ok juz came back frm ymca like 30 mins ago...

haha, was attacked by the kids... ok, i'm one who is easily bullied but not by so many at the same time... did i break my record? well... i dun know coz i have p5 juniors who bully me... pull my hair, chase me around n attack me... so i dun know lar. well, i did have fun lar. zhihui is a p5 girl frm macpherson primary sch.

initially, when the kids first came in, they were taking the lego men, n making lots of noise, so i got a little worried and all... but then, after assisting the girl, zhihui(i tink her name is spelt like this... i dun know lar), she sort of started to calm down. yeah sumtin like that. so then it went well lar... except our robot was too fast n too slow. we had to keep changing the power. frm 3 to 2, 2 to 1... 3 n 2 were actually too fast, n 1 was too slow but in the end, the power was 2 n it worked fine... happiness. well my team won the against all odds awards, haha ok. yeah, then the kids were tokin lar, abt whether savina was a girl or a boy... ok shall not tok abt it... haha, watever it is, the kids tght savina was a boy, n kept calling her "boyboy". haha... that was hilarious. then we took a group foto. n when zhihui actually wanted to give me a hug, her arms were actually strangling me... so i was moaning in agony, haha. yeah. i was playing dead on the ground n denise was crying over my "death", n then zhihui came to tickle me, n i started to run. then the other 5 came after me, i was attacked by them. my tshirt was pulled frm the back. haiyoh, finally, i didnt feel anymore ticklish, n they finally let me go... i was so worn out already, bcoz of the running n laughing n screaming. i almost ost my voice. then we played captain's ball. ok, it was a little impossible to play in a room, but we made it possible in the end. frm captain's ball, it gradually changed into rugby, n i was fighting for the ball wif gary, haha, i felt to the ground. coz i was there, struggling... n i finally let go when the teacher said stop. yeah... n when gary was kicking the ball. it went straight for my face. ah great lar... but it was a float ball, deflated actually, so it wasnt really that pain, but my face was really warm after that n i was all dizzy n getting a headache n i was even more worn out. ok, i did have fun lar... so then gary n jiashun(i tink) were fighting for the ball on the floor, so their position was rather sick lar. we were all laughing coz their position was like having sexual intercourse. guy n guy. yeah, that was sick lar... then gary got the ball n came over to the other side of the room, where we were coz they were gg for the ball (ahem) at the other end of the room, far frm us. he said "great f*****g" yeah, we were all shocked lar. the look on savina's face was funny, n evryone was really taken aback coz he was only in primary sch n he oredi knew that word... freaky...

then played the playing cards debby bought for me... yay!!! n we had pizza, coke, etc. matilda n i left straight after we ate... but they were still eating so anyway, we left first. n we found our way out, thanx to savina's directions... haha, she wanted to accompany us lar... but i guess dun need lar. so we left on our own. we talked abt selection camp n other stuff. n i got home, finding my mum's bf back frm bangkok. haha, i juz remembered, liz came back frm bangkok too today. haha, mayb it was the same plane? arh, nvm.

this morning's gift exchange was ok lar. i was sitting between stef quek n porsi, so both of them were trying to snatch things frm each other n i ended up getting hit in the eye once. isnt dat serious but yeah. it wasnt good sitting there, thats all i can say. then i got this cute calendar pig, frm i dunno hu. n denise got my jar of cranes. n i got the santa hat for matilda, but mag n liz didnt cum so i guess i have to give them the gift sum other time then...

Curtain Falls - Blue

[Duncan]
We come from humble beginnings and
Who could have guessed it when
You sit and doubt it and
Things aint all that bright
But we made it though the night
It's like a game of truth or dare
If you can make it here
You'll make it anywhere
That's what we've been told
But the stories getting old

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We started out many years ago
No one will ever know
How far we've really come
Since we walked away
And no more words to say

[Antony]
And we made a lot of sacrifice
Undid a lot of ties
Fought a lot of fights
To get where we are now
Just don't ask me how

[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh
In the script of my life

[Simon]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
In the script of my life

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz i'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And i've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life

wahaha.... i finally got the ffx game!!!! woohoo!! my mum bought it for me as a christmas prezzie. haha, i can actually choose btween the jap version n the english version, coz both r in the dvd... whee =] she bought it the day b4. i hardly played it yet. m i juz weird? i was so eager to get the game n i barely played it yet??? yeah... n i bought the harry potter n the prisoner of azkaban game like months ago n i only started playing it yesterday... thats slow. n i hvnt finished ffx2 yet... i'm too slow liao. still stuck there trying to defeat that demon in bikanel desert, the magus sisters in the farplane, the boss fiend in the thunder plains n getting past the cloister of traits. arh, even though i'm in the last story level but i still have so much to finish... i cant wait for the day i finish the game.... coz i wanna see the ending. even though i've seen it in the vcd suhui lent me, but i still wanna finish the game. my bro was nagging at me, yeah he was nagging at me, y m i always playing ffx2 n not the other games... haha, yeah, i agree.

i really do enjoy morning madness... listened to it this morning, was laughing my head off... ok nvm.

haiz.... after reading debby's post... i have to say that i feel the same too. i have put arc as my first priority. my priorities are jumbled up. haiz mayb my life really had to suck this much. what is the freaking matter with me? all that happened, the problem does lie with me. i have caused all these. my incapability was the cause.

i dun know wat to do now.... to hide? to run? to run n hide? as u can see, useless me is trying to run away frm reality.

went to give out flyers in the morning for the newspaper collection on saturday. was grped with suhui debby n geraldine. ok, we started at block 153 n when we came across our first dog-guarded house, debby was all excited, haha. but when she saw the dog, she said it was ugly coz it was a black dog with a really black face. haha... then next house, a cute doggy, brown. debby said it was a mad dog, i have to agree lar. i heard it bark like two storeys away so it is considerably mad lar. we finished two blocks. but when we came over to our third block, we only managed to finished storeys four to eleven, coz we ran out of flyers.

then had lunch. geraldine didnt eat anything, debby had nasi lemak, and suhui had chicken rice n i was stealing soup frm her, ok not stealing frm her but was sipping some lar, argh nvm. the four of us talked abt out primary sch food. abt the dirty noodles stall n debby's primary sch drink stall, haha, the tght of it makes me wanna roar with laughter. :D

we went back to sch to help pack the kits for the ymca thing after waiting for the rain to stop... then debby, suhui n i left at arnd 4.30pm.

we went to more than words... i forgot wat debby bought, hehe. the stuff there were cute, but expensive. then we came across the vcd shop next to kfc. hehe, saw the ffx vcd among the anime vcd... argh, i was getting all excited... :D then we headed for the comics store in central. i saw the ffx2 ps2 game... excited again, dunno y, haha, but i oredi have that. then suhui showed me the ffx n ffx2 playing cards. debby bought a box of the playing cards for me as a christmas gift, yay!!!! thx debby!!! then i saw the ffx n ffx2 game strategy guide!!!! argh!!!! i want that too!!! but it cost $29! argh... y did it have to be so ex??? :'( n we saw the ffxi online game!!! arh i want that game, which cost like $69+??? evrything is so ex... then when debby was paying for the stuff, i was looking at the ezlink card stickers, for nth... haha, so many ffx n ffx2!!!! argh, i was making that noise whenever i saw sumtin relating ff, it wasnt a scream... not exactly, coz it wasnt loud lar... haha, thx debby for reminding me. then i was looking n looking thru until suhui said "u're not gonna make ur ez link card look like that right?" haha, i quickly put the booklet back n we walked out of the shop. suhui noticed the posters hanging outside, so the three of us went to take a look. suhui then said to look for ff posters. hehe, i saw them first n made that noise when i saw the first one, then made that noise again when i saw the second one... haha... it was a ff craze day for me lar.... i love that shop!!! haha

then i went to the salon to meet my mum, to cut my hair! yay, i finally cut it short. n the hair dresser had to spend 10 mins juz to shampoo my hair, great huh? n wats great? she used so much shampoo... dunno y. yeah, then another hairdresser, who was really friendly, helped me cut my hair. hehe, i cut it short n now i have to say i do look a little like a boy, but nvm... when she was done cutting my hair, she said i looked like a little girl, like thx lar... anyway, she layered my hair, n i like it as it is now. :D

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

today was a rather useless day for me.... ok mayb not... i was lazing in bed... argh, like a pig...

then i was juz playing ps2 games... and did some of the accounts for my mum... and watched star awards... arhhh... thats all

i'm now all worried bcoz of the whole prefect thing.... i think jess wans to reject it. n it seems dan wants to reject it too. n clare is the only one left. well, i'm still a little worried abt the whole thing. to be frank, i'm really worried abt 1/3 and all, bcoz of the many incidents that happened in 1/3. i juz hope that 1/3 will have less backstabbers n all. n a better class comm (sorry class comm, if wat i said was really offending in anyway) coz i dun think the class comm really did what they were suppose to do. n i do hope next year's class comm will know wat exactly i'm tokin abt. wat i really hope for now is a class with a better student body. actually, everything that happened... it isnt juz 1/3's fault, it is too the class comm's fault.
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1/3: if u all tght that we were blaming u for watever that happened, then i'm very sorry. but if u tght that it was all the class comm's fault that evrything bad that happened had to turn out that way, u r wrong. it isnt juz the class comm's fault. it is too ur fault. if the class had been cooperative, then the class comm wudnt have problems, n the class comm was wrong to do things that shudnt have been done...

1/3 class comm: well, it was really nice working with u all... n will always remember 213, yeah... but actually it isnt exactly the class at fault. we too r at fault. we have raised our voices at them, trying to intimidate them. but actually, it doesnt work... i'm not saying that we needed to find another way to intimidate the class. but actually, if we werent so harsh, then mayb problems like this wudnt happen. sum things... we have to be responsible for. it isnt always the class' fault, so sumtimes we have to think thru wat went wrong... n abt wat happened abt the class gathering, it was really too much.
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i realized my mistake... but wat was done cannot b undone.

well i miss 6 ixora 2003... haha all the craziness. and the class anthem. haha, it was the best class ever, even though we were the most mischievious, i like 6 ixora bcoz we were united. haiz... 1 year has past. but i still miss 6 ixora lar... haha.
anyone still has that foto taken back when we were p5s? the one we took coz oinky was migrating?

ok... came back frm suntec like... 30 mins ago...

ok, so the dance thing did go well... n so many fotos..... haha, finally saw delle in a SKIRT!!! hehe... yeah... all of us in skirts, i hate skirts. so sickening. when i got there i saw sumone wearing jeans... so... argh. delle, jianeng n i were like pigs coz we took a lot of dessert... we werent that full until we had dessert, which was too sweet. n we were rather worried abt our table manners and all. priscilla was holding the fork in the right n the spoon in the left. n delle, jianeng n i forgot abt the handkerchiefs provided for us on the table... n the seven of us were sitting with another 4 adults... so then we finally used those handkerchiefs.... haiyoh that was embarassing. then we took fotos and all.

after the dinner, i was walking arnd for an hour in heels, waiting for my mum. argh... my skin was peeling even b4 we got to the dinner. then i had to bear with the pain and all whenever i take a step. i walked all the way to hmv at citylink to wait for my mum. but when i got there, they said they were closing in 5 mins. so i had no choice but to leave. n i had to go back to suntec to meet my mum. so i struggled back there... it was so eerie, dark n empty. the lights were like dim. n the escalators were stopped. so i had to climb up in heels. n finally at suntec tower 4. then i had to walk a big round juz to take the bus... the whole thing was tormenting. haiz... n now i'm home. but i enjoyed the church choir's performance. it was wonderful... it was really good lar. they're having a concert next saturday but i cant go lar... i doubt my mum will let me go so yeah.... arh... my feet still hurt... i'm gonna sleep now. toodles!

Vertigo - U2

Uno, dos, tres... catorce
[Spoken vocal]
Turn it up loud, Captain!

Lights go down it's dark
The jungle is your head - can't rule your heart
I'm feeling so much stronger than before
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul it can't be bought
Your mind can wonder

Hello, hello... (Hola)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (donde estas?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something...
I can feel, feel

The night is full of holes
There's bullets ripping sky of ink with gold
They twinkle as the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can’t dance - at least they know

I can't stand the beat
I'm asking for the cheque
Girl with crimson nails
It's Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music Whoooaaa
Swinging to the music Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa
Whoooaaa

Hello, hello... (Hola)
I'm at a place called Vertigo (donde estas?)
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something...
I can feel, feel

Shake it...
Just for...
Jumping in... yeah

[Edge solo]

All of this... all of this can be yours
All of this... all of this can be yours
All of this... all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want and no one gets hurt

Hello, hello... (Hola)
We're at a place called Vertigo (dónde estás?)
Lights go down and no one knows
That you give me something...
I can feel your love teaching me
Aaahhhhh-aaahhh-aaahhh-aaahhh...
Your love is teaching me
Aaahhhhh-aaahhh-aaahhh-aaahhh...
How to kneel, kneel

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, YEAH,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, YEEEAAAAH!

today i overslept... woke up at 3pm today... coz i slept at abt 1am... but i guess i was too tired coz i was dozing off while watching the ffx n ffx2 vcds su hui lent me, THANX SU HUI!!!

n last night, sumting weird happened. when i was resting my head on the bed, without my blanket... with the lights still switched on... n my bro went to my dad's place... so then i laid there with my eyes closed, i felt like a cane hitting my hand n my mum scolding me... then i sort of expected a slap... coz i felt sumtin like whoosh across my face, but i didnt open my eyes, the cane on my hand, it wasnt exactly pain but i felt sumtin thin touching me hand... like sumtin as hitting me with force, but not really pain, i think u know wat i mean right? yeah... i suddenly heard as though my bro was scolding me, in my ear or sumtin as though my mum n bro were really in the room... i dun know why it was like that... but i didnt want to open my eyes coz i didnt dare to coz i knew my mum n bro werent in the room... but it was as though i felt their presence... so then i had to force open my eyes... the first thing aftert opening my eyes was to sit up, and surveyed the room, no one... i was puzzled y i had that experience. it was really a mystery to me. then i quickly switched off the lights n went to bed, i was rather scared as i tried to fall asleep... it was weird... how cud i have heard or felt stuff when i wasnt even sleeping coz i knew i was not sleeping, i know it myself...

i did fall asleep in the end n woke up at 3pm, still as tired... but i had to get up, to pack up my room, even though my bro wasnt home n i still had to... then i went to bathe n went out wif my mum to eat... on the way home, sumone gave me this invitation thing to go to sum concert at the church next to my block... so yeah, then was on my way home n bumped into bonnie, actually, she called out to me coz i was in my own world n did not realize wat was happening arnd me. then she was trying to persuade me to go, but then i told her i had sumtin on... so i didnt go... but actually i was gg home to watch tv... sorry bonnie... then reached home at 6.30pm. started on ffx disc one... n watched till now... finished the entire thing. shall watch ffx2 2mrw, if possible... yeah... so my sumtin was watching vcd... i dun tink bonnie will b reading this lar, coz no one cums to my blog so why bother? yeah... so it was all in jap, but thanx t the chinese subtitles, i understood it... it was rather sad lar, the story, to think that tidus got sucked by sin n ended up in a place he didnt know... if im not wrong, yuna didnt even know his name... n then tidus disappeared... but i know he did come back in ffx2, so unlucky he was juz a dream. at least i got a better picture of wat happened in ffx... hehe, i feel like writing another "short" paragraph abt ff... but i guess sum other time lar... yeah, hearing wat happened in ffx frm mouths are difficult, coz i'm a visual not audio so yeah...

then that was wat i did all day, ONLY... my life is BORINGGGG... n the mash potato i made last night was horrible.... ugh, i forgot how to make liaox haha. shall go to bed later, coz i'm dying liao, n phoenix said i had eye bags, or eye circles... i cant remember, but sleeping cant change me back lar... my bro's jabbering in my ear. argh...

i recived a letter frm nkf... not that i got kidney failure or anything... but its this children medical fund, which i guess evryone knows... i donated sum money back in primary sch, did i? thats what that person said when she called to ask me to check my particulars... dun noe lar, but i got this card thing to ask pple to donate... so pple, pls help those who need help yeah... not me lar, but u can if u donate money... so look for me, coz i need u to sign the thing... yeah... i dun remember a single thing abt donating lar, i do evry year, but i cant remember...

shud i change the song on my blog?? but if i do, i'm changing it to a jap song click to play the song... it may sound weird and all but yeah... shud i change it?

the retreat was fun... i enjoyed the water games and all but i had sand in my pockets... was having a hard time getting them out of there... there r still sum stuck inside... i think.... n the movie marathon...

the first night... mag, priscilla teo, michele, celestine n i were sleeping in the corridor of the chalet next to us while liz n matilda went for a night walk. we were pretty freaked coz it wasnt occupied n it was dark n eerie inside, but we still overcame it. then mag was worrying abt insects crawling onto her... well celestine, michele, mag n priscilla were already sleeping, esp mag, after the meeting. as for me, i was trying to sleep, closing n opening eyes... for like 15 mins. coz we had two sides... liz, matilda, michele n i will b sleeping on one side, while mag, priscilla n cel were sleeping on the other. mag was sleeping on the outside, next to the steps... so actually liz n matilda will b sleeping on the outside but they went out so i cud see clearly if any insect wud wanna crawl up. so mag was sleeping on the outside n specifically told us to alert her if we see stuff she hates(insects) when i was laying down, opening my eyes, i saw a cockroach crawling up, gg for mag's head(at least i tink its her head) yeah, so i quickly sat up n was whacking mag... "mag, get up get up!!!" she was startled n stood up almost immediately. michele n cel got up too. priscilla was still sleeping, haha... n we were making so much noise. mag was like jumping abt, gg "wat wat" then i said a roach was gg for her head, n so i woke her up... the cockroach crawled away after realizing sumone has discovered it snooping arnd. i tght i saw a frog coz earlier, when liz, matilda, mag n i went out for a nightwalk, i saw a really small one, so when i saw the puny size, i tght it was a frog, but it started to crawl, so it wasnt a frog... then we woke priscilla up... n moved out, coz the cockroach was abt to cum back again when i frightened it away. so we ended up watching movies back in the chalet... n fell asleep at 6+ while watching soul guardians, all the way to 8.10am.

the second night, we did this encouragement thing... yeah... i think i liked doing that lar... n then was watching incredibles upstairs when fell asleep n woke up at 2am, coz of sum issue... n didnt sleep till 5+ when evryone was already sleeping except for me n liz, who was half sleeping, half awake. then i decided to sleep lar, since pple inside, downstairs n upstairs, outside too, were sleeping.. n it was boring staying up alone... so i decided to try to sleep. n i did, till 8+.

was tokin to donna abt certain stuff... after the sec 4s left n michele was in the room upstairs... we were tokin abt stuff which u dun really need to know. so donna, keep it to urself. we were tokin till brenda came in, then more pple came in so we started taking fotos... there was one when clarissa, grace n i were doin some pose but i looked as though i was eating grace, haha... then had dinner at the lobby. we had pizza... nice, n after dinner, denise n i went to buy a big bottle of coke to share during the movie marathon, but we cudnt eat n drink upstairs so we drank a little when we cum down. n bought those bubbly games, not bubbles lar, but those that u blow up, n they stick on the table. but we didnt play that either, but nvm.

all in all, i enjoyed the retreat a lot lar... even though didnt sleep much but bonded a lot... haha, so i really did have fun.

Christmas soon.... i must get the ffx game!!! argh, haha, i dun mean anything... yeah... i suddenly wanna eat a honeydew...

here are the lyrics for the jap song... but i tink theres an english version. after all it came frm the ffx game so i guess there is... right?

Suteki Da Ne - Final Fantasy X theme song(i think?)

kaze na yoseta kotoba ni
oyoida kokoro
kumo ga hakobu ashita ni
hazunda koe

tsuki ga yureru kagami ni
furueta kokoro
hoshi ga nagare koboreta
yawarakai namida

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
kimi no machi ie ude no naka

sono mune
karada azuke
yoi ni magire
yumemiru

kaze wa tomari kotoba wa
yasashii maboroshi
kumo wa yabure ashita wa
tooku no koe

tsuki ga nijimu kagami wo
nagareta kokoro
hoshi ga yurete koboreta
kakusenai namida

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
kimi no machi ie ude no naka

sono kao
sotto furete
asa ni tokeru
yumemiru

hey i'm back....

Tuesday, 23 November 2004
CONGRATS IJ FOR WINNING THE DIRECTOR'S AWARD!!! haha, u all did really well... haha, evryone's sleeping now... n i'm still awake...

i missed most of csi last night... sigh... coz i fell asleep halfway thru n awoke at the end of the show... sigh... i missed a good show indeed... ha, i was so darn tired, dunno y... haha, n in the afternoon, i was actually reading to keep awake... but then i fell asleep for juz that few seconds, and awoke to find delle, savina, mel hong n grace yow's friend, joanna i tink(sry if i'm wrong) staring at me, smiling and laughin at me. fine... they said i looked comical when i was sleeping... sighz....

so i guess i really didnt show any emotions...

Wednesday, 24 November 2004
so it was a real boring day for me...

i did a tarot reading today... well it was true during the first one. but it wasnt when it came to the second one. ok, i had to totally agree with what i was reading...

argh my bro didnt do well for psle n he doesnt really seem to care... n my dad is juz gonna kill me, i dun like tokin to him... u may say that i'm not grateful, but i dun care if u r really gonna say that... he called n i answered the fone. first question

Dad:briana, how were ur brother's results? good or bad?
Briana: erm i dun know, ask him urself
(shoved the fone to bro)

i know that was utterly rude, but that was the first thing that came out of my mouth... n i'm sry for that. well he's gonna kill me for that coz he'll say that i dun care abt my bro n thats y i dun know how he did. if i told him my bro did well, he's gonna say that i'm lying, which i m, if i were to tell him that. n finally if i told him bad, he'll say that i didnt teach my bro n guide him... well, if i'willing to teach sumone who doesnt wish to learn, wat can i do? especially my brother. so that clearly showed that he dislikes me a lot n i dun care coz i've been living like that for the past few years... u may think that i'm being an idiot, but i dun really care what u say, coz i've got sick of evrything

have u ever felt vry left out? well, i did, it wasnt a really nice feeling, of course... my old friends... they seem to be drifting away frm me... further n further away... i guess friendships dun last forever yeah? even sum like to say "friends forever"... i dun seem to realize what is gg on arnd me. i m so useless... n i only found out days ago that i'm left alone, i have to answer for evryting, coz evrything's has been thrown at me, i juz cant do it, kay? i know that i'm the only hope n all, but i juz cant do it. im a disappointment but i have to do my best, i still need to hang on... not only do i feel hurt, i feel depressed, not able to answer to my mistakes...

i'm back!!! went swimming earlier.... haha, i still remember how to swim... well thats lame, nvm.

i finally succeeded in uploading the stupid song onto my blog... lalala... argh... i'm gg mad, but i'm so glad i finally did it!!! woohoo!! after countless attempts... i finally did it... after days of searching, yay... actually it has only been 3 days, no big deal... but i m so happy...

i'm back...

argh i say weird stuff whenever i post... especially when i'm juz beginning...

these few days, i've been online till 3+ or 4+ n even 5+ n wake up at abt 1pm... so useless...

"what the heck is ur problem??? do u tink by doing that, everything's solved? huh? y do u have to do that? what u're giving up now, u'll never be able to retrieve it again" i juz wanna tell this particular person.... coz i cant stand what he/she is doing...

i'm getting grouchy again... i'm so mad at myself... i detest myself. my incapability caused so much problems. i hate wat i'm doin. i didnt want that to happen, but y did it have to? it's my fault.

i'm starting to wry abt the email thing... i'm beginning to have doubts. m i being paranoid? i dun noe... i juz have this feeling, may b paranoia, but i juz have doubts abt wats gonna happen later. u may say i've got no trust in myself if u noe wat i'm tokin abt.

ok so my fate wil b decided on tueday... i'm dead by then... if i really die. pls cum to my funeral...

But still I swore to hide the pain
When I turn by back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer

i wanna die

so its so late, n i still cant sleep!!!! argh, its 5.20AM!!! blah...

i've been listening to the song, 1000 words, for 10 hrs, over and over again... and i'm not sick of it... but it helps me think... bcoz of the lyrics... and o yar, this was the song yuna as singing at the concert and the projections of lenne and shuyin... if u read my long-winded post, or u play ffx2, u'll know. this song cums directly frm the game, wif the thunder and the gunshots. its juz the video without the images, juz the music/sounds. i wanna thank charissa for sending it to me... heehee

so met replied to my mum's email. i'm staying... but i still have doubts... dun noe y i keep thinking sumting bad is gonna happen but i'm still worried over sumting...

after reading sum pple's blogs,i start to worry, a lot... i get worried easily... i dun know y. but ever since that very day, i'm getting more worried evry single day... its like all bottled up inside me n i cant do anything abt it, sigh... n sumtimes i cry... or feel like crying, or tears juz well up in my eyes... i dun noe, i juz feel so sad, especially when i listen to 1000 words or watch the video... i start to tear for sum reason. i dun noe... y? m i really that weak??? sigh... i need to stop worrying, but can i really stop? memories juz suddenly i dun noe, come into me, reminding me of the past, when i dun want to think of the past. evrything's now cramped in my head, making me feel worse. argh, i really need brainwashing

ok so i did change the song again.... its 1000 words, sung by yuna n lenne... its frm the final fantasy x-2 game. n i can tell u the jap version doesnt sound as good as the english version... heehee, for those hu cant hear it.... pls tell me n i'm sry... but i dun noe y i can hear... weird.

went to make ezlink card wif liz today... intended to go down to buona vista, but we went down to yishun instead. then we realized they ran out of cards. so we went to sembawang instead... but when we got there, we realized liz needed either her birth cert or passport bsides her foto n $$. haha, so we had no choice but to go down to liz's home to get it. haha, in total, we took 5 trains n 2 buses. haha, then we went to sch.... man almost got discovered by met, not discovered, but i dun noe, i'm afraid of him... i guess u noe y... but anyway, he went to st raph n liz n i left at 6.15pm b4 he came baq... i wud say diana was scaring me, telling me met was cuming up... blah, fine...

here r the lyrics if u can hear the song, which i doubt... i still dun noe y it cant b heard... sry...

1000 words - Yuna and Lenne, Characters of Final Fantasy X-2

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me,
Your words are like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily...

I acted so distant then,
Didnt say goodbye before you left
But i was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
You fought too easily
'Save your tears, cause I'll come back'
I could hear that you whipsered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain
When I turn by back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if i cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say
Whats in my heart...

Cause a thousand words
Called out through the ages
They'll fly to you,
Even though I can't see
I know they're reaching you...
Suspended on Silver Wings...

Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will craddle you
Even although your weary
They seem far away...
They'll hold you forever...

Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
And carry you home
And back into my arms...
Suspended on Silver Wings...
On silver wings!

And a thousand words
Called out through the ages
The greater good
Ignore all the lonely
Heres to all the happy days
They'll hold you FOREVER...

Oh...A thousand words...

hey, so i changed the skin.... tell me if its ugly... coz liz said its horrible... nvm, anyway thats tidus n yuna, go ahead n guess hus yuna n hus tidus, for all i care.

today was another boring day. my bro's friend spent the entire day here... playing ps2... while i did nth but play internet games... how boring. i think i only spent my evryday life playing computer games... n studying for maths ca... sigh... i have no motivation to study. n i hvnt done the choreography for stef quek, sry!!! haiz... i'm rotting at home till i see fungi growing on me, yuck, nvm, 4get wat i juz said... haiz... i feel so guilty coz liz wans to go to sch but my fone either conks out, or i juz cant go out... sad...

went out to have dinner at marche yesterday... i cant believe my appetite's getting frm bad to worse. i barely ate anything. i juz had sum rosti with a chicken sausage, a root beer n mushroom soup... i took hell long to eat the rosti. usually i wud go for a rosti, root beer, mushroom soup, sashimi, dessert... but i didnt, i was hungry but i didnt feel vry gd... i felt so sick so i had to pass the dessert n the sashimi... sigh... but i went to HMV. n thanx to my mum, who has suprisingly brightened up my day.... haha, she bought the simple plan cd!! woohoo!!! so happy, she juz bought it for me coz she bought that ps2 magazine for my bro... she tinks its fair to me, but i dun really care if she bought the cd for me or not... i can actually buy it myself, i didnt need to be jealous of one magazine... i guess she still thinks i'm childish, which i still m... sigh..

i watched like two movies in a day... watched princess diaries 2. i find the movie pretty short n there was a lie. princess mia said she has never been in love before, but that is so not true... wat abt michael? i guess evryone forgot abt princess diaries 1??? i watched it millions of times. then the incredibles are so funny, muz watch... even though i watched only the last part but yeah... n mean girls, its so bitchy n slutty, yuck i decided to hate it...

ok, i'm so bored i'm gonna die... pls give ur comments on the blog's skin n the music... i noe the song on my blog is so dull n all, but nvm, juz comment... i'll juz take the comment regardless of whether its gd or bad. okies thanx....

i wanna write another intro abt ffx2 but i tink no one like me wud read it. after all, i m weird, too weird, weirder than anyone i suppose...

haha so here it goes... if u dun wanna read it, go ahead n ignore this or close this window, coz i'm only doin this to kill my boredom n to read it to also kill my boredom... haha...

so far i played, i realized lenne is so called i dunno, a girl who lived 1000 yrs ago b4 the machina war that somehow destroyed Zarnarkand, even though pple still live in Zarnarkand. so she was the girl with long hair in my display pic. she looks exactly like yuna n her lover, shuyin, who looks exactly like tidus also lived 1000 yrs ago, i know this is stupid, but nvm... so lenne was a famous songstress in Zarnarkand, she was too a summoner like yuna. so when yuna held that concert at the thunder plains to bring Spira together bcoz of this fight btween the Youth League n New Yevon... i was almost in tears, even though it was juz a game. yuna sang the song lenne sang, she practically changed into lenne, with long hair and all. then there was a projection, above the airship coz the stage was the deck of the airship. then evryone was yuna's concert. the projections showed shuyin trying to use vegnagun to save lenne, coz lenne was gonna risk her live to save the pple of zarnarkand during the machina war, so shuyin wud do anything to save lenne, even touching a very destructive machina, vegnagun. so previously, i mentioned yuna's dream, when yuna n tidus was running frm the guards.... it was wat happened 1000 yrs ago... lenne n shuyin died young. yuna was singin lenne's feelings during the concert n when the song ended, she was in tears n fell to the ground. Actually the song ended when Shuyin n Lenne died at that vry moment. so yuna told rikku n paine abt how she felt when she sang the song, she said lenne wanted to say the three most important words when she was on the ground with shuyin, abt to die off. but shuyin never heard it. i tink u know wat the three words are, its the three words which couples use... nvm, so yuna met shuyin in the farplane, that one is too complicated for me to explain, shall explain sum other time... i think u mite b gg "hur..." if u're reading this coz its gonna b a long story... nvm. so shuyin tght yuna was lenne, as yuna was wearing the songstress dress sphere which she used in battles, n this dress sphere is exactly the same as the dress lenne was wearing(refer to disply pic) n yuna tght shuyin was tidus... but then she realized it wasnt tidus n shuyin said he was shuyin. so then shuyin suddenly transformed into baralai, the leader of new yevon, that i dun noe y... but the leaders of the youth league, new yevon n al bhed were missing. gippal was the leader of the al bhed, nooj was the leader of the youth league n baralai was the leader of new yevon. even though youth league n new yevon were at loggerheads, gippal, nooj n baralai used to be best friends n they were in the crimson squad, with paine. but the crimson squad no longer existed bcoz of an accident, so paine, gippal, nooj n baralai were the only survivors... the three of them were crusaders. the three were missing to go look for vegnagun to destroy it, n Spira was in a mess due to the disappearance of the three leaders. now yuna knew where they were, in the farplane, she was supposed to keep it a secret. so she didnt tell anyone else bsides the gullwings n LeBlanc(villan). ok i better stop it now... one small incident required a thousand words... haha ok, gtg, toodles!

so i'm back, i'm sure no one bothered to read the previous post, coz it was simply too long.... but nvm... i dun mind lar. its up to u if u wanna read it.


today was nth but a boring day. i completed chapter 3 n on chapter 4 liao. defeated last fiend and all... then i juz stayed indoors....


who wants to go to zanarkland wif me? its free.... i'm living in my own world.... no need to remind me. i know that myself. i lost the will to carry on wif wat i'm doin now. i can c evrythin moving a step further...


i c evrything black n white... i'm juz in this empty house. where there's nth gg on n i cant escape. its so cold inside.... then i hear a scream, the scream of terror. i dun noe wat on earth is gg on. i'm locked up. juz like a bird in a cage...

harloe!!! hehe so i changed the song.... yar i noe its one of those songs wif no lyrics..... delle hates it... haha, sry delle!!! i got this frm the final fantasy website. heehee...


so i spent the entire day playing ps2... playing final fantasy X-2.... but i oso like final fantasy X :) its still sad yuna hasnt found tidus.... i dun noe wat happened in final fantasy x coz i only started at X-2 but i think yuna wasnt really as strong as she is now.... blah.... i guess sum pple r gonna get all bored coz i'm only tokin abt final fantasy n nth else? blah, if u dun wanna read, den its completely fine... :) yeaps, shall continue coz i guess pple like me wud wanna read it... on second thought i dun tink anyone wans to read it.... hehe nvm...


anyway, was really hvin a hard time defeating the first aeon i came across... name, bahamut. it was really difficult... first attempt last nite, at 1am. then i was in shock coz it was humungous,n i lost, of course... but actually, for me, i wud try n try again until i defeat it... but i was in shock as it was my first time cumin across an aeon n it was beeeeg... i juz sat there, shakin in fear, n i really meant it.... i was literally shakin in fear... my shakin hand switched off the ps2 n switched off the lights.... i took sum time to sleep... ok not sum time but i went to sleep almost instant coz i was dead beat when i woke up at 5.30am this morning to go down to downtown east... so the next morning, i was reverted back to myself, no more shakin n all... coz bahamut seemed real to me even though its juz a game n i dun have a huge tv in my room, n i was the only one in the bedroom. my bro went over to my mum's rm, so it was rather freaky... considering the times i hear things when i'm alone at home.... now my bro's sleeping like a pig, n i'm so tempted to play again... yup, so i attempted again today.... still losing, so i decided to train, but there were only two fiends(monsters, creatures or watever u wanna call it...) so it wasnt really vry effective..... but i made it frm level 21 to level 36. so i intended to train till yuna, rikku n paine make it to level 75. then my bro came home n wanted to play... so i gave in.... then he started playing final fantasy, my file. then he wanted to try to defeat bahamut, but i doubt he wud win, coz he only played for a day n stopped playing until today. so i left him to play as i was certain he wud lose, terribly... so i went to grab a bite.... after a while, he shouted frm the room "i defeated it!!! jie jie, i defeated it!!!" so i went in2 the rm, thinkin it was a trick, then i saw the experience points page n was surprised... he actually defeated it durin his first attempt, when i cudnt after countless attempts. so he saved for me n copied the file... so now he has his own. i cant believe he defeated it n he hardly played the game!!! when i play it like all the time!!!! argh.... i felt like a loser.... so he continued playing... i had to tell him where to go coz i was familiar wif the places n all... he played only for a while n he got sick of it!!!! how can he get sick of final fantasy?!?!


then i took over frm there, my file lar. defeated two aeons... no fair, how cum the second n third is soooo much easier than the first one?!?! so i only had one aeon left at D'jose temple... so i guess i stopped playing frm there coz it was 8pm n i was watching kiss of the dragon... n i left the ps2 on, on the mission page. then it was 9pm, so i switched off the ps2... haha, was enjoying the champion so much i almost forgot to eat!!! so i did, blah blah,blah... i guess i really talked too much eh? pity yuna.... coz she lost her memory, i tink? well there was this guy who looked like tidus in this sphere n yuna found him so familiar... she tinks its tidus but then thinks its sum1 hu resembles tidus. then in her dream, she dreams of tidus n her running frm the guards of Bevelle n there end up where the vegnagun is, the vegnagun is a destructive machina(machine) which is too destructive n no one is too touch it. so yuna n tidus were running n running till it was a dead end, rite in front of the vegnagun... then the guards caught up n yuna was looking at tidus n tidus was looking at yuna, then a tear trickled down yuna's cheek n the guards starting shooting n the two fell to the ground, yuna looked at tidus n then it was the end... so i guess tidus was either still in bevelle or in danger bcoz of vegnagun, coz in another sphere which yuna found, "tidus" was talking to vegnagun, seeking for help...


sigh i said so much but i hvnt said what a sphere was n evrything. yuna used to be a summoner who defeated Sin n brought the eternal calm to Spira(the world which yuna lives in)... hehe i like the name spira coz it sounds like my team name "spiral". the diff - juz the "L". yeaps.... so she defeated Sin n was a high summoner whose birthplace is Bevelle n she grew up in Besaid Island. ok all that crap abt her being a summoner is all in final fantasy x n not final fantasy x-2... i'm only playing final fantasy x-2. she met tidus then they sumhow were together blah blah... then two yrs later, where i started playing, she left besaid island n bcame a sphere hunter. spheres are like videos or movies which there are recorded... they are glowing balls n cum in bright colours like pink, red, blue, yellow... so yuna joined the gullwings, a group of pple who are sphere hunters... the gullwings consist of Brother (the leader), Buddy, Shinra, Rikku, Paine n Yuna. Rikku, Paine n yuna are the 3 who hunt the spheres, while the other 3 do other stuff in the airship. rikku n yuna were already in final fantasy x, with lulu, another summoner, who is yuna's guardian living in Besaid Island with her husband, Wakka. she is a cold person n doesnt talk much... n is oso pregnant now, she is not a summoner now. paine is a copy of her, except she is a sphere hunter n not a summoner but are still gd friends with yuna n rikku. since the day tidus n yuna were shot by the guards, yuna never saw tidus except the sphere. but she is still unsure of whether it is tidus of is juz a resemblance of him. so i guess that hurt ur eyes too much yeah? reading so much... i wun be adding any lyrics coz it'll be so long!!! ok gtg, its 12.42am liao... carrie chong's late nite show in on now, so gtg, coz i dun wanna hurt ur eyes frm all that reading, yeah? ok, so there u go, a SMALL intro of final fantasy x n final fantasy x-2, heehee, ok gd nite n tata!! :)

ok, so here i m in downtown east, using the internet at this site kiosk, i wud juz like to say that i hate this keyboard, even though its luk so darn cool... its so stiff and i dun like it... so i am 2 hrs earlier than gloria told me to cum. i was suppose to be here at 10am... but wat can i do? so i'm standing here, updating my blog... blah, i'm gonna grab sumtin to eat at macs... the potato salad i had earlier isnt vry filling.... so tata! :)

sigh.... there goes another day...


i'm gonna miss 2004...


well, i might get over it in a while...


so much, n i really mean so much happened in a year, haiyoh... its so darn boring at home... but even if i go to sch, i cant do anything coz i'll be like diana, stoning in the arc rm... haiz...


for the entire morning ever since i was online, i have been fixing the spiral blog. it seems like i cant bear to delete it but i have to if i dun really have a choice. now no one's gg there n i'm tokin to myself, m i juz mad or m i gg bonkers?


i've learnt that final fantasy is simply too difficult.... sigh... but i still like the game. =D newae, was playing the ps 2 game yesterday till i got tired of it... how can i even get tired of final fantasy?


haiz, got nth to write lar...


1985 - Bowling for Soup


Woohoohoo
Woohoohoo


Debbie just hit the wall
she never had it all
one Prozac a day
husbands a CPA
her dreams went out the door
when she turned twenty four
only been with one man
what happen to her plan?


She was gonna be an actress
she was gonna be a star
she was gonna shake her ass
on the hood of white snake's car
her yellow SUV is now the enemy
looks at her average life
and nothing has been alright since


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo
(1985)
Woohoohoo


She's seen all the classics
she knows every line
Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink
even Saint Elmo's Fire
she rocked out to wham
not a big Limp Bizkit fan
thought she'd get a hand
on a member of Duran Duran


Where's the mini-skirt made of snake skin
and who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen
when did reality become T.V.
what ever happen to sitcoms, game shows
(on the radio was)


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo


She hates time make it stop
when did Motley Crew become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop
Stop!
And bring back


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 1985


Woohoohoo


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV (woohoohoo)
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985

i keep thinking abt that particular day... the day we watched cellular b4 we left the classrms... sumhow dat has been stuck on my mind for so long i cant even get rid of it... how did things turn out this way... whatever you said... its still up here, every word... i juz wished i hvnt gone over and asked questions... even though its off already, but i still feel guilty... why did things turn out like this...? i tght it was already over... sunshine after rain. but no. it turned out worse... i'm juz too weak to go face it.

i wud like to say that i'm so sry..... for evrything...


for one moment i was so happy, beaming like wat gloria did, the next thing i knew, it was all gone. evrything didnt seem real to me... i regret it... so sry...

its oredi sunday......


my mum refused to let me of cutting my hair short!!! she was giving all sorts of reasons n wants me to keep my hair long. well, i dun want to..... argh...


was gg thru sec 2s class blog... 2/2's was really touching, well all the sec 2 class blogs were... haha... nice slide show... goes with the music... =]


i envy them... they have class spirit... well no offence but i really wished 1/3 had more of that... with backstabbing n sabotage gg on... evryone hating one another... no one wud wan dat... 1/3 does have class spirit.. a little at least... but not as much as 2/2 n the other sec 2s... it seems like evryone juz cant tolerate each other... go arnd hurting them... its only the first year... i do hope things will change next year... well, it wasnt a vry gd start lar... but wif the ew class comm, things will change for the better, no offence, class comm.... i admit i'm a bad secretary.... so dun say i'm being unfair n blah... haha... i admire the sec 2s' class unity... *two thumbs up* 1/3 isnt all bad... we still have a mix of pple... bimbos, atheletes, geniuses, etc. all 1/3 needs is less backstabbing... not none at all (even though its ok, heehee) but juz less...


ok i've crapped enuf n its 4.27am! i've been online for so long i've forgotten i'm still as sick as a dog... ok shall get sum sleep... nite! neway here's the new song on my blog. it's mcfly's five colours in her hair...


Five Colours In Her Hair - Mcfly


Do do do do do doo [x3]


She's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair,
Not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears,
Her tattoo's always hidden by her underwear.
She don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
I threw a house party and she came
Everyone asked me
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She's just a loner with a sexy attitude,
I'd like to phone her cos she puts me in the mood.
The rumours spreading now that she cooks in the nude.
But she don't care, she don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She was all I thought about,
The girl I couldn't live without.
But then she went insane,
She couldn't take the fame
She said I was to blame
She'd had enough
And shaved five colours off
And now she's just a weirdo with no name.


Everybody wants to know her name.
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she,
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


Do do do do do doo [x3]

i'm sick.... really falling ill... keeps coughing and sneezing... had no appetite today... sigh... i think i'm coming down wif a fever as well....


i'm so angry with those three idiots.... argh.... i dun noe them at all but i juz wanna kill them....


i was on my way baq frm dinner when i saw three BOYS (i'm using this word coz i think they r so immature to do that) they were like idiots running round the lift... looked like they were hiding frm sumting. then they somehow clicked on the fire lift switch n it seemed the lift cudnt be use or sumting. they were two pple in there, an old man n a maid... n whenever the lift's at the ground floor, it wudnt open, n obviously the two innocents were stuck in there... it was like 7.30pm at that moment... i then wanted to give those three immature freaks a bashing... argh, i was so furious despite my sneezing n coughing. then i was like waiting at the ground floor while my mum, mum's bf, bro n grandma walked away... i was also tempted to go up to the three n tell them off, but they already got away. then i was hoping the doors would open for the two innocents... well it did in the end. was rather relieved... the maid started off for another lift n the old guy was speaking in a language i didnt understand at all, probably hokkien. i'm a teochew, but i dun speak teochew... weird? i speak cantonese though coz i grew up in a cantonese family... yar but the old man sounded as though he thinks i was the one who played the prank... didnt really care because i really didnt do it...


so now u know... wat kind of person i m... a rough n insensitve coward... ok fine... it was rather obvious they were pai kiahs (heck the spelling) coz they were so immature, inconsiderate n they were playing a prank on others... argh i hate them...


The Distance - Evan and Jaron


The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away


I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back


I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance


I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

i'm back frm kallang netball centre....! ok dat was pretty lame.....but... nvm!


wins: 2
loses: 4
draws: 2


soooo..... i din get killed lar, but i did fall on the not very wet ground as it was raining on and off....


priscilla was a great gs. she can really shoot. n cheryl tan, not forgeting celine jiang. they can really shoot very well. everyone was great. even though we didnt win, still enjoyed. i tink the cheerleaders thought i was gonna faint or breakdown... well, i was not. its just that i really regretted wat i did. like not defending the opponent n stuff. well, i apologize for not being able to defend...


the cheerleaders were cool too, even though my impression of a cheerleader is "bimbo, bimbo, bimbo" but it worked out after all, even though there were still displease gg abt. well, i'm juz really happy 1/3 did their best...


i actually thought i wud get all nervous n screw it all up. but even though i did screw up, i didnt really feel any nervous. i thank the other classes for putting such a great fight during the game... it was really exciting.


sry but i have to admit this was much more fun than the day i went to escape... heehee...


i am still angry wif some pple for "misplacing" my phone. juz because i allowed u to explore my phone in any way, you shouldn't just leave it lying arnd... saying u dun even noe where it is n pushing the blame to someone else. to me, its another act of irresponsibility... i can't lose my phone again. this phone is only a few mths old...


Best Day Of My Life - Jesse McCartney


Woke up around a half past ten
Can't believe that I'm late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my pulse and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same


It goes to show
You never know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ....
Had the best day of my life


Can't say exactly what it was
She's not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,
But from now on
I'm gonna be a different man


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life


I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life [x2]

hey.....


netball trainin went well, i'm playin gk.... i tink i'm gonna die... 'm gonna screw up nxt tuesday n amanda latiff is gonna kill me in e 1/3 VS 1/9 match!!! remember 2 cum 2 my funeral, kay?


i tink i've spent like 3 quarters of my day playin.... argh...


the results are devastating.... i failed 3 subjects... apparently, dat shows wat a failure i m already... i'm a big fat stinking loser... i guess its sayonara 2 arc... sry...


i m so disappointed in myself... i keep losin my temper.... wats e matter wif me? i tink it wud best if evry1 keep away frm me... argh.... i'm such a letdown...


Why Can't I? - Liz Phair


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be


Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too


What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too


It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful


Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't f***ed yet, but my heads spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

juz returned frm escape theme park... it was real fun but it started raining so we din really get to try most of the rides. went to escape wif dan, kimberly, gretch, beat-rice, beat-rice's sis, my bro n my bro's friend.


i'm so happy coz i went for the go-kart twice!!! heehee... the queue was pretty short so yar. at first, i din know wat went wrong, the engine juz conked out and i cudnt move. i was on my up so i allowed the kart to like move back a little n then start again. i only had two rounds..... then the 2nd time, i was stuck again, but it was bcoz i din realize my fott was also on the brake! haha... so i was like "no no no not again" den whamp, i was knocked frm the back. not really knocked but a little bump. then i realize my foot was on the brake (which was rather slow) n removed my foot n zoomed down the slope. the front was so slow that kimberly n i overtook sum pple.. haha so fun... the sad thing was a few of the really gd rides were close for mechanical check, like the inverter and rainbow. cudnt try out the new ride coz it started to rain...


but enjoyed the revolution... haha, beatrice wanted a screaming competition but gretch n i decided not to coz we din want to. had fun lar...



Try - Nelly Furtado


All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try


I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try


All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

hey pple, changed the song liao... its skye sweetnam's tangled up in me. okok..... shall stop crapping and start blogging.


went to east coast yesterday to rolleblade. was perfectly fine... until i fell right on e cycling path. sigh, that must have hurt rite? it did a little, my palms.... but what i really pity arent my hand but my safety guards. the wrist guards were sctratched n the right knee guard, which was once perfect, is no ruined. thanks to my carelessness. i went to macs to get a milo, den when i bladed out, i was almost knocked down by some pple hu din have a sense of direction. i had to worry abt colliding wif them. den was rollerbladin...blah...blah... while sipping on my milo...blah...blah... waaaaaaaaaaa, fell. milo gone.... there was still half e cup left! argh... den i got up, dun even noe why there was sand on my hands. since i was close to macs. i rollerbladed all the way there to wash my hands. i wasnt really hurt or anything but it was still quite painful... den went all the way to ford road and frm there all the way to bedok jetty. my bro was fishing there so yar...


so bored now...


Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam


You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
I'm the one that's honking at you cuz I left late again


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You think that you know me
You think that I'm only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!


Hey! Hey!


Get tangled up in me

hi.... long time no blog... very tired, after days n nights of muggin, its over. previously, i mentioned something abt after e exams. well..... dis is again, for me to know n for u 2 find out y. haha... ok i think u mite go "lame...." or "watever" but yar...

went out wif esti n sars to kino n borders. the 2 toots as intendin to buy the pendragon: black water frm kino. but it ran out of stock... it was still there few wks ago... i din buy anything coz i was bankrupt, yar i used e word bankrupt. wich means it is to the extend that i'm really really broke! *stares blankly at empty wallet* den when we stepped out of taka, we were wonderin whether to head left or right, coz we needed 2 get to wheelock place. haha... sars, it wasnt a debate coz it din seem like at all. esti n i were tokin abt whether 2 go left or right, den we decided to ask around. we went to 7-11 n e peep said she din noe. we asked dis man n he din even noe there was such a place. we were still standin outside taka, like lost sheeps, haha. den i juz picked left, n yay, we were heading for the right direction. they bought their books n we spent the rest of 30 mins listening to music at borders.

at arnd 12.30pm, we headed for wisma atria to have lunch. blah blah... all the way till 1.15pm. my oh my, we spent 45 mins eating.... i guess i broke the record of 5 mins, just eating a mcnuggets meal. den we came back, to my place n watched a movie + playin ps2. all the way to 5pm. n here i m now.

now that e exams r over, i'll most probably spend my time reflectin, doing a lot of thinking till i mite even get a major headache like one now... and staring into space, like i always do n the sec 3s think i'm thinkin of my boyfren(which i m not, of course. apparently, i dun like havin a boyfren coz i'm still too young, dats my opinion)

hey, if i really dun do well for the final year exams..... den pls tag board if u have any cca suggestions, coz i still hvnt think of which cca 2 join, so yar. coz i screwed up... n i'm gonna flunk everything. thanx...

ok, i hope everyone does well for the exams. tata =]

You And I Both - Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.


See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive


You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free


And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang


Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

sick........... *a choo*



watched the terminal earlier. it was damn nice and quite saddening. imagine your country is in war, u dun noe abt it n den when u've realized, ur country's nation of origin no longer exists, u have no country, u cant go home, cant go anywhere, n u're stuck in e airport. sounds a little like survivor, except the fact that there's air-con, fast-food, etc. n ur country does exist. i dun even watch survivor, esti's mad over it. haha... i only started watching it because my mom started switching it on for i dun noe y. she wasnt even watching it...



the thought of what's gonna happen after the exams makes me wanna cry... really sad... very sad....



Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan


Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna runaway?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

but no one hears you screaming



No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life



Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desparate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding



No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life



No one ever lied straight to your face

No one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

Never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like what it's like



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like [x2]



Welcome to my life [x3]

hey!!!!! i'm really tired.... today the class comm had to come up with a new rule. that is :

If anyone changes their places:

-During Assembly: Fine $5

-During Lessons: Fine $10

i really hope it works. its not extortion at all. we juz wan dem 2 stop changin places. we didnt make it $1 n $0.50 coz we didnt wan 1/3 to be paying to change their places. i really hope they understand.

Note to 1/3: pay danielle as soon as possible, coz the class is broke. if u dun wan e maths wkst, tell either maths rep or class comm, if not u'll have to pay 4 it.

anyway, spiral's blog is open to all, coz it is no longer in use for njrc, unless there's a 2nd Spiral in future which i doubt so. Spiral, if u have a problem wif dat, come look 4 me. anyway, i'm really exhausted....... so i'll hurry up. i recently wrote a 1000 character testimonial for liz, she wud better accept it coz if she doesnt, i'm gonna kill her. i cant wait for the princess diaries 2: royal engagement to be released...... dats like i do not know when. u may think its bimbotic, but i pretty like the story...

Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a riskTake a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

sigh..... its 3.30am now..... 2hrs and 30 mins to 6am before i have to get out of bed and go to school... shocked? big deal? wadeva? nvm......... my right thumb and index finger is all numb thanks to the 5 hrs or paper cutting. i'm still on the 2 layer! canu believe that?!?!


went to taka for dinner. then went to kinoniya. waha! pendragon bk 5 : black water was already on the shelves. i have got to get that book!!! omg!! and princess diaries bk 6 : six appeal costs $36.70!!! bloody ex........ *stares blankly at empty wallet*. my mum refuse to lend me the money to buy the book. its like $11.80(pendragon). sigh.... o wellz. she bought the ella enchanted vcd. i'm gonna watch it after the exams..... for now i'll shall focus on my studies. focus.... focus...FOCUS!!! my thumb's still numb!!!!! argh........... have been listening to the radio since 12pm? waaaaaa..... my brain cells are disappearing.... haha..... still remember what mr kang said abt the tofu and handphone. he said there was this experiment in which they placed a handphone next to the tofu and after a while, a long while, the side of the tofu where they placed the handphone turned black. that's quite cool though... so i went home and told my mum about it and she said that it was true coz if i were to stuck my headphones in my ears for a long period of time, i'm gg to DIE!!! haha..... but yar.


i think my bro is suffering frm pms or something like that.... wait..... he cant be suffering frm that! coz he's a guy??????? haha.... anyway, he's been cranky all day. he screamed at everyone. well, my mum juz scolded him to mind his really bad attitude. i was busy doin my paper cut and yar, the headphones stuck in my ears. she scolded me for that too..... ah wells...


ok, now my thumbs not numb anymore..... shall not slack... get back to work... signing off...

sigh... its 3.03 am and i'm still on the paper cut. its pathetic!!!


i've decided not 2 trust any1.... coz the pple whom i really really trust has just proved me that i cant trust them. i cant trust any1... real sad but yar... i muz learn 2 keep everything 2 myself then. i really hate myself.... i think the only person/thing i trust is either my diary or my stuff toys. sigh..... i'm real disappointed in myself, to think that i really have sum1 i can really trst but turns out to be a big fat lie.

its 12am!!! wich means it 11 september. i shall announce then.

i have been kicked out of arc.


NJRC is my last event.


i was kicked out last wednesday, 1 september, teachers' day.


i'm sad, really sad.


being extra nice 2 evry1.


shall work hard after NJRC.


will be arc supporter.


still sad. stressed. tryin 2 get over it!!!


listenin 2 music 2 help.


i'm sure a few pple other than mr tan, mr kang n e sec 1s already knew abt it.


The Remedy (I Won't Worry) - Jason Mraz


I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of july,
Freedom ring now something on the surface it stings
That something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease


If you've got the poison
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Because it all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be
Right back after this
The unavoidable kiss,
Where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophe
Dance with me,


Because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


When I fall in love
I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but
I'm still gonna shine and
I'll tell you why
Because


The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't and I won't and I won't etc.

sighx.......... my team actually made it 2 top 30....... dun noe why.... *shrugs* its a big question mark 2 all of us. anyway, we made it somehow..... i dun noe.........

i'm really sad at the moment....... not telling, will reveal my secret later........... i really am gonna miss this.

1/3's class comm is breaking apart............. its no longer united, it changed, a lot. not only is the class comm breaking apart, so is 1/3. everyone's speaking bhind each other, especially close friends, friends u knew ever since P1, even best friends. i'm juz sad to say that i really hate this feeling of being in a world of gossip, insults, back-stabbers and all. i dun even feel like gg 2 e class blog most of the time. i really dun noe wat 2 do.............. to at least help. to think that i was a conflict manager back in primary sch. i'm really useless, stupid, dumb. i'm an idiot, a big one. did i mention best friends speaking ill of each other? this really sux. my life sux, i suck...........

haiyoh....welcome stefhaniquek....shes juz next 2 me now. muahaha. ok yar. so things have been e same. blah blah blah..... ok i'm startin 2 b lame again.
 
e movie, mean girls is damn funny. haha... shud watch it AGAIN!!!!!!!! muahahaha. i'm really evil 2dae, rite? heehee..so sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long. cant use e net, long story... ok i'm leavin soon so i'll hurry up.
 
abt e movie, i can say i was kinda freaked out. i was sittin nxt 2 dan n i wanted 2 tell dan dat ad was vry cartoonish... when i saw sumtin real scary in e row bhind us. derewas dis couple makin out. so sick. i told dan 2 luk baq instead. den dan passed it down all e way 2 gretch. eeewwwww... real sick. u dun wanna noe wat was gg on. its sendin chills down my spine.
 
haha, it happened 2 stef 2. haha, she said e couple was juz nxt 2 dem. ugh...... lolz... briana damn hapi now lar... got more company with the same experience... *pukes* sukerooooo!!!! -quek
 
-_-""""""" ok it was stef juz now, she left her name dere. yar yar. 
 
hey sars, muz reply 2 e letter orh. ok,its racial harmony  2mrw n i'm gonna wear my costume 2 support my class. yaryar.... was tryin 2 persuade 1/3..... -to 1/3: pls pls pls lar........- haiyoh,ok gtg bb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi, sry 4 not updating. i've been so utterly insulted on e class blog. dis is e vry 1st time i was ever called a b****. sigh..... dis really sucked. now e whole of 1/9 hates me. no. 1, i din start it. it really sux. i really hate it, n i oredi apologized 2 linnette, danielle tinks deres sumtin wrong wif me coz i'm apologizin when its not my fault n i din even start it. sigh...... i will have 2 learn 2 take it. i juz wish dose immature pple wud stop insulting 1/3.

deres a hacker hackin in2 1/3's blog (i tink). e class blog skin was changed n none of e class comm members changed it. really weird though, n freaky.

its still the 25th.

sigh, it was a rather freakin day 4 me. i was tryin my vry best 2 get jia neng, but failed. den called gerri 2 tell her liz n i were e only sec 1s gg 2 e airport, so she called vera, but she cudnt get her. so i had 2 call both jia neng n vera 2 tell dem liz n i were e only sec 1s gg. sigh, den diana sms-ed me, tellin me dere was cip 2mrw, wanted me 2 inform e rest. i called jocelyn, ok. den i told liz, she told me she oredi had 17 hrs of cip n so, i had 2 tell diana n she wanted liz 2 photocopy dat page. ok so i told her, n liz said she had 2 have it stamped n all so i had 2 tell diana. ok, den tried callin chin chow, tght she was baq in s'pore. unfortunately, she wasnt baq, i tink. her hp wasnt answered. i told diana n she said 2 look 4 substitutes. i frantically went lukin 4 2pple 2 cum along, i called matilda n eunice, but cudnt get dem. called gerri, but she cudnt cum. so i had 2 luk 4 e seniors. well, it was kinda hard. coz most of e seniors had enuf cip hrs. i finally called donna n yay, she cud make it. so told diana. sigh....... din luk 4 another person coz diana said 4pple was juz enuf.

it has been really borin dese few days. its like i have no motivation 2 do my homework. dats terrible. i had 2 force myself. sigh..... y m i so lazy.

dat video savina was tokin abt, it gives me e creeps, it was really gross. dun ever wanna watch it again...

sigh. 2day i called grace n accidentally called her by her surname. aw man, i din mean it. so sry grace, really din mean it.

i dun noe y but my bad memories keeps flashin in my head. y cant they b good memories. my mum keeps complainin abt me not being proud dat my family is broken. its like... i cant help it. dat vry day, i witnessed my parents quarellin. dat was like 8 years ago, but it seems clear to me, its like i can remember what exactly happened. what they said. where it was. where my bro n i were standin. everything, its like a nightmare. how can i ever 4get when dat scene, i keep seein it. i was only 5. i wud have 4gotten it. but its like a huge impact on me.

i really wonder how long dis will go on. i'm tryin 2 fight it. sigh.

i juz wish i was brain-washed. 4get abt what happened n sry grace.


Us Against The World - Play
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

I met someone the other night
Someone I really started to like
How will I know if it's right for me
I wonder if we are meant to be
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

You know that boy I started to see
He thinks he can have it all for free
I wonder if he's the one for me
I try to talk to myself into see
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothin better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

Whenever you're near there is no fear
Feels like there's nothing I can't do
Make me feel strong
'Cause its here with you is where I belong

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that

There isn't anybody else but you
That makes me feel the way that i do
There isn't no body else but you

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World...

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

my name????? krista??? krista ang??? ugh

u may b wonderin y i'm still online... hmmmmm, my mum din take e cpu wif her. ok, haha. errrrrr...........

went 2 arc rm wif liz 2dae. it felt weird but nvm. liz n i were lookin 4 e frs mentor bklt but cudnt find it but diana's gonna print a copy 4 us, yay!!! ahem...

ok nvm, e movie was great, but carmen n i were e only two watchin it. natalie had cip, carmen's fren said she din wanna cum. o well... e movie is great. dun understand y sum say e movie sucked n all. even though it was great, i was still pissed coz harry only got his firebolt in e end, sirius din sign harry's form 2 go 2 hogsmede n dey missed out so many. bah...... but it was still good. dere was dis scene when harry was like dis n dat wif e werewolf n i was like tuggin on carmen's sleeve, when e werewolf suddenly appeared out of nowhere, carmen wanted 2 pat my shoulder, but covered my eyes instead. *blink blink* newae, i liked e movie. haha.

after e movie, i followed carmen 2 city hall 2 return natalie her hp. we were sittin on e floor n it was embarrasin coz evryone was like lukin at us n it gave me a really funny feelin. newae, natalie finally arrived at e station n i was like 1/4 dead. i was desperate 2 return 2 tp. bah..... reached tp at arnd 7.15pm. so weird, how times flies.

i still have doubt abt e class gatherin. 1/3, can we have it at e end of e year???? newae, if all 38 of us r gg 2 e chalet, n if we gonna have it at costa sands(downtown east), we will most prob get e duplex(2-storey) wich cost $99. so we're gonna get 2 duplex chalets n its gonna cost us $198. includin e food, dat'll b arnd $50 n dat means each person has 2 pay abt $8 4 e food n chalet. o yar, its a 3days-2nite ting, sry no 2day-1nite coz e min is 2-nites...wat kind of english is dat. haiz... newae, tok abt it in class, yar?

ok gtg, sayonara...


Summer Sunshine - The Corrs

I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Ya da... ya da... ya da

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

haha, i like e new layout. it looks cool. heehee.

today's fathers' day...... wat else can i say? nvm........... *blink blink* if u know wat i mean.

argh i hvnt started on my hw n i'm oredi struggling wif chinese. e blardy essay abt me....... man, i dun even noe wat 2 include. *shakes head* i'm halfway thru english. i tink i'm gonna stay up 2nite 2 try 2 finish up my hw. bah.........

i juz realized mandy moore sounds really gd singin cry. haha, i'm really slow. like wat happened a few days baq. was watchin tv, when my mum told me 2 alert her when it's 2pm. i juz went on watchin tv........ then when i glanced at e clock, i realized it was oredi 2.45pm. i told my mum it was oredi 2.45pm n she said she realized too n said i was slow. by 45 mins. haha. datz lame.

shud 1/3 really have e bbq???? i mean e last time we wanted a movie-outing, it din really work out. then we said to send mdm ismiralda off, but sum said dey couldnt make it in e end coz dey wanted 2 go 2 e library or j8. *raises eyebrows* only 5 1/3ers turned up.... now a bbq? will it work???? sum1 even suggested rentin a chalet?!?! sheesh, dat person muz b rich... haiz.... dun even noe whether it will stil work out.

i'm finally gonna watch harry potter. not wif sars, esti n jess. but wif natalie, carmen n carmen's fren. haiz, sars n esti suddenly said dey din wanna watch n jess said no too. haiz, nvm. still glad sum1's watchin it wif me.

e hols r abt 2 end. is dat gd or bad? hmmmm..... i dun noe. seriously, its really borin at home. nothing to do bsides homework!!!

i shall stop bloggin n stare in2 space. haha, jk. sayonara!!!


Cry - Mandy Moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed

Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It was late September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Chorus

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon

Chorus 2xs out

sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long.

i recently found out my dad wanted 2 name me mercedez, u noe e car? ridiculous rite? my mum said dere were three readsons y he wanted 2 name me mercedez.

1) he likes the car mercedez

2) he was sellin the car mercedez dat year

3) he tinks the name is unique and vry few pple walk arnd wif e name mercedez

can u imagine wat it wud b like if i were really named mercedez?

ok, e nyaa camp was really fun, i liked e trek even though my baq hurt after e trek. still enjoyed it.

sry, dis entry is really short.