hey i'm back....

Tuesday, 23 November 2004
CONGRATS IJ FOR WINNING THE DIRECTOR'S AWARD!!! haha, u all did really well... haha, evryone's sleeping now... n i'm still awake...

i missed most of csi last night... sigh... coz i fell asleep halfway thru n awoke at the end of the show... sigh... i missed a good show indeed... ha, i was so darn tired, dunno y... haha, n in the afternoon, i was actually reading to keep awake... but then i fell asleep for juz that few seconds, and awoke to find delle, savina, mel hong n grace yow's friend, joanna i tink(sry if i'm wrong) staring at me, smiling and laughin at me. fine... they said i looked comical when i was sleeping... sighz....

so i guess i really didnt show any emotions...

Wednesday, 24 November 2004
so it was a real boring day for me...

i did a tarot reading today... well it was true during the first one. but it wasnt when it came to the second one. ok, i had to totally agree with what i was reading...

argh my bro didnt do well for psle n he doesnt really seem to care... n my dad is juz gonna kill me, i dun like tokin to him... u may say that i'm not grateful, but i dun care if u r really gonna say that... he called n i answered the fone. first question

Dad:briana, how were ur brother's results? good or bad?
Briana: erm i dun know, ask him urself
(shoved the fone to bro)

i know that was utterly rude, but that was the first thing that came out of my mouth... n i'm sry for that. well he's gonna kill me for that coz he'll say that i dun care abt my bro n thats y i dun know how he did. if i told him my bro did well, he's gonna say that i'm lying, which i m, if i were to tell him that. n finally if i told him bad, he'll say that i didnt teach my bro n guide him... well, if i'willing to teach sumone who doesnt wish to learn, wat can i do? especially my brother. so that clearly showed that he dislikes me a lot n i dun care coz i've been living like that for the past few years... u may think that i'm being an idiot, but i dun really care what u say, coz i've got sick of evrything

have u ever felt vry left out? well, i did, it wasnt a really nice feeling, of course... my old friends... they seem to be drifting away frm me... further n further away... i guess friendships dun last forever yeah? even sum like to say "friends forever"... i dun seem to realize what is gg on arnd me. i m so useless... n i only found out days ago that i'm left alone, i have to answer for evryting, coz evrything's has been thrown at me, i juz cant do it, kay? i know that i'm the only hope n all, but i juz cant do it. im a disappointment but i have to do my best, i still need to hang on... not only do i feel hurt, i feel depressed, not able to answer to my mistakes...

i'm back!!! went swimming earlier.... haha, i still remember how to swim... well thats lame, nvm.

i finally succeeded in uploading the stupid song onto my blog... lalala... argh... i'm gg mad, but i'm so glad i finally did it!!! woohoo!! after countless attempts... i finally did it... after days of searching, yay... actually it has only been 3 days, no big deal... but i m so happy...

i'm back...

argh i say weird stuff whenever i post... especially when i'm juz beginning...

these few days, i've been online till 3+ or 4+ n even 5+ n wake up at abt 1pm... so useless...

"what the heck is ur problem??? do u tink by doing that, everything's solved? huh? y do u have to do that? what u're giving up now, u'll never be able to retrieve it again" i juz wanna tell this particular person.... coz i cant stand what he/she is doing...

i'm getting grouchy again... i'm so mad at myself... i detest myself. my incapability caused so much problems. i hate wat i'm doin. i didnt want that to happen, but y did it have to? it's my fault.

i'm starting to wry abt the email thing... i'm beginning to have doubts. m i being paranoid? i dun noe... i juz have this feeling, may b paranoia, but i juz have doubts abt wats gonna happen later. u may say i've got no trust in myself if u noe wat i'm tokin abt.

ok so my fate wil b decided on tueday... i'm dead by then... if i really die. pls cum to my funeral...

But still I swore to hide the pain
When I turn by back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer

i wanna die

so its so late, n i still cant sleep!!!! argh, its 5.20AM!!! blah...

i've been listening to the song, 1000 words, for 10 hrs, over and over again... and i'm not sick of it... but it helps me think... bcoz of the lyrics... and o yar, this was the song yuna as singing at the concert and the projections of lenne and shuyin... if u read my long-winded post, or u play ffx2, u'll know. this song cums directly frm the game, wif the thunder and the gunshots. its juz the video without the images, juz the music/sounds. i wanna thank charissa for sending it to me... heehee

so met replied to my mum's email. i'm staying... but i still have doubts... dun noe y i keep thinking sumting bad is gonna happen but i'm still worried over sumting...

after reading sum pple's blogs,i start to worry, a lot... i get worried easily... i dun know y. but ever since that very day, i'm getting more worried evry single day... its like all bottled up inside me n i cant do anything abt it, sigh... n sumtimes i cry... or feel like crying, or tears juz well up in my eyes... i dun noe, i juz feel so sad, especially when i listen to 1000 words or watch the video... i start to tear for sum reason. i dun noe... y? m i really that weak??? sigh... i need to stop worrying, but can i really stop? memories juz suddenly i dun noe, come into me, reminding me of the past, when i dun want to think of the past. evrything's now cramped in my head, making me feel worse. argh, i really need brainwashing

ok so i did change the song again.... its 1000 words, sung by yuna n lenne... its frm the final fantasy x-2 game. n i can tell u the jap version doesnt sound as good as the english version... heehee, for those hu cant hear it.... pls tell me n i'm sry... but i dun noe y i can hear... weird.

went to make ezlink card wif liz today... intended to go down to buona vista, but we went down to yishun instead. then we realized they ran out of cards. so we went to sembawang instead... but when we got there, we realized liz needed either her birth cert or passport bsides her foto n $$. haha, so we had no choice but to go down to liz's home to get it. haha, in total, we took 5 trains n 2 buses. haha, then we went to sch.... man almost got discovered by met, not discovered, but i dun noe, i'm afraid of him... i guess u noe y... but anyway, he went to st raph n liz n i left at 6.15pm b4 he came baq... i wud say diana was scaring me, telling me met was cuming up... blah, fine...

here r the lyrics if u can hear the song, which i doubt... i still dun noe y it cant b heard... sry...

1000 words - Yuna and Lenne, Characters of Final Fantasy X-2

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me,
Your words are like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily...

I acted so distant then,
Didnt say goodbye before you left
But i was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
You fought too easily
'Save your tears, cause I'll come back'
I could hear that you whipsered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain
When I turn by back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if i cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say
Whats in my heart...

Cause a thousand words
Called out through the ages
They'll fly to you,
Even though I can't see
I know they're reaching you...
Suspended on Silver Wings...

Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will craddle you
Even although your weary
They seem far away...
They'll hold you forever...

Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
And carry you home
And back into my arms...
Suspended on Silver Wings...
On silver wings!

And a thousand words
Called out through the ages
The greater good
Ignore all the lonely
Heres to all the happy days
They'll hold you FOREVER...

Oh...A thousand words...

hey, so i changed the skin.... tell me if its ugly... coz liz said its horrible... nvm, anyway thats tidus n yuna, go ahead n guess hus yuna n hus tidus, for all i care.

today was another boring day. my bro's friend spent the entire day here... playing ps2... while i did nth but play internet games... how boring. i think i only spent my evryday life playing computer games... n studying for maths ca... sigh... i have no motivation to study. n i hvnt done the choreography for stef quek, sry!!! haiz... i'm rotting at home till i see fungi growing on me, yuck, nvm, 4get wat i juz said... haiz... i feel so guilty coz liz wans to go to sch but my fone either conks out, or i juz cant go out... sad...

went out to have dinner at marche yesterday... i cant believe my appetite's getting frm bad to worse. i barely ate anything. i juz had sum rosti with a chicken sausage, a root beer n mushroom soup... i took hell long to eat the rosti. usually i wud go for a rosti, root beer, mushroom soup, sashimi, dessert... but i didnt, i was hungry but i didnt feel vry gd... i felt so sick so i had to pass the dessert n the sashimi... sigh... but i went to HMV. n thanx to my mum, who has suprisingly brightened up my day.... haha, she bought the simple plan cd!! woohoo!!! so happy, she juz bought it for me coz she bought that ps2 magazine for my bro... she tinks its fair to me, but i dun really care if she bought the cd for me or not... i can actually buy it myself, i didnt need to be jealous of one magazine... i guess she still thinks i'm childish, which i still m... sigh..

i watched like two movies in a day... watched princess diaries 2. i find the movie pretty short n there was a lie. princess mia said she has never been in love before, but that is so not true... wat abt michael? i guess evryone forgot abt princess diaries 1??? i watched it millions of times. then the incredibles are so funny, muz watch... even though i watched only the last part but yeah... n mean girls, its so bitchy n slutty, yuck i decided to hate it...

ok, i'm so bored i'm gonna die... pls give ur comments on the blog's skin n the music... i noe the song on my blog is so dull n all, but nvm, juz comment... i'll juz take the comment regardless of whether its gd or bad. okies thanx....

i wanna write another intro abt ffx2 but i tink no one like me wud read it. after all, i m weird, too weird, weirder than anyone i suppose...

haha so here it goes... if u dun wanna read it, go ahead n ignore this or close this window, coz i'm only doin this to kill my boredom n to read it to also kill my boredom... haha...

so far i played, i realized lenne is so called i dunno, a girl who lived 1000 yrs ago b4 the machina war that somehow destroyed Zarnarkand, even though pple still live in Zarnarkand. so she was the girl with long hair in my display pic. she looks exactly like yuna n her lover, shuyin, who looks exactly like tidus also lived 1000 yrs ago, i know this is stupid, but nvm... so lenne was a famous songstress in Zarnarkand, she was too a summoner like yuna. so when yuna held that concert at the thunder plains to bring Spira together bcoz of this fight btween the Youth League n New Yevon... i was almost in tears, even though it was juz a game. yuna sang the song lenne sang, she practically changed into lenne, with long hair and all. then there was a projection, above the airship coz the stage was the deck of the airship. then evryone was yuna's concert. the projections showed shuyin trying to use vegnagun to save lenne, coz lenne was gonna risk her live to save the pple of zarnarkand during the machina war, so shuyin wud do anything to save lenne, even touching a very destructive machina, vegnagun. so previously, i mentioned yuna's dream, when yuna n tidus was running frm the guards.... it was wat happened 1000 yrs ago... lenne n shuyin died young. yuna was singin lenne's feelings during the concert n when the song ended, she was in tears n fell to the ground. Actually the song ended when Shuyin n Lenne died at that vry moment. so yuna told rikku n paine abt how she felt when she sang the song, she said lenne wanted to say the three most important words when she was on the ground with shuyin, abt to die off. but shuyin never heard it. i tink u know wat the three words are, its the three words which couples use... nvm, so yuna met shuyin in the farplane, that one is too complicated for me to explain, shall explain sum other time... i think u mite b gg "hur..." if u're reading this coz its gonna b a long story... nvm. so shuyin tght yuna was lenne, as yuna was wearing the songstress dress sphere which she used in battles, n this dress sphere is exactly the same as the dress lenne was wearing(refer to disply pic) n yuna tght shuyin was tidus... but then she realized it wasnt tidus n shuyin said he was shuyin. so then shuyin suddenly transformed into baralai, the leader of new yevon, that i dun noe y... but the leaders of the youth league, new yevon n al bhed were missing. gippal was the leader of the al bhed, nooj was the leader of the youth league n baralai was the leader of new yevon. even though youth league n new yevon were at loggerheads, gippal, nooj n baralai used to be best friends n they were in the crimson squad, with paine. but the crimson squad no longer existed bcoz of an accident, so paine, gippal, nooj n baralai were the only survivors... the three of them were crusaders. the three were missing to go look for vegnagun to destroy it, n Spira was in a mess due to the disappearance of the three leaders. now yuna knew where they were, in the farplane, she was supposed to keep it a secret. so she didnt tell anyone else bsides the gullwings n LeBlanc(villan). ok i better stop it now... one small incident required a thousand words... haha ok, gtg, toodles!

so i'm back, i'm sure no one bothered to read the previous post, coz it was simply too long.... but nvm... i dun mind lar. its up to u if u wanna read it.


today was nth but a boring day. i completed chapter 3 n on chapter 4 liao. defeated last fiend and all... then i juz stayed indoors....


who wants to go to zanarkland wif me? its free.... i'm living in my own world.... no need to remind me. i know that myself. i lost the will to carry on wif wat i'm doin now. i can c evrythin moving a step further...


i c evrything black n white... i'm juz in this empty house. where there's nth gg on n i cant escape. its so cold inside.... then i hear a scream, the scream of terror. i dun noe wat on earth is gg on. i'm locked up. juz like a bird in a cage...

harloe!!! hehe so i changed the song.... yar i noe its one of those songs wif no lyrics..... delle hates it... haha, sry delle!!! i got this frm the final fantasy website. heehee...


so i spent the entire day playing ps2... playing final fantasy X-2.... but i oso like final fantasy X :) its still sad yuna hasnt found tidus.... i dun noe wat happened in final fantasy x coz i only started at X-2 but i think yuna wasnt really as strong as she is now.... blah.... i guess sum pple r gonna get all bored coz i'm only tokin abt final fantasy n nth else? blah, if u dun wanna read, den its completely fine... :) yeaps, shall continue coz i guess pple like me wud wanna read it... on second thought i dun tink anyone wans to read it.... hehe nvm...


anyway, was really hvin a hard time defeating the first aeon i came across... name, bahamut. it was really difficult... first attempt last nite, at 1am. then i was in shock coz it was humungous,n i lost, of course... but actually, for me, i wud try n try again until i defeat it... but i was in shock as it was my first time cumin across an aeon n it was beeeeg... i juz sat there, shakin in fear, n i really meant it.... i was literally shakin in fear... my shakin hand switched off the ps2 n switched off the lights.... i took sum time to sleep... ok not sum time but i went to sleep almost instant coz i was dead beat when i woke up at 5.30am this morning to go down to downtown east... so the next morning, i was reverted back to myself, no more shakin n all... coz bahamut seemed real to me even though its juz a game n i dun have a huge tv in my room, n i was the only one in the bedroom. my bro went over to my mum's rm, so it was rather freaky... considering the times i hear things when i'm alone at home.... now my bro's sleeping like a pig, n i'm so tempted to play again... yup, so i attempted again today.... still losing, so i decided to train, but there were only two fiends(monsters, creatures or watever u wanna call it...) so it wasnt really vry effective..... but i made it frm level 21 to level 36. so i intended to train till yuna, rikku n paine make it to level 75. then my bro came home n wanted to play... so i gave in.... then he started playing final fantasy, my file. then he wanted to try to defeat bahamut, but i doubt he wud win, coz he only played for a day n stopped playing until today. so i left him to play as i was certain he wud lose, terribly... so i went to grab a bite.... after a while, he shouted frm the room "i defeated it!!! jie jie, i defeated it!!!" so i went in2 the rm, thinkin it was a trick, then i saw the experience points page n was surprised... he actually defeated it durin his first attempt, when i cudnt after countless attempts. so he saved for me n copied the file... so now he has his own. i cant believe he defeated it n he hardly played the game!!! when i play it like all the time!!!! argh.... i felt like a loser.... so he continued playing... i had to tell him where to go coz i was familiar wif the places n all... he played only for a while n he got sick of it!!!! how can he get sick of final fantasy?!?!


then i took over frm there, my file lar. defeated two aeons... no fair, how cum the second n third is soooo much easier than the first one?!?! so i only had one aeon left at D'jose temple... so i guess i stopped playing frm there coz it was 8pm n i was watching kiss of the dragon... n i left the ps2 on, on the mission page. then it was 9pm, so i switched off the ps2... haha, was enjoying the champion so much i almost forgot to eat!!! so i did, blah blah,blah... i guess i really talked too much eh? pity yuna.... coz she lost her memory, i tink? well there was this guy who looked like tidus in this sphere n yuna found him so familiar... she tinks its tidus but then thinks its sum1 hu resembles tidus. then in her dream, she dreams of tidus n her running frm the guards of Bevelle n there end up where the vegnagun is, the vegnagun is a destructive machina(machine) which is too destructive n no one is too touch it. so yuna n tidus were running n running till it was a dead end, rite in front of the vegnagun... then the guards caught up n yuna was looking at tidus n tidus was looking at yuna, then a tear trickled down yuna's cheek n the guards starting shooting n the two fell to the ground, yuna looked at tidus n then it was the end... so i guess tidus was either still in bevelle or in danger bcoz of vegnagun, coz in another sphere which yuna found, "tidus" was talking to vegnagun, seeking for help...


sigh i said so much but i hvnt said what a sphere was n evrything. yuna used to be a summoner who defeated Sin n brought the eternal calm to Spira(the world which yuna lives in)... hehe i like the name spira coz it sounds like my team name "spiral". the diff - juz the "L". yeaps.... so she defeated Sin n was a high summoner whose birthplace is Bevelle n she grew up in Besaid Island. ok all that crap abt her being a summoner is all in final fantasy x n not final fantasy x-2... i'm only playing final fantasy x-2. she met tidus then they sumhow were together blah blah... then two yrs later, where i started playing, she left besaid island n bcame a sphere hunter. spheres are like videos or movies which there are recorded... they are glowing balls n cum in bright colours like pink, red, blue, yellow... so yuna joined the gullwings, a group of pple who are sphere hunters... the gullwings consist of Brother (the leader), Buddy, Shinra, Rikku, Paine n Yuna. Rikku, Paine n yuna are the 3 who hunt the spheres, while the other 3 do other stuff in the airship. rikku n yuna were already in final fantasy x, with lulu, another summoner, who is yuna's guardian living in Besaid Island with her husband, Wakka. she is a cold person n doesnt talk much... n is oso pregnant now, she is not a summoner now. paine is a copy of her, except she is a sphere hunter n not a summoner but are still gd friends with yuna n rikku. since the day tidus n yuna were shot by the guards, yuna never saw tidus except the sphere. but she is still unsure of whether it is tidus of is juz a resemblance of him. so i guess that hurt ur eyes too much yeah? reading so much... i wun be adding any lyrics coz it'll be so long!!! ok gtg, its 12.42am liao... carrie chong's late nite show in on now, so gtg, coz i dun wanna hurt ur eyes frm all that reading, yeah? ok, so there u go, a SMALL intro of final fantasy x n final fantasy x-2, heehee, ok gd nite n tata!! :)

ok, so here i m in downtown east, using the internet at this site kiosk, i wud juz like to say that i hate this keyboard, even though its luk so darn cool... its so stiff and i dun like it... so i am 2 hrs earlier than gloria told me to cum. i was suppose to be here at 10am... but wat can i do? so i'm standing here, updating my blog... blah, i'm gonna grab sumtin to eat at macs... the potato salad i had earlier isnt vry filling.... so tata! :)

sigh.... there goes another day...


i'm gonna miss 2004...


well, i might get over it in a while...


so much, n i really mean so much happened in a year, haiyoh... its so darn boring at home... but even if i go to sch, i cant do anything coz i'll be like diana, stoning in the arc rm... haiz...


for the entire morning ever since i was online, i have been fixing the spiral blog. it seems like i cant bear to delete it but i have to if i dun really have a choice. now no one's gg there n i'm tokin to myself, m i juz mad or m i gg bonkers?


i've learnt that final fantasy is simply too difficult.... sigh... but i still like the game. =D newae, was playing the ps 2 game yesterday till i got tired of it... how can i even get tired of final fantasy?


haiz, got nth to write lar...


1985 - Bowling for Soup


Woohoohoo
Woohoohoo


Debbie just hit the wall
she never had it all
one Prozac a day
husbands a CPA
her dreams went out the door
when she turned twenty four
only been with one man
what happen to her plan?


She was gonna be an actress
she was gonna be a star
she was gonna shake her ass
on the hood of white snake's car
her yellow SUV is now the enemy
looks at her average life
and nothing has been alright since


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo
(1985)
Woohoohoo


She's seen all the classics
she knows every line
Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink
even Saint Elmo's Fire
she rocked out to wham
not a big Limp Bizkit fan
thought she'd get a hand
on a member of Duran Duran


Where's the mini-skirt made of snake skin
and who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen
when did reality become T.V.
what ever happen to sitcoms, game shows
(on the radio was)


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo


She hates time make it stop
when did Motley Crew become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop
Stop!
And bring back


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 1985


Woohoohoo


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV (woohoohoo)
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985

i keep thinking abt that particular day... the day we watched cellular b4 we left the classrms... sumhow dat has been stuck on my mind for so long i cant even get rid of it... how did things turn out this way... whatever you said... its still up here, every word... i juz wished i hvnt gone over and asked questions... even though its off already, but i still feel guilty... why did things turn out like this...? i tght it was already over... sunshine after rain. but no. it turned out worse... i'm juz too weak to go face it.

i wud like to say that i'm so sry..... for evrything...


for one moment i was so happy, beaming like wat gloria did, the next thing i knew, it was all gone. evrything didnt seem real to me... i regret it... so sry...

its oredi sunday......


my mum refused to let me of cutting my hair short!!! she was giving all sorts of reasons n wants me to keep my hair long. well, i dun want to..... argh...


was gg thru sec 2s class blog... 2/2's was really touching, well all the sec 2 class blogs were... haha... nice slide show... goes with the music... =]


i envy them... they have class spirit... well no offence but i really wished 1/3 had more of that... with backstabbing n sabotage gg on... evryone hating one another... no one wud wan dat... 1/3 does have class spirit.. a little at least... but not as much as 2/2 n the other sec 2s... it seems like evryone juz cant tolerate each other... go arnd hurting them... its only the first year... i do hope things will change next year... well, it wasnt a vry gd start lar... but wif the ew class comm, things will change for the better, no offence, class comm.... i admit i'm a bad secretary.... so dun say i'm being unfair n blah... haha... i admire the sec 2s' class unity... *two thumbs up* 1/3 isnt all bad... we still have a mix of pple... bimbos, atheletes, geniuses, etc. all 1/3 needs is less backstabbing... not none at all (even though its ok, heehee) but juz less...


ok i've crapped enuf n its 4.27am! i've been online for so long i've forgotten i'm still as sick as a dog... ok shall get sum sleep... nite! neway here's the new song on my blog. it's mcfly's five colours in her hair...


Five Colours In Her Hair - Mcfly


Do do do do do doo [x3]


She's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair,
Not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears,
Her tattoo's always hidden by her underwear.
She don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
I threw a house party and she came
Everyone asked me
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She's just a loner with a sexy attitude,
I'd like to phone her cos she puts me in the mood.
The rumours spreading now that she cooks in the nude.
But she don't care, she don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She was all I thought about,
The girl I couldn't live without.
But then she went insane,
She couldn't take the fame
She said I was to blame
She'd had enough
And shaved five colours off
And now she's just a weirdo with no name.


Everybody wants to know her name.
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she,
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


Do do do do do doo [x3]

i'm sick.... really falling ill... keeps coughing and sneezing... had no appetite today... sigh... i think i'm coming down wif a fever as well....


i'm so angry with those three idiots.... argh.... i dun noe them at all but i juz wanna kill them....


i was on my way baq frm dinner when i saw three BOYS (i'm using this word coz i think they r so immature to do that) they were like idiots running round the lift... looked like they were hiding frm sumting. then they somehow clicked on the fire lift switch n it seemed the lift cudnt be use or sumting. they were two pple in there, an old man n a maid... n whenever the lift's at the ground floor, it wudnt open, n obviously the two innocents were stuck in there... it was like 7.30pm at that moment... i then wanted to give those three immature freaks a bashing... argh, i was so furious despite my sneezing n coughing. then i was like waiting at the ground floor while my mum, mum's bf, bro n grandma walked away... i was also tempted to go up to the three n tell them off, but they already got away. then i was hoping the doors would open for the two innocents... well it did in the end. was rather relieved... the maid started off for another lift n the old guy was speaking in a language i didnt understand at all, probably hokkien. i'm a teochew, but i dun speak teochew... weird? i speak cantonese though coz i grew up in a cantonese family... yar but the old man sounded as though he thinks i was the one who played the prank... didnt really care because i really didnt do it...


so now u know... wat kind of person i m... a rough n insensitve coward... ok fine... it was rather obvious they were pai kiahs (heck the spelling) coz they were so immature, inconsiderate n they were playing a prank on others... argh i hate them...


The Distance - Evan and Jaron


The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away


I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back


I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance


I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

i'm back frm kallang netball centre....! ok dat was pretty lame.....but... nvm!


wins: 2
loses: 4
draws: 2


soooo..... i din get killed lar, but i did fall on the not very wet ground as it was raining on and off....


priscilla was a great gs. she can really shoot. n cheryl tan, not forgeting celine jiang. they can really shoot very well. everyone was great. even though we didnt win, still enjoyed. i tink the cheerleaders thought i was gonna faint or breakdown... well, i was not. its just that i really regretted wat i did. like not defending the opponent n stuff. well, i apologize for not being able to defend...


the cheerleaders were cool too, even though my impression of a cheerleader is "bimbo, bimbo, bimbo" but it worked out after all, even though there were still displease gg abt. well, i'm juz really happy 1/3 did their best...


i actually thought i wud get all nervous n screw it all up. but even though i did screw up, i didnt really feel any nervous. i thank the other classes for putting such a great fight during the game... it was really exciting.


sry but i have to admit this was much more fun than the day i went to escape... heehee...


i am still angry wif some pple for "misplacing" my phone. juz because i allowed u to explore my phone in any way, you shouldn't just leave it lying arnd... saying u dun even noe where it is n pushing the blame to someone else. to me, its another act of irresponsibility... i can't lose my phone again. this phone is only a few mths old...


Best Day Of My Life - Jesse McCartney


Woke up around a half past ten
Can't believe that I'm late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my pulse and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same


It goes to show
You never know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ....
Had the best day of my life


Can't say exactly what it was
She's not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,
But from now on
I'm gonna be a different man


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life


I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life [x2]

hey.....


netball trainin went well, i'm playin gk.... i tink i'm gonna die... 'm gonna screw up nxt tuesday n amanda latiff is gonna kill me in e 1/3 VS 1/9 match!!! remember 2 cum 2 my funeral, kay?


i tink i've spent like 3 quarters of my day playin.... argh...


the results are devastating.... i failed 3 subjects... apparently, dat shows wat a failure i m already... i'm a big fat stinking loser... i guess its sayonara 2 arc... sry...


i m so disappointed in myself... i keep losin my temper.... wats e matter wif me? i tink it wud best if evry1 keep away frm me... argh.... i'm such a letdown...


Why Can't I? - Liz Phair


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be


Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too


What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too


It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful


Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't f***ed yet, but my heads spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

juz returned frm escape theme park... it was real fun but it started raining so we din really get to try most of the rides. went to escape wif dan, kimberly, gretch, beat-rice, beat-rice's sis, my bro n my bro's friend.


i'm so happy coz i went for the go-kart twice!!! heehee... the queue was pretty short so yar. at first, i din know wat went wrong, the engine juz conked out and i cudnt move. i was on my up so i allowed the kart to like move back a little n then start again. i only had two rounds..... then the 2nd time, i was stuck again, but it was bcoz i din realize my fott was also on the brake! haha... so i was like "no no no not again" den whamp, i was knocked frm the back. not really knocked but a little bump. then i realize my foot was on the brake (which was rather slow) n removed my foot n zoomed down the slope. the front was so slow that kimberly n i overtook sum pple.. haha so fun... the sad thing was a few of the really gd rides were close for mechanical check, like the inverter and rainbow. cudnt try out the new ride coz it started to rain...


but enjoyed the revolution... haha, beatrice wanted a screaming competition but gretch n i decided not to coz we din want to. had fun lar...



Try - Nelly Furtado


All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try


I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try


All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

hey pple, changed the song liao... its skye sweetnam's tangled up in me. okok..... shall stop crapping and start blogging.


went to east coast yesterday to rolleblade. was perfectly fine... until i fell right on e cycling path. sigh, that must have hurt rite? it did a little, my palms.... but what i really pity arent my hand but my safety guards. the wrist guards were sctratched n the right knee guard, which was once perfect, is no ruined. thanks to my carelessness. i went to macs to get a milo, den when i bladed out, i was almost knocked down by some pple hu din have a sense of direction. i had to worry abt colliding wif them. den was rollerbladin...blah...blah... while sipping on my milo...blah...blah... waaaaaaaaaaa, fell. milo gone.... there was still half e cup left! argh... den i got up, dun even noe why there was sand on my hands. since i was close to macs. i rollerbladed all the way there to wash my hands. i wasnt really hurt or anything but it was still quite painful... den went all the way to ford road and frm there all the way to bedok jetty. my bro was fishing there so yar...


so bored now...


Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam


You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
I'm the one that's honking at you cuz I left late again


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You think that you know me
You think that I'm only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!


Hey! Hey!


Get tangled up in me

hi.... long time no blog... very tired, after days n nights of muggin, its over. previously, i mentioned something abt after e exams. well..... dis is again, for me to know n for u 2 find out y. haha... ok i think u mite go "lame...." or "watever" but yar...

went out wif esti n sars to kino n borders. the 2 toots as intendin to buy the pendragon: black water frm kino. but it ran out of stock... it was still there few wks ago... i din buy anything coz i was bankrupt, yar i used e word bankrupt. wich means it is to the extend that i'm really really broke! *stares blankly at empty wallet* den when we stepped out of taka, we were wonderin whether to head left or right, coz we needed 2 get to wheelock place. haha... sars, it wasnt a debate coz it din seem like at all. esti n i were tokin abt whether 2 go left or right, den we decided to ask around. we went to 7-11 n e peep said she din noe. we asked dis man n he din even noe there was such a place. we were still standin outside taka, like lost sheeps, haha. den i juz picked left, n yay, we were heading for the right direction. they bought their books n we spent the rest of 30 mins listening to music at borders.

at arnd 12.30pm, we headed for wisma atria to have lunch. blah blah... all the way till 1.15pm. my oh my, we spent 45 mins eating.... i guess i broke the record of 5 mins, just eating a mcnuggets meal. den we came back, to my place n watched a movie + playin ps2. all the way to 5pm. n here i m now.

now that e exams r over, i'll most probably spend my time reflectin, doing a lot of thinking till i mite even get a major headache like one now... and staring into space, like i always do n the sec 3s think i'm thinkin of my boyfren(which i m not, of course. apparently, i dun like havin a boyfren coz i'm still too young, dats my opinion)

hey, if i really dun do well for the final year exams..... den pls tag board if u have any cca suggestions, coz i still hvnt think of which cca 2 join, so yar. coz i screwed up... n i'm gonna flunk everything. thanx...

ok, i hope everyone does well for the exams. tata =]

You And I Both - Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.


See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive


You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free


And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang


Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.