harloe!!! hehe so i changed the song.... yar i noe its one of those songs wif no lyrics..... delle hates it... haha, sry delle!!! i got this frm the final fantasy website. heehee...


so i spent the entire day playing ps2... playing final fantasy X-2.... but i oso like final fantasy X :) its still sad yuna hasnt found tidus.... i dun noe wat happened in final fantasy x coz i only started at X-2 but i think yuna wasnt really as strong as she is now.... blah.... i guess sum pple r gonna get all bored coz i'm only tokin abt final fantasy n nth else? blah, if u dun wanna read, den its completely fine... :) yeaps, shall continue coz i guess pple like me wud wanna read it... on second thought i dun tink anyone wans to read it.... hehe nvm...


anyway, was really hvin a hard time defeating the first aeon i came across... name, bahamut. it was really difficult... first attempt last nite, at 1am. then i was in shock coz it was humungous,n i lost, of course... but actually, for me, i wud try n try again until i defeat it... but i was in shock as it was my first time cumin across an aeon n it was beeeeg... i juz sat there, shakin in fear, n i really meant it.... i was literally shakin in fear... my shakin hand switched off the ps2 n switched off the lights.... i took sum time to sleep... ok not sum time but i went to sleep almost instant coz i was dead beat when i woke up at 5.30am this morning to go down to downtown east... so the next morning, i was reverted back to myself, no more shakin n all... coz bahamut seemed real to me even though its juz a game n i dun have a huge tv in my room, n i was the only one in the bedroom. my bro went over to my mum's rm, so it was rather freaky... considering the times i hear things when i'm alone at home.... now my bro's sleeping like a pig, n i'm so tempted to play again... yup, so i attempted again today.... still losing, so i decided to train, but there were only two fiends(monsters, creatures or watever u wanna call it...) so it wasnt really vry effective..... but i made it frm level 21 to level 36. so i intended to train till yuna, rikku n paine make it to level 75. then my bro came home n wanted to play... so i gave in.... then he started playing final fantasy, my file. then he wanted to try to defeat bahamut, but i doubt he wud win, coz he only played for a day n stopped playing until today. so i left him to play as i was certain he wud lose, terribly... so i went to grab a bite.... after a while, he shouted frm the room "i defeated it!!! jie jie, i defeated it!!!" so i went in2 the rm, thinkin it was a trick, then i saw the experience points page n was surprised... he actually defeated it durin his first attempt, when i cudnt after countless attempts. so he saved for me n copied the file... so now he has his own. i cant believe he defeated it n he hardly played the game!!! when i play it like all the time!!!! argh.... i felt like a loser.... so he continued playing... i had to tell him where to go coz i was familiar wif the places n all... he played only for a while n he got sick of it!!!! how can he get sick of final fantasy?!?!


then i took over frm there, my file lar. defeated two aeons... no fair, how cum the second n third is soooo much easier than the first one?!?! so i only had one aeon left at D'jose temple... so i guess i stopped playing frm there coz it was 8pm n i was watching kiss of the dragon... n i left the ps2 on, on the mission page. then it was 9pm, so i switched off the ps2... haha, was enjoying the champion so much i almost forgot to eat!!! so i did, blah blah,blah... i guess i really talked too much eh? pity yuna.... coz she lost her memory, i tink? well there was this guy who looked like tidus in this sphere n yuna found him so familiar... she tinks its tidus but then thinks its sum1 hu resembles tidus. then in her dream, she dreams of tidus n her running frm the guards of Bevelle n there end up where the vegnagun is, the vegnagun is a destructive machina(machine) which is too destructive n no one is too touch it. so yuna n tidus were running n running till it was a dead end, rite in front of the vegnagun... then the guards caught up n yuna was looking at tidus n tidus was looking at yuna, then a tear trickled down yuna's cheek n the guards starting shooting n the two fell to the ground, yuna looked at tidus n then it was the end... so i guess tidus was either still in bevelle or in danger bcoz of vegnagun, coz in another sphere which yuna found, "tidus" was talking to vegnagun, seeking for help...


sigh i said so much but i hvnt said what a sphere was n evrything. yuna used to be a summoner who defeated Sin n brought the eternal calm to Spira(the world which yuna lives in)... hehe i like the name spira coz it sounds like my team name "spiral". the diff - juz the "L". yeaps.... so she defeated Sin n was a high summoner whose birthplace is Bevelle n she grew up in Besaid Island. ok all that crap abt her being a summoner is all in final fantasy x n not final fantasy x-2... i'm only playing final fantasy x-2. she met tidus then they sumhow were together blah blah... then two yrs later, where i started playing, she left besaid island n bcame a sphere hunter. spheres are like videos or movies which there are recorded... they are glowing balls n cum in bright colours like pink, red, blue, yellow... so yuna joined the gullwings, a group of pple who are sphere hunters... the gullwings consist of Brother (the leader), Buddy, Shinra, Rikku, Paine n Yuna. Rikku, Paine n yuna are the 3 who hunt the spheres, while the other 3 do other stuff in the airship. rikku n yuna were already in final fantasy x, with lulu, another summoner, who is yuna's guardian living in Besaid Island with her husband, Wakka. she is a cold person n doesnt talk much... n is oso pregnant now, she is not a summoner now. paine is a copy of her, except she is a sphere hunter n not a summoner but are still gd friends with yuna n rikku. since the day tidus n yuna were shot by the guards, yuna never saw tidus except the sphere. but she is still unsure of whether it is tidus of is juz a resemblance of him. so i guess that hurt ur eyes too much yeah? reading so much... i wun be adding any lyrics coz it'll be so long!!! ok gtg, its 12.42am liao... carrie chong's late nite show in on now, so gtg, coz i dun wanna hurt ur eyes frm all that reading, yeah? ok, so there u go, a SMALL intro of final fantasy x n final fantasy x-2, heehee, ok gd nite n tata!! :)

ok, so here i m in downtown east, using the internet at this site kiosk, i wud juz like to say that i hate this keyboard, even though its luk so darn cool... its so stiff and i dun like it... so i am 2 hrs earlier than gloria told me to cum. i was suppose to be here at 10am... but wat can i do? so i'm standing here, updating my blog... blah, i'm gonna grab sumtin to eat at macs... the potato salad i had earlier isnt vry filling.... so tata! :)

sigh.... there goes another day...


i'm gonna miss 2004...


well, i might get over it in a while...


so much, n i really mean so much happened in a year, haiyoh... its so darn boring at home... but even if i go to sch, i cant do anything coz i'll be like diana, stoning in the arc rm... haiz...


for the entire morning ever since i was online, i have been fixing the spiral blog. it seems like i cant bear to delete it but i have to if i dun really have a choice. now no one's gg there n i'm tokin to myself, m i juz mad or m i gg bonkers?


i've learnt that final fantasy is simply too difficult.... sigh... but i still like the game. =D newae, was playing the ps 2 game yesterday till i got tired of it... how can i even get tired of final fantasy?


haiz, got nth to write lar...


1985 - Bowling for Soup


Woohoohoo
Woohoohoo


Debbie just hit the wall
she never had it all
one Prozac a day
husbands a CPA
her dreams went out the door
when she turned twenty four
only been with one man
what happen to her plan?


She was gonna be an actress
she was gonna be a star
she was gonna shake her ass
on the hood of white snake's car
her yellow SUV is now the enemy
looks at her average life
and nothing has been alright since


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo
(1985)
Woohoohoo


She's seen all the classics
she knows every line
Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink
even Saint Elmo's Fire
she rocked out to wham
not a big Limp Bizkit fan
thought she'd get a hand
on a member of Duran Duran


Where's the mini-skirt made of snake skin
and who's the other guy that's singing in Van Halen
when did reality become T.V.
what ever happen to sitcoms, game shows
(on the radio was)


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985


Woohoohoo


She hates time make it stop
when did Motley Crew become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop
Stop!
And bring back


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 1985


Woohoohoo


Bruce Springstein, Madonna
way before Nirvana
there was U2 and Blondie
and music still on MTV (woohoohoo)
her two kids in high school
they tell her that she's uncool
cuz she's still preoccupied
with 19, 19, 1985

i keep thinking abt that particular day... the day we watched cellular b4 we left the classrms... sumhow dat has been stuck on my mind for so long i cant even get rid of it... how did things turn out this way... whatever you said... its still up here, every word... i juz wished i hvnt gone over and asked questions... even though its off already, but i still feel guilty... why did things turn out like this...? i tght it was already over... sunshine after rain. but no. it turned out worse... i'm juz too weak to go face it.

i wud like to say that i'm so sry..... for evrything...


for one moment i was so happy, beaming like wat gloria did, the next thing i knew, it was all gone. evrything didnt seem real to me... i regret it... so sry...

its oredi sunday......


my mum refused to let me of cutting my hair short!!! she was giving all sorts of reasons n wants me to keep my hair long. well, i dun want to..... argh...


was gg thru sec 2s class blog... 2/2's was really touching, well all the sec 2 class blogs were... haha... nice slide show... goes with the music... =]


i envy them... they have class spirit... well no offence but i really wished 1/3 had more of that... with backstabbing n sabotage gg on... evryone hating one another... no one wud wan dat... 1/3 does have class spirit.. a little at least... but not as much as 2/2 n the other sec 2s... it seems like evryone juz cant tolerate each other... go arnd hurting them... its only the first year... i do hope things will change next year... well, it wasnt a vry gd start lar... but wif the ew class comm, things will change for the better, no offence, class comm.... i admit i'm a bad secretary.... so dun say i'm being unfair n blah... haha... i admire the sec 2s' class unity... *two thumbs up* 1/3 isnt all bad... we still have a mix of pple... bimbos, atheletes, geniuses, etc. all 1/3 needs is less backstabbing... not none at all (even though its ok, heehee) but juz less...


ok i've crapped enuf n its 4.27am! i've been online for so long i've forgotten i'm still as sick as a dog... ok shall get sum sleep... nite! neway here's the new song on my blog. it's mcfly's five colours in her hair...


Five Colours In Her Hair - Mcfly


Do do do do do doo [x3]


She's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair,
Not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears,
Her tattoo's always hidden by her underwear.
She don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
I threw a house party and she came
Everyone asked me
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She's just a loner with a sexy attitude,
I'd like to phone her cos she puts me in the mood.
The rumours spreading now that she cooks in the nude.
But she don't care, she don't care.


Everybody wants to know her name,
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she?
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


She was all I thought about,
The girl I couldn't live without.
But then she went insane,
She couldn't take the fame
She said I was to blame
She'd had enough
And shaved five colours off
And now she's just a weirdo with no name.


Everybody wants to know her name.
How does she cope with her new found fame?
Everyone asks me,
Who the hell is she,
That weirdo with 5 colours in her hair.


Do do do do do doo [x3]

i'm sick.... really falling ill... keeps coughing and sneezing... had no appetite today... sigh... i think i'm coming down wif a fever as well....


i'm so angry with those three idiots.... argh.... i dun noe them at all but i juz wanna kill them....


i was on my way baq frm dinner when i saw three BOYS (i'm using this word coz i think they r so immature to do that) they were like idiots running round the lift... looked like they were hiding frm sumting. then they somehow clicked on the fire lift switch n it seemed the lift cudnt be use or sumting. they were two pple in there, an old man n a maid... n whenever the lift's at the ground floor, it wudnt open, n obviously the two innocents were stuck in there... it was like 7.30pm at that moment... i then wanted to give those three immature freaks a bashing... argh, i was so furious despite my sneezing n coughing. then i was like waiting at the ground floor while my mum, mum's bf, bro n grandma walked away... i was also tempted to go up to the three n tell them off, but they already got away. then i was hoping the doors would open for the two innocents... well it did in the end. was rather relieved... the maid started off for another lift n the old guy was speaking in a language i didnt understand at all, probably hokkien. i'm a teochew, but i dun speak teochew... weird? i speak cantonese though coz i grew up in a cantonese family... yar but the old man sounded as though he thinks i was the one who played the prank... didnt really care because i really didnt do it...


so now u know... wat kind of person i m... a rough n insensitve coward... ok fine... it was rather obvious they were pai kiahs (heck the spelling) coz they were so immature, inconsiderate n they were playing a prank on others... argh i hate them...


The Distance - Evan and Jaron


The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away


I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time when you'll be back
You're coming back


I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time I see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That I can't take a breath without saying your name
I can brave a hurricane
And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down
But I can't take the distance


I still believe in feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

i'm back frm kallang netball centre....! ok dat was pretty lame.....but... nvm!


wins: 2
loses: 4
draws: 2


soooo..... i din get killed lar, but i did fall on the not very wet ground as it was raining on and off....


priscilla was a great gs. she can really shoot. n cheryl tan, not forgeting celine jiang. they can really shoot very well. everyone was great. even though we didnt win, still enjoyed. i tink the cheerleaders thought i was gonna faint or breakdown... well, i was not. its just that i really regretted wat i did. like not defending the opponent n stuff. well, i apologize for not being able to defend...


the cheerleaders were cool too, even though my impression of a cheerleader is "bimbo, bimbo, bimbo" but it worked out after all, even though there were still displease gg abt. well, i'm juz really happy 1/3 did their best...


i actually thought i wud get all nervous n screw it all up. but even though i did screw up, i didnt really feel any nervous. i thank the other classes for putting such a great fight during the game... it was really exciting.


sry but i have to admit this was much more fun than the day i went to escape... heehee...


i am still angry wif some pple for "misplacing" my phone. juz because i allowed u to explore my phone in any way, you shouldn't just leave it lying arnd... saying u dun even noe where it is n pushing the blame to someone else. to me, its another act of irresponsibility... i can't lose my phone again. this phone is only a few mths old...


Best Day Of My Life - Jesse McCartney


Woke up around a half past ten
Can't believe that I'm late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my pulse and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same


It goes to show
You never know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ....
Had the best day of my life


Can't say exactly what it was
She's not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,
But from now on
I'm gonna be a different man


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life


I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everything's about to change


Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life [x2]

hey.....


netball trainin went well, i'm playin gk.... i tink i'm gonna die... 'm gonna screw up nxt tuesday n amanda latiff is gonna kill me in e 1/3 VS 1/9 match!!! remember 2 cum 2 my funeral, kay?


i tink i've spent like 3 quarters of my day playin.... argh...


the results are devastating.... i failed 3 subjects... apparently, dat shows wat a failure i m already... i'm a big fat stinking loser... i guess its sayonara 2 arc... sry...


i m so disappointed in myself... i keep losin my temper.... wats e matter wif me? i tink it wud best if evry1 keep away frm me... argh.... i'm such a letdown...


Why Can't I? - Liz Phair


Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be


Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too


What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too


It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful


Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't f***ed yet, but my heads spinning


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you


Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

juz returned frm escape theme park... it was real fun but it started raining so we din really get to try most of the rides. went to escape wif dan, kimberly, gretch, beat-rice, beat-rice's sis, my bro n my bro's friend.


i'm so happy coz i went for the go-kart twice!!! heehee... the queue was pretty short so yar. at first, i din know wat went wrong, the engine juz conked out and i cudnt move. i was on my up so i allowed the kart to like move back a little n then start again. i only had two rounds..... then the 2nd time, i was stuck again, but it was bcoz i din realize my fott was also on the brake! haha... so i was like "no no no not again" den whamp, i was knocked frm the back. not really knocked but a little bump. then i realize my foot was on the brake (which was rather slow) n removed my foot n zoomed down the slope. the front was so slow that kimberly n i overtook sum pple.. haha so fun... the sad thing was a few of the really gd rides were close for mechanical check, like the inverter and rainbow. cudnt try out the new ride coz it started to rain...


but enjoyed the revolution... haha, beatrice wanted a screaming competition but gretch n i decided not to coz we din want to. had fun lar...



Try - Nelly Furtado


All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try


I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me


Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try


All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

hey pple, changed the song liao... its skye sweetnam's tangled up in me. okok..... shall stop crapping and start blogging.


went to east coast yesterday to rolleblade. was perfectly fine... until i fell right on e cycling path. sigh, that must have hurt rite? it did a little, my palms.... but what i really pity arent my hand but my safety guards. the wrist guards were sctratched n the right knee guard, which was once perfect, is no ruined. thanks to my carelessness. i went to macs to get a milo, den when i bladed out, i was almost knocked down by some pple hu din have a sense of direction. i had to worry abt colliding wif them. den was rollerbladin...blah...blah... while sipping on my milo...blah...blah... waaaaaaaaaaa, fell. milo gone.... there was still half e cup left! argh... den i got up, dun even noe why there was sand on my hands. since i was close to macs. i rollerbladed all the way there to wash my hands. i wasnt really hurt or anything but it was still quite painful... den went all the way to ford road and frm there all the way to bedok jetty. my bro was fishing there so yar...


so bored now...


Tangled Up In Me - Skye Sweetnam


You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
I'm the one that's honking at you cuz I left late again


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me


You think that you know me
You think that I'm only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet


Hey! Hey! Hey!


Could you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!


Hey! Hey!


Get tangled up in me

hi.... long time no blog... very tired, after days n nights of muggin, its over. previously, i mentioned something abt after e exams. well..... dis is again, for me to know n for u 2 find out y. haha... ok i think u mite go "lame...." or "watever" but yar...

went out wif esti n sars to kino n borders. the 2 toots as intendin to buy the pendragon: black water frm kino. but it ran out of stock... it was still there few wks ago... i din buy anything coz i was bankrupt, yar i used e word bankrupt. wich means it is to the extend that i'm really really broke! *stares blankly at empty wallet* den when we stepped out of taka, we were wonderin whether to head left or right, coz we needed 2 get to wheelock place. haha... sars, it wasnt a debate coz it din seem like at all. esti n i were tokin abt whether 2 go left or right, den we decided to ask around. we went to 7-11 n e peep said she din noe. we asked dis man n he din even noe there was such a place. we were still standin outside taka, like lost sheeps, haha. den i juz picked left, n yay, we were heading for the right direction. they bought their books n we spent the rest of 30 mins listening to music at borders.

at arnd 12.30pm, we headed for wisma atria to have lunch. blah blah... all the way till 1.15pm. my oh my, we spent 45 mins eating.... i guess i broke the record of 5 mins, just eating a mcnuggets meal. den we came back, to my place n watched a movie + playin ps2. all the way to 5pm. n here i m now.

now that e exams r over, i'll most probably spend my time reflectin, doing a lot of thinking till i mite even get a major headache like one now... and staring into space, like i always do n the sec 3s think i'm thinkin of my boyfren(which i m not, of course. apparently, i dun like havin a boyfren coz i'm still too young, dats my opinion)

hey, if i really dun do well for the final year exams..... den pls tag board if u have any cca suggestions, coz i still hvnt think of which cca 2 join, so yar. coz i screwed up... n i'm gonna flunk everything. thanx...

ok, i hope everyone does well for the exams. tata =]

You And I Both - Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.


See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive


You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy


Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free


And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang


Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

sick........... *a choo*



watched the terminal earlier. it was damn nice and quite saddening. imagine your country is in war, u dun noe abt it n den when u've realized, ur country's nation of origin no longer exists, u have no country, u cant go home, cant go anywhere, n u're stuck in e airport. sounds a little like survivor, except the fact that there's air-con, fast-food, etc. n ur country does exist. i dun even watch survivor, esti's mad over it. haha... i only started watching it because my mom started switching it on for i dun noe y. she wasnt even watching it...



the thought of what's gonna happen after the exams makes me wanna cry... really sad... very sad....



Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan


Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna runaway?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

but no one hears you screaming



No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life



Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desparate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding



No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life



No one ever lied straight to your face

No one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

Never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like what it's like



To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like [x2]



Welcome to my life [x3]

hey!!!!! i'm really tired.... today the class comm had to come up with a new rule. that is :

If anyone changes their places:

-During Assembly: Fine $5

-During Lessons: Fine $10

i really hope it works. its not extortion at all. we juz wan dem 2 stop changin places. we didnt make it $1 n $0.50 coz we didnt wan 1/3 to be paying to change their places. i really hope they understand.

Note to 1/3: pay danielle as soon as possible, coz the class is broke. if u dun wan e maths wkst, tell either maths rep or class comm, if not u'll have to pay 4 it.

anyway, spiral's blog is open to all, coz it is no longer in use for njrc, unless there's a 2nd Spiral in future which i doubt so. Spiral, if u have a problem wif dat, come look 4 me. anyway, i'm really exhausted....... so i'll hurry up. i recently wrote a 1000 character testimonial for liz, she wud better accept it coz if she doesnt, i'm gonna kill her. i cant wait for the princess diaries 2: royal engagement to be released...... dats like i do not know when. u may think its bimbotic, but i pretty like the story...

Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I just stared out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out

But when I'd try to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I pray (I would pray)

I could breakaway

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a riskTake a chance

Make a change

And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

sigh..... its 3.30am now..... 2hrs and 30 mins to 6am before i have to get out of bed and go to school... shocked? big deal? wadeva? nvm......... my right thumb and index finger is all numb thanks to the 5 hrs or paper cutting. i'm still on the 2 layer! canu believe that?!?!


went to taka for dinner. then went to kinoniya. waha! pendragon bk 5 : black water was already on the shelves. i have got to get that book!!! omg!! and princess diaries bk 6 : six appeal costs $36.70!!! bloody ex........ *stares blankly at empty wallet*. my mum refuse to lend me the money to buy the book. its like $11.80(pendragon). sigh.... o wellz. she bought the ella enchanted vcd. i'm gonna watch it after the exams..... for now i'll shall focus on my studies. focus.... focus...FOCUS!!! my thumb's still numb!!!!! argh........... have been listening to the radio since 12pm? waaaaaa..... my brain cells are disappearing.... haha..... still remember what mr kang said abt the tofu and handphone. he said there was this experiment in which they placed a handphone next to the tofu and after a while, a long while, the side of the tofu where they placed the handphone turned black. that's quite cool though... so i went home and told my mum about it and she said that it was true coz if i were to stuck my headphones in my ears for a long period of time, i'm gg to DIE!!! haha..... but yar.


i think my bro is suffering frm pms or something like that.... wait..... he cant be suffering frm that! coz he's a guy??????? haha.... anyway, he's been cranky all day. he screamed at everyone. well, my mum juz scolded him to mind his really bad attitude. i was busy doin my paper cut and yar, the headphones stuck in my ears. she scolded me for that too..... ah wells...


ok, now my thumbs not numb anymore..... shall not slack... get back to work... signing off...

sigh... its 3.03 am and i'm still on the paper cut. its pathetic!!!


i've decided not 2 trust any1.... coz the pple whom i really really trust has just proved me that i cant trust them. i cant trust any1... real sad but yar... i muz learn 2 keep everything 2 myself then. i really hate myself.... i think the only person/thing i trust is either my diary or my stuff toys. sigh..... i'm real disappointed in myself, to think that i really have sum1 i can really trst but turns out to be a big fat lie.

its 12am!!! wich means it 11 september. i shall announce then.

i have been kicked out of arc.


NJRC is my last event.


i was kicked out last wednesday, 1 september, teachers' day.


i'm sad, really sad.


being extra nice 2 evry1.


shall work hard after NJRC.


will be arc supporter.


still sad. stressed. tryin 2 get over it!!!


listenin 2 music 2 help.


i'm sure a few pple other than mr tan, mr kang n e sec 1s already knew abt it.


The Remedy (I Won't Worry) - Jason Mraz


I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of july,
Freedom ring now something on the surface it stings
That something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease


If you've got the poison
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
Because it all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be
Right back after this
The unavoidable kiss,
Where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophe
Dance with me,


Because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy
The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.


When I fall in love
I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but
I'm still gonna shine and
I'll tell you why
Because


The remedy is the experience.
It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious.
Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because
It all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.
I won't worry my life away.
I won't and I won't and I won't etc.

sighx.......... my team actually made it 2 top 30....... dun noe why.... *shrugs* its a big question mark 2 all of us. anyway, we made it somehow..... i dun noe.........

i'm really sad at the moment....... not telling, will reveal my secret later........... i really am gonna miss this.

1/3's class comm is breaking apart............. its no longer united, it changed, a lot. not only is the class comm breaking apart, so is 1/3. everyone's speaking bhind each other, especially close friends, friends u knew ever since P1, even best friends. i'm juz sad to say that i really hate this feeling of being in a world of gossip, insults, back-stabbers and all. i dun even feel like gg 2 e class blog most of the time. i really dun noe wat 2 do.............. to at least help. to think that i was a conflict manager back in primary sch. i'm really useless, stupid, dumb. i'm an idiot, a big one. did i mention best friends speaking ill of each other? this really sux. my life sux, i suck...........

haiyoh....welcome stefhaniquek....shes juz next 2 me now. muahaha. ok yar. so things have been e same. blah blah blah..... ok i'm startin 2 b lame again.
 
e movie, mean girls is damn funny. haha... shud watch it AGAIN!!!!!!!! muahahaha. i'm really evil 2dae, rite? heehee..so sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long. cant use e net, long story... ok i'm leavin soon so i'll hurry up.
 
abt e movie, i can say i was kinda freaked out. i was sittin nxt 2 dan n i wanted 2 tell dan dat ad was vry cartoonish... when i saw sumtin real scary in e row bhind us. derewas dis couple makin out. so sick. i told dan 2 luk baq instead. den dan passed it down all e way 2 gretch. eeewwwww... real sick. u dun wanna noe wat was gg on. its sendin chills down my spine.
 
haha, it happened 2 stef 2. haha, she said e couple was juz nxt 2 dem. ugh...... lolz... briana damn hapi now lar... got more company with the same experience... *pukes* sukerooooo!!!! -quek
 
-_-""""""" ok it was stef juz now, she left her name dere. yar yar. 
 
hey sars, muz reply 2 e letter orh. ok,its racial harmony  2mrw n i'm gonna wear my costume 2 support my class. yaryar.... was tryin 2 persuade 1/3..... -to 1/3: pls pls pls lar........- haiyoh,ok gtg bb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi, sry 4 not updating. i've been so utterly insulted on e class blog. dis is e vry 1st time i was ever called a b****. sigh..... dis really sucked. now e whole of 1/9 hates me. no. 1, i din start it. it really sux. i really hate it, n i oredi apologized 2 linnette, danielle tinks deres sumtin wrong wif me coz i'm apologizin when its not my fault n i din even start it. sigh...... i will have 2 learn 2 take it. i juz wish dose immature pple wud stop insulting 1/3.

deres a hacker hackin in2 1/3's blog (i tink). e class blog skin was changed n none of e class comm members changed it. really weird though, n freaky.

its still the 25th.

sigh, it was a rather freakin day 4 me. i was tryin my vry best 2 get jia neng, but failed. den called gerri 2 tell her liz n i were e only sec 1s gg 2 e airport, so she called vera, but she cudnt get her. so i had 2 call both jia neng n vera 2 tell dem liz n i were e only sec 1s gg. sigh, den diana sms-ed me, tellin me dere was cip 2mrw, wanted me 2 inform e rest. i called jocelyn, ok. den i told liz, she told me she oredi had 17 hrs of cip n so, i had 2 tell diana n she wanted liz 2 photocopy dat page. ok so i told her, n liz said she had 2 have it stamped n all so i had 2 tell diana. ok, den tried callin chin chow, tght she was baq in s'pore. unfortunately, she wasnt baq, i tink. her hp wasnt answered. i told diana n she said 2 look 4 substitutes. i frantically went lukin 4 2pple 2 cum along, i called matilda n eunice, but cudnt get dem. called gerri, but she cudnt cum. so i had 2 luk 4 e seniors. well, it was kinda hard. coz most of e seniors had enuf cip hrs. i finally called donna n yay, she cud make it. so told diana. sigh....... din luk 4 another person coz diana said 4pple was juz enuf.

it has been really borin dese few days. its like i have no motivation 2 do my homework. dats terrible. i had 2 force myself. sigh..... y m i so lazy.

dat video savina was tokin abt, it gives me e creeps, it was really gross. dun ever wanna watch it again...

sigh. 2day i called grace n accidentally called her by her surname. aw man, i din mean it. so sry grace, really din mean it.

i dun noe y but my bad memories keeps flashin in my head. y cant they b good memories. my mum keeps complainin abt me not being proud dat my family is broken. its like... i cant help it. dat vry day, i witnessed my parents quarellin. dat was like 8 years ago, but it seems clear to me, its like i can remember what exactly happened. what they said. where it was. where my bro n i were standin. everything, its like a nightmare. how can i ever 4get when dat scene, i keep seein it. i was only 5. i wud have 4gotten it. but its like a huge impact on me.

i really wonder how long dis will go on. i'm tryin 2 fight it. sigh.

i juz wish i was brain-washed. 4get abt what happened n sry grace.


Us Against The World - Play
There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

I met someone the other night
Someone I really started to like
How will I know if it's right for me
I wonder if we are meant to be
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

You know that boy I started to see
He thinks he can have it all for free
I wonder if he's the one for me
I try to talk to myself into see
Don't start to like him too much too soon

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothin better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

Whenever you're near there is no fear
Feels like there's nothing I can't do
Make me feel strong
'Cause its here with you is where I belong

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that

There isn't anybody else but you
That makes me feel the way that i do
There isn't no body else but you

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World

There is no one else that I can say this to
And there is nothing better than to talk to you
If you have a problem I'll be here for you
'Cause girl you always know that
Its Us Against The World...

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

my name????? krista??? krista ang??? ugh

u may b wonderin y i'm still online... hmmmmm, my mum din take e cpu wif her. ok, haha. errrrrr...........

went 2 arc rm wif liz 2dae. it felt weird but nvm. liz n i were lookin 4 e frs mentor bklt but cudnt find it but diana's gonna print a copy 4 us, yay!!! ahem...

ok nvm, e movie was great, but carmen n i were e only two watchin it. natalie had cip, carmen's fren said she din wanna cum. o well... e movie is great. dun understand y sum say e movie sucked n all. even though it was great, i was still pissed coz harry only got his firebolt in e end, sirius din sign harry's form 2 go 2 hogsmede n dey missed out so many. bah...... but it was still good. dere was dis scene when harry was like dis n dat wif e werewolf n i was like tuggin on carmen's sleeve, when e werewolf suddenly appeared out of nowhere, carmen wanted 2 pat my shoulder, but covered my eyes instead. *blink blink* newae, i liked e movie. haha.

after e movie, i followed carmen 2 city hall 2 return natalie her hp. we were sittin on e floor n it was embarrasin coz evryone was like lukin at us n it gave me a really funny feelin. newae, natalie finally arrived at e station n i was like 1/4 dead. i was desperate 2 return 2 tp. bah..... reached tp at arnd 7.15pm. so weird, how times flies.

i still have doubt abt e class gatherin. 1/3, can we have it at e end of e year???? newae, if all 38 of us r gg 2 e chalet, n if we gonna have it at costa sands(downtown east), we will most prob get e duplex(2-storey) wich cost $99. so we're gonna get 2 duplex chalets n its gonna cost us $198. includin e food, dat'll b arnd $50 n dat means each person has 2 pay abt $8 4 e food n chalet. o yar, its a 3days-2nite ting, sry no 2day-1nite coz e min is 2-nites...wat kind of english is dat. haiz... newae, tok abt it in class, yar?

ok gtg, sayonara...


Summer Sunshine - The Corrs

I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Ya da... ya da... ya da

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

haha, i like e new layout. it looks cool. heehee.

today's fathers' day...... wat else can i say? nvm........... *blink blink* if u know wat i mean.

argh i hvnt started on my hw n i'm oredi struggling wif chinese. e blardy essay abt me....... man, i dun even noe wat 2 include. *shakes head* i'm halfway thru english. i tink i'm gonna stay up 2nite 2 try 2 finish up my hw. bah.........

i juz realized mandy moore sounds really gd singin cry. haha, i'm really slow. like wat happened a few days baq. was watchin tv, when my mum told me 2 alert her when it's 2pm. i juz went on watchin tv........ then when i glanced at e clock, i realized it was oredi 2.45pm. i told my mum it was oredi 2.45pm n she said she realized too n said i was slow. by 45 mins. haha. datz lame.

shud 1/3 really have e bbq???? i mean e last time we wanted a movie-outing, it din really work out. then we said to send mdm ismiralda off, but sum said dey couldnt make it in e end coz dey wanted 2 go 2 e library or j8. *raises eyebrows* only 5 1/3ers turned up.... now a bbq? will it work???? sum1 even suggested rentin a chalet?!?! sheesh, dat person muz b rich... haiz.... dun even noe whether it will stil work out.

i'm finally gonna watch harry potter. not wif sars, esti n jess. but wif natalie, carmen n carmen's fren. haiz, sars n esti suddenly said dey din wanna watch n jess said no too. haiz, nvm. still glad sum1's watchin it wif me.

e hols r abt 2 end. is dat gd or bad? hmmmm..... i dun noe. seriously, its really borin at home. nothing to do bsides homework!!!

i shall stop bloggin n stare in2 space. haha, jk. sayonara!!!


Cry - Mandy Moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed

Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It was late September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Chorus

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon

Chorus 2xs out

sry 4 not bloggin 4 so long.

i recently found out my dad wanted 2 name me mercedez, u noe e car? ridiculous rite? my mum said dere were three readsons y he wanted 2 name me mercedez.

1) he likes the car mercedez

2) he was sellin the car mercedez dat year

3) he tinks the name is unique and vry few pple walk arnd wif e name mercedez

can u imagine wat it wud b like if i were really named mercedez?

ok, e nyaa camp was really fun, i liked e trek even though my baq hurt after e trek. still enjoyed it.

sry, dis entry is really short.

the mass today was great. so fun. said hi 2 mrs eugenie tan but she din sound 2 happy. den i found out esti, anne-marie lee n jessica teo were e 3 toots.anne-marie lee's pinafore was short n her socks were low. esti n jessica purposely put deir belts at deir hips n folded deir socks. no wonder mrs tan din sound happy. i was like "hi mrs tan" n she was like "hi briana" in a vry annoyed tone. i was wonderin y she wasnt one bit happy abt founders day until jessica told me. i was like "ohhhhhhh............." ooookkkkkkkkkk..... hmmmmmmmm...........

went out wif mag, matilda n liz. omg. bumped in2 ashley shanti n cherry tan at j8. matilda was buggin abt ashley "lyin" 2 her abt cumin baq 2 ij. well she din. she went 2 crenscent instead. haha, den bumped in2 cherry tan. o no, 4got 2 ask cherry 4 her email addie. o well, nvm. haha....

went baq 2 sch after returnin 2 tp. was wonderin y jocelyn din cum 4 arc trainin. saw her at j8 but din say hi 2 her. she was wif her friend. hmmmmmmmmm........... did she 4get? hope she remembers 2 cum 2mrw. blah...blah...blah....had trainin till 6+, waited 4 diana, bought batteries, den went home. heehee, dun feel like bloggin now. bb

Mandy
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy

[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy

[Chorus]

You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...

Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy

sry if my attitude change so abruptly. sry f i've bcum bad n loud n all. real sry, i have a reason 4 doin it. i know dat sum pple r not vry happy with who i m. im tryin my vry best 2 ignore it. its hard but i will try. i have 2 finish e robot. i must, by 2nite. i really hope all dese din happen n i hope i cud turn baq time. its really hurtin 2 see wat i've bcum. i really wan 2 let it all out. i cant keep it in anymore. i simply cant. y cant i accept myself? y? its really depressin. i wish all dese din happen, i really do. haiz..... i noe i wun make it anymore, i'm bound 2 lose. i'm a jinx. i received n email abt "simple friends VS real friends". its makin me worse. hu's a true friend? i juz realized i'm really alone n doesnt really have friends. even though i know so many pple, i dun have a real, true friend. i trust pple, i do. but when i trust dat person a lot, dey start 2 turn deir backs 2wards me. it happens often. izzit juz me? m i e cause of all dese??? i tink i m. im e worst person on earth. i noe dat e person nxt 2 me is sum1 hu doesnt really care if i'm dead or wat. my mum tinks i'm a failure. my dad tinks i'm a bully. my bro takes me as sumone 2 make fun of. my grandma tinks i'm always in e wrong. e whole world hates me, i noe dat. my friends tink i'm a total freak. i tried my best 2 ignore all dese but a voice in my head keeps tellin me all dat happen n it reminds me of everything. i really wan 2 let it all out. i wanna go 2 sleep n never ever open my eyes again. i dun even noe wat im like. wat m i supposed 2 do??

i'm really tired. not physically. but tired of wats happenin in 1/3. y did i have 2 break down at a bad time. y?y? it cant b. y cudnt hold baq my tears. i cudnt. i was really pushed 2 e end. i cudnt pick myself up, i juz cudnt, i cudnt hold baq my tears, y? y? wat happened 2 me? i cant believe i broke down in school, when i was trying 2 do wats rite, doin wats fair 2 others.

y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*

y is 1/3 like dis? y?

many things happened after e exams....

it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.

wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*

Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

life hasnt been gd since i've started "e nxt chapter". esti was right, i was much more carefree in primary school, not like e present me, lonely, sad. wat happened 2 me? wat happened. y have i bcum helpless. y? my mum juz gave me a scolding, n she has totally taken over my life. wat m i 2 do now?

14 May 2004

yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb

Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.


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Cant take it nemore!!!!!!! my idiotic brother keeps makin up stories n I bcome e 1 at wrong. He has no respect at all!!! He doesn’t noe e meaning of privacy. I wanna leave home, never 2 go baq. But I cant, I juz cant. I wanna kill myself, once n 4 all. It keeps happenin but I cant do neting abt it.i cant fight baq like wat I did years baq. It wun work n I cant take nemore. evr1 muz pick on me. Life can never b meaningful 2 me nemore. as long as I can leave dis place I dun care nemore. i juz wan dis 2 b over once n 4 all. my mum keeps tellin me my dad's bad my dad is suspectin me. my brother luks down on me... sobz.... i'm always bullied. i'm e black sheep...

6th May 2004, Thursday

sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.

went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...

7th May 2004, Friday

2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......

i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...

Life is so stressful
this poem may suck
and some waddle like a duck
but i did my best
its never better than the rest

Everyday's a busy day
Homework, homework and more homework
and there i lay
on that pile of work

School seems like forever
but friends dont seem to last forever
they leave you one day
on the bed you lay
wondering where they are
but they are really far
you may not catch up wif them
but they will live in your heart
as long as they're your best friends
they will one day return

Exams are round the corner
and it doesnt seem like forever
life is so stressed
you'll never feel the best

Everytime
you think of the sad times
it'll make you cry
till your eyes are dry
life is just so stressed
i wanna wish for the best

haha, i noe the poem is lame n sum dont even rhyme. cherlynn n i wrote it. was bored in class so yeah.....deres another poem written by her over at her blog. heehee....

You are Ruchia, you are a born leader. You never
forget those close to you even after they are
gone. You have never forgotten your first love,
even if you have lost hope of ever seeing him
again. You have a pure heart that no one can
break. You face danger instead of running away.
You live to protect those close to your heart.


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You're a sad, failed teen. If you wear black,
you're an angst-teen but a real one. Keep on
living, you'll be an adult in about five years
and then you can remember how bad childhood you
had and laugh your head off.


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You Are Like Piper! Sarcastic and always stressed
out. You are also down to earth and a bit of a
control freak too. But you're always there to
support your sisters. You have good leadership
skills too


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haha........cheryl lim changed sooooo much......she's bcum cooler den she was cool in pri sch......haha......e gal rox totally..... shes damn nice n cool 2 b wif. haiz........ shes currently studyin in tkgs...... haiz, was really cool when we were all P6s..... had sooooooooo much fun... still remember e p6 ixora class anthem. haha... hew lyn li n her crazy ideas. newae, still cant blieve our class was even close 2 winnin e global citizenry ting lor. i expected 1/3 2 b e one of e last. datz coz we have countless incidents of teachers cumin in n scoldin us of makin sooooooo much noise. n its like xie lao shi is tryin 2 teach us n e class juz wudnt listen... really pity her...... did soooooo much 4 us but get notin but noise n more noise in return... feel sad 4 her. she muz b under a lot of stress bcoz of us. :'( poor xie lao shi......... if only e class wud juz listen 2 her.....

i really need sum1 2 talk 2..........haiz.....:'( i'm really depressed n i cant tink, my brain has been officially shut down....................................how m i 2 take e exam 2mrw??? :'( :'(

english exam 2mrw.........kinda nervous.......haiz....shall revise again in 3min. 2dae has been a really mad day 4 me. after recess. had science, was waitin 4 mdm ismiralda outside lab. finally, but e whole class wanted 2 have lessons sumwhere else instead of the lab. ok so we had "lessons" at the stone benches near the bookshop. but instead of havin lessons, the class wanted mdm ismiralda 2 tell ghost stories, n she did. haiz, they were all crowding around mdm ismiralda at a table n listened. i wasnt real interested coz i wasnt in the right mood to listen to such stories and they were like screaming in broad daylight. i heard one of the stories. it was about that grave behind the st raphael canteen. ok fine, sum1 saw a white figure. n i heard a little abt dat huge tree. so charissa n i were kinda bored so we went over to dat so-called "ghost" tree n said hi to it. it was kinda lame though, the whole class stopped listening and turned to luk at us. haha, ok den cheryl, charissa n i were talkin abt the primary school bein torn down n stuff. charissa went over to beatrice n tapped her on the baq lightly, beatrice kinda freak out. haha.... charissa n i were like 2 laughin idiots. den i was left alone n started 2 feel real bored. i walked abt n sat down waitin 4 the whole class, watchin pple walk here n there.den charissa came over n sat wth me, guess she was kinda bored too. den mag came over n sat 2. she said the stories were real scary. it was really funny seein those pple screaming n when we were all abt 2 return to class at arnd 11.13am, evry1 were like walkin in threes bcoz of dat pontiana story geraldine's psl told mths ago. too bad i din go 4 peer support...hmmm...mdm ismiralda reminded a few of us 2 tell the class not to scream in class. well, sum of them did when i was juz abt 2 step in n dey were sayin prayers. ok, guessed they were really freaked out. beatrice n a few pple even went to dat grave behind the st raphael canteen to see the grave. haiz......i wasnt really interested as i wasnt in dt mood coz i had a lot in mind....i suddenly felt really sad n i felt real stressed out. i felt like crying, dunno y, juz felt like hidin in a corner n cry out. release stress... i only knew my eyes were wet but i din wan 2 cry. i juz wanted 2 b alone n den cry... i keep feelin dat i had to push myself. savina was rite. i din feel any happier after starin in2 space 4 a moment. evrytime i was in a dazed, i keep tinkin of unhappy stuff...

*a choo*ok juz came baq frm e docs...sufferin frm flu virus..waaaaaaaa...haha...juz a flu...dis mornin...sniff...snifff......had flu vaccination....arm kinda hurts.....fine....i asked my mum abt dat $2000 ting she initially said no......den i asked my dad coz my mum asked me 2. he was like ok ok lar....he wasnt in town so wateva lar. my mum said as long as my dad is willin 2 pay, den it was ok. den called diana. after a while, he called. asked my mum loads of questions. he asked y d sch isnt payin n my mum told him all e stuff n yar.....now i'm supposed 2 go find out more. haiz.....sry diana....sniff...sniff... *a choo*

You are Giggles, shy and cute...and you have a
giggly personality..


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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......i dun wan 2mrw 2 cum........ its art n i hvnt finished my work.......

m i destroyin myself?????? i tink i'm the lamest on earth...... i bein vry lame by sayin lame stuff n doin lame stuff......haiz.....i m e worst....-_- i'm really tired n i dun feel so good. wats e matter wif me? i've been gettin more headaches den usual. mayb i need more sleep. but i cant sleep, i have no choice. i'm beginnin 2 luk like a panda. my dark circles r so obvious. my eyelids were droppin durin geography but i had 2 hang on. kept washin my face. i wud slap myself during lessons 2 keep myself awake. since i was sittin right at the back, or rather e corner or watever of e classroom, me slappin myself, it wasnt so obvious. ok, slappin myself is really lame, LAME!!! haiz.......i keep gg 2 e washrm in btween lessons 2 wash my face..... dat actually helped a little. i mean, it kinda kept me awake. 'm now tryin 2 keep me awake b blastin me in my ears. well, dat din really help, but i've still gotta hang on. i tink i'm slipping off.........

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i'm sooo unhappy. evryday, the same ting happens. i get blamed juz 4 almost evryting......hmmmmm......m i at fault?????? m i the jinx?????? i tink i'm real irritatin n cant stop buggin others. i'm being a total idiot n i cant tink. i really dun noe hw i'm gonna pass my exams. i cant tink n i cant concentrate. i juz tink i'm gonna fail...fail fail fail.... its keeps poppin in my head. mayb i'm a failure..... i dun even noe wat i'm tinkin abt, let alone others rite? i feel so guilty, i dun noe y. i juz feel sooooo guilty, n evrytime i tink abt schoolwork, i get soooooo stressed....aw man, i'm hopeless. hopeless. i dun wanna go 2 school in the morning, but when its the afternoon, or rather evening, i dun wanna go home. i feel as though i done sumtin real bad n i shud juz 4get evryting, n i mean evryting. my name n all dat stuff. i dun noe wat i really did dese few days, coz i'm still blur n i cant tink. wats my problem???? can any1 tell me????????? or shud i not go find out????? wat wud happen if i found my problem??? wat wud i do???? i'm in confusion n i dun noe wat 2 do. i'm like lost in dis big world n i cant find a way out, i'm stuck n i'm lost.....i keep tellin myself i muz do it, but sumtin is pullin me baq, wat is it???? i'm simply oblivious 2 wats goin on arnd me...

really bored.......haiz.......cant stand my bro man. such a nuisance. haiz.......so much homework. i'm really glad i'm done wif the lit project. thanx liz, matilda, savina n her friend 4 stayin wif me till abt 7 yesterday n helpin me wif the lit. haiz.... i feel so guilty coz danielle did the powerpoint presentation all by herself. aw man, i feel so guilty. when was the last time i emailed sars??? omg, dat show is sooooooo freaky man. i'm watchin incredible tales n its real freaky....haiz....i'm still left wif science n maths.....hmmmmmm....

aw man, mdm ismiralda will b leaving at the end of the term.....booohooo.... n i tink dat wijaya guy will b takin over her. i saw him dat day when i was loiterin arnd the sch as usual bcoz i seriously hv notin 2 do durin recess...hmmm...haiz... gtg do my hw. cyaz!

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

this song really suits my life. yep, it does... almost evry word suits my life. thats like exactly how i feel. its currently 5.13pm n i hvnt done my lit stuff. i'm like so dead. its geraldine's b'dae dis sat, 24th....gotta hit the bks, sayonara. cyaz...

ok its the 16th not the 17th. i'm havin my pft is like seven hrs time. great, i tink i'm not gonna make it 2mrw...haiz. i'm tryin 2 kick dat 'wat the hell' habit. i keep sayin it n i decided 2 kick the habit. my windows media player is finally workin, yay!!! n my mum is drivin me 2 nyjc, yay, dun need 2 worry abt gettin dere. yay yay yay. n her bf mite b fetchin me baq home if he happens 2 b around coz joel(his son) has tuition 2mrw n he's playin wif my bro at the moment. yup at this hour. they were hoggin the pc juz now n finally, yay, dey decided 2 abandon the pc n enjoy the playstation. wat m i talkin abt????? haha... did i mention pe was kinda fun...yay ms liem juz made us run 8 rounds n did sum stretchin n play our own games. yup i was playin bball at first. juz shootin. den played soccer n badminton wif delle, jia neng n priscillia. haha. k den borin chinese n all.

aw man, got scolded twice 2day. haiz. i 4got 2 bring my lit tb home n i cudnt finish my lit hw. waaaaaaa. so i din complete it. ok den got scolded by ms ratulangi n made 2 copy the whole of chapter 6 & 7 of village by the sea. she actually wanted it by 2day, but tx 2 mag, she gave us a day. yay... clare n a few pple were doin the lit stuff in class. den ms ratulangi came in arnd 5.30pm n dey din finish copyin ch 6 & 7. so she was really kind 2 give us another choice. dat is: ch 6 by sat / ch 6 & 7 by mon. ok she rock. so i decided 2 copy only ch 6. its like 22 pgs long n the size of the words, haiz...

clare kinda went mad 2day. ok cant blame her lar. since 2day's international friendship day, my class did korea, not bad lar. clare borrowed the korean posters, masks, costume, doll n cute flag frm sum korean agency(i tink). the costume was gorgeous. hew lyn li provided the flag. she din actually buy it but her mum helped her sew it n its gorgeous 2. classes on the 4th storey in the st michael's block wud have seen it. i tink geraldine was the one hu provided the other korean doll. dere were 2 korean dolls. clare went mad coz the judgin was supposed 2 b held after sch but the judgin was held after recess instead. my class was like empty n almost notin was up on the board. 1/3 was in the aep studio so we din know abt it till sum1 told us when we were puttin up the koean stuff after sch. waaaaaaaaa was so mad at dat time. donna was dere n i was crazy. dat jessica teo 2!!! waaaaaaaaaaa she's a toot, a big toot!!! at first she sumhow din help out bcoz of i dunno y n she was 2 convey a msg 2 goh yi ping in the 1/4 classrm 4 clare. but she din. great. wats the matter wif her?

jessica teo's attitude has changed a lot since mrs leong changed our sittin arrangement n shes sittin nxt 2 me. great rite? shes sars close fren n she used 2 b esti's close fren. sumtin happened btween the both of dem n its jessica at fault. i dun even noe y i shud b talkin 2 her. shes sum1 hu juz ditches sum1 after gettin close 2 dat sum1. shes evil man. shes only nices 2 clare, n i dun care. shes so irritatin rude, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........argh.

o my, its sooooooooooo long n its like 1+. haha. 6 more hours 2 pft. the 2 toots r still playin, aiyah. go 2 bed 1st. o my, lotz happened 2day, waaaaaa i dun like jessica teo!!!!!!! li ting was soooooooooooooo rite!!!!!! shes really dat kind hu like suckin up 2 pple. argh, hope mrs leong wud change our sittin arrangement as soon as possible. i still dun get y i even wanted 2 b in her grp!!! omg, shes the general manager!!! haiz, gotta go 2 bed. cyaz

Science was horrible!!!! i'm gonna fail!!!! haiz.....k its past 12 but....nvm. went 2 netball finals 2day. ij's champion!!! YAY!!! k, den walked home wif valerie. went 2 HDB hub. since it was on the way, den y not take a luk at ë fabric of the nations. heehee. it was really cool. den we started lukin 4 valerie's patchwork. ok, at 1st we din find it, so we were like haiz nvm lar. den we walked 2wards the interchange n omg!!! more!!! so we started our search again n yay we found it!!!! :) gd job!!! haha... it was ok. den we met denise, ok. when we were viewin d patchworks, we met eunice(i mean frm 2/1) n jocelyn. ok juz a simple hi-bye n datz all. yup. den val n i pened our thoughts in the "Pen ur thoughts" book. the way i juz phrased it was kinda lame but nvm. anyway, the bk was almost full coz sum pple had huge handwritin n deir small msg took up the whole pg.....evry1 shud go take a luk at it...haha. savina, dun close ur blog...k? its friday 2mrw n i dun wanna have art. i suck at it. dun wanna fall asleep durin art again. haiz.... ok fine, my mum's bf is baq in singapore. wateva lar. dun really care. my parents r divorced. i shall not go in2 the details...cyaz

i hate myself!!! my mum doesnt trust me at all!!! n i mean at all!!! i juz cant believe it ok?!?!?! *sobz* she keeps thinkin i've a guy outside n i dont!!! whats the matter with her?!?!?! she checks my wallet too!!! that is soooooooo.......argh!!! once checked my inbox n read 1 of my SMSs. she is obviously invading my privacy!!! my dad too!!! 2 years ago, he read 1 of my SMSs. i was sooooooo upset!!! my parents juz dont trust me one bit!!! i hate this!!! i hate my life!!!! i feel like running away....but will that help?!?!?! argh.....everytime my mum questions me like mad, i feel so stressed out n i dont like the feeling!!! i hate her!!! both my parents r being biase!!!! my bro is their hot favourite!!! fine!! whatever!!! i'm already used 2 it!! parents prefer boys 2 girls!!! its stupid!!!!

i'm so sian at the moment... had fun playin basketball today. today's game was kinda wierd... anyway, i think the ixorians(2003) went mad today. yup, liz was mad, matilda was mad, eunice was mad and i was mad!!! haha.... so bored... waaaaaaaaaa.. my mum's back tomorrow... hmmmm..... anyway love d songs on delle's and savina's blog. heehee :) i think the song, ultimate doesnt suit my blog at all... i really got bad taste... haha... and health screening was sick today. gross, gross, gross... haha... no lit CA today yay :) practically no lit for the week. haha~ really worried about my njrc team. i mean what geri and mag told me about something and liz wans to switch roles with me and all that... haiz...5 months to go. and liz, matilda and eunice already planned for FLL. they decided to be grouped as elan. haiz...shouldnt have said it in front of me... feeling stressed again... haiz...haiz...

2dae was n awfully borin day... my bro's friend was here n he juz left. so bored. so few pple online 2dae. hardly any hw. mrs helen tan is gonna b 1/8's new form teacher since ms wong is leaving. :( haiz... wonder hus gonna b 1/3's new maths teacher??? geraldine told savina d new teacher mite b ms neo puay puay... hu on earth is she??? n we're gonna hv a new english teacher coz mrs tan is gonna teach 1/8 english n i 4got d new teacher's name. mrs tan was juz tellin us abt her yesterday...haiz... d whole class was kinda upset when mrs tan broke d news. kept sayin it was so unfair. hew lyn li was shoutin "no fair!!! y did it hv 2 b us n not 2/6 switchin classrms wif 1/2???!!! now dey wanna take our form teacher away from us???!!! no fair!!! 1st classrm, nw our teacher!!!" haiz... at first, ms wong told us she was resignin on thursday. she kept tellin us we will find out d reason y she's leavin on monday. haiz...

i really hate my life!!! i cant stand my bro callin me a bitch n all dat. i m really wu neng wei li. wat m i 2 do??? my mum juz wudnt care wat my bro calls me. he's juz utterly rude n vulgar... :'( i cant live my life lk dis 4eva. :'( :'(

its been quite a while since d last time i blogged, i tink... haiz. i'm feelin quite neglected, or issit d rite word??? nvm, i keep tinkin evry1 juz doesnt lk me. m i dumb??? m i n idiot??? i'm repeatin my mistakes over n over. dere IS sumtin wrong wif me. haiz. i juz cant bear wif it nemore. haiz...haiz... i've been really lonely... its lk no1 wans 2 tok 2 me. haiz it has always been lk dat. i guess sumtin wrong wif my personality... issit really bcoz of my personality? issit bcoz of it dat evry1 hates me. my friends r driftin away frm me, especially my closest friends. even though esti's class is lk nxt 2 mine, i feel s though evry1 is lk, i dun noe hw 2 say dis... its lk shes driftin away. i've failed. vry badly. in being a happy toot. diana is soooo rite...

i tink people hate me either bcoz of my vry lousy personality, i m always vry pessimistic or i'm plainly lousy n i suck... haiz... i'm hopeless!!! i'm juz sum1 hu really sux. i suck in almost evryting... haiz haiz...