[only the three of us]

mag showed me this page of her notebook. go to her blog to view that page cause she scanned it in. click here. yeah i said she would never abide it... haha well, wonder if she has been following it since she even wrote that on her notebook. well, good luck mag.

that pile of homework i have is growing at an astronomical rate. haha maybe i should do the same. haha then mag'll have a chance to say i would never ever abide it. well, true, haha i seriously lack self discipline. so i procrastinate too! hee...

well, shall continue with part 3, up to you if you wanna read it though, or you might choose to click on the 'X' on the top right hand corner of this window.

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day 7
woke up really early to get ready for school day 2. yeah, well, not much changed. just that we played volleyball during health and it was kinda fun. in the afternoon, ew had a chance to take a look at the different CCAs they had and all. well, a few of us stayed to look at what the robotics club were doing and all. yeah, their frc robot is like wow. haha, a few of them were playing games and all, and it was kinda cool. they were also building a playing field for themselves. yeap... we returned to the inn and started the iron chef competition. ij won, haha thanks to eliza. yeap, dinner was yummy although i didnt eat much. after that we were told we were going to new york the next day. then we were just going around, watching tv and all. and went to bed.

day 8
sort of our last day in pennsylvania because the next morning, we will be leaving, leaving behind our memories. well, we woke up really early to take the tour bus to new york. it was just that 2 and a half hours ride from pennsylvania to new york. well, the sunrise in america was really nice.



well this is the best photo i took from the bus. yeah i risked destroying my camera lens. dom was going on about how nice the toilet was and i was kinda amused. yeah, so a majority of the people on the bus were sleeping. i only fell asleep when we were 10 mins away from new york. so was just looking at the scenery and looking out for bird nests with dom, since we were 'bored'.

we took a ferry over to the statue of liberty since it was on another island. and it was even more cold in ny. the weather was kinda bad, according to dr chia. so we were sitting right on top and were freezing in the cold. a few of us were sitting there, eating nachos and drinking hot chocolate, but the wind kept blowing so we had to make sure our nachos didnt fly away.

when we got to the statue of liberty, there was this really tight security check. haha shant disclose anything... since yeah, i dont think i should. so anyway, there were a lot of different stuff about the statue of liverty, like the structure of it, there was a replica of its face and one of its foot. well, we could only go as far as the top of the pedestal. there were like rectangles on the floor so we had to stand in it and look up to see the statue of liberty. this was what it looked like from one of the rectangle.



well, when we got to the top of the pedestal, we spent so much time there. we took a whole lot of group photos and had lots of fun. yeap.

the girls...





the guys...



and the teachers.





yeap it was really fun up there... took lots of photos and it was the best time up there.

me (haha), dom (.com), gina (nana)



we spent a lot of time in the gift shop too. gina bought this necklace for me. it has a letter 'B' on it. she bought one for herself and one for sh too. so the three of us would just look like triplets if we wear it and stand together. haha. bought some stuff and a lollipop for my cousin. had lunch in chinatown. had a lot of tea and we kept sampling each other's food. so the food just went in circles and from one table to another. we went to times square to shop. so we first went into hard rock cafe, where i bought this jar of jellybeans for 3/8. well, the shape of the container was unique, it had the shape of a guitar. yeah... dom bought this t shirt which said 'my first hard rock cafe shirt'. it was really cute. it was for his lil bro. the words 'my first' and 't shirt' were like written in this childish handwriting over a hard rock cafe shirt. haha it was perfect for a lil kid. haha yeah. and i wanted to buy this drum bag there that costed 40usd. it was black with a nice blue shade. sigh... we had to head back to the tour bus already but we were allowed to go into the roxy shop for only 15 mins. bought a hoody with gina. mine's black and hers is brown. yeah. and bought many gifts there. there stuff there are like wow. we only got to shop in the two shops because we were running out of time and all. so we did. and was sitting next to dom instead of gina because all the stuff were placed on my seat. so we watched kangaroo jack on the bus and it was super funny. although it was stupid and retarded, it was amusinga and nice. yeah. the kangaroo was simply too adorable. haha. went back to the inn. some people were cooking. dom and i were watching high school musical on disney channel. adeline, tx and gina then joined in in the last part of the movie. separated the robot into smaller pieces and allocated a few people with the stuff to bring back to singapore. then we just went back to pack our luggages. well... we didnt sleep.

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haha well, thats part 3 for you. all thats left is day 9 and 10(?), well, thats part 4. i dont know if i'll still clump day 9 and day 10 together because by then, i wouldnt have been clear about the right date and time. so yeah... haha only day 8 has photos. well i have never used the blogger photo upload until now... haha, i never really wanted to explore blogger thats why... haha, well, i've been on this entry for more than hour.... yes i have. its 12.23am now. i think i shall really start on my homework... and revise for the ca next week. ta and good night.

[lots of vegetables]

back from steamboat. went out with dom, gina and sh. tx had to mark papers for his mom, so he couldnt go out. then went to dom's place for steamboat with his place. his bro is super cute. and yeah. we played blackjack, gambled with sweets, which was really funny and exciting. i was kinda lucky today, but since i lost when i placed big bets, i kept losing and winning money. then was watching tv with dom's gf and his lil bro. looked at the ffx2 strategy guide and went back down to play solitaire. then went up to dom's room, where the rest were playing gb. watched for a little while, then went back down to play solitaire. then was reading newspapers on the sofa while dom was going on about how bad a host he is because i was bored. haha i was not. really. then went up to watch them play ps2 since he kept urging me to go up. had dinner and left early since there's school tomorrow.

didnt have enough sleep last night. couldnt sleep for more than 2 hours so i finally went out to watch animax and it didnt turn out as boring.

sigh, i'm very good friends with them, but that doesnt mean i'll tell them everything right? i dont even look at them as just -, but my own friends. is that very wrong? is it very wrong to have friends that are -. i dont see anything wrong. please stop giving that same expression everytime you see us together or have funny and weird ideas up that head of yours. because i'm not gonna disclose anything that isnt supposed to be disclosed and they'll do the same too. so please, stop telling me what to do. i just treasure these friends a lot okay?

sian, very sian. shall go bathe then... sorry i cant give you an eye sore today because i'm too tired to give myself an eye sore too. well, part 3 maybe tomorrow... good night!

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Angel in Disguise - Corrinne May

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and i stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody loves you'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before i get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Dont need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But i forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out of the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new

[it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you]

day 4
the competition. well we gathered in the lodge super early in the morning. then had a 2 hour bus ride to the university of delaware, where the competition was held. some people were singing and some of us were sleeping. i was among those who were sleeping but was interrupted by the singing and laughing. we finally arrived there. after the 6 seeding matches, we made it to 12th position, so we didnt have a chance to pick our alliance. but we entered the quarter finals because we were selected to alliance with two other teams. our alliance was the only alliance with three teams. we fixed up the robot, removing all the unnecessary stuff and started playing the quarter finals. tx, dom and i were in there throughout the entire thing. we entered the semi finals, playing the most exciting games and finally it came down to the finals. our robot started to collide with another robot, and our motor cable was stuck in one of the opponent's robot. we didnt win that match but we made it to second place. we won the think award too. it was indeed an enjoyable day. we cooked dinner at night. was supposed to cook fried rice but it didnt turn out very successful. the rice was weird, not fully cooked and the vegetables were almost raw. priscilia cooked the rice and dr chia decided to call it stone rice. later, ms lim, diana, dom and i were doing laundry. haha i dont know how many times i did laundry throughout the entire trip.. maybe 3? or 4? we all went to bed and slept like pigs.

day 5
woke up at 11am. well, was awaken by ms lim's voice. and i found SOMEONE sleeping next to me... was just trying to figure out who it was.... guessed it was diana, but it didnt really look like diana. well, it was diana in the end. we were supposed to go out as a big group to buy groceries... so there were a change of plans. we were allowed to stay in for the entire morning, but we had to go out in the end. so we dressed up and all and met up with the rest at the lodge. some werent there because they left early in the morning for service. so we were divided into a number of groups and took many cabs down to the mall (forgot where it is). i was with dr chia and lisha. so waiting for the cab was a bore. we were sitting outside the inn in the cold waiting for the cab. okay maybe it was not as cold then. mr tan's group left first, then ms lim's then dom's, then xu chen's, mr chia's and finally ours. well we waited outside for an hour for the cab. lisha was telling dr chia stuff about china while i stoned there for an hour as everyone left. the cab finally arrived and it costed us 10 usd to get there in 7 mins. we ate there. the japanese food aint so tasty though... very salty. i have teriyaki beef. then went shopping. bleagh i wanted to buy some games but because i couldnt find my wallet that morning, i couldnt buy anything. then mr tan bought a psp there!! and dom bought guild wars (pc game)!!! bleagh was super jealous... ahhh, why did my wallet have to disappear at a time like that. so when we returned, we started to cook for cultural night. our american friends were coming to the inn to eat, so each school was coming up with a dish. ij cooked curry and sweet and sour pork. so diana and i were "arguing" as i was looking for my wallet. i found it under the bed -_-'''. diana and i always argue, practically every night, but we're just arguing for the fun of it. haha. so the curry turned out delicious and we sung for the americans. yeah made quite a number of friends too... yeap, they're really friendly so it was kinda easy to chat with them. after they left, we washed up and went to bed. i decided to sleep outside in the living room with kathleen and amanda because julienne, diana and jn were being really gross, so i moved, haha.

day 6
first day of school. we work up really early like 5.45am. well the toots in the room set the alarm at 5.45am, but they couldnt hear it. instead, the three of us outside heard it. so we got ready and headed off to the lodge. parents and teachers came to pick us up for school yeah, was sms-ing matilda in the car. she didnt reply...bleagh. when we reached the school, it was about 7am and it was still dark. so we headed for the faculty dining where we had our breakfast and paired up with our partners whom we were going to follow around for the entire day. lisha and i paired up with thea. well we had two to one because there were too many of us ninth graders. so both of us followed thea around for class. we first headed for her homeroom where morning announcements would be announced. thats the coolest thing, their morning announcements. they have it through televisions in their classrooms. first they would start off with the pledge, then morning announcements, weather news, sports news, notices and so on. it was like this news broadcast, but its just within the school. and there is this tip of the day thing in which students will decide what the tip of the day would be. social studies was interesting, it was about napoleon and the entire lesson was solely his story. it was a very interesting lesson. then had english. they did a lot of reading, and they get to choose whereever they want to read. they can choose to sit in the corner of the classroom, or with their friend, as long as its within the classroom. we had physics next and we studied thermal energy. we learnt about what thermal energy and temperature. we had maths, or rather geometry and the entire class had revision for interior and exterior angles, it was homework too, and the teacher went through the kite properties and stuff. well its the same as a //gram so yeah. we had french next and lisha and i couldnt do anything because we didnt understand a word of french. so the teacher brought us to the library to use the computers to do something online, some online worksheet. for some reason, the website didnt work, couldnt be accessed. so the entire class was either checking their mail or just playing around. so i sent an email to mag. then the website was working again, so lisha and i attempted to try out the worksheets online. well we didnt understand a word so we made random guesses. i almost passed, just needed one mark. haha. but we most likely to fail. so we only had a few minutes to do the quiz because of all that maintenance. we had lunch after that. had lunch with dom and lisha. okay, so we asked for too much food. dom and i had fries and nuggets. i had cheese steak and he had something.... bleagh sandwich i think. then he combined the nuggets and fries, which made them look like it was a lot. so we couldnt finish it and had to throw away the food. after lunch, it was art. kathleen, amanda, lisha and i were in the same art class. it was thea's first art class so the teacher had lots of introduction to do. she then put us in the gallery where we were looking at all the art work and all, and they're not that bad, in fact, they were superb. then we were standing at the door chatting until class ended. had german next. so lisha and i just sat in there, watching the rest. the whole class were listening to this tape and were studying vocabulary and translating what was in the tape. it was health next. well health is just like pe, except it has the extra health education like h.e. in primary school. so the class was doing so q and a thing while lisha and i just read the extra textbooks in the classroom cupboard. the teacher suddenly came over and told us they were playing volleyball the next day and wanted us to get ready. after school, we gathered in one of those physics labs and then the teachers brought us over to the next room and started to lecture us about something. well yeah, then there was this presentation and we had dinner in the faculty dining. went over to the middle school for this board meeting and then we left. we headed back to the the inn and went to bed.

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i think thats long enough... day 6 was really long. there's part 2 for you. sorry for giving you an eye sore. the words on this blog is super puny and stuff. haha sorry.

meeting gina, shi hui, tx and dom tomorrow. we're gonna go rollerblading/cycling tomorrow... and i think i'll do both. yeah. i'm gonna sleep soon, since i have to meet them at bedok at 10am tomorrow.

well, thats all! good night and bye!

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Mr. Beasley - Corrinne May

You don't have to drive a fancy car
Don't have to quote me Shakespeare just to woo me
Yeah I see your nervous laughter when you're trying to crack some joke
Well, you don't fool me
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you

You don't know this but I see you in the church when you are praying,
You just move me
And my friend Sue she tells me you've been teaching kids for free
Mr. Philanthropy
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you (fall in love with you)

I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love
it's your soul that makes me fall in love
it's your soul that makes me fall in love
it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
yeah

[i met an angel in disguise]

i'm back.

the entire trip was fun, it just made me feel different.

everything happened in a flash. the first time we met mi, then tms, then we started building the robot, and finally the competition.

the competition was a blast. it was one hell of a time in the playing field. surprisingly, it didnt turn out as pressurizing as i thought.

day 1
we were gathered at the airport at 4am or earlier. then we departed at 6am or so. yeah 6-7 hours to tokyo, narita. then the long flight to detroit which lasted 11-12 hours. well, jn and i had absolutely nothing to do except stone. well, she was studying electricity and i watched sky high. when we were at detroit, we were grateful that torturous 11hours of boredom had passed. so we stoned in the detroit airport because our flight was cancelled due to bad weather conditions and we had to wait about 7-9 hours for the next flight. it turned out our next flight was at 9.16pm. a few played cards to kill time, some were shopping, some were sleeping. i caught a cold, so i slept like a log. yeah felt better after that. then we boarded at 10pm because there was air traffic and we were really really dying of boredom. for the next 1hr or so, i was either looking up in the sky (had window seat) or crapping with pris and dom. well the stars in us are much much brighter. well yeah, was crapping a lot with pris and dom. then we finally arrived in newark, where a bus was already waiting for us to ferry us to the inn. we reached the inn at about 3am. i didnt get to sleep much either. woke up at 5.15am, because... i had a dream. so i only had about an hour of sleep. waited for the clock to tick at 6.15am. so i was just stoning and watching jn, diana and julienne sleeping.

day 2
breakfast was nice. yeah. the potatoes rock. then we had a briefing, reassembled the robot since it was in pieces so that we could bring it along. was done up soon enough. then halped with the mock playing field. yeah had to figure out how to slant the table and stuff. then played and played with dom and tx. yeah was running everywhere. dom and i were helping with baby bot and i had to search for the engineering notebook. then had lunch and my left arm was frozen for the entire day. the pain was biting into my bones and it was horrible. sent two emails to denise and savie before going over to gina's apartment to eat. apparently i didnt get to eat the lasagne because i was sleeping. then had another briefing and went back to bathe and stuff. went back to 321 where the programmers were busy and was just playing around wih gina, dom and tx. then gina said there was a laundry room. i then realised after dom wears his jacket, it feels really warm. dont know why either. so it was nice hugging something warm and i would always request him to warm the jacket up or something. for some reason, he's the only one who can warm his jacket up. unfair! haha.. so went to do laundry with dom and diana. we had to wait for the dryer to dry our clothes so diana went back to the apartment to 'babysit' those pigs sleeping and i was at the lodge with dom, watching disney channel (american dragon: jake long) and eating cereal at 3am in the morning. psychos. then returned to apartment and went to bed. jn only came back with ms lim at about 4. so she didnt get a lot of sleep.

day 3
we visited the vocational school, which was kinda fun and we went to wissahickon high school at night. had dinner and was working on the robot since they had a playing field there. worked till 1pm before mr ostrow sent us back to the inn. we were there for the entire night. the programmers worked for the entire night without sleep. engineers were sleeping. tx was working on the tray while i slept on the couch. so the programmers only had a few hours sleep for two nights. the vocational school was a really cool place. their labs are clean and the people there are really nice. then we waited outside for the bus to take us to wissahickon high school for more than an hour. so gina, dom and i were taking random photos. dom and i were trying to remove the visitor pass sticker off the lanyard and it was kind of a disaster... haha yeah.. well that was day 3

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shall put a stop here. thats part 1 for you.

i'll just do things my way. i decide how friendly i want to be. why is it that i cant be extra friendly to that particular person if i want to??? not as if it was a sin or anything right? my conscience is very very clear. you may think that i'm being totally selfish, but i dont wanna care anymore. argh. i dont mind being the idiot, the irritating one. i'm very clear of how i feel now.

i'm not angry or anything, just a little annoyed. well, there hasnt been a day when i hvnt been irritated.

sigh, ever sicne i was told i was so disconnected, i have been thinking... of how bad it has been. i was told it was really bad, but i still find it so hard to accept it. i feel like writing about it all over this blog, but its so obvious. it's so difficult to keep it discreet and at the same time, talk a lot about it.

man i find blogging so difficult now.. geez. i shall just stop here before i just go bonkers. bye

[rugby]

bye-ing in a few hours. shall spend the last few hours in this warm and cozy place. yes because for the next ten days, i may not even come back alive. i may have been frozen to death in the dead winter. bleagh. depends on whether i can take it lar... but i still may freeze to death.

had dinner at seoul garden with denise... heee we ate like pigs. i ate a lot of beef... and she ate lots of fish. then we like cracked 4 eggs into the soup base. and the soup was nice too. and she gave me this wonderful pair of earrings for my brithday, haha yeah very zenith-ish. yes, still under the zenith influence.. maybe.

bleagh was on the pone with tx and gina, mainly gina since they decided to call me up and disturb me. so yeah, i dont plan on sleeping tonight. probably watch a lil sky high. then bleach, but mainly bleach. yes. dying to watch now. must must must watch till 63. yes at the ichigo bankai part, which is super cool! and kuchiki byakuya rocks! i love his bankai, its very sakura-ish and just cool. hee bleach madness.

we played rugby for pe today, which was super fun. well not exactly rugby, because we didnt play on the field, but on the bball court. it was super fun cause we were like snatching the ball and stuff, yeah and it was just funny how the ball just gets around.

yeah bleagh shall go watch bleach now..... bye.

[friday the 13th]

yeaps. its friday the 13th today. scream all you want. haha

well i guess it has really been an unlucky day. three people got injured during pe. dont know if that broke the record. two sprained ankles, and a bball went straight for ena's face, and her nose started to bleed. i guess shes okay now... yeah.

esti returned to ij today, with a different look. was kinda shocked to see her. yeah she layered her hair, gelled it. her skirt was short and she just looked really different. took me a while to realise it was her because i was in the canteen after cca and i noticed an unfamiliar uniform lingering in the canteen. well, with that haircut, i hardly recognized her. i didnt know temasek jc's uniform looked like that. but yeah. she looked far older than me now. and since i just turned 15, we're of the same age. she still looks older than me though. she said if her skirt was at her knee, the school would label her as a 'nerd' so it had to be like 3cm above her knee. hur... weird. but i guess she's enjoying herself there...

was going crazy with mag today. or maybe its mag who was dragging me along with her into her craziness. no.1, she screamed 'BRIANA ANG' so loudly the whole canteen would have heard her. and i really mean scream. haha. well, she only wanted to return my freaky friday vcd to me... haha. then we were preparing for tomorrow's orientation, we were laughing hysterically like nobody's business and just being idiots... and then we played the 'mi mi mi re mi fa so' game. no idea what it is, so i just called it the 'mi mi mi re mi fa so' game. finally, we were telling julienne and liz about the weird stuff mrs stephen would say and do in class. well since julienne's english teacher is mrs stephen, and she's really lucky. we didnt want to give her a surprise when mrs stephen suddenly asks for the summary. yeah so mag and i were like imitating her when she asks us to take our summaries or dictionaries out. haha well, that was a really fun trip home. but mrs stephen is a great teacher... her notes are like treasure, never ever throw them away.

grace yow was in the arc room today and she did something so disgusting... haha yeah, she had styrofoam in her mouth after that... bleagh, gross. haha

since i lost my house keys, my mum duplicated another set and kept bugging me to look for a keychain so that she can keep the nemo set. its the nemo set because the keychain is a nemo keychain. ahahaha cute. bought that in p6. so i was finally willing to use the keychain debby gave me for christmas, ichigo's bankai. yeah its really nice... and cool. so i have a bankai with me wherever i go! haha and i was finally willing to hang the toushiro keychain to my handphone. the toushiro keychain was one of the presents denise got for me for christmas. yeah. i would usually not bear to use them, but i will anyway. i love their presents. ichigo's bankai and toushiro stuff! toushiro rocks! (shiro-chan, shiro-chan, hehe)

bleagh the new timetable really gave me a big shock. we have a really late thursday and late recess on thursday. recess at 11.30am and dismissed at 2.25pm. for someone like me, who is not customed to having breakfast before coming to school, because i dont really have the time to, and will starve for the first 5 periods of the day until recess. well i guess i can settle breakfast and lunch at the same time on thursdays. well, we have an early day on friday. dismissed at 1.15pm. geraldine said thats to make up for the late recess. but mag's worse. she has three late days. and my previous and first timetable had only early recesses and no late days. bleagh. and my locker is full because i put in three ring files, two flat files and a stack of books inside.

basically the homeroom system is sort of helping me get my way around school now, i'm starting to adapt to the new school. man 14 classrooms on each level. yeah. getting to the arc room was the easiest because it's close to the canteen.

i'm very very tired. even on the second week of school, i'm feeling extra lethargic. especially today. just getting worse man. i dont think i will collapse soon, but i just feel very very tired and exhausted.

i dont know why my brother can be so argh. he's playing with his friend on maple story with his friend on the same channel at the same place. and he can talk on the phone so loudly at the same time. whats worse is he's talking to the same friend and he put him on loudspeaker and has to speak so loudly. like how the hell am i gonna sleep? he has been on the line for hours i'm telling you. on the mobile phone. he can conference with a few friends and play on the maple network with the same friends. tsk tsk, what a waste of electricity.

i have suddenly been obsessed with rainie yang's li xiang qing ren. haha the video's just as cute. yeap, with mike he jun xiang in it, as a photographer and rainie yang as a ballet dancer. haha just watch it and maybe you'll think the video and the song are just as cute. click here to view video. yeah he's in another one of rainie yang's videos too. not only this one. and they were advertising some disney stuff together... yeah

argh, i'm gonna sleep now. gotta get up early tomorrow. yes. dying to sleep now. good night.

[burden]

yeah i mean i know... for once i actually did...

sigh. dont know what to do... it was really disastrous today... yeah i mean i can tell how mad you were.... and stuff. so yeah

i have lots of work to do. yeah i'll just leave now. bye.

[runaway]

it has been a very bleagh day. haha nothing special, just nothing happened.

i applied for my ic yest. okay i thought it would take like an hour because my mum said so, but it only took me like half an hour. and in that less than half an hour. i managed to internalize ocean currents (geog hw). so anyway, i remember like the definition of ocean current and the two types of OCs. yeah.

i still have like maths hw. i shall do it after i blog.

i'm very lethargic and sick for the entire day. slept all the way to 1pm or so. then felt really cold even with a jacket on. and cant stop sneezing. dont know if its a flu. well we'll see about tomorrow. and i thnk i had too much sleep, which i doubt so. because too much sleep will make you feel lethargic and you can also die from too much sleep. haha ms champion said too much sleep can kill, when i was in sec 1. but i dont think anyone will have too much sleep right? well too little kills too. so we muct always have the right amount of sleep.

just feeling very stressed now. yeah. and having headaches. not doing anything at home was supposed to help me relax. but i'm just feeling very stressed now.

animax removed ccs last week, and ever since i had animax which was like last week, i hvnt even watched ccs on it yet. they replaced it with twin spica. dont know what it is. and i think that 'midori days' is simply too cute man.

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i'll run at the sight of you.
and you'll do the same

you'll run at the sight of me
and i'll do the same

sorry, still having this sense of awkwardness. dont like it. and i can tell it's going to get worse. i have this premonition, or rather this intuition, that something really bad is going to happen. well, it's kinda bad to me. thats why i'm really bothered now. i've been having these really bad intuitions. i'm not sure if they're like really accurate or anything. but i just have this really bad feeling about most of everything. so, i run.

we'll all run in different directions
who knows where we'll end up
maybe we will keep running
and somehow end up at where we begun,
or where it'll just end

i... dont know what will happen... i can feel it breaking up. each fragment just dissolving to vanish. and its just that black empty space...

['5 RANDOM things about you' game]

okay so since mag wants to pass this on to me, i shall.... she even decided to come over and give me a gentle reminder.... bleagh. (read tagboard) and besides... she didnt tell me i was tagged!!! so she sort of broke the rules... haha

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Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself. Then at the end of the list, 5 names that are in line to do this. Dont forget to leave a comment 'You've been tagged'in their blogs to read yours.

1. I talk too much.
>>just like mag, haha we're typical 2/3.

2. I daydream.
>> maybe many know about that, bleagh but i can daydream and know whats going on in my surroundings okay! well, most of the times of course, not all the time.

3. i'm psychotic
>> in case you dont know, i do very very weird stuff and act weirdly, so people think i'm bian tai or a psycho

4. i cant get over horror movies for a very long while
>>still havent gotten over exorcism of emily rose till now. thats how bad it is...

5. i like anime
>>its random. yeah thats the whole point... but from what i know, or heard, girls are not that customed to like anime, dont know why, i think its very nice.

I pass this on to :
1. Gina
2. Tx
3. Danielle
4. Marissa (Sars)
5. Tiara

[over it]

haha tx, gina and shihui got a cake for me today... which was really sweet. yeah... haha thanks :)

i realised gina and i actually have a lot, and i mean A LOT in common... our lives are almost the same, except her mom makes her go for facial every two months and she gets to eat bird's nest everyday when its the exams... yeah...

sigh i dont know what to do... i'm both mad, and stressed. just troubled over other people's problems... why cant - listen to us.... we're doing it for -'s own good.... i just feel a lil depressed for -. i dont know what i can do to help -, when - doesnt really want to make the right choice... - wants to give up and be tortured. i feel like scolding -. i'm just feeling so fed up that i want to zou -. why cant - think again for what's better for -.

bleagh done with ranting... shall go now. bye.

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Over It - Anneliese Van Der Pol

How could you know
that behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know
that I hurt so much inside
How could you know
that I'm not the average girl
I'm carrying the weight of the world
Yeah
So can you get me out of here

[Chorus]
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive 'til the gas runs out
and walk so far that we can't
see this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
so I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit
then I will be over it

I'm playing the role
of the happy girl but no one knows
Inside I'm alone
But I would never let it show
I dread everyday
too much work and not enough play
Over and over it's always the same
Yeah
But you can make everything okay

Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive 'til the gas runs out
and walk so far that we can't
see this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
so I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit
then I will be over it

Over it
And when the world is closing in
I can leave it all and just walk away
I can always start all over again
I am closer to a better day

Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive 'til the gas runs out
and walk so far that we can't
see this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
so I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit
then I will be

(Take me away) Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive 'til the gas runs out
and walk so far that we can't
see this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
so I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit
then I will be

If I lighten up a little bit
then I will be over it
Over it
I am over it

[the birthday song]

what an unlucky birthday it has been. i have dropped my house keys and my $20.50 plain ring during pe. well, it just dropped outta my pocket. yeah. then i guess my mind was just too occupied with the missing house keys during my first ss lesson until i suddenly realised my plain ring was also in my pocket which is not anymore...

bleagh what an unlucky 15th birthday.

haha i didnt really think it was the 6th of january until matilda wished me a happy birthday today. haha ah well, its not really a great thing either.

i'm not having a peaceful birthday though... my mum is nagging in my ear about the sweater... the more i tell her i dont need it. the more effort she puts into talking me into taking it. bleagh. gave in in the end.

my mum changed to digital cable last night and was enjoying it like a little kid enjoying his of her new toy. she was constantly flipping channels like no one's business. but its okay.. i have animax now :) haha more anime to watch.

the second day of school was kinda bleagh. apparently, 2006 didnt really have a good start. it was kinda lousy. not only for me, but for matilda... she was constantly complaining about the misfortunes she had from the moment she awoke in the morning till the time i met up with her to go to school with her. she overslept twice too.... on the first and second day of school. well, things aint looking too good for me too. i'm starting to feel that loneliness and solemn on the first week of year 2006.

yes, today was just like any other unlucky day. kinda ironic though... it has been a rather unlucky 15th birthday. even for a 15 year old's birthday.

i will change my surname to a lim and be diana's sister! haha okay it's kind of a joke... but it isnt so bad having a jie jie like her... she doesnt want me though... awww... but i really really dont mind having a sis like her... haha its just that we were sitting at the void deck at 163 and her friends came along and asked if i was her sister... so i just said yeah.

well here's to myself:

dear briana

happy birthday... although your 15th year had a lousy beginning, well, hope things will look better for you in future... yeap, may you do well in everything that you do and learn to be a much more happy person and dont be so irritating by being irritated over trivial matters. dont be so soft and weak... yeap. learn to be tough and learn to say 'NO!' haha yeah... well wishing you a blissful happy birthday once again and may you be successful in what you have been working and will work for... :)

briana

erm i know it sounds a bit weird or anything, but i'm simply wishing myself a happy birthday... yeah! it may sound as if i have no friends or i'm just psychotic, but i think to me, it's pretty warm and fuzzy inside, although it came from me, myself. yeah feel much better now... i think i shall just find a candle, light it and make a wish. blow it and be happy.. because i dont have a cake and i dont think i need one anyway. not that important. shall go watch ch 56 or animax now! enjoy corrinne may's the birthday song :) i'm dedicating it to everyone and myself too... yeah... haha i'm psychotic... bye
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The Birthday Song - Corrinne May

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

[the awkwardness]

happy new year. there goes 2005. a year of precious memories shall be shelved. my 14th year on this planet is soon coming to an end too.

17 more days.

this sense of awkwardness is destructive. i dont know what to do. i just forgot or rather dont know how to anymore. i... dont... know... whats... wrong...

[awkward silence]

last day of 2005. in a while, here comes 2006.

not interested in the countdown... since i dont know when, it just did seem interesting each year. yeah, so i doubt it'll be as good.

actually i keep forgetting it's new year's eve today.

. . .

i didnt even know i got cut. what a joke. bleagh

well, nothing much happened today. just awkward silence. very very awkward silence. yeah.... erm... silence... and more silence... more awkward silence...

okay... i'm gonna do my homework. bye.. good night.

happy new year :)

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Anthem of Our Dying Day - Story of the Year

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying

[ambiguity - yet again]

feeling bleagh again.

it's coming to the end of 2005. wow, it really passed so quickly.

i had a wonderful breakfast this morning, haha it was really filling and a happy one too. yeap, thanks to the people who made it. haha

compared to last year, i guess this year was a much more eventful one. with so much more happening in a mere one year, i havent got anything to say. it's just a mix of everything. especially the second half of the year. it was definitely six months of exhaustion and euphoric experiences. i think i sorta see a clearer picture of it now. yeah i do... i prefer the me now. at least i havent left behind that me in primary school. refusing to look back. but yet refusing to look ahead.

it has been a very very interesting year. with all that frenzy and stuff, words cant express my feelings towards these. but i'll still welcome 2006 with open arms.

i know i have low confidence.

[we'll be this far apart]

just came home. wanna bathe but i cant find any towels. well, the thing is, the cupboard with the towels is empty. okay i dont know what's going on. my mum has been really psychotic these few days.

so i stink a lot now. gah i want to go bathe and then go to bed. apparently i only have till 12 to use this damned computer.

this entire week has been a disaster. if you read the entries for this week, you'll agree i guess. oh man just three more days to new year. and its hard to even realise christmas has passed. not that it didnt. i know it did, but i still forget there was still christmas.

i see each problem thrown at me, one at a time. maybe i should just dodge it. but it'll just hit me, SOMEHOW.

yes, i want a happy new year, but i doubt i will... it's really sad though. so it's an unhappy new year. oh man why is it that all these have to happen at once. or maybe, look on the bright side, i did have days when i was happier. so i'm just grateful i didnt have to face it ALL YEAR ROUND.

i'm just not in a very good mood after what had happened. i'm trying to... and this time, it isnt pms.

anyway i'm gonna hunt the towels down. and i really want to sleep. i'm gonna be sleeping in class next year. and of course i dont want that to happen. i'm already having this serious lack of sleep. so i shouldnt make it any worse. yeah. block of wood gonna sleep now. good night and bye.

[the christmas nightmare]

christmas was okay. boxing day was terrible. the day after boxing day was worse. and today, it's just as bad.

yes. i have realised my year end could just get any more worse. it has become so terrible it is rather difficult to make it better. so my christmas didnt turn out very merry either. well, i should have got up earlier, much earlier, maybe went to church or something. try to make my day better. or make myself a much happier person now. argh, i'm sick and tired of it.

it's pretty much obvious isnt it? i dont know. i just find it so bleagh. who would be so bleagh to think it should be done that way. it just shouldnt. just very wrong. oh man, you should know after we told you time and time again. geez...

i'm not running away from you. it's just because of some reason that i may seem i am, but i'm trying not to. due to foreseen circumstances, i didnt know what to do for a very long time. i dont have time to really think about it, but just keep quiet. yeah, i'm not running.

i hope the 'you' knows who i'm actually refering to who. gah.. it's very bleagh, very very bleagh. i said its bleagh because i dont know how to describe. i'll just say bleagh when i think of it. so its very BLEAGH to me. yeah funny... gah not.

i'm not a very happy person now. sigh. i envy those who are happy and can lead a normal and simple life, unlike mine, which can be so twisted and ABNORMAL. it's so complicated that even though i should be getting used to it, i'm hating it now.

please do not mind my rambling, i am very tired now. i just hope for things to be better. at least two times better. i'm very tired of being called a bitch everyday, although i very much dont do anything about it, just think its the wind or something. i'm starting to fear coming home, but i have to. why is it that my reaction time had to be this slow? i'm gonna be a block of wood now. i'm gonna be immune to anything evil. and this block of wood is gonna bathe and go to sleep now. bye

[ambiguity - constraint]

gah i'm broke.

shopped for another four hours today, at jurong point. bought two polo shirts, a skirt and a pair of slippers. who knew briana would buy a skirt? geez

shopped with denise and her sis. we didnt shop for the entire day since they had something on. but it was kinda fun. denise had a discount of like $14 for this necklace. bleagh.

visited debby again. yeap, gave her the burnt cds with the ff7ac and the bleach stuff. i spent an hour burning the stuff last night. but yeah... and we were chatting again, lots and lots of topics. yeah...

matilda just told me she found bleach interesting. haha well, it is. and i love the presents debby and denise gave me. they're so cute.

i'm really gonna miss them when they graduate. well they have. although it's like a must for them to go, well, i'm really gonna miss them a lot. yeap...

it's christmas the next day... well, i hope it'll be a peaceful one... yeah... i'll first sleep in till noon. haha what a way to spend my christmas morning. joking... i'll be online i guess, that is if i don't get up at like 12pm... i wouldnt be going for church i guess... cause i'm not catholic... but i'll probably go...

christmas seems like a very new day for me. yeah... it's CHRISTMAS. uh huh, i'll spend my entire day at home on the computer... having parties for my sims... yeah, christmas parties. whee, i'm so nice to them they get to celebrate christmas. haha joking.

i really havent much to say... other than shopping and talking to debby. and chatting with gina on the phone, i havent done anything till now. yeah... my mind's also blank. shall just stone for today... havent stoned for a rather long time.

well, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND ENJOY THIS FESTIVE SEASONS!!!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!

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There With You - Sylvester Sim

All this time while you're with me I've been in the dark
Didnt think for the life of me You would do me wrong

We had it all but you chose not to know
You always knew my heart was home

Now we know I'm not who you want I should let you go

[Chorus]
I've loved you with your disguise
You've proven that love is blind
There are no answers I find
To stop my tears from my eyes
Now everything looks black and white
You've taken away clear blue skies
Though it's time to go
I know my heart has always been
And will be there with you

All this time while I'm true to you
You turned and looked away
There just wasn't any signs that says
You're only passing through

I'll close my eyes to forget our times
I can't restrain you from my lies

The fear of ever losing you
Was finally coming true

I've loved you with your disguise
You've proven that love is blind
There are no answers I find
To stop my tears from my eyes
Now everything looks black and white
You've taken away clear blue skies
Though it's time to go
I know my heart has always been
And will be there with you

I've loved you with your disguise
You've proven that love is blind
There are no answers I find
To stop my tears from my eyes
Now everything looks black and white
You've taken away clear blue skies
Though it's time to go
I know my heart has always been
And will be there with you

I know my heart has always been
And will be there with you

[ambiguity - i suffer]

watched chronicles of narnia during arc outing today. it's nice. although it's like what debby said, a mix of lotr and harry potter, it's still okay. the war was very very lotr. i like aslan's face... although i dont really like the mane, i like his nose... haha and his face is nice to touch.. and i wanna ride on him too!!!

haha i was sitting in between gloria and matilda. when lucy first met that faun guy, he was inviting her to his house for tea. well it's totally innocent, but they did sound like they were flirting. gah... haha which made the faun guy look so perverted. haha although he's the good guy.

before the movie, we were having lunch at yoshinoya. whee, and played that number guess game. the forfeit was to eat the onions from the beef value meal. i love the onions so it was okay for me. haha.. it was kinda fun and the gift exchange was fun too. played air hockey at the arcade and finally watched the movie.

after the movie, we met up with nat at the arcade and she sure is good at the para game. yeap. so then i was hanging out at the heeren with savina and delle because i had nothing to do until my mum was done with her work. i saw that addidas bag. i want the black one. its the sling bag. and it costs $79!!! ah extortion. sniff sniff... i have to wait a while to buy it, unless i'm lucky to buy it at a pasar malam or something, if not, it'll be that 80 bucks.

finally met up with my mum and her bf. had dinner at marche! woo. it has been ages since i last ate there. but my appetite has been rather poor so i couldnt eat much. but i ate fresh oysters for the first time in my life. raw, not cooked. they're rather tasty actually. had three of them, didnt dare take more because i have a weak stomach.... havent really fully recover from the after-effects of food poisoning in p3. had two bowls of mushroom soup, rosti, a sausage, and i think thats all. yeah not a lot. i usually eat like a pig whenever i go to marche.

i'm gonna go shopping with denise and her sis tomorrow! yay looking forward to it, since i didnt go last friday. time to make up for it, but we're kinda broke...

bought another pair of earrings today, quite nice. yeah, very zenith-ish. cause its a star!! hee..

gah tired... very tired... ah well, good night

[ambiguity - kokoro]

bleagh it was such a tiring day for me. i went christmas shopping and bought two items for myself. two pairs of earrings. haha so weird. ah well, then followed denise to this christmas party held at her friend's place. it was quite fun actually. but the forfeit i had to do was very BLAH. never mind... denise rescued me. haha thanks.

orchard is such a big and crowded place. ah well, everyone knows that. besides not even knowing how to get to lucky plaza or tangs from the mrt station, i made lots of guesses as to how to get to diff places. the mrt station was so crowded that i heard the get out of the station message that went:

"the station is too crowded, please leave the station if you are no boarding the trains"

so no one gave a damn about what was happening... they went on laughing and talking on the phone while that message went on over and over again. i found it so amusing. the moment i stepped out of the mrt station, one guy asked me to donate $10, i didnt though (little devil), and some girl approached me to go for some model audition, after standing there negotiating my way out, i managed to reject it. gah, i kept asking her if i could reject on the spot and leave my number with her. blah i dont want any phone calls from anyone telling me to go where and where to audition, who cares about modelling anyway.

i walked around taka many times and yes my feet were already dying by the 4th hour. but i have already spent like $100. some say shopping makes you happy, but i feel worse each time i spend my money. haha couldnt bear to part with it, but i still did. ah well.

the christmas party was fun. yeah, although i didnt know a single person except denise, i guess it was okay. they were really friendly. but i had to do a forfeit which was very BLAH and freaky.... and yes, it's a traumatizing experience. geez... but out of all the forfeits, it was one of the not-so-bad ones. there were forfeits like kissing the girl's leg, sticking socks in their nostrils and taking a photo of it and gulping yoghurt down your throst. my forfeit wasnt that bad... but still bad. gah i wont say. and since it was at bukit batok, it feels like i'm going to the west everyday.

its the arc outing tomorrow. whee. gonna watch king kong. haha, and i'm might go shopping with denise and her sis on saturday. spending it on myself. hehe. looking foward to it. it'll be christmas on sunday and a bbq at trellis towers, my aunt's hosting it. oh yay, it's gonna be fun! then i wanna play pool, havent played it in ages. maybe swim as well. monday, finish my maths homework and do the presentation. yeah maybe play computer games. its boxing day, but i wouldnt have anymore paper to tear apart. yeah haha. i'll probably tear them apart when i either get home or on the spot. haha no lar, but i'll spoil the surprise even before boxing day.

met up with denise for dinner last night. we had prata. well i did, she had murtaka. well i think thats murtaka. but anyway, we visited debby after that. haha her place is awesome. i love it. it's so nice and the condo there has tranquility in the air. yeah, her house is nice too, and squeaky, literally squeaky clean. if you're not wearing socks and you walk in her house the floor will squeak. haha so the three of us were sitting in the living room chatting till 10pm. when they made me return. yeah, so i did, and thats when i realised how quick bus 985 is. it only took me like 10 mins to get from bukit batok to toa payoh. its so quick. quicker than the mrt train. and i didnt fall asleep. if i did, i can say bye to toa payoh.

haha i guess thats a really really long entry i have posted. yeap. it's 12.38am now.... and i think i should stop here... and yay, bleach episode 62 is finally done. my bittorrent has miraculously sped up. wow! haha okay... sarcastic. but yeah it did speed up. well, good night! enjoy your holidays!

[ambuguity / difficult decision]

it hasnt been a wonderful day for me.

i've been having trouble ever since i opened my eyes this morning. lots of fighting and shouting. and people asking me to fuck off. right, doing the right thing for a wrong reason.

then i come home, much to my annoyance, world war X. yeah i'm very annoyed. i'm sick, and tired. much more tired than sick.

i'm looking at things from a very different angle now, and i choose the narrow-minded me to look at it. yes something happened to me, and thats why i decided to temporarily morph into the extremely selfish and irritating me. it's a lonely issue.

blah. i feel so pissed off and irritated and annoyed that i want to smash something on the wall, maybe my own head. i feel like throwing and turning my whole room upside down.

[ambiguity - choice]

i have finished watching 惡魔在身邊 (er mo zai shen bian). just that the last episode was a little surprising... the ending was kinda crappy... but sweet at the same time. the photos i've uploaded are taking 15.16MB of my MSNspace. bleagh... they're screenshots. but anyway the show was nice and different. yeap. love triangles arent common, but the reason why the couple cant be together because their parents are getting married and they are about to be siblings. so they had a secret relationship in which only their friends knew. but ah well, the dad said he wanted all four of them to be happy and all, so he agreed to their relationship and still got married. but yeah, the last episode is a little shocking, even for me. encouraged to watch. rent buy whatever... just encouraged to watch.

ahhhh the collection today was kinda okay, but it was fun! hehe we came across so many funny situations. mag and i were making a fool of ourselves by coming up with this retarded dance and doing that exercise thing for the elderly which was actually stuck onto the notice board next the lift while waiting for the stuff to reach the ground floor via the lift. i was also betrayed by mag. she left me in the lift alone while i was trying to lift the newspapers up and out of the lift. the doors started closing in the process of just picking the newspapers up and the next thing i knew, i was moving, well the lift i mean. gah... all in all, it was an interesting day, and an exhausting one as well.

sorry, i'm not really in a very good mood today. so dont really feel like doing anything. and i'm starting to get addicted to that 惡魔在身邊(er mo zai shen bian) show. yeah, i cant get it out of my head. why only 20 episodes??? and why cant they be like days of our lives, having over 8000 episodes or even more. actually i dont really enjoy days of our lives, i dont find it very interesting. i wonder.... if the cast of days of our lives ever get tired... 8000 episodes.... what a long script. must be like 10 000 pages long or something. but still remarkable.

i received a christmas card from audrey... haha although it's just a card, it has that warm and nice feeling... simple and sweet. haha. its one of the warmest presents i've got so far...

i'm gonna go to bed soon. i suffering from a serious lack of sleep. gah... i feel like a walking zombie now... i am going to be one if i dont sleep. okay, like denise said, i can never catch up on sleep, but at least have some... too much sleep kills, too little sleep kills. bleagh.

ah well.... good night then. have fun this holidays!

[ambiguity]

i dont know what to say... i feel so stuck. i hardly ever felt like this before. how can things go so so wrong.

i dont know what to do, i said yes, that i will. and then i dont know what to do actually. i want to talk to someone about this. but i dont know who... i dont want this to spread to the rest of the world. although i didnt say it, they probably knew. i just hope none of these happened right now. when i'm still not prepared.

i want to be happy-go-lucky too... please... dont strike me with that.

right till the end, i'm still alone.

[rabbit and hamster]

sorry, i just cant help it... the hamster and rabbit thing is just too funny. haha

this project has sort of changed me. it changed a little of my personality, and my habits. yeah and although it has only been a few days, i learnt a lot. and i still have a month, a month to learn even more. i'm laughing like a brainless git everyday.

this is gonna be more than just a learning experience, but a very precious memory. haha i feel very relaxed just working for this project. yeah, maybe after fll, i have learnt the joy of working.

bleach portal isnt providing any direct downloads for bleach episode 60 and 61. bleagh... so i have to depend on the disgusting bittorrent.

ahhh tired... well good night. bye

[i'm a crab]

what a tiring tuesday it has been. actually i have been like this for the past few days. havent been sleeping well, which resulted in my lost of appetite, my giddiness. and i cant seem to sleep at night, not sure why either. should be worrying about something i guess... even if i am, i dont know what i'm worrying about..

was watching discovery channel when i came home. they happened to have a documentary about embyos and growth, blah that kinda stuff. so i was eating and watching at the same time... of i course i didnt eat much for i lost my appetite due to my lack of sleep. i only ate the egg on my bowl of rice. i think i just had a little rice and didnt feel like eating anymore. maybe from now on i should just drink to feed my hunger.

i think i'm just gonna fall ill.

my mum bought that taiwanese idol drama, er mo zai shen bian (devil beside me) for christmas. yeap... havent watched it yet. i only removed the plastic cover. my brother's playing warcraft and he's annoying me by giving me those faces when i'm not looking in his direction. haha heck him, he's like that... i cant do anything about it either... you cant expect me to suddenly give him a punch out of nowhere right?

ah well, i realised i have other work to do... yeah... well end of entry. bye.

[curiosity kills the cat]

gah... what a lazy sunday it was.

i was rudely awaken at 1pm by my disgusting brother who was screaming at the top of his lungs for no apparent reason. then received a number smses. yeah... after washing up and everything, i just switch on the computer, chatted with tan xiao, and mixed another song... yeah my 7th one i think.

then stoned for the rest of the afternoon... had dinner and played sims. i have graduated all my students in the birght household of the sim state university and i dont know what to do with them now. so i quit the game... and here i am now.

chiristmas is approaching and i didnt realise it till today. i kept thinking it was still to early for christmas... so yeah. i've yet to buy any presents and have not decided what i want to buy for myself. my mum bought this toy for my cousin... some cat which could give birth to other few kittens. when she first bought it and showed it to me... it was packed so i was just thinking to myself how the heck do you retrieve the kittens? until today, when i say my cousin unwrap the cat, it was then i saw the little pocket hidden underneath the cat. and wow two kittens popped out of the cat. i really dont know how to put the birth of the kittens in words. gah.

lost my appetite at dinner. yeah. oh man, my mum cooked most of my favourite dishes, but for some reason, i was not hungry and didnt really feel like eating. so i just forced the food down my throat so that my mum wouldnt have to wonder why i couldnt eat my meal peacefully or think i'm having some psychological problems.

i'll only have $350 for christmas. but its okay. my mum said she'll buy that taiwanese idol drama for me for christmas. its value is equivalent to my bro's warcraft.

yeap i'm 70% certain i'm morphing into something else. okay... maybe 'something else' would be a much better person, or a very dangerous person who will just hurt anyone with that single touch or sentence. and my bro is constantly looking in this monitor's direction, trying to read what is written all over this window. ah well. after all,this is a blog. so i guess anyone can read it.

as you can see, i havent got any inspiration... my entry is so stale and empty. i have had a very boring life these few days... yeah like nothing to do... i'll find something to do. yeah i will.

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Fall To Pieces - Avril Lavigne

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

[guess?]

it doesnt feel like a saturday today... at all.

okay i'll tell you something... my brother has vulgarities spiling out of his mouth, and its directed at me, in different languages... uh huh... because he keeps getting disconnected from maple story, and he blames me for it. yeah said i opened too many windows... so i closed a few. i only have like 3 msn windows, 2 internet explorers and 1 wmp. yeah he's still pissed off, and he's more than invisible to me. yeah i cant see him. oh great there comes my mum... argh. i'm not even doing anything besides minding my own business.

argh. forget it. my brother wants to pick on me, go ahead. i 'm not gonna give much to him (as in argue back)

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i rearranged all my links... finally... after a billion years. now i dont have to scroll up and down like mad just to search for one link.

finally, after two horrendous days, i finally succeeded into downloading bleach episode 60 via BITTORRENT which is a really amazing experience. wow. its slow, very slow. gah. can you sense my sarcasm...?

ever since the arc retreat, things changed. not in a good way. well i'm pin-pointing something... that particular 'something'. its not good either.. i hate to think about it, but for some reason, i still make my own way there, unknowingly. haha it's okay... i always find it hard to convey what is kept in here...

i'm gonna cheer myself up: 'YUP YUP'

okay. thats it i'm happy. okay. bye. haha

[is it still here?]

i'm in the "weird mode" now.. after i went on about buying the wang zi bian qing wa ost almost the entire afternoon. i bought it during lunch. and now... i sort of regretted it. gah. because i already downloaded all the songs. well look on the bright side, i have the other STUFF in the ost. haiyoh... what am i doing?

i just grew a little today. yeah. i have been "growing" a lot these few days. gah its weird. well i dont really mean physically but mentally. i guess thats good news. but ever since the arc retreat, i just realised i have started to grow at a rather amazing rate and started to look at stuff at another perspective. its scaring me though... then again... i feel as though i just lost something too important. i have gained a lot but i seemed to have lost something, which is also means a lot to me. i'm starting to absorb many things. starting to think even deeper. i guess it's just weird when it's THIS phase. or maybe i just think that way. well i tend to think this way, but others, and i mean many others think the other way.

msn is irritating. maybe it isnt msn's fault but the stupid internet connection. it's not even stable enough to keep running for at least 1 hour. it's kinda annoying... really.

i feel as though there's this great load on me now. suddenly my parents are too nice, which gives me even more stress, because it's just too sudden. and i'm just thinking too much as to what may happen in future. gah, i'm really very annoyed.

gah theres something in me changing and i dont really like it. what's the matter with me. gah, take one of organs out and i'll probably be okay. something is very wrong now.

[all the things she said]

i just returned... and on the way back, i was just reading a few messages. and i was just realised how much it's gonna be difficult to bid farewell.

well fll over, it was sure an enriching experience, but yeah i did have fun. although it was also a very frightening experience for me, i didnt really break down or get too stressed because i had my team who was there to cheer me up and make jokes out of practically everything. because of them, i guess i really had a lot of fun. it was okay even if we didnt win, i was just satisfied we had a lot of fun working together. yeap.

the retreat was really fun. i enjoyed the bbq a lot. the movie marathon was fun too. we watched saw last night and even though it was sick and gory, i made it through. its a psychotic show though, as to how the mastermind just randomly picks a victim and manipulates his or her mind, making them feel helpless and pushing them right till the end when they finally either give up on themselves or just kill themselves to end it once and for all. my whole body aches now and i'm coughing... maybe it's because i have been sleeping on the floor for two nights now.

all in all, it was a great retreat. i'm gonna miss it greatly. it was indeed a very very precious memory.

i'm gonna miss the seniors graduating... for some reason, time has just passed so quickly. i'll be graduating soon, in two years as well. two years went by so quickly. too quickly and it'll be my turn to say goodbye in two years. it's gonna fly. at the speed of light. yeah farewell is gonna be difficult...

there are indeed many things i have learnt after the chalet. i've just been even more clear about how low my self esteem is, and how terribly low my confidence is. i just realised i have even more insecurities than i have expected. i dont know how i can help myself now. i really need to convince myself... i could believe it for once. i dont know now. it's true i hardly could ever tell myself i could accomplish. even now, i still think i keep jeopardizing everything i'm working hard for. i have never told myself i could do something because i always labelled myself a jinx. i have tried so hard to be a much cheerier person that i've just pushed myself into another fantasy of my own. i just skipped across to being happy, and almost totally forgot about myself. forgot how annoying i am now. i've cooped up inside for so long, that i dont even know how to speak my mind. am i supposed to be what i am now? indeed, i have changed for the better, but am i doing it using the wrong method? i was so vulnerable and immature when i entered ij sec. not only that, i was simply too gullible and far too naive. sometimes, i get cheated or taken advantage too easily. i find it so hard now to step out of this confusion.

it has really been a long time since i really thought about this, since i kept trying to push the problem away. i'm running away.

i knew this day would come. and i pretty much know what will happen next. i... wonder... what will i do next. escape. i want to get out of here. i want to so much. i knew i would be left aside finally. thanks for leaving me aside.

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fll's over. although we didnt win anything, i'm just glad i had a team that was fun and united. thanks. i love effervescence.

[.]

i'm a letdown. blame me.

[no such thing as a real world]

i need lots of money now, at least $1225. yes i need it. so i'm gonna work and work form day to night until i die off just to raise that sum. i'm just getting myself so stressed over this and i'm just killing my mental self. i just need it to prove to my parents. gah.

watched chicken little today, and it was really adorable. i think the characters are just too adorable, i just love the aliens.

went to far east with liz, matilda and stef. found so many bleach and tsubasa manga there. yeah it rocks. and the price isnt that bad. each book costs $5. but its in chinese.

just ironic how we can even watch chicken little... and i'm really financially disabled now.

i'm really stuck in a dilemma... i dont now if i should pursue the matter... sigh.

[Final Fantasy XII Advent Children]

just done watching final fantasy XII advent children. and it's fantastic. i like the animation. cg has always been done so well. i like cloud's motorcycle, just dont know how many swords he puts in there. but the speed is cool.

i'm currently searching for another anime created back in 2003. i dont think i can find it. chances are really slim. but then again, rurouni kenshin (1996) is still all over the net, available for download. but the anime i'm looking for isnt as popular as rurouni kenshin. i dont know either... i didnt really recognize anime when i was in p6. i know i would not be able to find that anime, but i'll still try. i know i watched one or two episodes of it in p6, every sunday at 2.30am, when i stayed up late at night, to either study or complete some project. i think its really difficult to search for it now. sigh. i wonder... when did people start downloading anime from the net? before or after 2003? anyway, 20% of the fansites i have been featuring that anime are in a foreign language... gah... it's either french or something i dont know.

argh.. still searching..

[christmas shopping]

back from jurong point...

watched exorcism of emily rose with denise this afternoon. i can only say that show just scared the hell outta me but i was okay after the movie. i dont know if i will be tonight. probably not. after that 3am thing, some trinity thing. then the father moore (the priest) said it would be 3pm in the other realm and its like THE time for demons and blah to enter the real world. haiyah, since it's based on a true story, then i guess its real right? haiyah

well then we went to pizza hut for dinner and we talked about a lot of things. cant believe we could squeeze so many topics in just one meal. then we walked about jurong point, browsing shops. we then played jurassic park and completed the entire game, of course spending a sum of money, in order to just complete it.

well i'm home, and gonna sleep earlier tonight. so that i can stop worrying about 3am and replenish my energy, i fall asleep everywhere i go now. almost fell asleep during the movie when emily rose was talking to the virgin mary...

i also bought the 7flower album yesterday. finally bought it. i have been waiting for it to be released since i dont know when. it really does take a long time to fly to singapore. geez... but anyway, its not bad and the reason why i'm not downloading instead because it'll be much more meaningful to buy the original. well it's really not bad and the vcd rocks. yeap. encouraged to buy.

downloaded the bleach manga, and i'm far ahead of the anime, although i still prefer the anime. yeah, many unexpected things happen after rukia was rescued and ichigo returned to the real world. and toushiro such is a weird captain, but he's super adorable because he's a child with a cool hairstyle. he's cool because he achieved bankai and became a captain at such a young age, so i think he's super cool. i've also decided kuchiki byakuya isnt so bad after all, he actually took ichimaru gin's sword right in the stomach to shield rukia. and he almost died, so when he told rukia about his wife/her sister, it was as if he wanted to tell her the truth before he died or something. and he sounded different. he didnt die. haha.

well, i'm just gonna sit and stone here for a while then. tata.

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Houki Boshi (Abandoned Star) - Younha (Bleach Closing Theme 3)

yozora o miage hitori houkiboshi o mita no
isshun de hajikete wa kiete shimatta kedo
anata no koto omou to mune ga itaku naru no
ima sugu aitai yo dakedo sora wa tobenai kara

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tonde iku donna
ashita ga kite mo ko no omoi wa tsuyoi
dakara houkiboshi zutto kowarenai yo

ame ga futte iyada to boyaiteita toki ni
anata ga itta koto ima demo oboeteru
ame no ato no yozora wa kirei ni hoshi ga deru
sore o kangaeru to ame mo suki ni nareru yo ne to

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
afureru hikari furasu yo itsumo
kanashii toki yozora miru anata ga
egao ni naru youni motto kagayakitai

anata wa itsumo hitori nanika to tatakatteru
soba ni iru koto shika atashi ni wa dekinai kedo

moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tonde iku kitto
kanarazu todoku ko no isshun no hikari de
anata no IMA terashi sora o megurou
atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba
kitto soba ni ite ageru donna toki mo

[houki boshi]

came back from the confirmation. yeap.

working ot from now till friday. wish me good luck.

i'm gonna watch the last two episodes i have after blogging. theres no one to chat with anyway

i guess thats the only way to cheer myself up. i'm just feeling very sick and tired, and this melancholic feeling inside me is slowly consuming me.

yeah. i am very worried, upset. i really need peace and quiet. i just need the people at home to stop screaming their heads off for no apparent reason and leave me alone. is that a lot? i just dont want to hear anyone thrashing their stuff about, making so much noise, for i already have had a terrible day. i dont want to hear any voices except the music playng from my computer

i had a glimpse of it
whatever that happened
i stood against the wall
and waited...

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D-tecnoLife - UVERworld (Bleach opening song 2)

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo
kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de

tsunaida kimi no te wo

itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana
usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara
hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare
toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte
kimi wo mitsuke dasu

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro

sabikitta hito no you ni

kasanari au dake ga munashikute
hitori de ikite ikerutte ittta
arifureta yasashisa kotobajya
ima wa mou todokanai hodo ni kimi wa uzukidasu

tsunai da kimi no te wa nanigenai yasashisa wo motome
Do you remember
itami wo shiru koto de hito ni yasashiku nareru kara

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro

How can I see the meaning of life
kieteku you're the only...

kowarenai you ni to hanarete iku kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
ima wa by and by mie nakuttatte subete ni imi ga aru kara
kesenai kako mo seoi attekou ikiru koto wo nagedasanai de

You'd better forget everything. Remember... your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember... modoranai kedo

hizunda kioku no you na toki no naka de itsuka wakari aeru kara

[ichigo]

i love bleach. haha its so funny and cool. i love rukia, haha she's so cute. i love yourichi too, haha shes so funny. i'm so glad liz urged me to watch it. haha. i still have more than 50 epoisodes left. but i can slowly watch them. wahahaha.

http://www.bleachportal.net

ichigo's name is also very cute, because it means strawberry, but its still weird for a death god (Shinigami). and he has a new soul slayer, which looks super cool. its addictive too. i mean the anime.

i finally got my hands on the sims 2. and the other expension packs as well. wheee...

haha i just realised i have practically nothing to post. because i'm still mad at what i heard today. sorry.

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This song is nice.

Life Is Like a Boat - Rie Fu

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

[bleach]

streaming results released. not really happy with the outcome, but i was prepared for it. in fact, i expected it. ah well, got over it. and got over the shocking news. but then again, what can happen?

i decided bleach is good anime since liz was urging me to watch it, i've watched only the first 2 episodes, because thats all i have. but its cool. i've also decided DN angel rocks! haha i like dark, he's super dao. daisuke looks really childish, probably because of his weird hairdo and his small figure. but oh wells. liz is coming over tomorrow, so i can watch even more bleach! haha. i think that its really funny because that ichigo person, who is the new death god, has a much larger soul-slayer (sword) than the previous death god.

oh i just finished westside story today. it was tear-jerking right till the end. but it was still exciting. its the second time watching it. i'm gonna watch wang zi bian qing again. the same goes to the rest of my other vcds at home. i might not consider watching meteor garden 1, neither am i considering meteor garden 2. actually, meteor garden 2 is worse than meteor garden 1. hmm.

i'm gonna sleep now. feeling super lethargic, as usual. well, i've been dozing off in school, when i'm doing my stuff. my mum said she found a temp job for me at the ais(australian international school), under the purchase department... maybe its similar to the green shop or the manna store. sounds like fun, but they only need one person, so i'm sorry matilda, for not being able to bring you along. just hope i dont doze off when i cross the road, because i feel like i'm gonna fall asleep even when i'm crossing the road from philips to econs, which is gonna be dangerous for me if i cross the road alone.

ah well, i think the chance of me being run over by a car is pretty slim, but if i really end up sleeping on the road and the driver cant see me, then haha, its the end of briana ang. then again, its just my vivid imagination... its never gonna happen actually...

haha okay... good night :)

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No Such Thing - John Mayer

'Welcome to the real world', she said to me
Condescendingly
'Take a seat, take your life
Plot it out in black and white'
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
But something's better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take
the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits, maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't
Find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
But something's better on the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible
I am invincible
I am invincible
as long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
As the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait till my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

[dell dimension 5150]

its finally here. haha the new computer has a 19-inch LCD screen. its kinda big and scary. haha.

i hope shes okay... its sounds pretty serious.

finally able to play maple story... haha and i'm mage now. level 8. because i finally have a video card. which means i can play sims 2. but i guess i'll have to wait a long time to buy it, and after buying it, i have to wait a long time before i can actually sit down and play it. haha.

i am extremely hungry and tired. look at the time now. i should be sleeping... haha i will after posting.

i feel kinda bad for not going for the 2/3 outing today... well its just that christine sounded so excited when she was telling me the entire programme for the day. then when i said i couldnt go... she didnt really have anything to say after that. so i feeling guilty for not going... but i dont really regret now. haha i did have fun in school. :D

my bro's not at home. i dont know how he can keep up... he had some leadership camp on monday. and he's off for some chalet now. but heck. i cant even keep awake for one day. i dozed off while setting up the new computer. i was so eager to set it up myself, and my mum did it in the end. gah. but its so empty now. no files, no software. nothing. except a few music files, a few pictures (only 3), gunbound and maple story. then there's msn, ulead and the mcafee virus thing. other than that, its really bare. there are no ms softwares, but there are games. hmmm...

i love the keyboard and the mouse though. they're wireless! and the design is cool. the speakers dont look unique though, but heck.

[confusion]

zong ling:
hey zl! thanks for being shall a cool equalite. thanks for entertaining me when i was bored. haha although i seldom talk to you, but you're still a rare friend. thanks :D

val:
hey spasticated leader! haha sorry for arguing with you for practically the entire year... but still thanks, for teaching me many stuff and helping me when i needed it. i have learnt a lot after the whole experience. thanks val :)
P.S. oh and i dont think j*** has given up yet... haha

julienne:
hey! thanks for cheering me up with that perky personality you have. haha i still cant believe i wrote that in the minutes... but anyway, thanks for being such a wonderful junior. haha i will never ever forget how you almost fell and how you reacted during the presentations. haha. thanks for being such a sunshine and the most hardworking member. most of all, thanks for being a great friend. :D

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i realised i have forgotten to do something very important... haha actualyl its not THAT important. but oh wells. thats eating. so i guess its important...

???

the dimension 5150 is arriving tomorrow. i dont know if thats late or early. but its one day early. yay.

[thank you]

after reading mag's and julienne's blogs, i decided to do the same as well. :)

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elizabeth:
thanks for being such a nice a cute friend for almost 4 years. actually we didnt really know each other for the first two years... so anyway. thanks for being so understanding and calm when it comes to almost anything. i've enjoyed your ramblings about certain issues and it's really fun hanging out with you. well, i'll take this oppurtuinity to apologize for the times i offended you in any way. sorry... thanks for being a wonderful friend. :)

matilda:
heyhey! thanks for always being there to speak your mind. well that amuses me in some way. haha. anyway, i got to know you better last year. haha i still remember back in P6, when we were going home, a woman came up to us. and she mistook matilda for fatimah. dont know if you still remember, but its okay. thanks for giving me advice and helping me out in any way. you're a great equalite. :)

magdalene:
thanks for being there to hear me out when i needed a listening ear. it was really fun being in 2/3 and playing around with the rest of the equalites. you have a bright personality. haha two years felt like 10 years or something. thanks for being a great friend. :)

geraldine:
hey! thanks for able to tolerate my lameness and nonsense. thanks for listening to my problems and i guess that really helped alot. although we've known each other for only two years, i got to know a lot about you. thanks for being a BRIGHT person and thanks for helping me out when i needed ny help. thanks

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erm, shall stop for now.