haiyoh....welcome stefhaniquek....shes juz next 2 me now. muahaha. ok yar. so things have been e same. blah blah blah..... ok i'm startin 2 b lame again.
e movie, mean girls is damn funny. haha... shud watch it AGAIN!!!!!!!! muahahaha. i'm really evil 2dae, rite? heehee..so sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long. cant use e net, long story... ok i'm leavin soon so i'll hurry up.
abt e movie, i can say i was kinda freaked out. i was sittin nxt 2 dan n i wanted 2 tell dan dat ad was vry cartoonish... when i saw sumtin real scary in e row bhind us. derewas dis couple makin out. so sick. i told dan 2 luk baq instead. den dan passed it down all e way 2 gretch. eeewwwww... real sick. u dun wanna noe wat was gg on. its sendin chills down my spine.
haha, it happened 2 stef 2. haha, she said e couple was juz nxt 2 dem. ugh...... lolz... briana damn hapi now lar... got more company with the same experience... *pukes* sukerooooo!!!! -quek
-_-""""""" ok it was stef juz now, she left her name dere. yar yar.
hey sars, muz reply 2 e letter orh. ok,its racial harmony 2mrw n i'm gonna wear my costume 2 support my class. yaryar.... was tryin 2 persuade 1/3..... -to 1/3: pls pls pls lar........- haiyoh,ok gtg bb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 08, 2004
hi, sry 4 not updating. i've been so utterly insulted on e class blog. dis is e vry 1st time i was ever called a b****. sigh..... dis really sucked. now e whole of 1/9 hates me. no. 1, i din start it. it really sux. i really hate it, n i oredi apologized 2 linnette, danielle tinks deres sumtin wrong wif me coz i'm apologizin when its not my fault n i din even start it. sigh...... i will have 2 learn 2 take it. i juz wish dose immature pple wud stop insulting 1/3.
deres a hacker hackin in2 1/3's blog (i tink). e class blog skin was changed n none of e class comm members changed it. really weird though, n freaky.
deres a hacker hackin in2 1/3's blog (i tink). e class blog skin was changed n none of e class comm members changed it. really weird though, n freaky.
Friday, June 25, 2004
its still the 25th.
sigh, it was a rather freakin day 4 me. i was tryin my vry best 2 get jia neng, but failed. den called gerri 2 tell her liz n i were e only sec 1s gg 2 e airport, so she called vera, but she cudnt get her. so i had 2 call both jia neng n vera 2 tell dem liz n i were e only sec 1s gg. sigh, den diana sms-ed me, tellin me dere was cip 2mrw, wanted me 2 inform e rest. i called jocelyn, ok. den i told liz, she told me she oredi had 17 hrs of cip n so, i had 2 tell diana n she wanted liz 2 photocopy dat page. ok so i told her, n liz said she had 2 have it stamped n all so i had 2 tell diana. ok, den tried callin chin chow, tght she was baq in s'pore. unfortunately, she wasnt baq, i tink. her hp wasnt answered. i told diana n she said 2 look 4 substitutes. i frantically went lukin 4 2pple 2 cum along, i called matilda n eunice, but cudnt get dem. called gerri, but she cudnt cum. so i had 2 luk 4 e seniors. well, it was kinda hard. coz most of e seniors had enuf cip hrs. i finally called donna n yay, she cud make it. so told diana. sigh....... din luk 4 another person coz diana said 4pple was juz enuf.
it has been really borin dese few days. its like i have no motivation 2 do my homework. dats terrible. i had 2 force myself. sigh..... y m i so lazy.
dat video savina was tokin abt, it gives me e creeps, it was really gross. dun ever wanna watch it again...
sigh. 2day i called grace n accidentally called her by her surname. aw man, i din mean it. so sry grace, really din mean it.
i dun noe y but my bad memories keeps flashin in my head. y cant they b good memories. my mum keeps complainin abt me not being proud dat my family is broken. its like... i cant help it. dat vry day, i witnessed my parents quarellin. dat was like 8 years ago, but it seems clear to me, its like i can remember what exactly happened. what they said. where it was. where my bro n i were standin. everything, its like a nightmare. how can i ever 4get when dat scene, i keep seein it. i was only 5. i wud have 4gotten it. but its like a huge impact on me.
i really wonder how long dis will go on. i'm tryin 2 fight it. sigh.
i juz wish i was brain-washed. 4get abt what happened n sry grace.
Us Against The World - Play
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
I met someone the other night
Someone I really started to like
How will I know if it's right for me
I wonder if we are meant to be
Don't start to like him too much too soon
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
You know that boy I started to see
He thinks he can have it all for free
I wonder if he's the one for me
I try to talk to myself into see
Don't start to like him too much too soon
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothin better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
Whenever you're near there is no fear
Feels like there's nothing I can't do
Make me feel strong
'Cause its here with you is where I belong
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
There isn't anybody else but you
That makes me feel the way that i do
There isn't no body else but you
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World...
sigh, it was a rather freakin day 4 me. i was tryin my vry best 2 get jia neng, but failed. den called gerri 2 tell her liz n i were e only sec 1s gg 2 e airport, so she called vera, but she cudnt get her. so i had 2 call both jia neng n vera 2 tell dem liz n i were e only sec 1s gg. sigh, den diana sms-ed me, tellin me dere was cip 2mrw, wanted me 2 inform e rest. i called jocelyn, ok. den i told liz, she told me she oredi had 17 hrs of cip n so, i had 2 tell diana n she wanted liz 2 photocopy dat page. ok so i told her, n liz said she had 2 have it stamped n all so i had 2 tell diana. ok, den tried callin chin chow, tght she was baq in s'pore. unfortunately, she wasnt baq, i tink. her hp wasnt answered. i told diana n she said 2 look 4 substitutes. i frantically went lukin 4 2pple 2 cum along, i called matilda n eunice, but cudnt get dem. called gerri, but she cudnt cum. so i had 2 luk 4 e seniors. well, it was kinda hard. coz most of e seniors had enuf cip hrs. i finally called donna n yay, she cud make it. so told diana. sigh....... din luk 4 another person coz diana said 4pple was juz enuf.
it has been really borin dese few days. its like i have no motivation 2 do my homework. dats terrible. i had 2 force myself. sigh..... y m i so lazy.
dat video savina was tokin abt, it gives me e creeps, it was really gross. dun ever wanna watch it again...
sigh. 2day i called grace n accidentally called her by her surname. aw man, i din mean it. so sry grace, really din mean it.
i dun noe y but my bad memories keeps flashin in my head. y cant they b good memories. my mum keeps complainin abt me not being proud dat my family is broken. its like... i cant help it. dat vry day, i witnessed my parents quarellin. dat was like 8 years ago, but it seems clear to me, its like i can remember what exactly happened. what they said. where it was. where my bro n i were standin. everything, its like a nightmare. how can i ever 4get when dat scene, i keep seein it. i was only 5. i wud have 4gotten it. but its like a huge impact on me.
i really wonder how long dis will go on. i'm tryin 2 fight it. sigh.
i juz wish i was brain-washed. 4get abt what happened n sry grace.
Us Against The World - Play
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
I met someone the other night
Someone I really started to like
How will I know if it's right for me
I wonder if we are meant to be
Don't start to like him too much too soon
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
You know that boy I started to see
He thinks he can have it all for free
I wonder if he's the one for me
I try to talk to myself into see
Don't start to like him too much too soon
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothin better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
Whenever you're near there is no fear
Feels like there's nothing I can't do
Make me feel strong
'Cause its here with you is where I belong
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
There isn't anybody else but you
That makes me feel the way that i do
There isn't no body else but you
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World...
Monday, June 21, 2004
u may b wonderin y i'm still online... hmmmmm, my mum din take e cpu wif her. ok, haha. errrrrr...........
went 2 arc rm wif liz 2dae. it felt weird but nvm. liz n i were lookin 4 e frs mentor bklt but cudnt find it but diana's gonna print a copy 4 us, yay!!! ahem...
ok nvm, e movie was great, but carmen n i were e only two watchin it. natalie had cip, carmen's fren said she din wanna cum. o well... e movie is great. dun understand y sum say e movie sucked n all. even though it was great, i was still pissed coz harry only got his firebolt in e end, sirius din sign harry's form 2 go 2 hogsmede n dey missed out so many. bah...... but it was still good. dere was dis scene when harry was like dis n dat wif e werewolf n i was like tuggin on carmen's sleeve, when e werewolf suddenly appeared out of nowhere, carmen wanted 2 pat my shoulder, but covered my eyes instead. *blink blink* newae, i liked e movie. haha.
after e movie, i followed carmen 2 city hall 2 return natalie her hp. we were sittin on e floor n it was embarrasin coz evryone was like lukin at us n it gave me a really funny feelin. newae, natalie finally arrived at e station n i was like 1/4 dead. i was desperate 2 return 2 tp. bah..... reached tp at arnd 7.15pm. so weird, how times flies.
i still have doubt abt e class gatherin. 1/3, can we have it at e end of e year???? newae, if all 38 of us r gg 2 e chalet, n if we gonna have it at costa sands(downtown east), we will most prob get e duplex(2-storey) wich cost $99. so we're gonna get 2 duplex chalets n its gonna cost us $198. includin e food, dat'll b arnd $50 n dat means each person has 2 pay abt $8 4 e food n chalet. o yar, its a 3days-2nite ting, sry no 2day-1nite coz e min is 2-nites...wat kind of english is dat. haiz... newae, tok abt it in class, yar?
ok gtg, sayonara...
Summer Sunshine - The Corrs
I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Ya da... ya da... ya da
To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
The heat.....
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
went 2 arc rm wif liz 2dae. it felt weird but nvm. liz n i were lookin 4 e frs mentor bklt but cudnt find it but diana's gonna print a copy 4 us, yay!!! ahem...
ok nvm, e movie was great, but carmen n i were e only two watchin it. natalie had cip, carmen's fren said she din wanna cum. o well... e movie is great. dun understand y sum say e movie sucked n all. even though it was great, i was still pissed coz harry only got his firebolt in e end, sirius din sign harry's form 2 go 2 hogsmede n dey missed out so many. bah...... but it was still good. dere was dis scene when harry was like dis n dat wif e werewolf n i was like tuggin on carmen's sleeve, when e werewolf suddenly appeared out of nowhere, carmen wanted 2 pat my shoulder, but covered my eyes instead. *blink blink* newae, i liked e movie. haha.
after e movie, i followed carmen 2 city hall 2 return natalie her hp. we were sittin on e floor n it was embarrasin coz evryone was like lukin at us n it gave me a really funny feelin. newae, natalie finally arrived at e station n i was like 1/4 dead. i was desperate 2 return 2 tp. bah..... reached tp at arnd 7.15pm. so weird, how times flies.
i still have doubt abt e class gatherin. 1/3, can we have it at e end of e year???? newae, if all 38 of us r gg 2 e chalet, n if we gonna have it at costa sands(downtown east), we will most prob get e duplex(2-storey) wich cost $99. so we're gonna get 2 duplex chalets n its gonna cost us $198. includin e food, dat'll b arnd $50 n dat means each person has 2 pay abt $8 4 e food n chalet. o yar, its a 3days-2nite ting, sry no 2day-1nite coz e min is 2-nites...wat kind of english is dat. haiz... newae, tok abt it in class, yar?
ok gtg, sayonara...
Summer Sunshine - The Corrs
I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Ya da... ya da... ya da
To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
The heat.....
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Sunday, June 20, 2004
haha, i like e new layout. it looks cool. heehee.
today's fathers' day...... wat else can i say? nvm........... *blink blink* if u know wat i mean.
argh i hvnt started on my hw n i'm oredi struggling wif chinese. e blardy essay abt me....... man, i dun even noe wat 2 include. *shakes head* i'm halfway thru english. i tink i'm gonna stay up 2nite 2 try 2 finish up my hw. bah.........
i juz realized mandy moore sounds really gd singin cry. haha, i'm really slow. like wat happened a few days baq. was watchin tv, when my mum told me 2 alert her when it's 2pm. i juz went on watchin tv........ then when i glanced at e clock, i realized it was oredi 2.45pm. i told my mum it was oredi 2.45pm n she said she realized too n said i was slow. by 45 mins. haha. datz lame.
shud 1/3 really have e bbq???? i mean e last time we wanted a movie-outing, it din really work out. then we said to send mdm ismiralda off, but sum said dey couldnt make it in e end coz dey wanted 2 go 2 e library or j8. *raises eyebrows* only 5 1/3ers turned up.... now a bbq? will it work???? sum1 even suggested rentin a chalet?!?! sheesh, dat person muz b rich... haiz.... dun even noe whether it will stil work out.
i'm finally gonna watch harry potter. not wif sars, esti n jess. but wif natalie, carmen n carmen's fren. haiz, sars n esti suddenly said dey din wanna watch n jess said no too. haiz, nvm. still glad sum1's watchin it wif me.
e hols r abt 2 end. is dat gd or bad? hmmmm..... i dun noe. seriously, its really borin at home. nothing to do bsides homework!!!
i shall stop bloggin n stare in2 space. haha, jk. sayonara!!!
Cry - Mandy Moore
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed
Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
It was late September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
Chorus
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon
Chorus 2xs out
today's fathers' day...... wat else can i say? nvm........... *blink blink* if u know wat i mean.
argh i hvnt started on my hw n i'm oredi struggling wif chinese. e blardy essay abt me....... man, i dun even noe wat 2 include. *shakes head* i'm halfway thru english. i tink i'm gonna stay up 2nite 2 try 2 finish up my hw. bah.........
i juz realized mandy moore sounds really gd singin cry. haha, i'm really slow. like wat happened a few days baq. was watchin tv, when my mum told me 2 alert her when it's 2pm. i juz went on watchin tv........ then when i glanced at e clock, i realized it was oredi 2.45pm. i told my mum it was oredi 2.45pm n she said she realized too n said i was slow. by 45 mins. haha. datz lame.
shud 1/3 really have e bbq???? i mean e last time we wanted a movie-outing, it din really work out. then we said to send mdm ismiralda off, but sum said dey couldnt make it in e end coz dey wanted 2 go 2 e library or j8. *raises eyebrows* only 5 1/3ers turned up.... now a bbq? will it work???? sum1 even suggested rentin a chalet?!?! sheesh, dat person muz b rich... haiz.... dun even noe whether it will stil work out.
i'm finally gonna watch harry potter. not wif sars, esti n jess. but wif natalie, carmen n carmen's fren. haiz, sars n esti suddenly said dey din wanna watch n jess said no too. haiz, nvm. still glad sum1's watchin it wif me.
e hols r abt 2 end. is dat gd or bad? hmmmm..... i dun noe. seriously, its really borin at home. nothing to do bsides homework!!!
i shall stop bloggin n stare in2 space. haha, jk. sayonara!!!
Cry - Mandy Moore
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed
Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
It was late September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
Chorus
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon
Chorus 2xs out
Monday, June 14, 2004
sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long.
i recently found out my dad wanted 2 name me mercedez, u noe e car? ridiculous rite? my mum said dere were three readsons y he wanted 2 name me mercedez.
1) he likes the car mercedez
2) he was sellin the car mercedez dat year
3) he tinks the name is unique and vry few pple walk arnd wif e name mercedez
can u imagine wat it wud b like if i were really named mercedez?
ok, e nyaa camp was really fun, i liked e trek even though my baq hurt after e trek. still enjoyed it.
sry, dis entry is really short.
i recently found out my dad wanted 2 name me mercedez, u noe e car? ridiculous rite? my mum said dere were three readsons y he wanted 2 name me mercedez.
1) he likes the car mercedez
2) he was sellin the car mercedez dat year
3) he tinks the name is unique and vry few pple walk arnd wif e name mercedez
can u imagine wat it wud b like if i were really named mercedez?
ok, e nyaa camp was really fun, i liked e trek even though my baq hurt after e trek. still enjoyed it.
sry, dis entry is really short.
Friday, May 28, 2004
the mass today was great. so fun. said hi 2 mrs eugenie tan but she din sound 2 happy. den i found out esti, anne-marie lee n jessica teo were e 3 toots.anne-marie lee's pinafore was short n her socks were low. esti n jessica purposely put deir belts at deir hips n folded deir socks. no wonder mrs tan din sound happy. i was like "hi mrs tan" n she was like "hi briana" in a vry annoyed tone. i was wonderin y she wasnt one bit happy abt founders day until jessica told me. i was like "ohhhhhhh............." ooookkkkkkkkkk..... hmmmmmmmm...........
went out wif mag, matilda n liz. omg. bumped in2 ashley shanti n cherry tan at j8. matilda was buggin abt ashley "lyin" 2 her abt cumin baq 2 ij. well she din. she went 2 crenscent instead. haha, den bumped in2 cherry tan. o no, 4got 2 ask cherry 4 her email addie. o well, nvm. haha....
went baq 2 sch after returnin 2 tp. was wonderin y jocelyn din cum 4 arc trainin. saw her at j8 but din say hi 2 her. she was wif her friend. hmmmmmmmmm........... did she 4get? hope she remembers 2 cum 2mrw. blah...blah...blah....had trainin till 6+, waited 4 diana, bought batteries, den went home. heehee, dun feel like bloggin now. bb
Mandy
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into
Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy
[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy
I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy
went out wif mag, matilda n liz. omg. bumped in2 ashley shanti n cherry tan at j8. matilda was buggin abt ashley "lyin" 2 her abt cumin baq 2 ij. well she din. she went 2 crenscent instead. haha, den bumped in2 cherry tan. o no, 4got 2 ask cherry 4 her email addie. o well, nvm. haha....
went baq 2 sch after returnin 2 tp. was wonderin y jocelyn din cum 4 arc trainin. saw her at j8 but din say hi 2 her. she was wif her friend. hmmmmmmmmm........... did she 4get? hope she remembers 2 cum 2mrw. blah...blah...blah....had trainin till 6+, waited 4 diana, bought batteries, den went home. heehee, dun feel like bloggin now. bb
Mandy
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into
Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy
[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy
I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy
Thursday, May 27, 2004
sry if my attitude change so abruptly. sry f i've bcum bad n loud n all. real sry, i have a reason 4 doin it. i know dat sum pple r not vry happy with who i m. im tryin my vry best 2 ignore it. its hard but i will try. i have 2 finish e robot. i must, by 2nite. i really hope all dese din happen n i hope i cud turn baq time. its really hurtin 2 see wat i've bcum. i really wan 2 let it all out. i cant keep it in anymore. i simply cant. y cant i accept myself? y? its really depressin. i wish all dese din happen, i really do. haiz..... i noe i wun make it anymore, i'm bound 2 lose. i'm a jinx. i received n email abt "simple friends VS real friends". its makin me worse. hu's a true friend? i juz realized i'm really alone n doesnt really have friends. even though i know so many pple, i dun have a real, true friend. i trust pple, i do. but when i trust dat person a lot, dey start 2 turn deir backs 2wards me. it happens often. izzit juz me? m i e cause of all dese??? i tink i m. im e worst person on earth. i noe dat e person nxt 2 me is sum1 hu doesnt really care if i'm dead or wat. my mum tinks i'm a failure. my dad tinks i'm a bully. my bro takes me as sumone 2 make fun of. my grandma tinks i'm always in e wrong. e whole world hates me, i noe dat. my friends tink i'm a total freak. i tried my best 2 ignore all dese but a voice in my head keeps tellin me all dat happen n it reminds me of everything. i really wan 2 let it all out. i wanna go 2 sleep n never ever open my eyes again. i dun even noe wat im like. wat m i supposed 2 do??
Monday, May 24, 2004
i'm really tired. not physically. but tired of wats happenin in 1/3. y did i have 2 break down at a bad time. y?y? it cant b. y cudnt hold baq my tears. i cudnt. i was really pushed 2 e end. i cudnt pick myself up, i juz cudnt, i cudnt hold baq my tears, y? y? wat happened 2 me? i cant believe i broke down in school, when i was trying 2 do wats rite, doin wats fair 2 others.
y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*
y is 1/3 like dis? y?
many things happened after e exams....
it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.
wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*
Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*
y is 1/3 like dis? y?
many things happened after e exams....
it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.
wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*
Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Monday, May 17, 2004
Saturday, May 15, 2004
14 May 2004
yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb
yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.
What class of vampire are you? (more new images!)
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Sunday, May 09, 2004
Cant take it nemore!!!!!!! my idiotic brother keeps makin up stories n I bcome e 1 at wrong. He has no respect at all!!! He doesn’t noe e meaning of privacy. I wanna leave home, never 2 go baq. But I cant, I juz cant. I wanna kill myself, once n 4 all. It keeps happenin but I cant do neting abt it.i cant fight baq like wat I did years baq. It wun work n I cant take nemore. evr1 muz pick on me. Life can never b meaningful 2 me nemore. as long as I can leave dis place I dun care nemore. i juz wan dis 2 b over once n 4 all. my mum keeps tellin me my dad's bad my dad is suspectin me. my brother luks down on me... sobz.... i'm always bullied. i'm e black sheep...
Friday, May 07, 2004
6th May 2004, Thursday
sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.
went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...
7th May 2004, Friday
2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......
i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...
sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.
went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...
7th May 2004, Friday
2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......
i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...
Life is so stressful
this poem may suck
and some waddle like a duck
but i did my best
its never better than the rest
Everyday's a busy day
Homework, homework and more homework
and there i lay
on that pile of work
School seems like forever
but friends dont seem to last forever
they leave you one day
on the bed you lay
wondering where they are
but they are really far
you may not catch up wif them
but they will live in your heart
as long as they're your best friends
they will one day return
Exams are round the corner
and it doesnt seem like forever
life is so stressed
you'll never feel the best
Everytime
you think of the sad times
it'll make you cry
till your eyes are dry
life is just so stressed
i wanna wish for the best
haha, i noe the poem is lame n sum dont even rhyme. cherlynn n i wrote it. was bored in class so yeah.....deres another poem written by her over at her blog. heehee....
this poem may suck
and some waddle like a duck
but i did my best
its never better than the rest
Everyday's a busy day
Homework, homework and more homework
and there i lay
on that pile of work
School seems like forever
but friends dont seem to last forever
they leave you one day
on the bed you lay
wondering where they are
but they are really far
you may not catch up wif them
but they will live in your heart
as long as they're your best friends
they will one day return
Exams are round the corner
and it doesnt seem like forever
life is so stressed
you'll never feel the best
Everytime
you think of the sad times
it'll make you cry
till your eyes are dry
life is just so stressed
i wanna wish for the best
haha, i noe the poem is lame n sum dont even rhyme. cherlynn n i wrote it. was bored in class so yeah.....deres another poem written by her over at her blog. heehee....
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
You are Ruchia, you are a born leader. You never
forget those close to you even after they are
gone. You have never forgotten your first love,
even if you have lost hope of ever seeing him
again. You have a pure heart that no one can
break. You face danger instead of running away.
You live to protect those close to your heart.
What Mermaid Melody Princess Are You?{for girls}(Seven outcomes)
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you gotta be Vincent the dark and mysterious one
Which Final Fantasy character are you?
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Which Final Fantasy character are you?
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You're a sad, failed teen. If you wear black,
you're an angst-teen but a real one. Keep on
living, you'll be an adult in about five years
and then you can remember how bad childhood you
had and laugh your head off.
Stupid Teenangst test: Where do you belong?
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You Are Like Piper! Sarcastic and always stressed
out. You are also down to earth and a bit of a
control freak too. But you're always there to
support your sisters. You have good leadership
skills too
Which Charmed One Are You?
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