hey!!!!! i'm really tired.... today the class comm had to come up with a new rule. that is :

If anyone changes their places:

-During Assembly: Fine $5

-During Lessons: Fine $10

i really hope it works. its not extortion at all. we juz wan dem 2 stop changin places. we didnt make it $1 n $0.50 coz we didnt wan 1/3 to be paying to change their places. i really hope they understand.

Note to 1/3: pay danielle as soon as possible, coz the class is broke. if u dun wan e maths wkst, tell either maths rep or class comm, if not u'll have to pay 4 it.

anyway, spiral's blog is open to all, coz it is no longer in use for njrc, unless there's a 2nd Spiral in future which i doubt so. Spiral, if u have a problem wif dat, come look 4 me. anyway, i'm really exhausted....... so i'll hurry up. i recently wrote a 1000 character testimonial for liz, she wud better accept it coz if she doesnt, i'm gonna kill her. i cant wait for the princess diaries 2: royal engagement to be released...... dats like i do not know when. u may think its bimbotic, but i pretty like the story...

Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a riskTake a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

sigh..... its 3.30am now..... 2hrs and 30 mins to 6am before i have to get out of bed and go to school... shocked? big deal? wadeva? nvm......... my right thumb and index finger is all numb thanks to the 5 hrs or paper cutting. i'm still on the 2 layer! canu believe that?!?!


went to taka for dinner. then went to kinoniya. waha! pendragon bk 5 : black water was already on the shelves. i have got to get that book!!! omg!! and princess diaries bk 6 : six appeal costs $36.70!!! bloody ex........ *stares blankly at empty wallet*. my mum refuse to lend me the money to buy the book. its like $11.80(pendragon). sigh.... o wellz. she bought the ella enchanted vcd. i'm gonna watch it after the exams..... for now i'll shall focus on my studies. focus.... focus...FOCUS!!! my thumb's still numb!!!!! argh........... have been listening to the radio since 12pm? waaaaaa..... my brain cells are disappearing.... haha..... still remember what mr kang said abt the tofu and handphone. he said there was this experiment in which they placed a handphone next to the tofu and after a while, a long while, the side of the tofu where they placed the handphone turned black. that's quite cool though... so i went home and told my mum about it and she said that it was true coz if i were to stuck my headphones in my ears for a long period of time, i'm gg to DIE!!! haha..... but yar.


i think my bro is suffering frm pms or something like that.... wait..... he cant be suffering frm that! coz he's a guy??????? haha.... anyway, he's been cranky all day. he screamed at everyone. well, my mum juz scolded him to mind his really bad attitude. i was busy doin my paper cut and yar, the headphones stuck in my ears. she scolded me for that too..... ah wells...


ok, now my thumbs not numb anymore..... shall not slack... get back to work... signing off...

sigh... its 3.03 am and i'm still on the paper cut. its pathetic!!!


i've decided not 2 trust any1.... coz the pple whom i really really trust has just proved me that i cant trust them. i cant trust any1... real sad but yar... i muz learn 2 keep everything 2 myself then. i really hate myself.... i think the only person/thing i trust is either my diary or my stuff toys. sigh..... i'm real disappointed in myself, to think that i really have sum1 i can really trst but turns out to be a big fat lie.

its 12am!!! wich means it 11 september. i shall announce then.

i have been kicked out of arc.


NJRC is my last event.


i was kicked out last wednesday, 1 september, teachers' day.


i'm sad, really sad.


being extra nice 2 evry1.


shall work hard after NJRC.


will be arc supporter.


still sad. stressed. tryin 2 get over it!!!


listenin 2 music 2 help.


i'm sure a few pple other than mr tan, mr kang n e sec 1s already knew abt it.


The Remedy (I Won't Worry) - Jason Mraz


I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of july,
Freedom ring now something on the surface it stings
That something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease


If you've got the poison
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Because it all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be
Right back after this
The unavoidable kiss,
Where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophe
Dance with me,


Because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


When I fall in love
I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but
I'm still gonna shine and
I'll tell you why
Because


The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't and I won't and I won't etc.

sighx.......... my team actually made it 2 top 30....... dun noe why.... *shrugs* its a big question mark 2 all of us. anyway, we made it somehow..... i dun noe.........

i'm really sad at the moment....... not telling, will reveal my secret later........... i really am gonna miss this.

1/3's class comm is breaking apart............. its no longer united, it changed, a lot. not only is the class comm breaking apart, so is 1/3. everyone's speaking bhind each other, especially close friends, friends u knew ever since P1, even best friends. i'm juz sad to say that i really hate this feeling of being in a world of gossip, insults, back-stabbers and all. i dun even feel like gg 2 e class blog most of the time. i really dun noe wat 2 do.............. to at least help. to think that i was a conflict manager back in primary sch. i'm really useless, stupid, dumb. i'm an idiot, a big one. did i mention best friends speaking ill of each other? this really sux. my life sux, i suck...........

haiyoh....welcome stefhaniquek....shes juz next 2 me now. muahaha. ok yar. so things have been e same. blah blah blah..... ok i'm startin 2 b lame again.
 
e movie, mean girls is damn funny. haha... shud watch it AGAIN!!!!!!!! muahahaha. i'm really evil 2dae, rite? heehee..so sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long. cant use e net, long story... ok i'm leavin soon so i'll hurry up.
 
abt e movie, i can say i was kinda freaked out. i was sittin nxt 2 dan n i wanted 2 tell dan dat ad was vry cartoonish... when i saw sumtin real scary in e row bhind us. derewas dis couple makin out. so sick. i told dan 2 luk baq instead. den dan passed it down all e way 2 gretch. eeewwwww... real sick. u dun wanna noe wat was gg on. its sendin chills down my spine.
 
haha, it happened 2 stef 2. haha, she said e couple was juz nxt 2 dem. ugh...... lolz... briana damn hapi now lar... got more company with the same experience... *pukes* sukerooooo!!!! -quek
 
-_-""""""" ok it was stef juz now, she left her name dere. yar yar. 
 
hey sars, muz reply 2 e letter orh. ok,its racial harmony  2mrw n i'm gonna wear my costume 2 support my class. yaryar.... was tryin 2 persuade 1/3..... -to 1/3: pls pls pls lar........- haiyoh,ok gtg bb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi, sry 4 not updating. i've been so utterly insulted on e class blog. dis is e vry 1st time i was ever called a b****. sigh..... dis really sucked. now e whole of 1/9 hates me. no. 1, i din start it. it really sux. i really hate it, n i oredi apologized 2 linnette, danielle tinks deres sumtin wrong wif me coz i'm apologizin when its not my fault n i din even start it. sigh...... i will have 2 learn 2 take it. i juz wish dose immature pple wud stop insulting 1/3.

deres a hacker hackin in2 1/3's blog (i tink). e class blog skin was changed n none of e class comm members changed it. really weird though, n freaky.

its still the 25th.

sigh, it was a rather freakin day 4 me. i was tryin my vry best 2 get jia neng, but failed. den called gerri 2 tell her liz n i were e only sec 1s gg 2 e airport, so she called vera, but she cudnt get her. so i had 2 call both jia neng n vera 2 tell dem liz n i were e only sec 1s gg. sigh, den diana sms-ed me, tellin me dere was cip 2mrw, wanted me 2 inform e rest. i called jocelyn, ok. den i told liz, she told me she oredi had 17 hrs of cip n so, i had 2 tell diana n she wanted liz 2 photocopy dat page. ok so i told her, n liz said she had 2 have it stamped n all so i had 2 tell diana. ok, den tried callin chin chow, tght she was baq in s'pore. unfortunately, she wasnt baq, i tink. her hp wasnt answered. i told diana n she said 2 look 4 substitutes. i frantically went lukin 4 2pple 2 cum along, i called matilda n eunice, but cudnt get dem. called gerri, but she cudnt cum. so i had 2 luk 4 e seniors. well, it was kinda hard. coz most of e seniors had enuf cip hrs. i finally called donna n yay, she cud make it. so told diana. sigh....... din luk 4 another person coz diana said 4pple was juz enuf.

it has been really borin dese few days. its like i have no motivation 2 do my homework. dats terrible. i had 2 force myself. sigh..... y m i so lazy.

dat video savina was tokin abt, it gives me e creeps, it was really gross. dun ever wanna watch it again...

sigh. 2day i called grace n accidentally called her by her surname. aw man, i din mean it. so sry grace, really din mean it.

i dun noe y but my bad memories keeps flashin in my head. y cant they b good memories. my mum keeps complainin abt me not being proud dat my family is broken. its like... i cant help it. dat vry day, i witnessed my parents quarellin. dat was like 8 years ago, but it seems clear to me, its like i can remember what exactly happened. what they said. where it was. where my bro n i were standin. everything, its like a nightmare. how can i ever 4get when dat scene, i keep seein it. i was only 5. i wud have 4gotten it. but its like a huge impact on me.

i really wonder how long dis will go on. i'm tryin 2 fight it. sigh.

i juz wish i was brain-washed. 4get abt what happened n sry grace.


Us Against The World - Play
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

I met someone the other night
Someone I really started to like
How will I know if it's right for me
I wonder if we are meant to be
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

You know that boy I started to see
He thinks he can have it all for free
I wonder if he's the one for me
I try to talk to myself into see
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothin better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

Whenever you're near there is no fear
Feels like there's nothing I can't do
Make me feel strong
'Cause its here with you is where I belong

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that

There isn't anybody else but you
That makes me feel the way that i do
There isn't no body else but you

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World...

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

my name????? krista??? krista ang??? ugh

u may b wonderin y i'm still online... hmmmmm, my mum din take e cpu wif her. ok, haha. errrrrr...........

went 2 arc rm wif liz 2dae. it felt weird but nvm. liz n i were lookin 4 e frs mentor bklt but cudnt find it but diana's gonna print a copy 4 us, yay!!! ahem...

ok nvm, e movie was great, but carmen n i were e only two watchin it. natalie had cip, carmen's fren said she din wanna cum. o well... e movie is great. dun understand y sum say e movie sucked n all. even though it was great, i was still pissed coz harry only got his firebolt in e end, sirius din sign harry's form 2 go 2 hogsmede n dey missed out so many. bah...... but it was still good. dere was dis scene when harry was like dis n dat wif e werewolf n i was like tuggin on carmen's sleeve, when e werewolf suddenly appeared out of nowhere, carmen wanted 2 pat my shoulder, but covered my eyes instead. *blink blink* newae, i liked e movie. haha.

after e movie, i followed carmen 2 city hall 2 return natalie her hp. we were sittin on e floor n it was embarrasin coz evryone was like lukin at us n it gave me a really funny feelin. newae, natalie finally arrived at e station n i was like 1/4 dead. i was desperate 2 return 2 tp. bah..... reached tp at arnd 7.15pm. so weird, how times flies.

i still have doubt abt e class gatherin. 1/3, can we have it at e end of e year???? newae, if all 38 of us r gg 2 e chalet, n if we gonna have it at costa sands(downtown east), we will most prob get e duplex(2-storey) wich cost $99. so we're gonna get 2 duplex chalets n its gonna cost us $198. includin e food, dat'll b arnd $50 n dat means each person has 2 pay abt $8 4 e food n chalet. o yar, its a 3days-2nite ting, sry no 2day-1nite coz e min is 2-nites...wat kind of english is dat. haiz... newae, tok abt it in class, yar?

ok gtg, sayonara...


Summer Sunshine - The Corrs

I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Ya da... ya da... ya da

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

haha, i like e new layout. it looks cool. heehee.

today's fathers' day...... wat else can i say? nvm........... *blink blink* if u know wat i mean.

argh i hvnt started on my hw n i'm oredi struggling wif chinese. e blardy essay abt me....... man, i dun even noe wat 2 include. *shakes head* i'm halfway thru english. i tink i'm gonna stay up 2nite 2 try 2 finish up my hw. bah.........

i juz realized mandy moore sounds really gd singin cry. haha, i'm really slow. like wat happened a few days baq. was watchin tv, when my mum told me 2 alert her when it's 2pm. i juz went on watchin tv........ then when i glanced at e clock, i realized it was oredi 2.45pm. i told my mum it was oredi 2.45pm n she said she realized too n said i was slow. by 45 mins. haha. datz lame.

shud 1/3 really have e bbq???? i mean e last time we wanted a movie-outing, it din really work out. then we said to send mdm ismiralda off, but sum said dey couldnt make it in e end coz dey wanted 2 go 2 e library or j8. *raises eyebrows* only 5 1/3ers turned up.... now a bbq? will it work???? sum1 even suggested rentin a chalet?!?! sheesh, dat person muz b rich... haiz.... dun even noe whether it will stil work out.

i'm finally gonna watch harry potter. not wif sars, esti n jess. but wif natalie, carmen n carmen's fren. haiz, sars n esti suddenly said dey din wanna watch n jess said no too. haiz, nvm. still glad sum1's watchin it wif me.

e hols r abt 2 end. is dat gd or bad? hmmmm..... i dun noe. seriously, its really borin at home. nothing to do bsides homework!!!

i shall stop bloggin n stare in2 space. haha, jk. sayonara!!!


Cry - Mandy Moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed

Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It was late September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Chorus

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon

Chorus 2xs out

sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long.

i recently found out my dad wanted 2 name me mercedez, u noe e car? ridiculous rite? my mum said dere were three readsons y he wanted 2 name me mercedez.

1) he likes the car mercedez

2) he was sellin the car mercedez dat year

3) he tinks the name is unique and vry few pple walk arnd wif e name mercedez

can u imagine wat it wud b like if i were really named mercedez?

ok, e nyaa camp was really fun, i liked e trek even though my baq hurt after e trek. still enjoyed it.

sry, dis entry is really short.

the mass today was great. so fun. said hi 2 mrs eugenie tan but she din sound 2 happy. den i found out esti, anne-marie lee n jessica teo were e 3 toots.anne-marie lee's pinafore was short n her socks were low. esti n jessica purposely put deir belts at deir hips n folded deir socks. no wonder mrs tan din sound happy. i was like "hi mrs tan" n she was like "hi briana" in a vry annoyed tone. i was wonderin y she wasnt one bit happy abt founders day until jessica told me. i was like "ohhhhhhh............." ooookkkkkkkkkk..... hmmmmmmmm...........

went out wif mag, matilda n liz. omg. bumped in2 ashley shanti n cherry tan at j8. matilda was buggin abt ashley "lyin" 2 her abt cumin baq 2 ij. well she din. she went 2 crenscent instead. haha, den bumped in2 cherry tan. o no, 4got 2 ask cherry 4 her email addie. o well, nvm. haha....

went baq 2 sch after returnin 2 tp. was wonderin y jocelyn din cum 4 arc trainin. saw her at j8 but din say hi 2 her. she was wif her friend. hmmmmmmmmm........... did she 4get? hope she remembers 2 cum 2mrw. blah...blah...blah....had trainin till 6+, waited 4 diana, bought batteries, den went home. heehee, dun feel like bloggin now. bb

Mandy
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy

[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...

Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy

sry if my attitude change so abruptly. sry f i've bcum bad n loud n all. real sry, i have a reason 4 doin it. i know dat sum pple r not vry happy with who i m. im tryin my vry best 2 ignore it. its hard but i will try. i have 2 finish e robot. i must, by 2nite. i really hope all dese din happen n i hope i cud turn baq time. its really hurtin 2 see wat i've bcum. i really wan 2 let it all out. i cant keep it in anymore. i simply cant. y cant i accept myself? y? its really depressin. i wish all dese din happen, i really do. haiz..... i noe i wun make it anymore, i'm bound 2 lose. i'm a jinx. i received n email abt "simple friends VS real friends". its makin me worse. hu's a true friend? i juz realized i'm really alone n doesnt really have friends. even though i know so many pple, i dun have a real, true friend. i trust pple, i do. but when i trust dat person a lot, dey start 2 turn deir backs 2wards me. it happens often. izzit juz me? m i e cause of all dese??? i tink i m. im e worst person on earth. i noe dat e person nxt 2 me is sum1 hu doesnt really care if i'm dead or wat. my mum tinks i'm a failure. my dad tinks i'm a bully. my bro takes me as sumone 2 make fun of. my grandma tinks i'm always in e wrong. e whole world hates me, i noe dat. my friends tink i'm a total freak. i tried my best 2 ignore all dese but a voice in my head keeps tellin me all dat happen n it reminds me of everything. i really wan 2 let it all out. i wanna go 2 sleep n never ever open my eyes again. i dun even noe wat im like. wat m i supposed 2 do??

i'm really tired. not physically. but tired of wats happenin in 1/3. y did i have 2 break down at a bad time. y?y? it cant b. y cudnt hold baq my tears. i cudnt. i was really pushed 2 e end. i cudnt pick myself up, i juz cudnt, i cudnt hold baq my tears, y? y? wat happened 2 me? i cant believe i broke down in school, when i was trying 2 do wats rite, doin wats fair 2 others.

y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*

y is 1/3 like dis? y?

many things happened after e exams....

it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.

wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*

Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

life hasnt been gd since i've started "e nxt chapter". esti was right, i was much more carefree in primary school, not like e present me, lonely, sad. wat happened 2 me? wat happened. y have i bcum helpless. y? my mum juz gave me a scolding, n she has totally taken over my life. wat m i 2 do now?

14 May 2004

yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb

Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.


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Cant take it nemore!!!!!!! my idiotic brother keeps makin up stories n I bcome e 1 at wrong. He has no respect at all!!! He doesn’t noe e meaning of privacy. I wanna leave home, never 2 go baq. But I cant, I juz cant. I wanna kill myself, once n 4 all. It keeps happenin but I cant do neting abt it.i cant fight baq like wat I did years baq. It wun work n I cant take nemore. evr1 muz pick on me. Life can never b meaningful 2 me nemore. as long as I can leave dis place I dun care nemore. i juz wan dis 2 b over once n 4 all. my mum keeps tellin me my dad's bad my dad is suspectin me. my brother luks down on me... sobz.... i'm always bullied. i'm e black sheep...

6th May 2004, Thursday

sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.

went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...

7th May 2004, Friday

2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......

i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...