turned into phoenix, well i still kinda like her, despite the stuff she did. many people died and some lost their powers. there were disadvantages and advantages to their loss of powers but yeah. hope they have X-MEN 4 with something as interesting or better.
brought jac to the sinseh today. follow-up today and gotta go with her on monday too. she sprained her ankle at the netball carnival and has been cursing maple ever since for deliberately stepping on her foot with so much force and causing her to trip. maple hurt clara's fingers and although the netball carnival was 3 days ago, clara's finger is still just as swollen. she dislocated her finger... savie was pissed off with maple because she accused savie of touching her and then all that contact crap. sheesh, she really does need to get a life. i really wonder if she really did hurt jac and clara on purpose. well i think she is.
the founders' day mass was all i can say, hot. the sun was scorching over our heads, and now my scalp is probably burnt. it's all red now and i swear it was white when i left for school this morning. hello! we were peacefully sitting in the bball court when the sun decided to talk a walk. and not to mention the three sec 1s in front of us that seriously were making so much nonsense especially during mass! they tore the hymn sheets and foldered them into paper planes and boxes. they picked up those stuff from the running track that ended up on the court into those boxes and were pushing each other. when we were all supposed to join hands and sing the our father, they were hooking pinky fingers. may i know if thats even okay? i doubt so... christine then said they seriously needed to spend another year in primary school. thats not the worst. they're catholics! oh gee... what is this?
its like 1am and i'm seriously gonna die of exhaustion if i dont konk out sooner or later... so yeah ciao!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
[just a note.]
hey mag... hmmm i've been wanting to talk to you about it, but i know when i start to talk about it, you'll ask me to stop so yeah... i knew you wouldnt like it, so i just dont tell you about it. i'm not angry with you for not wanting to listen or anything but yeah, when you really want to listen, then i will tell. i know you're concerned, but actually none of you really want to listen even i told you. yeah you'll probably say you all actually want to listen and all, but the fact is, yall never did, so the need to tell yall just slowly fades away with time. and i'm not angry although yall dont wanna listen and stuff.
yeah i'll be writing on your blog soon, but i gtg sleep... gotta wake up at 5+ tomorrow. yeah.. bye
hey mag... hmmm i've been wanting to talk to you about it, but i know when i start to talk about it, you'll ask me to stop so yeah... i knew you wouldnt like it, so i just dont tell you about it. i'm not angry with you for not wanting to listen or anything but yeah, when you really want to listen, then i will tell. i know you're concerned, but actually none of you really want to listen even i told you. yeah you'll probably say you all actually want to listen and all, but the fact is, yall never did, so the need to tell yall just slowly fades away with time. and i'm not angry although yall dont wanna listen and stuff.
yeah i'll be writing on your blog soon, but i gtg sleep... gotta wake up at 5+ tomorrow. yeah.. bye
HELLO BRIANA!
I JUST FELT LIKE INVADING YOUR BLOG FOR A WHILE.
DON'T GET TO ANGRY OVER IT OKAY?
ANYWAY, YOU ARE GIVEN FULL PERMISSION TO POST ON MY BLOG TOO!
I AM SO BORED.
AND SO ARE YOU!
ANYWAY, THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR TROUBLES ARE, OR WHAT YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT NOW, DON'T GET TOO STRESSED OVER IT OKAY??
AND WHEN YOU FINALLY FEEL LIKE TELLING ME, YOU CAN.
ANYWAY, YES, AS YOU HAVE SAID EARLIER, I SHOULD BE SLEEPING NOW.
SO GOOD NIGHT THEN!
MAGDALENE
I JUST FELT LIKE INVADING YOUR BLOG FOR A WHILE.
DON'T GET TO ANGRY OVER IT OKAY?
ANYWAY, YOU ARE GIVEN FULL PERMISSION TO POST ON MY BLOG TOO!
I AM SO BORED.
AND SO ARE YOU!
ANYWAY, THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR TROUBLES ARE, OR WHAT YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT NOW, DON'T GET TOO STRESSED OVER IT OKAY??
AND WHEN YOU FINALLY FEEL LIKE TELLING ME, YOU CAN.
ANYWAY, YES, AS YOU HAVE SAID EARLIER, I SHOULD BE SLEEPING NOW.
SO GOOD NIGHT THEN!
MAGDALENE
Monday, May 22, 2006
[negligence]
msn messenger is functioning well once again. hmmm it just didnt before. there was some problem with the sounds and all, esp the nudges and whenever someone sends a message.
was just thinking about what had happened since the start of this year. everything that happened. randomly of course. felt so angry after that. ironic isn't it? sometimes you would actually think that reminiscing is a way to recall happy memories, to cheer yourself up or something like that. yeah i felt angry after that. before i felt angry, i was feeling slightly better, then suddenly, ARGH. strange strange strange.
i like to sleep. dont really have the chance of sleeping for like hours and hours, because of the time constraint and on weekends, my mum wouldnt allow me to sleep through the afternoon, although i seriously need it to make up for the loss of sleep and trying to forget about the unhappy things that happened before my sleep.
i was just telling chrystal on thursday how unhealthy i look because we were in the dance studio and you know how huge mirrors are... so i see myself and just told her that. gee....
i wished i was still 3 years old or something. because i want to not know anything. easily forget the unhappy things and of course no need to worry about everything.
msn messenger is functioning well once again. hmmm it just didnt before. there was some problem with the sounds and all, esp the nudges and whenever someone sends a message.
was just thinking about what had happened since the start of this year. everything that happened. randomly of course. felt so angry after that. ironic isn't it? sometimes you would actually think that reminiscing is a way to recall happy memories, to cheer yourself up or something like that. yeah i felt angry after that. before i felt angry, i was feeling slightly better, then suddenly, ARGH. strange strange strange.
i like to sleep. dont really have the chance of sleeping for like hours and hours, because of the time constraint and on weekends, my mum wouldnt allow me to sleep through the afternoon, although i seriously need it to make up for the loss of sleep and trying to forget about the unhappy things that happened before my sleep.
i was just telling chrystal on thursday how unhealthy i look because we were in the dance studio and you know how huge mirrors are... so i see myself and just told her that. gee....
i wished i was still 3 years old or something. because i want to not know anything. easily forget the unhappy things and of course no need to worry about everything.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
[your love was like an incomplete sentence.]
it was pretty much an enjoyable day.
was running around in the morning. went to ymca(stevens road) to hand the famine camp forms to brenda before rushing back to tp just to meet celine, who was 15 mins late. we headed down to the mi carnival and spent a whole 3 hours there. yeah i won a fish. haha it's small but i have got no food to feed it, its not even eating the bread skin i've given it! i hope it'll survive. the carnival was pretty much a success from the sound of it. the school was packed and yeah it was pretty fun walking around and stuff. dont know when it'll be the next time i'll see them so yeah...
after the carnival, seline and i rushed back to tp, to get ready to go out again to the bwl convention at the singapore indoor stadium. yeah it was really fun there. well, besides announcing the million dollars achievers and all. well, we were split up. capri, cheryl, zheng ying and li juin sat at one end, while celine, celine's 2 sisters (chloe and chomel) and me were sitting at the other end. then celine's dad managed to get us down to the 1st storey, somewhere near the vip area and the stage. then, celine and i switched places with her parents, and ended up sitting in the vip area. basically, we moved right up front, 5th or 6th row from the front. there were performances by taufik batisah, billy wang and 5566. haha taufik's performance was pretty okay.. didnt see much because we were sitting in the area near the vip area. we only moved up when they were announcing the million dollar achievers. so came billy wang and his totally weird hairdo (we didn't like it) and haha the 5566 performance was rocking. haha the audience was given noisemakers and celine and i had 3 in total. so we were waving them in the air and making noise out of them (serving its purpose). yeah... we only sang along in one song which we both knew. and it was quite embarrrassing. because the vip area was split into 3. we were in the far right, where the million dollar achievers were sitting. so in the particular area, only celine and my arms were swaying from left to right. celine kept insisting 5566 saw us, but heck. and it was really a fortunate situation. we were sitting somewhere so close to the stage and all, so we had a better view. haha we all went mad. and mag is so gonna be jealous because i saw shaowei (erqi). whee. haha joking. but she was jealous when she knew i was going for this. HAHA. it was really fun. took lots of photos and videos. yeah... it's pretty cool how someone can earn 23 million dollars for the company in a year. celine and i were like 'i want the money =|' and that person who earned 23 million dollars in a year for the company is a female! haha no more women cant work crap.
well, i'm kinda blog hopping and decided to pay a visit to dom and gina's blog. they blogged about the carnival and stuff, and kinda glad they had fun. yeah, i guess thats the most important. haha hope the upcoming netball carnival this wednesday will be fun.
ai qing mo fa shi ep 1-10 out already. but its $29. argh.
i'm taking this last chance. this may just help me make a decision to give it up or not. but things kinda tell me 'you have to give up' and stuff like that. yeah, i'm feeling negative now, not good at all. i'm still trying to think positive, think think think positive. but there's something on the back of my mind that tells me 'whoa, no way will you ever survive in such a sticky situation'. sheesh, i seriously need intense brainwashing. i need to forget that 'thing' bugging me. but i'm going to take this last chance.
replies to tags:
anonymous - thanks for that. there are just some things difficult to accept all at once and when they start, it'll take a long time for it to stop. well, not sure if you knew what had happened, but thanks for it anyway... btw, do i know you? i probably do... who are you?
matilda - erm... they're not fickle. and erqi sacrificed so much, it's his part. yi xiang qing yuan. xiaobei didnt beg him or anything. just because erqi sacrificed his life for her, does that mean she has to marry him? if so, she's marrying him just to repay her so called debts, not because she loves him or anything. and she went along with erqi because she thought she had fallen for him. and up to that moment, she never was in a relationship, so how could she be so sure? it's not fickle. yasi isn't fickle. yasi is with qingkong because its as if qingkong cant live without him. and he did make promises when he loved qingkong. then qingkong suddenly decides to leave for her selfish reasons. yasi went through a lot until he met xiaobei three years later. he suffered and xiaobei helped him out of it. qingkong cant be so selfish to do as she wishes you know? its not as if yasi is a puppet or anything. he cant control his feelings and navigate them as and where qingkong wants it. it's really qingkong's fault to begin with. it's not that they're fickle. and xiaobei met yasi first!!!
xinmin - haha okay... i will when i have the time... it'll be really hectic for me for the rest of the year.. sorry...
it was pretty much an enjoyable day.
was running around in the morning. went to ymca(stevens road) to hand the famine camp forms to brenda before rushing back to tp just to meet celine, who was 15 mins late. we headed down to the mi carnival and spent a whole 3 hours there. yeah i won a fish. haha it's small but i have got no food to feed it, its not even eating the bread skin i've given it! i hope it'll survive. the carnival was pretty much a success from the sound of it. the school was packed and yeah it was pretty fun walking around and stuff. dont know when it'll be the next time i'll see them so yeah...
after the carnival, seline and i rushed back to tp, to get ready to go out again to the bwl convention at the singapore indoor stadium. yeah it was really fun there. well, besides announcing the million dollars achievers and all. well, we were split up. capri, cheryl, zheng ying and li juin sat at one end, while celine, celine's 2 sisters (chloe and chomel) and me were sitting at the other end. then celine's dad managed to get us down to the 1st storey, somewhere near the vip area and the stage. then, celine and i switched places with her parents, and ended up sitting in the vip area. basically, we moved right up front, 5th or 6th row from the front. there were performances by taufik batisah, billy wang and 5566. haha taufik's performance was pretty okay.. didnt see much because we were sitting in the area near the vip area. we only moved up when they were announcing the million dollar achievers. so came billy wang and his totally weird hairdo (we didn't like it) and haha the 5566 performance was rocking. haha the audience was given noisemakers and celine and i had 3 in total. so we were waving them in the air and making noise out of them (serving its purpose). yeah... we only sang along in one song which we both knew. and it was quite embarrrassing. because the vip area was split into 3. we were in the far right, where the million dollar achievers were sitting. so in the particular area, only celine and my arms were swaying from left to right. celine kept insisting 5566 saw us, but heck. and it was really a fortunate situation. we were sitting somewhere so close to the stage and all, so we had a better view. haha we all went mad. and mag is so gonna be jealous because i saw shaowei (erqi). whee. haha joking. but she was jealous when she knew i was going for this. HAHA. it was really fun. took lots of photos and videos. yeah... it's pretty cool how someone can earn 23 million dollars for the company in a year. celine and i were like 'i want the money =|' and that person who earned 23 million dollars in a year for the company is a female! haha no more women cant work crap.
well, i'm kinda blog hopping and decided to pay a visit to dom and gina's blog. they blogged about the carnival and stuff, and kinda glad they had fun. yeah, i guess thats the most important. haha hope the upcoming netball carnival this wednesday will be fun.
ai qing mo fa shi ep 1-10 out already. but its $29. argh.
i'm taking this last chance. this may just help me make a decision to give it up or not. but things kinda tell me 'you have to give up' and stuff like that. yeah, i'm feeling negative now, not good at all. i'm still trying to think positive, think think think positive. but there's something on the back of my mind that tells me 'whoa, no way will you ever survive in such a sticky situation'. sheesh, i seriously need intense brainwashing. i need to forget that 'thing' bugging me. but i'm going to take this last chance.
replies to tags:
anonymous - thanks for that. there are just some things difficult to accept all at once and when they start, it'll take a long time for it to stop. well, not sure if you knew what had happened, but thanks for it anyway... btw, do i know you? i probably do... who are you?
matilda - erm... they're not fickle. and erqi sacrificed so much, it's his part. yi xiang qing yuan. xiaobei didnt beg him or anything. just because erqi sacrificed his life for her, does that mean she has to marry him? if so, she's marrying him just to repay her so called debts, not because she loves him or anything. and she went along with erqi because she thought she had fallen for him. and up to that moment, she never was in a relationship, so how could she be so sure? it's not fickle. yasi isn't fickle. yasi is with qingkong because its as if qingkong cant live without him. and he did make promises when he loved qingkong. then qingkong suddenly decides to leave for her selfish reasons. yasi went through a lot until he met xiaobei three years later. he suffered and xiaobei helped him out of it. qingkong cant be so selfish to do as she wishes you know? its not as if yasi is a puppet or anything. he cant control his feelings and navigate them as and where qingkong wants it. it's really qingkong's fault to begin with. it's not that they're fickle. and xiaobei met yasi first!!!
xinmin - haha okay... i will when i have the time... it'll be really hectic for me for the rest of the year.. sorry...
Friday, May 19, 2006
[dull ranbow]
i'm feeling down because someone is feeling down. sigh... sometimes, i think it might just be my fault when things like these happen.
was supposed to be all happy and stuff since i came home. then when i noticed something, i just got so pissed off i'm isolating myself just in case i scream at someone...
i've been weird for the past two days. so much for trying to hide everything huh? when i do so so so badly for my exam, i start to get all moody, then nuts later... either i'm emotionless or something seriously is wrong with me.
there is something i want to try, but afraid of what might happen later. i'm seriously stuck with what to do next?
when i see them so unhappy now, i seriously don't know what to do to make them feel better. 'are you okay?' was the best i could do... i couldnt ask them what happen, or why they're feeling so down and all. what can i do? i feel like a total failure now. not being able to help my friends, neither can i do well academically. i really wonder what is in for me in future? i rather die then lead a worthless life. a life with no direction and constantly failing. sometimes, it just isn't fair. you could be working so hard for something and it just vanishes in a moment. i given up my dream,, because i know i'm just getting further and further away from it. and when i make an attempt to take a step closer, i realise i will never ever make it. i'll just keep drifting away from it.
i miss the past now. wouldnt it be nice if time could be reversed. yeah so many yearned for that to happen. was reading theresa's blog when i started to learn about bipolar disorder. i might just be suffering from it now... sigh.
i know i've been through it before. it was a tough and horrible experience... i dont want the same to happen to someone else... but why is it that i am unable to help her? to think of a solution for her? this problem stuck with me for about 6 months. it has made me such a depressed person. i was constantly thinking about suicide and although i seldom do anymore, my relationship with my family has been so strained i seriously dont know what to do to fill up the gaps.
i suck as a student, as a friend, as a daughter, as a sister, and worse of all, an ij girl. i think my talent is just failing in everything, doing badly, jeopardizing everyhting and being a jinx. sheesh....
sigh... i just hope i can feel better after some time.
i'm feeling down because someone is feeling down. sigh... sometimes, i think it might just be my fault when things like these happen.
was supposed to be all happy and stuff since i came home. then when i noticed something, i just got so pissed off i'm isolating myself just in case i scream at someone...
i've been weird for the past two days. so much for trying to hide everything huh? when i do so so so badly for my exam, i start to get all moody, then nuts later... either i'm emotionless or something seriously is wrong with me.
there is something i want to try, but afraid of what might happen later. i'm seriously stuck with what to do next?
when i see them so unhappy now, i seriously don't know what to do to make them feel better. 'are you okay?' was the best i could do... i couldnt ask them what happen, or why they're feeling so down and all. what can i do? i feel like a total failure now. not being able to help my friends, neither can i do well academically. i really wonder what is in for me in future? i rather die then lead a worthless life. a life with no direction and constantly failing. sometimes, it just isn't fair. you could be working so hard for something and it just vanishes in a moment. i given up my dream,, because i know i'm just getting further and further away from it. and when i make an attempt to take a step closer, i realise i will never ever make it. i'll just keep drifting away from it.
i miss the past now. wouldnt it be nice if time could be reversed. yeah so many yearned for that to happen. was reading theresa's blog when i started to learn about bipolar disorder. i might just be suffering from it now... sigh.
i know i've been through it before. it was a tough and horrible experience... i dont want the same to happen to someone else... but why is it that i am unable to help her? to think of a solution for her? this problem stuck with me for about 6 months. it has made me such a depressed person. i was constantly thinking about suicide and although i seldom do anymore, my relationship with my family has been so strained i seriously dont know what to do to fill up the gaps.
i suck as a student, as a friend, as a daughter, as a sister, and worse of all, an ij girl. i think my talent is just failing in everything, doing badly, jeopardizing everyhting and being a jinx. sheesh....
sigh... i just hope i can feel better after some time.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
[cheaper by the dozen 2]
reading debby's blog makes me wanna blog. haha weird right? yeah i know... haha
anyway... i've been really sleeping today. was supposed to have class discussion over the upcoming netball carnival next week, but fell asleep so not so clear about the details... then during recess...
oh and during recess, it just occured to me... it was debby's birthday last thursday!!! how could i have forgotten. ah. i'm so stupid i forgot. haha
oh. jac sent me a photo of her dog taking a nap and its really cute. it ended up as wallpaper on my phone and my display picture. haha but it doesnt like me at all... the last time i went to jac's place, it liked to look at me, and bark non-stop. haiyah. biased.
watched cheaper by the dozen 2 earlier. i borrowed it from jac and it's good. haha it's so darn funny that made me rewind it over just to have a good laugh all over again. yeah and one of the kids sarah had this innocent crush on the rival's kid, elliot. haha so the both of them went to the movies together and their fathers, who were rivals ended up spying on them. haha it was hilarious but i think sarah and elliot were really cute. all in all, it was a good movie. and i'm gonna watch sky high now. just feeling the urge to watch disney movies... haha i watched agent cody banks last night, haha although i watched that movie a million times, i never seem to get sick of it. haha.
papers returned tomorrow and i'm so not looking forward to it. i am prepared to receive a disgusting piece of work, done by me. wow! haha
was just looking at the stuff on my table and came across the christmas card debby made for me last year. it's stuck on my table lamp. haha so it kinda reminded me of how she urged me to stay away from ahem. haha i miss her a lot. it's been 5 months since she graduated and yeah... i miss the rest of the brudders too. denise is busy working... not sure about the rest but i guess they're just as busy too...
haha you'll think i'm mad or something. since i put the episode 15 preview on my blog. haha if you haven't seen it, refresh and dont click on the navigations. wait for this video to pop out and yeah. you can choose not to watch it of course.
after reading gina's blog... i was reminded of the me 2-3 months back. yeah... it was a headache. yeah it brings joy, yet misery at the same time. it's so troublesome it can make you so moody for a week or even more. sigh.
reading debby's blog makes me wanna blog. haha weird right? yeah i know... haha
anyway... i've been really sleeping today. was supposed to have class discussion over the upcoming netball carnival next week, but fell asleep so not so clear about the details... then during recess...
oh and during recess, it just occured to me... it was debby's birthday last thursday!!! how could i have forgotten. ah. i'm so stupid i forgot. haha
oh. jac sent me a photo of her dog taking a nap and its really cute. it ended up as wallpaper on my phone and my display picture. haha but it doesnt like me at all... the last time i went to jac's place, it liked to look at me, and bark non-stop. haiyah. biased.
watched cheaper by the dozen 2 earlier. i borrowed it from jac and it's good. haha it's so darn funny that made me rewind it over just to have a good laugh all over again. yeah and one of the kids sarah had this innocent crush on the rival's kid, elliot. haha so the both of them went to the movies together and their fathers, who were rivals ended up spying on them. haha it was hilarious but i think sarah and elliot were really cute. all in all, it was a good movie. and i'm gonna watch sky high now. just feeling the urge to watch disney movies... haha i watched agent cody banks last night, haha although i watched that movie a million times, i never seem to get sick of it. haha.
papers returned tomorrow and i'm so not looking forward to it. i am prepared to receive a disgusting piece of work, done by me. wow! haha
was just looking at the stuff on my table and came across the christmas card debby made for me last year. it's stuck on my table lamp. haha so it kinda reminded me of how she urged me to stay away from ahem. haha i miss her a lot. it's been 5 months since she graduated and yeah... i miss the rest of the brudders too. denise is busy working... not sure about the rest but i guess they're just as busy too...
haha you'll think i'm mad or something. since i put the episode 15 preview on my blog. haha if you haven't seen it, refresh and dont click on the navigations. wait for this video to pop out and yeah. you can choose not to watch it of course.
after reading gina's blog... i was reminded of the me 2-3 months back. yeah... it was a headache. yeah it brings joy, yet misery at the same time. it's so troublesome it can make you so moody for a week or even more. sigh.
Monday, May 15, 2006
[chalet]
the chalet was great. it was fun. although it was kind of a failure due to the rather inadequate number of people turning up, i had a great time.
the first day was just the bbq. the charcoal was low quality. haha, poor zong got cheated of her money... so we had to use the electric bbq pit jaslyn brought to cook the satay and the otah. we watched movies the moment we came in. so we pretty much wasted a lot of electricity. i was helping angie set up her xbox. just to play music. the funny thing was, we could neither hear nor see anything even after plugging in the right cables into the right ports. so we called the technician. he couldnt do anything either so we had to find a way out. i used the amplifier instead. well, there was sound, but no video. so no image. we had to play by ear, depending on our instincts and memory to play music. so angie and i were just sitting at the tv playing music and writing notes for everyone.
the first night was an interesting one. after dinner, jac, huda, savie, and many other people were cleaning up the place. well, the kitchen was really bad, with the black footprints around. so had to mop. but no detergent, so we only used water. was mopping the floor and washing the floor mats and cloth used to clean the place up. yeah limited sources. we had to use the soap in the bathroom to wash the stains off the cloth. it did work anyway. then we finally cleaned the place up. after that, we just packed the food properly and all. khym, savie, melissa and jaslyn fell asleep upstairs, while hannah, huda, jac and i decided to cook all the food for breakfast, so that they didnt have to get up at 12am to cook the food. they worked really hard so yeah.
huda, hannah, jac, cj ad i sat outside the chalet bbq-ing all the beef, chicken and satay. it took us about 3 hours and we cleaned up soon after. we took a shower and joined the rest who were watching munich. fell asleep on the floor watching coach carter and yeah they said i snored! must be too tired.
the second day was the best day ever. i was the laziest one who kept getting up, and then going back to sleep, then getting up, and going back to sleep, in the morning! yeah so when i got up for the last time, we watched the part of passion of the christ where jesus was crucified. so then we headed to the arcade. played the games there and played pool. then we bowled and played even more pool. at around 5pm, huda, ena, cj, bet, bonnie, zong and i headed to the swimming pool. ena, cj and i jumped in first. we spent so much time persuading huda to join us. then betina.... but she didnt want to in the end. we went into the jacuzzi which had disgusting water because we found hair in the water. gross. so we headed back. took a shower and had some dinner. it was jaslyn's mother's birthday so her family was there too. i was a pig. again. was sleeping in the room because my arm ached for no reason. the pain was eating into my bones like how it was in pennsylvania, when my arm was frozen. then woke up to play wacko, but we took a photo with jaslyn's mom and all before doing so. haha had water bomb fight and right after that, we found a place near the reception where we sat and just talked. headed back to bathe and watched new york minute.
the 2nd night was really fun. slept in the room with hannah, bonnie, ena, zong and betina. we were chatting and laughing so loudly we were afraid someone might hear us because savie, melissa, khym and jaslyn were already sleeping next door and jac, huda and cj were also sleeping downstairs. but we ended up talking about everything and laughing non-stop. we all fell asleep at around 3.30am. hannah said i was snoring and everyone heard it. ahhh she even recorded it and made me listen to it!!! haha i listened for like a second and just stoppe dthe entire thing. oh man. HAHA!
this morning, i was lazing again. apparently, i was the last person to wake up on both mornings. haiyah i woke up and went back to sleep. i thinhk hannah had to wake me up like 2-3 times. i still went back to sleep. then it was zong, ena and betina who finally woke me up and yeah. fortunately, i only had my towel hung on the railing and yeah. i had time to wash up and pack my towel. so someone came in to check that everyhting was alright and we left. headed to bishan for lunch. then, deborah, hannah, savie and i headed to jac's place. we watched survivor and went mad over aras, who won the million dollars. yeah... deborah left and i fell asleep watching the survivor reunion. when i awoke, savie, hannah and jac were just about to start on 'walk the line'. kinda went back to sleep and woke up again, changed the movie to oliver twist and yeah we stopped watching after 10min. read magazines and borrowed dvds. fell asleep reading the magazines. whoa i seriously lost count of how many times i fell asleep. but yeah..... when i awoke, savie was still sleeping and hannah and jac were just done reading. went home after that.
seriously didnt wanna come home. was having so much fun and all. but not the entire class was there to have fun. probably 1/3 only... we had so much space left at night. the bungalow was big enough for the entire class. but i cant believe i snored. well, i know i do sometimes but i thought i wouldnt be snoring at the chalet because i'm not really like used to living there, even for the first night. but i did, and hannah said everyone was laughing when they heard me snore. because there was this sudden silence except for my snore, so everyone laughed. i didnt hear anything. it was still amusing to hear though.
aqmfs ep 14 was such a disappointment man. was looking so forward to it after i came home, but it was kinda sucky. yasi was so stupid please.... because qingkong was in an accident, and he was on his way to meet xiaobei to tell her how he felt and all, he decided to turn back. she wasnt even seriously injured! and xiao bei said if he didnt turn up in 30 mins, she would leave. she didnt. she waited an hour, just for him. then that stupid fernando was urging erqi to go chase xiaobei back, and he did. he got there before yasi and by the time yasi got there, it was all too late. xiaobei agreed to erqi's proposal. sucky isnt it? argh. but was kinda happy when i watched the preview of episode 15. ahh i cant wait till next monday when whoever uploads the episode onto youtube, it'll be so exciting!!!!! the look on erqi's face was angry when he saw yasi and xiaobei in the phone booth. well, hurray for xiao bei and yasi, but i'll kinda pity erqi.... if you wanna know what happened, this is the link:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=pCyyYhCt_OQ&search=aqmfs%20ep15
cannot wait for episode 15. no. i cant wait for the entire series to be out in sg. it's taking forever. one episode per week is seriously torturous.
maybe it was the show that made me feel so irritated. for some reason, i was getting so annoyed with almost everything. ugh. i hate it.
the chalet was great. it was fun. although it was kind of a failure due to the rather inadequate number of people turning up, i had a great time.
the first day was just the bbq. the charcoal was low quality. haha, poor zong got cheated of her money... so we had to use the electric bbq pit jaslyn brought to cook the satay and the otah. we watched movies the moment we came in. so we pretty much wasted a lot of electricity. i was helping angie set up her xbox. just to play music. the funny thing was, we could neither hear nor see anything even after plugging in the right cables into the right ports. so we called the technician. he couldnt do anything either so we had to find a way out. i used the amplifier instead. well, there was sound, but no video. so no image. we had to play by ear, depending on our instincts and memory to play music. so angie and i were just sitting at the tv playing music and writing notes for everyone.
the first night was an interesting one. after dinner, jac, huda, savie, and many other people were cleaning up the place. well, the kitchen was really bad, with the black footprints around. so had to mop. but no detergent, so we only used water. was mopping the floor and washing the floor mats and cloth used to clean the place up. yeah limited sources. we had to use the soap in the bathroom to wash the stains off the cloth. it did work anyway. then we finally cleaned the place up. after that, we just packed the food properly and all. khym, savie, melissa and jaslyn fell asleep upstairs, while hannah, huda, jac and i decided to cook all the food for breakfast, so that they didnt have to get up at 12am to cook the food. they worked really hard so yeah.
huda, hannah, jac, cj ad i sat outside the chalet bbq-ing all the beef, chicken and satay. it took us about 3 hours and we cleaned up soon after. we took a shower and joined the rest who were watching munich. fell asleep on the floor watching coach carter and yeah they said i snored! must be too tired.
the second day was the best day ever. i was the laziest one who kept getting up, and then going back to sleep, then getting up, and going back to sleep, in the morning! yeah so when i got up for the last time, we watched the part of passion of the christ where jesus was crucified. so then we headed to the arcade. played the games there and played pool. then we bowled and played even more pool. at around 5pm, huda, ena, cj, bet, bonnie, zong and i headed to the swimming pool. ena, cj and i jumped in first. we spent so much time persuading huda to join us. then betina.... but she didnt want to in the end. we went into the jacuzzi which had disgusting water because we found hair in the water. gross. so we headed back. took a shower and had some dinner. it was jaslyn's mother's birthday so her family was there too. i was a pig. again. was sleeping in the room because my arm ached for no reason. the pain was eating into my bones like how it was in pennsylvania, when my arm was frozen. then woke up to play wacko, but we took a photo with jaslyn's mom and all before doing so. haha had water bomb fight and right after that, we found a place near the reception where we sat and just talked. headed back to bathe and watched new york minute.
the 2nd night was really fun. slept in the room with hannah, bonnie, ena, zong and betina. we were chatting and laughing so loudly we were afraid someone might hear us because savie, melissa, khym and jaslyn were already sleeping next door and jac, huda and cj were also sleeping downstairs. but we ended up talking about everything and laughing non-stop. we all fell asleep at around 3.30am. hannah said i was snoring and everyone heard it. ahhh she even recorded it and made me listen to it!!! haha i listened for like a second and just stoppe dthe entire thing. oh man. HAHA!
this morning, i was lazing again. apparently, i was the last person to wake up on both mornings. haiyah i woke up and went back to sleep. i thinhk hannah had to wake me up like 2-3 times. i still went back to sleep. then it was zong, ena and betina who finally woke me up and yeah. fortunately, i only had my towel hung on the railing and yeah. i had time to wash up and pack my towel. so someone came in to check that everyhting was alright and we left. headed to bishan for lunch. then, deborah, hannah, savie and i headed to jac's place. we watched survivor and went mad over aras, who won the million dollars. yeah... deborah left and i fell asleep watching the survivor reunion. when i awoke, savie, hannah and jac were just about to start on 'walk the line'. kinda went back to sleep and woke up again, changed the movie to oliver twist and yeah we stopped watching after 10min. read magazines and borrowed dvds. fell asleep reading the magazines. whoa i seriously lost count of how many times i fell asleep. but yeah..... when i awoke, savie was still sleeping and hannah and jac were just done reading. went home after that.
seriously didnt wanna come home. was having so much fun and all. but not the entire class was there to have fun. probably 1/3 only... we had so much space left at night. the bungalow was big enough for the entire class. but i cant believe i snored. well, i know i do sometimes but i thought i wouldnt be snoring at the chalet because i'm not really like used to living there, even for the first night. but i did, and hannah said everyone was laughing when they heard me snore. because there was this sudden silence except for my snore, so everyone laughed. i didnt hear anything. it was still amusing to hear though.
aqmfs ep 14 was such a disappointment man. was looking so forward to it after i came home, but it was kinda sucky. yasi was so stupid please.... because qingkong was in an accident, and he was on his way to meet xiaobei to tell her how he felt and all, he decided to turn back. she wasnt even seriously injured! and xiao bei said if he didnt turn up in 30 mins, she would leave. she didnt. she waited an hour, just for him. then that stupid fernando was urging erqi to go chase xiaobei back, and he did. he got there before yasi and by the time yasi got there, it was all too late. xiaobei agreed to erqi's proposal. sucky isnt it? argh. but was kinda happy when i watched the preview of episode 15. ahh i cant wait till next monday when whoever uploads the episode onto youtube, it'll be so exciting!!!!! the look on erqi's face was angry when he saw yasi and xiaobei in the phone booth. well, hurray for xiao bei and yasi, but i'll kinda pity erqi.... if you wanna know what happened, this is the link:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=pCyyYhCt_OQ&search=aqmfs%20ep15
cannot wait for episode 15. no. i cant wait for the entire series to be out in sg. it's taking forever. one episode per week is seriously torturous.
maybe it was the show that made me feel so irritated. for some reason, i was getting so annoyed with almost everything. ugh. i hate it.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
[-]
i always want to tell my mum something. something troubling me. but i dare not. i dont know why, but we always seem to argue.
i would only remember one incident that led to the current situation. i don't want to talk about it here, but at that time, i only know my mum refused to give her support in what i was doing. something that was very very important to me. i'm tired of all that arguing for the past few years. it was something that put me down and in a very difficult position. i wouldnt have said this to anyone, i never did, until now. and when i think about it, i just start to cry.
you may think i'm being so weird and all
but what you said, just stopped me in my tracks.
you wouldn't be able to tell how lousy i feel right now
it isn't a gift, but a mere coincidence
or maybe i did so well in hiding it
you would be sick and tired of me
for i've been so irritating
i could tell from your response and your reaction
and i'm not thinking too much
i was experiencing so much in that short period of time. they are always putting me down. i'm feeling extremely weak and helpless. i surpassed the limits of how much capacity i have to bottle things up. suddenly, all that encouragement doesnt seem to help anymore.
i always want to tell my mum something. something troubling me. but i dare not. i dont know why, but we always seem to argue.
i would only remember one incident that led to the current situation. i don't want to talk about it here, but at that time, i only know my mum refused to give her support in what i was doing. something that was very very important to me. i'm tired of all that arguing for the past few years. it was something that put me down and in a very difficult position. i wouldnt have said this to anyone, i never did, until now. and when i think about it, i just start to cry.
you may think i'm being so weird and all
but what you said, just stopped me in my tracks.
you wouldn't be able to tell how lousy i feel right now
it isn't a gift, but a mere coincidence
or maybe i did so well in hiding it
you would be sick and tired of me
for i've been so irritating
i could tell from your response and your reaction
and i'm not thinking too much
i was experiencing so much in that short period of time. they are always putting me down. i'm feeling extremely weak and helpless. i surpassed the limits of how much capacity i have to bottle things up. suddenly, all that encouragement doesnt seem to help anymore.
[water maze.]
here i am at 2.20am.
exams are over. not gonna talk about how they were anymore. they were horrendous.
i have started to interest myself with a new taiwanese drama serial, ai qing mo fa shi.
this is the only image i could find from the search engines. yeah... the taiwanese version of the aqmfs ost. the sg version of the ost isnt this one. will scan it in when i have the time.
anyway, gerri was the one who got me so hooked on the show i could have been suffereing withdrawal symptoms during the exam. i'm on episode 12 once again. it has almost the same storyline as wzbqw, but i would prefer aqmfs. starring mingdao, the whole 183 club except yan xing shu, sweety's zeng zi qiao and the whole 7f without chen qiao en. mingdao is once again playing mr. rich, boss of a hair salon. his character is du ya si, internationally well-known hair stylist. his dream is to fulfil every woman's dream of being beautiful. sounds gay? haha not at all. then here comes zeng zi qiao, as bei nuo yi, aka xiao bei. she starts off having this battle with neo-image (ya si's salon) because their salon was right opposite xiao bei's father's baber shop. after struggling for so long, she lost a bet and had to join neo-image, but ya si's main goal was to nurture her and educate her so that she can one day fulfil her dream of being a top stylist. yeah you should know what happens next. they fall in love then shaowei's character, lin er qi, is like in misery because his soon later girlfriend, xiao bei, is like in love with his best friend, ya si. does it sound familiar to you? yeah... a lot of other stuff happened and yes touching, funny, nice. oh and mingdao cried like... hmmm.. lets see.... at least 4 times? yeah watch it and cry along with him. haha joking... but yeah watch the show. it's really good.
unfortunately, the vcd isnt released till i dont know when. taiwan's still on episode 14, thats this sunday. slow man.... so i guess they have to have like 20 episodes or so in order for them to release the vcd in TAIWAN. then who knows? weeks later, it'll show up in sg. by then, i have to get it!!! haha, i'm watching it on youtube and i seem to enjoy it a lot, except my internet connection got cut off yest due to some technical faults, so i couldnt watch it. ahhhh... so i came home from taking a walk at orchard with gerri and my mum fixed the problem. so i'm so enjoying myself now. it's getting more complicated when ya si's ex girlfriend returns from england after 3 years when she was the one who abandoned him in taiwan to pursue her own selfish dreams without contacting him for 3 years. sheesh... so he like suffered for 3 years until he met xiao bei. YAYNESS! and i love the new 7f song... it reminds me of something though... but nevertheless, it's still ear candy =D
anyway... i promised mag i would blog about her if she did about me. haha we look like idiots blogging for each other and blogging ON each other's blog... btw, it was really mag who did that INVASION OF THE BLOG thing. haha well here i go
mag... lets see, when i first met her, she was probably like all peacock-like, but had a mind of her own, unlike me. back in sec 1, believe me, i didn't have a mind of my own. thats why i'm often taken advantage of. haha lately, gerri just stood up for me and yeah that was really sweet of her... but i feel so weak. ANYWAY, mag was like a smartie pants and she was good at almost everything. we didn't talk alot, but it was probably my fault for being so disconnected. maybe i still am but who cares. so mag and i were in the same class in lower sec. we pretty much had a lot of fun together. haha well, it was probably in the later part of the year or sec 2, when i started to be very good friends with her... she was however not who i thought she was. she wasn't as bad as i thought. okay... she's not peacock-like or anything, but she's positive, having a mind of her own, and having that confidence to keep her going. she knows she's procrastinating at times and yeah although she does stupid things, she's still my friend. after all, both of us like to do weird things. along with the other equalites. she was soon a good friend to me and we always played around like no one's business, oh yeah, not to mention the hand-game both of us were so good at but we hardly play nowadays. she's in 3/3 now... we're in diff classes. haha she never fails to make me notice her BECAUSE she likes to pull my hair, shout 'HI BRIANA!!!' so yeah... she did once, and i could be sure the entire canteen heard her. it was during recess, and you should know how noisy the canteen is during recess. haha... but i always make fun of her, tease her, 'bullying' her and all. haha it amuses her though, so yeah... it can be fun being around with her, and you can sometimes feel a little stressed when she starts talking about academic. haha. and her sister(s) like techno music... haha she doesn't though. it's pretty amazing how she could live with techno music playing in the bg for long hours. if my brother did that for 24 hours, i would blow up. or rather, my ears would blow up. haha. other than that, i like to force her to watch stuff on youtube. no worries, not porn. but videos like final fantasy videos and recently, i sent her a link of the ending of kingdom hearts. haha doubt she watched it but yeah i def made her watch the final fantasy x-2 1000 words vid. haha she had feedback. oh and i influenced her to watch some of the taiwanese drama serials i watch and she loves them too... see the point of using the word 'influence'? haha but its okay... all in all, mag is a wonderful friend and thats why she's a part of the equalites and my good friend.
i've fulfilled my promise =) haha shall go on to episode 12 and maybe 13... cant wait for 14, since it'll probably be on youtube like next monday? and class chalet is this sat. so i probably can come back in time for it. not to forget bleach episode 79 waiting for me in the download folder now... haha yeah. its 2.55am. shall continue with my marathon!! bye!!
here i am at 2.20am.
exams are over. not gonna talk about how they were anymore. they were horrendous.
i have started to interest myself with a new taiwanese drama serial, ai qing mo fa shi.
this is the only image i could find from the search engines. yeah... the taiwanese version of the aqmfs ost. the sg version of the ost isnt this one. will scan it in when i have the time.
anyway, gerri was the one who got me so hooked on the show i could have been suffereing withdrawal symptoms during the exam. i'm on episode 12 once again. it has almost the same storyline as wzbqw, but i would prefer aqmfs. starring mingdao, the whole 183 club except yan xing shu, sweety's zeng zi qiao and the whole 7f without chen qiao en. mingdao is once again playing mr. rich, boss of a hair salon. his character is du ya si, internationally well-known hair stylist. his dream is to fulfil every woman's dream of being beautiful. sounds gay? haha not at all. then here comes zeng zi qiao, as bei nuo yi, aka xiao bei. she starts off having this battle with neo-image (ya si's salon) because their salon was right opposite xiao bei's father's baber shop. after struggling for so long, she lost a bet and had to join neo-image, but ya si's main goal was to nurture her and educate her so that she can one day fulfil her dream of being a top stylist. yeah you should know what happens next. they fall in love then shaowei's character, lin er qi, is like in misery because his soon later girlfriend, xiao bei, is like in love with his best friend, ya si. does it sound familiar to you? yeah... a lot of other stuff happened and yes touching, funny, nice. oh and mingdao cried like... hmmm.. lets see.... at least 4 times? yeah watch it and cry along with him. haha joking... but yeah watch the show. it's really good.
unfortunately, the vcd isnt released till i dont know when. taiwan's still on episode 14, thats this sunday. slow man.... so i guess they have to have like 20 episodes or so in order for them to release the vcd in TAIWAN. then who knows? weeks later, it'll show up in sg. by then, i have to get it!!! haha, i'm watching it on youtube and i seem to enjoy it a lot, except my internet connection got cut off yest due to some technical faults, so i couldnt watch it. ahhhh... so i came home from taking a walk at orchard with gerri and my mum fixed the problem. so i'm so enjoying myself now. it's getting more complicated when ya si's ex girlfriend returns from england after 3 years when she was the one who abandoned him in taiwan to pursue her own selfish dreams without contacting him for 3 years. sheesh... so he like suffered for 3 years until he met xiao bei. YAYNESS! and i love the new 7f song... it reminds me of something though... but nevertheless, it's still ear candy =D
anyway... i promised mag i would blog about her if she did about me. haha we look like idiots blogging for each other and blogging ON each other's blog... btw, it was really mag who did that INVASION OF THE BLOG thing. haha well here i go
mag... lets see, when i first met her, she was probably like all peacock-like, but had a mind of her own, unlike me. back in sec 1, believe me, i didn't have a mind of my own. thats why i'm often taken advantage of. haha lately, gerri just stood up for me and yeah that was really sweet of her... but i feel so weak. ANYWAY, mag was like a smartie pants and she was good at almost everything. we didn't talk alot, but it was probably my fault for being so disconnected. maybe i still am but who cares. so mag and i were in the same class in lower sec. we pretty much had a lot of fun together. haha well, it was probably in the later part of the year or sec 2, when i started to be very good friends with her... she was however not who i thought she was. she wasn't as bad as i thought. okay... she's not peacock-like or anything, but she's positive, having a mind of her own, and having that confidence to keep her going. she knows she's procrastinating at times and yeah although she does stupid things, she's still my friend. after all, both of us like to do weird things. along with the other equalites. she was soon a good friend to me and we always played around like no one's business, oh yeah, not to mention the hand-game both of us were so good at but we hardly play nowadays. she's in 3/3 now... we're in diff classes. haha she never fails to make me notice her BECAUSE she likes to pull my hair, shout 'HI BRIANA!!!' so yeah... she did once, and i could be sure the entire canteen heard her. it was during recess, and you should know how noisy the canteen is during recess. haha... but i always make fun of her, tease her, 'bullying' her and all. haha it amuses her though, so yeah... it can be fun being around with her, and you can sometimes feel a little stressed when she starts talking about academic. haha. and her sister(s) like techno music... haha she doesn't though. it's pretty amazing how she could live with techno music playing in the bg for long hours. if my brother did that for 24 hours, i would blow up. or rather, my ears would blow up. haha. other than that, i like to force her to watch stuff on youtube. no worries, not porn. but videos like final fantasy videos and recently, i sent her a link of the ending of kingdom hearts. haha doubt she watched it but yeah i def made her watch the final fantasy x-2 1000 words vid. haha she had feedback. oh and i influenced her to watch some of the taiwanese drama serials i watch and she loves them too... see the point of using the word 'influence'? haha but its okay... all in all, mag is a wonderful friend and thats why she's a part of the equalites and my good friend.
i've fulfilled my promise =) haha shall go on to episode 12 and maybe 13... cant wait for 14, since it'll probably be on youtube like next monday? and class chalet is this sat. so i probably can come back in time for it. not to forget bleach episode 79 waiting for me in the download folder now... haha yeah. its 2.55am. shall continue with my marathon!! bye!!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
THE INVASION OF THE BLOG
HELLO ALL! I am Briana Ang. Today's post will be more about myself, and how I think of myself from an outsider's point of view. As you are probably wondering, how would I, Briana Ang, know myself from an outsider's point of view. Easy, I got an outsider to do it, namely, me. Are you getting confused? Let me help. So, basically, this post is about me, Briana Ang and it is written by an outsider, me. I bet I made you more confused. No worries however! At the end of this post, you will know absolutely everything and you will leave this blog, with the same amount of knowledge you have now. Of course, it would be wonderful to increase your knowledge but it's not possible and I personally feel that the addition of knowledge should be done by you and yourself only. So yes, back to the main topic.
Briana Ang, how can begin to describe her or more like me? She trusts me alot. I mean, of course I trust myself. Oh goodness. This is such a confusing post. Even I, Briana Ang and the outsider am getting confused. So, I think I should end here.
Based on my style of writing, I'm pretty sure you all know who wrote this. And, it's definitely not me. So, before you leave with the same amount of knowledge as five minutes ago (or was it ten? ), I feel obliged to de-confuse all of you poor readers.
So, before I do that, (you see, I just adore keeping people in suspense) , I wish to express how fortunate I feel to be able to write here. I am sure that you have found this entry highly amusing although its content level is ZERO.
Now, the CLIMAX!
I = Magdalene Lim
GOOD NIGHT!
Give me your password and username too! If you want a post like this, so highly amusing on your blog!
Saturday, May 06, 2006
[randomness]
the emath paper was demoralising. not only did i not finish the last question of the paper, it was tough and i got confused half way through. great!
all that's left is geography, physics, chemistry, chinese paper 2 and amath. ahhh seriously gonna die.
still debating.... this is irritating.
mag, you owe me the credits =)
okay that was random. but oh wells. spent like half an hour fixing mag's tagboard because she has problems choosing the right colour. and spent an hour searching for a blogskin for her since her orange layout was ahem. but yeah she found one in the end. didnt really help but came across a lot of weird layouts. there was one that just had the name magdalene all over and yes it was disgusting.
started on csi season 2 and i'm just waiting for it to be more interesting. well, it's kinda funny since the coroners and chemists like to make a fool of themselves. dancing around, thinking no one comes in and then two forensic scientists come in, giving them that stupid look. haha.
watched ff7ac last night. currently sufferring from withdrawal symptoms. aeris shouldn't have died. then again, she appeared out of nowhere and managed to heal everyone of their geostigma. i just dont know how. sephiroth killed her in ff7 right??? but yes love the graphics and you can cry watching it. haha the fighting scenes were cool, all of them had agility and you could see them evading each other's attack.
ah well, shall stop here. ta.
the emath paper was demoralising. not only did i not finish the last question of the paper, it was tough and i got confused half way through. great!
all that's left is geography, physics, chemistry, chinese paper 2 and amath. ahhh seriously gonna die.
still debating.... this is irritating.
mag, you owe me the credits =)
okay that was random. but oh wells. spent like half an hour fixing mag's tagboard because she has problems choosing the right colour. and spent an hour searching for a blogskin for her since her orange layout was ahem. but yeah she found one in the end. didnt really help but came across a lot of weird layouts. there was one that just had the name magdalene all over and yes it was disgusting.
started on csi season 2 and i'm just waiting for it to be more interesting. well, it's kinda funny since the coroners and chemists like to make a fool of themselves. dancing around, thinking no one comes in and then two forensic scientists come in, giving them that stupid look. haha.
watched ff7ac last night. currently sufferring from withdrawal symptoms. aeris shouldn't have died. then again, she appeared out of nowhere and managed to heal everyone of their geostigma. i just dont know how. sephiroth killed her in ff7 right??? but yes love the graphics and you can cry watching it. haha the fighting scenes were cool, all of them had agility and you could see them evading each other's attack.
ah well, shall stop here. ta.