[because of you]
english exam tomorrow. pray i'll make it.
mrs stephen said some nice stuff at the end of the lesson. said she was leaving ij. all the good teachers leaving. sigh... well it's quite sad to see her leave. she was a really good teacher actually, lthough she'll give us tons of homework and scolds us often.
when i was running to the hall for assembly and back from the hall, i think i pulled my thigh muscle because it hurts when i stand up. my right leg has all sorts of weird problems. i can run up the staircase and sudddenly feel this sharp pain in my knee as though it was dislocated or something. haha ah well, i'll just admit that my bones are super fragile and they can break into a million tiny pieces. ahhh...
i think i'll just fail all my exams. yeah including english. then i'll be retained because i failed all my subjects. wow!
oh and not to forget the mess in the classroom. we will not be able to take the exam if we dont clean it up and i'm pretty sure mrs wong was serious. haha of course she is. ah well, i doubt i'll mae it to school on time to help with the clean up, considering my late wake-ups every morning. haha, i'm not saying i'm not helping.
Monday, September 26, 2005
Saturday, September 24, 2005
[it won't leave me alone]
after over 10 hours of sleep, i'm still feeling very tired.
i'll try not to mind it. i'll try not to listen to it. yeah i shall tell myself again and again if it happens. the best i can do now is to shut up and listen. i'm not gonna care about what they say, do, whatever. just to keep myself away from all that, i'm ont going to do anything. i don't care if they expect something. i'll tell you in advance. forget it =]
after over 10 hours of sleep, i'm still feeling very tired.
i'll try not to mind it. i'll try not to listen to it. yeah i shall tell myself again and again if it happens. the best i can do now is to shut up and listen. i'm not gonna care about what they say, do, whatever. just to keep myself away from all that, i'm ont going to do anything. i don't care if they expect something. i'll tell you in advance. forget it =]
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
[embrace reality]
exams next week. too tired. very tired. my deprival of sleep is just getting worse.
the past 2 days have been hell. either i have been slacking or something. watching tv, no motivation to study. i still have this little motivation in me now, so i'll probably revise maths, science and geog. then compile all the compo notes and stuff. there are so many of them i can hardly keep track of what we've done.
i speaking in chinese... must be the taiwanese drama influence or something. almost whatever i say is coming out in chinese words. gee... is that bad?
haha i started watching taiwanese dramas when i was p4 or 5. it's amazing how it can still keep up till now, considering how fickle i am. but it's not surprising it comes and go whenever it wants to.
my dolphin bay vcd set is ruined. after it's nice travel around my circle of friends. it has finally broke down and died. yeap, jess said when she tried watching the vcd, it just died. cant function, which is obvious bad news. gah.... that's kinda sad you know... it came out of my ang pao money. so be guilty... those who borowed... haha kidding... i'll probably save up and buy another one to replace the old one... but that will be after buying the other taiwanese dramas i want. haha. who knows if i'll even replace it. i think at the rate of buying and watching, buying and watcing. and even loaning it to other people. i may even consider opening my own taiwanese drama rental and purchase store, at home. yeah... quite sad huh? haha
ah well, shall go study now. good luck for the exams. i dont know when will be the next time i'll blog again, maybe tomorrow. haha... or maybe not. i'll try not to even touch the computer. tata. good luck for the exams!
exams next week. too tired. very tired. my deprival of sleep is just getting worse.
the past 2 days have been hell. either i have been slacking or something. watching tv, no motivation to study. i still have this little motivation in me now, so i'll probably revise maths, science and geog. then compile all the compo notes and stuff. there are so many of them i can hardly keep track of what we've done.
i speaking in chinese... must be the taiwanese drama influence or something. almost whatever i say is coming out in chinese words. gee... is that bad?
haha i started watching taiwanese dramas when i was p4 or 5. it's amazing how it can still keep up till now, considering how fickle i am. but it's not surprising it comes and go whenever it wants to.
my dolphin bay vcd set is ruined. after it's nice travel around my circle of friends. it has finally broke down and died. yeap, jess said when she tried watching the vcd, it just died. cant function, which is obvious bad news. gah.... that's kinda sad you know... it came out of my ang pao money. so be guilty... those who borowed... haha kidding... i'll probably save up and buy another one to replace the old one... but that will be after buying the other taiwanese dramas i want. haha. who knows if i'll even replace it. i think at the rate of buying and watching, buying and watcing. and even loaning it to other people. i may even consider opening my own taiwanese drama rental and purchase store, at home. yeah... quite sad huh? haha
ah well, shall go study now. good luck for the exams. i dont know when will be the next time i'll blog again, maybe tomorrow. haha... or maybe not. i'll try not to even touch the computer. tata. good luck for the exams!
Saturday, September 17, 2005
[paper]
today seemed short, so did our fun.
watched red shoes to celebrate the closure of njrc. i can tell you it's freaky... i never watched a horror movie at the cinema... i'm already freaking out at home, let only the cinema right. was sitting next to mr tan and geraldine. mr tan seemed really calm and was laughing at stef quek. i was clinging onto geraldine.... tugging on her jacket. fortunately, her jacket was big enough to hide two heads. then halfway through the movie, geraldine touched stef's head, which kinda gave her a scare, but didnt make her scream. stef was sitting directly in front of geraldine. carmen said stef managed to prolong her scream which was really funny and val and julienne were freaking out as usual... haha. lunch was kinda cool, when savina, matilda and i finished the entire container of cheese. matilda was licking the cheese off the spoon which was kinda disgusting... haha. many thanks to stef for suggesting red shoes, and all of us had to watch it...... i wanted very much to watch the sound of thunder though... but red shoes was kinda okay i guess... the story was a little freaky, like how the wife stuck the heel of the stiletto into the husband's and boyfriend's eye. it really... disgusting...
still had fun... we then went to the lego shop at taka. there were those fake swords and masks and savina looked funny wearing the masks. val and i were like deprived children playing with the large lego pieces which was meant for the little kids to play. went to kino after lego. matilda and i were browsing through the japanese dictionaries since she needed one. other than the fascinating dictionaries, there were many jap books on jap festivals and speeches which were just as interesting... probably much more interesting than our textbooks. japan seems to have a festival every single day. there isnt today, but there was yest and there will be tomorrow. the japanese dictionaries had really cool definitions (hmmm?) and there were cds included. they are better than english dictionaries because they seem more interesting, despite the fact that it was a dictionary.
i shall do an essay tonight... tata for now.
today seemed short, so did our fun.
watched red shoes to celebrate the closure of njrc. i can tell you it's freaky... i never watched a horror movie at the cinema... i'm already freaking out at home, let only the cinema right. was sitting next to mr tan and geraldine. mr tan seemed really calm and was laughing at stef quek. i was clinging onto geraldine.... tugging on her jacket. fortunately, her jacket was big enough to hide two heads. then halfway through the movie, geraldine touched stef's head, which kinda gave her a scare, but didnt make her scream. stef was sitting directly in front of geraldine. carmen said stef managed to prolong her scream which was really funny and val and julienne were freaking out as usual... haha. lunch was kinda cool, when savina, matilda and i finished the entire container of cheese. matilda was licking the cheese off the spoon which was kinda disgusting... haha. many thanks to stef for suggesting red shoes, and all of us had to watch it...... i wanted very much to watch the sound of thunder though... but red shoes was kinda okay i guess... the story was a little freaky, like how the wife stuck the heel of the stiletto into the husband's and boyfriend's eye. it really... disgusting...
still had fun... we then went to the lego shop at taka. there were those fake swords and masks and savina looked funny wearing the masks. val and i were like deprived children playing with the large lego pieces which was meant for the little kids to play. went to kino after lego. matilda and i were browsing through the japanese dictionaries since she needed one. other than the fascinating dictionaries, there were many jap books on jap festivals and speeches which were just as interesting... probably much more interesting than our textbooks. japan seems to have a festival every single day. there isnt today, but there was yest and there will be tomorrow. the japanese dictionaries had really cool definitions (hmmm?) and there were cds included. they are better than english dictionaries because they seem more interesting, despite the fact that it was a dictionary.
i shall do an essay tonight... tata for now.
Friday, September 16, 2005
[wed-fri, 7.30pm, channel u]
last day of the week. this week felt like a thousand years. i'm finally getting my long waited sleep. or maybe not. i'll be returning to school tomorrow morning at 8am to finish my video project. it's kinda boring, up till the toilet part and the mask. i'm just gonna include the embarrassing bloopers, i'm not in it, thankfully. since ms koh was really nice to extend the dateline until monday, i shall make full use of the 3 and a half hours tomorrow to finish the video and export it, but i doubt it can export in time. it's still rendering in school, at this very moment. i'm just compiling all the music files i have in my computer, so that i will have a wider range of music to choose from instead of searching for it on the internet when i get to school tomorrow. this will be the last project before i begin my mugging for the finals. i dont feel motivated though... now i dont. but i sort of did a little earlier today. i'm gonna force myself to do two essays this weekend. or maybe more. i'm just really tired now. very very tired. i still have to go to jessica's house to deliver the dolphin bay vcd to her... forgot how to get there. back home again and going to somerset.
that show, "prince who turns into a frog" is on channel u, every wed-fri, at 7.30pm. haha it has a weird storyline. another taiwanese drama serial. haha, i still enjoy it. taiwanese dramas are very stereotypical. there is always someone who dies of leukemia or loses his or her memory. well this story is about this guy who loses his memory after a car accident on his way to his engagement, then a girl takes him home to prevent the police from finding her. well that means she knocked him down right? haha i dont know, the synopsis claims she did. haha i dont know what happens. havent watched it yet. only watched the first two episodes (yest and today) but it's quite funny and i think this show is not bad. i want to buy the vcd. but only volume 1 is available.. so i shall be patient and wait for the entire set to be sold. at the same time, i shall start saving for it. hehe. it's probably as good as 100% senorita. well, watch it if you want. :)
for now, i shall pack up my room, because it is in this big mess and i'll just die if it gets worse. ah well, good bye. good night. it's a full moon tonight.. anyone noticed? haha it's okay.
last day of the week. this week felt like a thousand years. i'm finally getting my long waited sleep. or maybe not. i'll be returning to school tomorrow morning at 8am to finish my video project. it's kinda boring, up till the toilet part and the mask. i'm just gonna include the embarrassing bloopers, i'm not in it, thankfully. since ms koh was really nice to extend the dateline until monday, i shall make full use of the 3 and a half hours tomorrow to finish the video and export it, but i doubt it can export in time. it's still rendering in school, at this very moment. i'm just compiling all the music files i have in my computer, so that i will have a wider range of music to choose from instead of searching for it on the internet when i get to school tomorrow. this will be the last project before i begin my mugging for the finals. i dont feel motivated though... now i dont. but i sort of did a little earlier today. i'm gonna force myself to do two essays this weekend. or maybe more. i'm just really tired now. very very tired. i still have to go to jessica's house to deliver the dolphin bay vcd to her... forgot how to get there. back home again and going to somerset.
that show, "prince who turns into a frog" is on channel u, every wed-fri, at 7.30pm. haha it has a weird storyline. another taiwanese drama serial. haha, i still enjoy it. taiwanese dramas are very stereotypical. there is always someone who dies of leukemia or loses his or her memory. well this story is about this guy who loses his memory after a car accident on his way to his engagement, then a girl takes him home to prevent the police from finding her. well that means she knocked him down right? haha i dont know, the synopsis claims she did. haha i dont know what happens. havent watched it yet. only watched the first two episodes (yest and today) but it's quite funny and i think this show is not bad. i want to buy the vcd. but only volume 1 is available.. so i shall be patient and wait for the entire set to be sold. at the same time, i shall start saving for it. hehe. it's probably as good as 100% senorita. well, watch it if you want. :)
for now, i shall pack up my room, because it is in this big mess and i'll just die if it gets worse. ah well, good bye. good night. it's a full moon tonight.. anyone noticed? haha it's okay.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
[the giant plug >> savina]
okay finishing science project now... sigh... very sick of doing presentations till late at night. do you know how much i want to sleep? i dont like sleeping in class, i really dont... i miss out on so much and right till the end, i dont know anything. i pretty much fail everything right? i dont enjoy it... really.. i dont. who would want to anyway... i'm completely destroying myself with all these. i dont like staying up late at night, finishing what's undone. i dont enjoy it, not at all. i really need to sleep. i need it and i want it. i get scolded for looking tired all the time... but i cant help it, i just cant. if they were never concerned, then fine, i'm on my own now.
i... really... need... sleep...
and it isnt funny.
i'll probably sleep at 3am tonight. but who cares?! i dont think anyone would care even if i fail my exams due to my lack of sleep and thus, resulting in my slumber in class. it's only the third day of school. really... and i really need to sleep. i dont care, i want to sleep. but just because i'm trying to save some people's skin that i give up the a basic necessity, that is sleep, other than food. i need sleep too you know? i feel tired 95% of my time. i just envy those who can sleep all they want, but i cant! it's not that i want to do this to myself, but i dont have a choice!
you know what? forget it, i doubt they're even thankful for it right?
okay finishing science project now... sigh... very sick of doing presentations till late at night. do you know how much i want to sleep? i dont like sleeping in class, i really dont... i miss out on so much and right till the end, i dont know anything. i pretty much fail everything right? i dont enjoy it... really.. i dont. who would want to anyway... i'm completely destroying myself with all these. i dont like staying up late at night, finishing what's undone. i dont enjoy it, not at all. i really need to sleep. i need it and i want it. i get scolded for looking tired all the time... but i cant help it, i just cant. if they were never concerned, then fine, i'm on my own now.
i... really... need... sleep...
and it isnt funny.
i'll probably sleep at 3am tonight. but who cares?! i dont think anyone would care even if i fail my exams due to my lack of sleep and thus, resulting in my slumber in class. it's only the third day of school. really... and i really need to sleep. i dont care, i want to sleep. but just because i'm trying to save some people's skin that i give up the a basic necessity, that is sleep, other than food. i need sleep too you know? i feel tired 95% of my time. i just envy those who can sleep all they want, but i cant! it's not that i want to do this to myself, but i dont have a choice!
you know what? forget it, i doubt they're even thankful for it right?
Monday, September 12, 2005
[precious memories]
it's finally over. yea. njrc, over. thats 2nd year, gone. shocked to learn that my team won an award. hmm we screwed up... yeah, sorry to say it, but i think we actually did. maybe it's thanks to julienne's embarrassing moments when she tripped that totally amused the judges.
we're probably waiting another ???? months for the next one. and as far as i know, i have to really give it my all for the next one. we'll make better choices next year? i think we're gonna be losing a big part of us. sigh.
well, although it seemed like everything's over, last year's experience seems so close. somehow difficult to let go yeah? but i'm still glad we clinched quite a number this year. it's pretty cool though. the awards that we won... best programming, best journal, best presentation, best learning experience, and best booth. i'm proud of ij. =]
round 1 was a lucky one. if that guy's rcx didnt malfunction, he probably beat me flat. well, lost at round two. it's okay, learn from it then.
i dread school. hmm couldnt finish my homework. that was expected i guess, considering the fact that i'm really slow and stuff.. dont even know why i'm in 2/3... i don't belong there.
lit drama thing tomorrow. everything was done today. probably because we forgot about it and we have been doing things like that for two years yeah? maybe thi time, we'll be 2nd last.
it was amazing how i could stay awake today, when i went to bed at 3am. well, that doesnt matter, was almost late for school. made it in time... that was lucky. and i sort of forgot it was the first day today.
i still wanna go on about njrc... haha for some reason, i have nothing to say... except weebot was really adorable. haha.. although it looked inda weird, it was still adorable. the cactus looked constrained but it was also adorable. haha. the thought of it tickles me. and val and irvin's conversation was hilarious. haha well i still laugh at it until now. i can still picture him saying that. haha, ah well. njrc was really enriching... really... gained lots of experience and learnt a lot. well, all the best for njrc 2006!
ah well, now i have a science project and video in my hands. they're really heavy. and if i dont finish it tonight, i'm gonna faint tomorrow. i'm really tired... today. i slept for 14-15 hours on saturday night, but it does not make up for the amount of sleep i have lost so far. exams are closing in and i'm already on the verge of dying due to lack of sleep. i'm not that hyper, as you can tell. okay.. i have a compre, maths hw, chinese... hmm...
i think i'll try not to make it obvious... not at all. i think trying harder will work even better, really... if i can stop looking so dejected most of the time. good night.
wish me god luck!
briana: briana, good luck!
=]
it's finally over. yea. njrc, over. thats 2nd year, gone. shocked to learn that my team won an award. hmm we screwed up... yeah, sorry to say it, but i think we actually did. maybe it's thanks to julienne's embarrassing moments when she tripped that totally amused the judges.
we're probably waiting another ???? months for the next one. and as far as i know, i have to really give it my all for the next one. we'll make better choices next year? i think we're gonna be losing a big part of us. sigh.
well, although it seemed like everything's over, last year's experience seems so close. somehow difficult to let go yeah? but i'm still glad we clinched quite a number this year. it's pretty cool though. the awards that we won... best programming, best journal, best presentation, best learning experience, and best booth. i'm proud of ij. =]
round 1 was a lucky one. if that guy's rcx didnt malfunction, he probably beat me flat. well, lost at round two. it's okay, learn from it then.
i dread school. hmm couldnt finish my homework. that was expected i guess, considering the fact that i'm really slow and stuff.. dont even know why i'm in 2/3... i don't belong there.
lit drama thing tomorrow. everything was done today. probably because we forgot about it and we have been doing things like that for two years yeah? maybe thi time, we'll be 2nd last.
it was amazing how i could stay awake today, when i went to bed at 3am. well, that doesnt matter, was almost late for school. made it in time... that was lucky. and i sort of forgot it was the first day today.
i still wanna go on about njrc... haha for some reason, i have nothing to say... except weebot was really adorable. haha.. although it looked inda weird, it was still adorable. the cactus looked constrained but it was also adorable. haha. the thought of it tickles me. and val and irvin's conversation was hilarious. haha well i still laugh at it until now. i can still picture him saying that. haha, ah well. njrc was really enriching... really... gained lots of experience and learnt a lot. well, all the best for njrc 2006!
ah well, now i have a science project and video in my hands. they're really heavy. and if i dont finish it tonight, i'm gonna faint tomorrow. i'm really tired... today. i slept for 14-15 hours on saturday night, but it does not make up for the amount of sleep i have lost so far. exams are closing in and i'm already on the verge of dying due to lack of sleep. i'm not that hyper, as you can tell. okay.. i have a compre, maths hw, chinese... hmm...
i think i'll try not to make it obvious... not at all. i think trying harder will work even better, really... if i can stop looking so dejected most of the time. good night.
wish me god luck!
briana: briana, good luck!
=]
Thursday, September 08, 2005
[all that i've got]
i hate my existence. yeah i just do.
i just suck at everything. i'll probably fail my streaming year for all i care.
oh great, now this blog is for me to vent my frustrations on? argh.
its tomorrow. time to look back. sad though. but thats that.
havent slep for a night, and although i'm very sleepy and tired, and really hope i am sleeping on the bed right now, i cant seem to sleep. some kind of mentality. it's almost sunrise and i'll be gone from here until i dont know when either. havent started on my homework... okay... fine i did like one maths paper earlier. earlier like 5am. but it's horrible. my handwriting was all weird and all over the place. not the sleepy one, but the kind i use when i scribble or doodle. so i may not even understand what the heck i'm writing like ten years later or something.
gonna go off ina very short while. still have other stuff to do. after the holidays, there come the exams, i think it's really... erm... very tough to catch up now right? well shall still try. i'm gonna bring my homework with me now. i cant find my panadol. gah... and i need it, because i'm having this terrible headache now.
gah. okay gtg, bye, enjoy yourself. =]
All That I've Got - The Used
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
i hate my existence. yeah i just do.
i just suck at everything. i'll probably fail my streaming year for all i care.
oh great, now this blog is for me to vent my frustrations on? argh.
its tomorrow. time to look back. sad though. but thats that.
havent slep for a night, and although i'm very sleepy and tired, and really hope i am sleeping on the bed right now, i cant seem to sleep. some kind of mentality. it's almost sunrise and i'll be gone from here until i dont know when either. havent started on my homework... okay... fine i did like one maths paper earlier. earlier like 5am. but it's horrible. my handwriting was all weird and all over the place. not the sleepy one, but the kind i use when i scribble or doodle. so i may not even understand what the heck i'm writing like ten years later or something.
gonna go off ina very short while. still have other stuff to do. after the holidays, there come the exams, i think it's really... erm... very tough to catch up now right? well shall still try. i'm gonna bring my homework with me now. i cant find my panadol. gah... and i need it, because i'm having this terrible headache now.
gah. okay gtg, bye, enjoy yourself. =]
All That I've Got - The Used
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
Monday, September 05, 2005
[goodbye]
i'm gonna be away from here for quite a while. don't miss me =]
joking
anyway, i think if they let me into the truth like much earlier, then it wouldnt be so ugly now. then i could get over it or something sooner. it really does hurt now. ouch.
i hate my existence. because it has caused much pain and misery to people i don't even know. maybe they knew of my existence like how i knew of theirs, but maybe they never knew my name. i don't, though...
i didn't want to know the truth, at all. and seriously speaking, it was unnecessary. it was really uneccesary, and i'll feel much better never knowing it. i'm the last to know, right? well, that doesnt matter. as long as i don't know about anything that happened like 15 years ago or something.
i'm wishing for a brainwashing machine for christmas of something. haha, look at how cowardly i am now. running away not wanting to face it. haha, HAHA, go ahead and laugh, because i'll not hear it.
i'll keep it all in here, all of it.
i'm gonna be away from here for quite a while. don't miss me =]
joking
anyway, i think if they let me into the truth like much earlier, then it wouldnt be so ugly now. then i could get over it or something sooner. it really does hurt now. ouch.
i hate my existence. because it has caused much pain and misery to people i don't even know. maybe they knew of my existence like how i knew of theirs, but maybe they never knew my name. i don't, though...
i didn't want to know the truth, at all. and seriously speaking, it was unnecessary. it was really uneccesary, and i'll feel much better never knowing it. i'm the last to know, right? well, that doesnt matter. as long as i don't know about anything that happened like 15 years ago or something.
i'm wishing for a brainwashing machine for christmas of something. haha, look at how cowardly i am now. running away not wanting to face it. haha, HAHA, go ahead and laugh, because i'll not hear it.
i'll keep it all in here, all of it.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
[hypocrite]
i don't know whether people ever thought before speaking. or maybe taking advantage of their weaknesses seemed like an oh-so-great thing, whether they felt great after doing so. that why some people are at a loss after realising they shouldnt have done so right froim the beginning. then again, maybe it didn't seem too bad, or at least thats what they thought. doubt so... you'll know when its your turn.
i was wondering if i ever did the right thing. okay, even if i DID think it was right, did it ever made sense to me? it was never right, right? it was very wrong. okay, so i'm really negative about everything, although i try my best not to. it doesnt really work, does it? or maybe it can't be seen at all, no matter how hard you try. yeah sure, but... did it ever crossed my mind? like whether it really went too wrong for it to even pick up again.
see, get what i mean? i may not even understand what this means in future, or maybe i will. did it make any sense? was it worth it? is it worth trusting? i don't know, the situation flips like nothing. it keeps flipping, and i keep trying to adapt. when i finally adapted to it, it flips again. i can never catch up, can i?
it's hard, to talk. i dont know if i ever tried. or maybe when i've decided to, it's too late, right? yeah, it's teenage angst. i want to get over it. i don't think what they said really made sense. it did at first, but later, it didn't. because are they ever gonna put it into actions? or are they just empty vessels? i wonder if the problem lies with me. if it does, please tell me.
you probably didn't understand a word i've said so far, right? but the thing is, i can't tolerate all this thrash about everything. everything does suck, when actually i've tried looking at life in a much more cheerier way. i did try. but i've bottled up inside for too long. i don't know how to tell someone, i don't know if i could really rely on someone. i don't want what i said to hurt anyone, in any way. they don't take it seriously, do they? they probably think it's just another form of entertainment, then kick it aside once they're bored. well, did they ever think? or they did, but don't care at all.
i know when i leave this phase of life, i'll mis it, because it will be a mark in life, reminding me of all the happy and sad stuff. the rotten feelings and the pressure that has been stuck in my throat all this while.
you know what? forget it, i don't think people actually understood, and you know what? i'm too tired to care about it anymore. I GIVE UP!
i don't know whether people ever thought before speaking. or maybe taking advantage of their weaknesses seemed like an oh-so-great thing, whether they felt great after doing so. that why some people are at a loss after realising they shouldnt have done so right froim the beginning. then again, maybe it didn't seem too bad, or at least thats what they thought. doubt so... you'll know when its your turn.
i was wondering if i ever did the right thing. okay, even if i DID think it was right, did it ever made sense to me? it was never right, right? it was very wrong. okay, so i'm really negative about everything, although i try my best not to. it doesnt really work, does it? or maybe it can't be seen at all, no matter how hard you try. yeah sure, but... did it ever crossed my mind? like whether it really went too wrong for it to even pick up again.
see, get what i mean? i may not even understand what this means in future, or maybe i will. did it make any sense? was it worth it? is it worth trusting? i don't know, the situation flips like nothing. it keeps flipping, and i keep trying to adapt. when i finally adapted to it, it flips again. i can never catch up, can i?
it's hard, to talk. i dont know if i ever tried. or maybe when i've decided to, it's too late, right? yeah, it's teenage angst. i want to get over it. i don't think what they said really made sense. it did at first, but later, it didn't. because are they ever gonna put it into actions? or are they just empty vessels? i wonder if the problem lies with me. if it does, please tell me.
you probably didn't understand a word i've said so far, right? but the thing is, i can't tolerate all this thrash about everything. everything does suck, when actually i've tried looking at life in a much more cheerier way. i did try. but i've bottled up inside for too long. i don't know how to tell someone, i don't know if i could really rely on someone. i don't want what i said to hurt anyone, in any way. they don't take it seriously, do they? they probably think it's just another form of entertainment, then kick it aside once they're bored. well, did they ever think? or they did, but don't care at all.
i know when i leave this phase of life, i'll mis it, because it will be a mark in life, reminding me of all the happy and sad stuff. the rotten feelings and the pressure that has been stuck in my throat all this while.
you know what? forget it, i don't think people actually understood, and you know what? i'm too tired to care about it anymore. I GIVE UP!
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
[sigh]
im sorry. i know i cant sayanything now. sorry wouldnt help, at all. i know. but i still want to say that i'm sorry.
i dont know what say now.the more i think about it, the fear of losing something is growing, constantly growing. i want to tell you, but how to? nono, i'm too afraid to.
i'm afraid of you.
Fall To Pieces - Avril Lavigne
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
im sorry. i know i cant sayanything now. sorry wouldnt help, at all. i know. but i still want to say that i'm sorry.
i dont know what say now.the more i think about it, the fear of losing something is growing, constantly growing. i want to tell you, but how to? nono, i'm too afraid to.
i'm afraid of you.
Fall To Pieces - Avril Lavigne
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
[magdalene lim]
mag was super hyper when we were playing air hockey at cine earlier... we (stef, mag, melissa, matilda, liz, donna and i) watched bewitched instead of charlie and the chocolate factory, because charlie was sold out... it was a good movie.. super funny.. i was practically roaring with laughter when jack wyatt was speaking gibberish... it was simply amusing... the movie was pretty cool. but i still wanna watch charlie.
i lost my phone after the movie... went back to look for it, and i would have considered myself lucky... found it under the seat... must have dropped out of my pocket...
we went to the arcade after that... melissa were playing the daytona racers.. and i almost beat her... we were like colliding with each other at the last leg of the race... and we complete the race stuck together... then played house of the dead 2 with her... she was screaming away.. and i couldnt shoot properly.. game over in the first chapter... then played air hockey with them.. mag started to get really excited and kept screaming and laughing.. she definitely tickled all of us...
i think i had enough fun today... and should start on my homework... 5 critical analysis, 1 essay outline and maths... not so bad... so shall start now...
mag told me she hated me in sec 1... haha, i was really notorious in primary school... believe me... and erm dont dao them... yea... hmmm.. am not gonna put the whole story here, since my blog is already so boring it will put you to sleep. never mind... liz thought i was terrible too... so haha nothing to say.
mag was super hyper when we were playing air hockey at cine earlier... we (stef, mag, melissa, matilda, liz, donna and i) watched bewitched instead of charlie and the chocolate factory, because charlie was sold out... it was a good movie.. super funny.. i was practically roaring with laughter when jack wyatt was speaking gibberish... it was simply amusing... the movie was pretty cool. but i still wanna watch charlie.
i lost my phone after the movie... went back to look for it, and i would have considered myself lucky... found it under the seat... must have dropped out of my pocket...
we went to the arcade after that... melissa were playing the daytona racers.. and i almost beat her... we were like colliding with each other at the last leg of the race... and we complete the race stuck together... then played house of the dead 2 with her... she was screaming away.. and i couldnt shoot properly.. game over in the first chapter... then played air hockey with them.. mag started to get really excited and kept screaming and laughing.. she definitely tickled all of us...
i think i had enough fun today... and should start on my homework... 5 critical analysis, 1 essay outline and maths... not so bad... so shall start now...
mag told me she hated me in sec 1... haha, i was really notorious in primary school... believe me... and erm dont dao them... yea... hmmm.. am not gonna put the whole story here, since my blog is already so boring it will put you to sleep. never mind... liz thought i was terrible too... so haha nothing to say.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
[fireworks]
the countdown last night was great! the fireworks lasted 15 mins... got home at 2am and went to bed at 3am.
i have "forgotten" about this blog ever since i created the 6 ixora blog.. haha. i'm sorry blog. the response is wow... everyone is posting and tagging so quickly it will be difficult to catch up if you didnt go there every day.
national day today... i'm not gonna miss the ndp again... after missing it 3 years in a row...and i rented legally blonde yesterday. watched it earlier and its pretty weird and funny. i only watched the ending last year so i dont know anything about it. but now i do... its a good movie, except for the pink and furry stuff... gross...
besides being deprived of food... because i didnt eat today and last night, i'm pretty slacked now... and having another headache... another annoying headache. i dont like panadol. i think i had one few years back, and i didnt like it. well after all, i'm not suppose to like it.
celine is telling me about harry potter and the goblet of fire being pg-13... okay.....
shall start work... soon... after i return the vcd i rented... okay... shall stop here, since i realised i suddenly have nothing to blog... hmmmm weird...
the countdown last night was great! the fireworks lasted 15 mins... got home at 2am and went to bed at 3am.
i have "forgotten" about this blog ever since i created the 6 ixora blog.. haha. i'm sorry blog. the response is wow... everyone is posting and tagging so quickly it will be difficult to catch up if you didnt go there every day.
national day today... i'm not gonna miss the ndp again... after missing it 3 years in a row...and i rented legally blonde yesterday. watched it earlier and its pretty weird and funny. i only watched the ending last year so i dont know anything about it. but now i do... its a good movie, except for the pink and furry stuff... gross...
besides being deprived of food... because i didnt eat today and last night, i'm pretty slacked now... and having another headache... another annoying headache. i dont like panadol. i think i had one few years back, and i didnt like it. well after all, i'm not suppose to like it.
celine is telling me about harry potter and the goblet of fire being pg-13... okay.....
shall start work... soon... after i return the vcd i rented... okay... shall stop here, since i realised i suddenly have nothing to blog... hmmmm weird...
Saturday, August 06, 2005
[utopia]
came back home 20 minutes ago. had fun but really tired now...
haha teachers can actually be quite interesting when they arent teaching... i thinki its such an enjoyment listening to them joke among themselves. i laugh non-stop when i'm really nervous or afraid of something.... its true, so darn true...
mr ng and ms yap were really funny... i think i could laugh till i drop dead. delle was so calm while i was like an idiot laughing.... silently... haha.
honours day was really fun. i'm trying to get over the embarrassment when carmen pulled my belt and it broke in front of so many people... its really disturbing.... i'm pretty okay now... its just that it is really embarrasing to have your belt pulled out LIKE THAT. clare finally knows how to tie a tie... haha and shes not too bad... so i can retire from the job of doing the tie for her... haha. jessica's mother was there too, and she still remembers the rabbit sweet thing last year... haha... clare and danielle were really weird and for clare, who gets excited easily... i think it was a better idea if i didnt tell her, haha.
my mum made me eat that guilinggao when i got home... it's really bitter without the syrup but i think its still pretty okay. i hated it when i first tasted it. they were giving that away like a few years ago, when my mum brough my brother and i to that navy exhibition. i had to admit the exhibition was super cool, and i got to shoot, with a gun! i think it was shot gun, but there werent bullets, only pellets. haha. they were like exhibits of tanks and a helicopter. i dont remmber every detail so vividly, but i kinda remember what roughly happened. i'm eating it now... and i'm trying to eat it with more syrup, so that i dont get that bitter taste.
6 ixora 2003 blog is finally up. really happy... i created it last night, or rather the night before. its a real plain layout, but it's simple and nice. orange background and a black marble.
i think i better go sleep now... cip tomorrow and i think i should go sleep before i'm really down with a fever... having a bad flu now... constantly sneezing and coughing today. with headaches too... i'm really fatigued now... just too tired.... if i have the time tomorrow, i'm gonna have a good breakfast at macs before i leave for cip. but i doubt i'll have that kind of time. ah well... good night and bye!
came back home 20 minutes ago. had fun but really tired now...
haha teachers can actually be quite interesting when they arent teaching... i thinki its such an enjoyment listening to them joke among themselves. i laugh non-stop when i'm really nervous or afraid of something.... its true, so darn true...
mr ng and ms yap were really funny... i think i could laugh till i drop dead. delle was so calm while i was like an idiot laughing.... silently... haha.
honours day was really fun. i'm trying to get over the embarrassment when carmen pulled my belt and it broke in front of so many people... its really disturbing.... i'm pretty okay now... its just that it is really embarrasing to have your belt pulled out LIKE THAT. clare finally knows how to tie a tie... haha and shes not too bad... so i can retire from the job of doing the tie for her... haha. jessica's mother was there too, and she still remembers the rabbit sweet thing last year... haha... clare and danielle were really weird and for clare, who gets excited easily... i think it was a better idea if i didnt tell her, haha.
my mum made me eat that guilinggao when i got home... it's really bitter without the syrup but i think its still pretty okay. i hated it when i first tasted it. they were giving that away like a few years ago, when my mum brough my brother and i to that navy exhibition. i had to admit the exhibition was super cool, and i got to shoot, with a gun! i think it was shot gun, but there werent bullets, only pellets. haha. they were like exhibits of tanks and a helicopter. i dont remmber every detail so vividly, but i kinda remember what roughly happened. i'm eating it now... and i'm trying to eat it with more syrup, so that i dont get that bitter taste.
6 ixora 2003 blog is finally up. really happy... i created it last night, or rather the night before. its a real plain layout, but it's simple and nice. orange background and a black marble.
i think i better go sleep now... cip tomorrow and i think i should go sleep before i'm really down with a fever... having a bad flu now... constantly sneezing and coughing today. with headaches too... i'm really fatigued now... just too tired.... if i have the time tomorrow, i'm gonna have a good breakfast at macs before i leave for cip. but i doubt i'll have that kind of time. ah well... good night and bye!
Thursday, August 04, 2005
[the sky]
bad things happened... i shant say anything, but it is really bad. i suddenly wanted to cry. i had this very depressing thing inside me. although it is slowly starting to fade away now, i'm still worried...
i'm suddenly "obsessed" with guang liang and pin guan's songs... not obsessed, but just like a lot. they have good vocals and although their songs are like i dont know how long ago, they still sound pretty good. too bad they split up... although they look like homosexuals (actually not), they sounded great together... so its too bad they splited up 5 years ago... maybe there'll be a chance they'll reconcile and start singing together, again. well i hope they do... but they still sound as good een after they splitted up. 5 years ago... my chinese sucked, so i was reading the chinese newspaper, and i think i misread it, because i thought one of them died, so end of the two. haha okay, that was really stupid....
it was a real funny day today. mrs stephen was going through all the silly grammar mistakes we made in our essay and it was simply amusing. i think the whole class had loads of fun even when mrs stephen was lecturing us for our horrible writing and terrible grammar. then after school, when sharlene told mrs wong about her basketball being confiscated by ms teo because a 2/9er threw the ball down the building and almost hit the security guard, and her stolen money. sigh... thieves of st. gabs, stop stealing! so mrs wong was taklign about how she kept her money... (haha mrs wong, now we know where you keep some of your money) there were only a bunch of us there, some waiting for chen lao shi to come in for the oral, while the rest were waiting for sharlene. mrs wong was going on about spoilt children these days, and we pretty much enjoyed it, and laughing at her really cute jokes and comments. she was talkig and laughing with us for half an hour. haha. i think its a really nice day.
speaking of oral, i think i'm just gonna flunk it..... it was rather difficult and although i did prepare for it, i think i'm just gonna die. the tension was getting the best of me and i screwed up.
as you have noticed, i changed the tagboard... because tagboard.com keeps malfunctioning. i changed it and i miss my previous tag board... it seems to be working now... it probably doesnt like me.... haha
did i mention my mum eing in a bad mood nowadays? okay... so she is... blasting at my brother and i once in a while. shes still nicer to my brother, but that doesnt mean anything to me, so i try not to pay any attention to it neither do i do anything when she screams.
bad things happened... i shant say anything, but it is really bad. i suddenly wanted to cry. i had this very depressing thing inside me. although it is slowly starting to fade away now, i'm still worried...
i'm suddenly "obsessed" with guang liang and pin guan's songs... not obsessed, but just like a lot. they have good vocals and although their songs are like i dont know how long ago, they still sound pretty good. too bad they split up... although they look like homosexuals (actually not), they sounded great together... so its too bad they splited up 5 years ago... maybe there'll be a chance they'll reconcile and start singing together, again. well i hope they do... but they still sound as good een after they splitted up. 5 years ago... my chinese sucked, so i was reading the chinese newspaper, and i think i misread it, because i thought one of them died, so end of the two. haha okay, that was really stupid....
it was a real funny day today. mrs stephen was going through all the silly grammar mistakes we made in our essay and it was simply amusing. i think the whole class had loads of fun even when mrs stephen was lecturing us for our horrible writing and terrible grammar. then after school, when sharlene told mrs wong about her basketball being confiscated by ms teo because a 2/9er threw the ball down the building and almost hit the security guard, and her stolen money. sigh... thieves of st. gabs, stop stealing! so mrs wong was taklign about how she kept her money... (haha mrs wong, now we know where you keep some of your money) there were only a bunch of us there, some waiting for chen lao shi to come in for the oral, while the rest were waiting for sharlene. mrs wong was going on about spoilt children these days, and we pretty much enjoyed it, and laughing at her really cute jokes and comments. she was talkig and laughing with us for half an hour. haha. i think its a really nice day.
speaking of oral, i think i'm just gonna flunk it..... it was rather difficult and although i did prepare for it, i think i'm just gonna die. the tension was getting the best of me and i screwed up.
as you have noticed, i changed the tagboard... because tagboard.com keeps malfunctioning. i changed it and i miss my previous tag board... it seems to be working now... it probably doesnt like me.... haha
did i mention my mum eing in a bad mood nowadays? okay... so she is... blasting at my brother and i once in a while. shes still nicer to my brother, but that doesnt mean anything to me, so i try not to pay any attention to it neither do i do anything when she screams.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
[no photos :(]
didnt get a photo of delle in a skirt, but she looked nice. quoting from !"£$%^&*!: 'eye candy' haha she looked pretty in a skirt. it was a pity we didnt get a photo of her, she seems pretty happy with that.
my posts are getting more and more boring... the inspiration i need to blog, is on holiday, for i dont know how long.
drama night was pretty interesting. although i didnt really enjoy sitting there in a skirt, but at least i enjoyed the show the extra sound effects were rather disturbing and amusing. flower of the desert was pretty okay, although there was too much talking. the preformance put up by the eldds during the ij heartbeat was slightly better, but both were also good. the guitar ensemble was great too. good job people and congrats.
i'm gonna crash now, very tired. slept at 3am last night, and its already 15 mins to 1am. good night.
didnt get a photo of delle in a skirt, but she looked nice. quoting from !"£$%^&*!: 'eye candy' haha she looked pretty in a skirt. it was a pity we didnt get a photo of her, she seems pretty happy with that.
my posts are getting more and more boring... the inspiration i need to blog, is on holiday, for i dont know how long.
drama night was pretty interesting. although i didnt really enjoy sitting there in a skirt, but at least i enjoyed the show the extra sound effects were rather disturbing and amusing. flower of the desert was pretty okay, although there was too much talking. the preformance put up by the eldds during the ij heartbeat was slightly better, but both were also good. the guitar ensemble was great too. good job people and congrats.
i'm gonna crash now, very tired. slept at 3am last night, and its already 15 mins to 1am. good night.
Friday, July 29, 2005
[-]
drama night tomorrow. when i suddenly wanted to go. haha. not looking forward to dressing up either... haha.. gah.. but i'm still gonna go.
desperate housewives on ch 5 now. so theres desperate housewives on ch 5 at 1am. great.... hmmm watched that episode already.. its the second episode....
i have to do the advertisement project by tonight and theres the art project. i dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight. although i very much want to.
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getting sick of this layout, no time to change it though...
this entire week seems like a rather happy and enjoyable week. i'm in a better mood now...
or maybe it hasnt..
ah well, can't do anything about it. good night
drama night tomorrow. when i suddenly wanted to go. haha. not looking forward to dressing up either... haha.. gah.. but i'm still gonna go.
desperate housewives on ch 5 now. so theres desperate housewives on ch 5 at 1am. great.... hmmm watched that episode already.. its the second episode....
i have to do the advertisement project by tonight and theres the art project. i dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight. although i very much want to.
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getting sick of this layout, no time to change it though...
this entire week seems like a rather happy and enjoyable week. i'm in a better mood now...
or maybe it hasnt..
ah well, can't do anything about it. good night
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
[wonderwall]
too tired to do anything now... since i slept at 2am last night, to finish the geog presentation... it's pobably on of my most tedious jobs ever... and it isnt graded... gah... so i still did it, it seems pretty okay... although i think the last few slides were a little weird... the definition on geothermal energy used up 7 slides. the uses of geothermal energy, advantage, disadvantages and facts only needed one slide each. crappy? but i think it should be very summarized and not so wordy.
the number of times i have been dozing off in class is decreasing, which is a good sign. i did doze off today. but i didnt yesterday... and despite my decreasing number of hours of sleep, i managed to keep awake for almost the entire day.
i'm very disturbed by some things that some people said and some people's actions. its probably just another one of my imaginations. since THE day is closing in, i'm starting to lose that wanna-be-happy spirit. and i'm starting to feel even worse. not only extreme exhaustion, but the pressure is disturbing. its affecting me in a way or another that it makes it so difficult to concentrate, even when i'm talking to people, i start to drift off somewhere else when i'm not supposed to.
i'm dead tired. my eyelids are starting to fall... and i might end up sleeping on the table with oasis' wonderwall playing through the night.i need something to keep me awake... well there was once when i was studying for the geog exam when i started to yawn and put my head down... and fell asleep on the geog book. slept like that for a few hours and no one woke me up. luckily for me, its at home, not in school.
i get why they told us to go talk to them about !@#$%^&*()!@#$. well i know because i think we lacked that as well. probably other stuff as well. its just so different isnt it? we're bad enough, didnt really need another worse. and it might have been our fault, well most of us... for slacking. sigh
i thought of last year's sec 1 selection camp. it was really fun. i try not to forget every single detail. i rememeber emily hiding the corks in the cans and made us search for it, telling us it was thrown all over the place. if i'm not wrong, it was carmen and phoenix videotaping right? haha well, i try to keep it to myself then.
i better stop here, too tired. i still have a lot of work to do. so i better go finish it before my energy runs out and i'm be nothing but a like a flat battery. good night and bye.
too tired to do anything now... since i slept at 2am last night, to finish the geog presentation... it's pobably on of my most tedious jobs ever... and it isnt graded... gah... so i still did it, it seems pretty okay... although i think the last few slides were a little weird... the definition on geothermal energy used up 7 slides. the uses of geothermal energy, advantage, disadvantages and facts only needed one slide each. crappy? but i think it should be very summarized and not so wordy.
the number of times i have been dozing off in class is decreasing, which is a good sign. i did doze off today. but i didnt yesterday... and despite my decreasing number of hours of sleep, i managed to keep awake for almost the entire day.
i'm very disturbed by some things that some people said and some people's actions. its probably just another one of my imaginations. since THE day is closing in, i'm starting to lose that wanna-be-happy spirit. and i'm starting to feel even worse. not only extreme exhaustion, but the pressure is disturbing. its affecting me in a way or another that it makes it so difficult to concentrate, even when i'm talking to people, i start to drift off somewhere else when i'm not supposed to.
i'm dead tired. my eyelids are starting to fall... and i might end up sleeping on the table with oasis' wonderwall playing through the night.i need something to keep me awake... well there was once when i was studying for the geog exam when i started to yawn and put my head down... and fell asleep on the geog book. slept like that for a few hours and no one woke me up. luckily for me, its at home, not in school.
i get why they told us to go talk to them about !@#$%^&*()!@#$. well i know because i think we lacked that as well. probably other stuff as well. its just so different isnt it? we're bad enough, didnt really need another worse. and it might have been our fault, well most of us... for slacking. sigh
i thought of last year's sec 1 selection camp. it was really fun. i try not to forget every single detail. i rememeber emily hiding the corks in the cans and made us search for it, telling us it was thrown all over the place. if i'm not wrong, it was carmen and phoenix videotaping right? haha well, i try to keep it to myself then.
i better stop here, too tired. i still have a lot of work to do. so i better go finish it before my energy runs out and i'm be nothing but a like a flat battery. good night and bye.
Monday, July 25, 2005
[bad day]
weird things have been happening. maybe it's because for me, being a weirdo, normal is weird to me. haha and i think what i eat for dinner is also weird enough, although it still tasted okay. to val, it's very weird, but to me, it isnt all weird.
i have to finish my geog presentation tonight. start and finish tonight... not that i'm not getting any help from my team members, i am getting links and research... i'll probably let them do the oral stuff tomorrow. haha
besides doing the presentation... the english project is also giving my a headache... and i think i barely touched the science project... damn... gotta start on all these. finish it asap. i need a lot of sleep now... very very little sleep for me nowadays... and i tend to wake up at 5am and go back to sleep. i dont even know how i can wake up that early. i'll probably sleep like a pig after the exams. 20 hours a day. too much sleep can kill too. haha
basically, i have no idea what to blog, as though i just dont know HOW to blog after what? 3 days? doesnt make sense right?
i was playing gunbound during the weekend, and my rank was upgraded from double-wood to the stone hammer, which is good, because i have free avatar for being upgraded. a space marine suit and helmet. and i bought a kendo suit for 18 000 gold which will only last 7 days. that was the avatar i bought. i want that vampire coffin thing. but if i want it to last forever, it'll cost 30 000 gold... i only have 15 000++. not easy to earn gp either... for an amateur like me, who didnt even get the ss thing until denise explained it to me, i'll probably earn only 6gp each battle, on the losing side.
my mum was watching national geographic that day, about baby pandas... they're really adorable and i wished i had one at home, its so cute and for some reason, its helpless squeak is just appealing to the ears. i'm morbid. or maybe i find it too adorable that even its helpless squeaks are also nice, to me. see? i told you i was weird (as though no one knew... right) piglets are adorable... and mag doesnt know there are pigs at the zoo. haha deprived child. dont worry, i'm even more deprived. thanks.
Angels Or Devils - Dishwalla
This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
Still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
If I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
weird things have been happening. maybe it's because for me, being a weirdo, normal is weird to me. haha and i think what i eat for dinner is also weird enough, although it still tasted okay. to val, it's very weird, but to me, it isnt all weird.
i have to finish my geog presentation tonight. start and finish tonight... not that i'm not getting any help from my team members, i am getting links and research... i'll probably let them do the oral stuff tomorrow. haha
besides doing the presentation... the english project is also giving my a headache... and i think i barely touched the science project... damn... gotta start on all these. finish it asap. i need a lot of sleep now... very very little sleep for me nowadays... and i tend to wake up at 5am and go back to sleep. i dont even know how i can wake up that early. i'll probably sleep like a pig after the exams. 20 hours a day. too much sleep can kill too. haha
basically, i have no idea what to blog, as though i just dont know HOW to blog after what? 3 days? doesnt make sense right?
i was playing gunbound during the weekend, and my rank was upgraded from double-wood to the stone hammer, which is good, because i have free avatar for being upgraded. a space marine suit and helmet. and i bought a kendo suit for 18 000 gold which will only last 7 days. that was the avatar i bought. i want that vampire coffin thing. but if i want it to last forever, it'll cost 30 000 gold... i only have 15 000++. not easy to earn gp either... for an amateur like me, who didnt even get the ss thing until denise explained it to me, i'll probably earn only 6gp each battle, on the losing side.
my mum was watching national geographic that day, about baby pandas... they're really adorable and i wished i had one at home, its so cute and for some reason, its helpless squeak is just appealing to the ears. i'm morbid. or maybe i find it too adorable that even its helpless squeaks are also nice, to me. see? i told you i was weird (as though no one knew... right) piglets are adorable... and mag doesnt know there are pigs at the zoo. haha deprived child. dont worry, i'm even more deprived. thanks.
Angels Or Devils - Dishwalla
This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
Still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
If I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold