Sunday, June 29, 2008

[pictures of you. pictures of me.]

mid years are over! and well, pretty much screwed it, especially my favourite chemistry.

sigh sigh.

after our physics exam on friday, Gwynna, Gregory, Michelle, YuXuan, Marcus and i went to suki sushi to have a buffet. it was exxx, but worth the time :)



second video is mainly about the hard ice cream puffs at suki which are really tasty. hahaha gwynna didnt believe they were damn hard and she knocked it on the table. she threw it at the plate and it flew onto the floor, haha hilarious!



third video's about YX stuffing the entire taupok into her BIG mouth haha. she was like pulling and pushing the taupok in and out of her mouth lar, omg.
























































































went to study with Gwynna, Marcus and Michelle at Kovan Macs on wednesday and hahahaha we bought this



hahaha KUNG FUN PANDAAAAA

haha so adorable.

went window shopping and bought a top at $13 and a pair of shorts at $13. in total, $26. not bad right? from OG =D


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i got tagged by Max.

Qns; The person who tagged you is?
-Max Lee

Qns; What is your relationship with him/her?
-Good friend =D my ah-pa hehe

Qns; Your 5 impression of him/her?
-mature, TALL, funny, serious at times, responsible

Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
-being my ahgong/ahpa/one of my sons

Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, you will ... ?
-haha never thought of it

Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improves on?
-hahahaha please, i dont like the name bamama

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ...?
-slap him, haha

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
-hahaha i dont know leh, cuase it's not likely we'll be enemies right?

Qns; The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
-friends forever XD

Qns; Your overall impression on him/her?
-cool guy

Qns; How do you think people around you will feel about you?
-emo, slow, dumb

Qns; The character you love of yourself are ...?
-sacrificial

Qns; On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are ...?
-Thinking too much at times.

Qns; The most ideal person you want to be is?
-a perfect person, or at least someone close to perfect. if not, just a really happy person.

Qns; For people who care & like you, say something about them.
-haha aww, i love you guys a lot!

Qns; Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. Gwynna
2. Gregory
3. Jeremy
4. Li Juan
5. Catherine
6. Zenda
7. Jerome
8. Marissa Low
9. WeeKiat
10. Marcus

Qns; Who is number six having relationship with ?
-hmmm hahahahaha no one at the moment lar..

Qns; Is 9 a male or female?
-male.

Qns; If 7&10 are together, will it be a good thing?
-hahaha that would be impossible.

Qns; How about 5&8 ?
-nope, 8's attached.

Qns; What's number 2 studying about?
-the mechanics of a perfect camera to take a perfect photo =D

Qns; When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
friday night

Qns; Is number 4 single?
-Yup!

Qns; Talk something casually about number 1.
hahahahahahaha cute friend, my lesbian girlfriend luh =X but yeah, she's really sensible and mature at times.

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sorry

Thursday, June 26, 2008

[just shut up, briana.]

i'm in a bad mood.

not just cause of my exams.

but a lot of other things.

i feel so useless as a friend.

DAMMIT. i dont know how to help my friends. can i JUST SHUT THE HELL UP.

since this is not the first time it's happening, then the problem is definitely with me.

have i mentioned how sucky i feel now?

yes, i hate this feeling.

it's my last paper tomorrow and my emotions are being affected, negatively.

fine then, if you guys think i dont care at all. because after all, whatever i say wont make a difference right? it doesnt matter how much sense i try to make, because it's not what you want to hear and not what you want from me. in fact, you just want more. not you, both of you.

why do i still worry. i guess in the end, trying to do something good makes it even more difficult to try to do something better.

the smell of cigarettes make me feel even worse and i feel so much weaker, to the point of tears.

i feel weak, i'm about to breakdown.

and just say it "she's just being emo AGAIN"

just close this window and forget all that i said in this post.

i. need. a. shoulder.

someone, save me



Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside (cold outside) it's cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside (cold inside) it's cold inside

And your slow shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don’t care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I'm the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slow shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don’t care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I'm the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl your not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more
You never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn’t mean you shouldn’t bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I'm the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

Monday, June 23, 2008

[could it be that we've been this way before?]

tomorrow (or rather later), the exams :(

i'm scared, really scared

i'm gonna fail.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

[don't waste the sun on a rainy day.]

havent blogged for a long time..

famine camp was pretty okay.. although i really missed my shawnee 4, but yeah it was pretty fun with Gwynna, Aaron, YuXuan, Maxi, YingTing, WeiCong, JieYing and HuiYi

took many photos. WARNING: UNGLAM PHOTOS




























































































































































































































































































































newspaper collection was done really quickly and we finished it in a couple of hours. yeah!

concert was pretty cool but the audience was dead.

celebrated Tak Kin's birthday on monday. we watched kung fu panda! haha it was damn cute, damn funny. went to orchard to take a walk after that.

this is ZiXiang in a skirt, hahaha one of the disney princesses' dresses you can find at toys r us



went to toa payoh macs to study with Lime (Alwin) last night. we studied the whole night. Germany vs Austria last night. Germany won! WOOTS :D

stumbled across something damn nice to watch! new taiwanese drama, 命中注定我愛你. heh.



gonna chiong after my mid years :D yay!



保加利亚玫瑰的精油
全滴在他刚才牵过我的手
横冲直撞我的心像一颗躲避球
谁懂爱停在手里多久

学问道理教课书都有
恋爱上上签到底哪里求
如果有教授我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快为我加油

多想带著雷达到他梦里
仔细调查
爱的正卡还有没有副卡
也想拿起扫把在他心里
洗洗刷刷
不专心的念头 yeah~ yeah~
都清除啦

九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~
一句不差

九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在嘴里溶化

学问道理教课书都有
恋爱上上签到底哪里求
如果有教授我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快为我加油

多想带著雷达到他梦里
仔细调查
爱的正卡还有没有副卡
也想拿起扫把在他心里
洗洗刷刷
不专心的念头 yeah~ yeah~
都清除啦

九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~
一句不差

九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在嘴里溶化

九十九次我爱他
少了眼皮会乱眨
要他能心电感应我的想法
每天念著他的名字 yeah~ yeah~
一句不差

九十九次我爱他
少了头发会分岔
要他的想念每天准时打卡
爱像冰淇淋在我嘴里溶化

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

[you're only sweet in my dreams.]

taking a break from late night PW. haha

sigh most of my members are often offline, which doesnt make things very easy sometimes.... redoing the action plan for my group now, before we get screwed by our PW teacher and receive an irregularity report. SIGH. after that day... i've been worried, very very worried.

the action plan is well due this thursday, cause we're all gonna meet up for a meeting to compile what we're supposed to have done. i'm starting now cause i've been busy last week, due to camp ASPIRE. and i dont wanna do this last minute... i have like 6 parts to do for my action plan.

1. Preliminary Ideas (PI)
2. Group Project Proposal (GPP)
3. Evaluation of Materials (EOM)
4. Written Report (WR)
5. Oral Presentation (OP)
6. Insight and Reflection (I&R)

proud to say, i'm done with PI already... hahaha... halfway through GPP now... and well greg's gonna do the WR part. hopefully, i'll finish the GPP part by 330 and then i can sleep. then i'll work on EOM, OP and I&R when i wake up. if i can get Greg to help me, even better LOL. sigh. so much to do. not to mention, preparation for mid years... although i've been busy mugging, but to be honest, i spend half the time sleeping on my notes, or stoning. terrible lar. i better jiayou! LOL

went out to study with Jon, Wen Hui and Li Juan. we bowled too. hahaha studied half of atomic structure before going off to bowl. started off falling on the lanes, but it got better after that. played like three games and went back to study. i finished studying atomic structure :D

when we were leaving, we saw Lewis and Yong Khoon!

we left for J8 for dinner at about 730, after i went back to school to get some of my stuff... since my locker is at the corner, like behind LT5, which is scary and dark, three guys who came along thought i was a ghost LOL. retards. we had pepper lunch at food junction and it was gooooood. haha. went home after that, showered and here am i. PW and blogging.

training this wednesday, to prepare for friday, since i'm one of the people playing against Hwa Chong this coming friday. haha confirm die liao, i cant do it if i dont play one game before, cause i make the most mistakes in my first game.

alright, it's quiet all of a sudden cause my brother just shut up. and i realised, he's sleeping. he was blasting his techno and talking damn loudly on the phone earlier... haha no more...

gonna go shop for some straws tomorrow. i have something to prepare :)

finally got the photo off peixuan's friendster















guys at the back, from left to right: Yong Khoon, Edmund, Sean, Zu Ming, Jack, Calvin

girls at the back, from left to right: WenHui, me

girls in second row, from left to right: Hawisan, Shamini, Delarria, Sophia, Peixuan, Siong Wei

guys in front, from left to right: Dudley, Anthony, Jaymond

guy strangled (HAHA): Lewis

haha fun group :) peixuan's arms are like red... see the colour contrast to her legs? lol haha lobster

任何人不能阻止我对你的好

you're only sweet in my dreams



在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼写给你的纸条
幸福划上星星记号

你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好

在见到你关键的第一秒
爱的情愫开始发酵
小心翼翼写给你的纸条
幸福划上星星记号

你像一座孤傲的岛
有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮
也只能将你围绕

全世界的人都知道
一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑
就算是做梦也会笑

全世界的人不知道
我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照
任何人不能阻止我对你的好

Monday, June 09, 2008

[this is my time.]

haha sorry. i've been lazy all weekend. so havent blogged.

was back from camp on friday evening. went to plaza sing to celebrate jon's birthday :D

i'll start off with camp.

went to school and found out a lot of people bought 1.5l bottles of MINERAL WATER. wth. and the previous night, i was torturing myself. how amusing.

well, my group is pretty awesome. two girls left on the first night... so the group was left with me, wenhui, sophia, peixuan, jaymond, anthony, dudley, lewis, jack, delarria, shamini, sean, calvin, siangyou, zu ming, omar, hawisan, edmund, yongkhoon and siongwei.

first day some games and all before the amazing race. everyone was dead tired, falling asleep on the bus towards our first station, suntec. we were even more tired by the time it was nightfall. the food sucked, every meal muslim meal and it was spicy! students who cant eat spicy food had to suffer. i was one of them. sigh. the rice was half cooked and everyone couldnt go on eating it, so most of us went hungry for the rest of the night, or pretty much most of the camp. oh yeah SOME GROUP stole our tents and we got tekaned for that lar...

second day at pulau ubin. half the cohort had the land expedition and the other half had the sea expedition. my half was the half doing the land expedition. it was quite fun and feastful for the mozzies. up to today, i'm still itching like hell. jaymond's was the worst lar... he had bites all over his arm before he even got to pulau ubin. when we ended at 430, we had debrief and then dinner. we had fish, potatoes, sweet potatoes, eggs, sweet corn and bananas. anthony, lewis, jaymond, dudley, calvin and i tried to start a fire. it was pretty hahaha smoky. smoke got into the eyes. haha. peixuan and siong wei were cooking scrambled eggs and they looked and tasted fine :D because we didnt have enough time, we just boiled the rest of the eggs. jaymond cooked two fishes and they tasted pretty good too. the potatoes were the best lol. anthony dumped them into the fire and the soot and they just cooked in there lol. but it was pretty good.

the whole talk about food is making me hungry.

at night, we had a campfire. there were quite a lot of campfire songs. then amin, the ava guy in our school prepared some songs and all. cool guy. it was the most fun part of the campfire, in my personal opinion. after that, it was lights out. i shared a tent with wenhui and we slept like pigs haha.

third day, woke up to find out some of the guys finished at least half the tin of biscuits and most of the milo, which was supposed to be breakfast... so in the end we had less to eat. can only watch the other groups eat :((

had our sea expedition. paired up with siangyou to kayak and it was damn damn damn fun. but i lost my hairband during the capsize drill =.= emo sia.. i liked that white hairband a lot lar... so anyways, we saw quite a few jellyfishes int he water! they were huge man, pink somemore.. haha. ms ng kayaked over to the spot where the uncle on the speedboat noticed the jellyfish and she exclaimed "WAH! SO CUTE!" haha she can be rather amusing in an adorable way sometimes.

after that, i really enjoyed the tanning session man. i slept on the bench under the sun with my head in my arms. lol my arms and legs are roasted now haha. headed back to school by 130. had lunch which was of course, MUSLIM FOOD (i swear... by the time school reopens, all the people who went for camp ASPIRE would not want to buy from that stall casue we ate that 3 days in a row lar). so anyways, we had to wash the tents and all after that. come to think of it, the group who took our tents, good fer them! haha, they had to wash EXTRA tents. thats what you get then, for theft!

got to shower early cause lol we were super early and there was no long queue in the toilet! WOO!

slacked around for a while before the video reflection. dammit, jinting put my photo in the video for the world to see. i paiseh lar. LOL sophia and i just burst into silent laughter the moment we saw that photo. and we didnt stop laughing for the next five minutes. it was a photo of me eating some egg, and smiling. i looked pretty unglam i think and retarded LOL.


me, cat


peixuan, me


me, peixuan


me, sophia

more photos are with peixuan, will ask her for them the next time i see her :)

after we were released from camp, headed down to plaza sing for jon's birthday! haha we had pastamania for dinner. had a cake smash near the giraffe restaurant. haha damn funny lar, jon kena bullied like hell. he was lying on the ground lar, lol super unsightly. but it was great. at least jon liked it :)

some photos















thats our present to him.































cake fight







i left all my clean clothes from camp in my locker... omg i have a lot of barang to carry tomorrow haha.

ah well, tired, shall go sleep then. mr. absent-minded forgot about me again. lol.

gonna study with the clique again later :)

good night, sweet dreams.

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A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

sad. lol. i would cry every night for a long time.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

for everyone to be cheerful, and for everything to turn out fine

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?

hahaha as long as we're both happy :)

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

sometimes... and right now? i would say yes.

#5. what's your ideal lover like?

sweet, caring, loving.

#6. What is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?

being loved by someone. AND loving someone. i say both.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

as long as i can, and i hope it's forever

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

hahaha nothing. i would give him my blessings

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

yes.

#10. Is being tagged fun?

haha kinda... random stuff to put on your blog

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

working, haha. what else lar?

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?

my friends :)

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?

Wee Kiat: LOL. PK ARH! funny guy lar.
Max: hahaha nice guy, like kor kor, but he's my ah gong! well he's a damn mature guy, nice guy to talk to and crap haha
Aaron: MY ERZI! so cute can haha

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

married and rich :D

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?

laze in bed as long as i can LOL

#16. Would you give your all in a relationship?

yes.

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?

sigh...... it happened before, i chose the one

#18. What type of friends do you like?

forgiving, never forgets you. but hey i love my friends man

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?

haha backstabbers?

Tagged by: Wee Kiat, Aaron and Max

8 lucky people to do this quiz!
Names : Gregory, Marissa Low, LiJuan, Jerome, Zenda, Gwynna, Jeremy, Catherine

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

[stuck in the shadow of my mistakes.]

i'll be going off for camp ASPIRE in a few hours... and i'm just done with packing.

right now, i'm gulping 1.5l of coke down my throat just for the damn bottle. haiyah. sacrificed so much these two days can...

wore my uniform to school without shorts just to save them for camp.
gulping coke down my throat for the bottle.

i regret not planning properly... like leave some stuff in my locker, so that i dont have to worry about fitting everything into my bag. sigh.

my bag is fatter than me now.... really.. and i didnt put my sleeping bag and shoes inside can... i squeezed my clothes, extra backpack, toiletries, slippers, 1.5l bottle, notebook, writing materials, wallet and jacket into my bag... wah lau, so scary lar. just look at the comparison to my sleeping bag.



hopefully, i can get away from things during the camp. tire myself out so that i dont think about whats been happening and what happened on sunday night. although i told myself, and many other people that i will be fine, that i will stop thinking about it, that i will stop feeling sad about what happened. but the fact is, i still do. i can't stop thinking about it, cant stop harping on it. i cant stop feeling sad inside everytime i come home. i cant stop crying inside. i kinda expect myself not to even forget it even if he has. it's not that i wanna be negative, but knowing myself and how things have been going on for me, i kinda know i wouldnt know how to let go properly, and wont be able to. i wouldnt be surprised if i cant for a super long time.

day 3, i'm dying. tears dont help. will falling again help? or do i leave to time?

or is it fate?

i'm tired. stressed up. things i say here are getting more and more melancholic.

headaches are coming back :(

Resolution - Nick Lachey

Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by your moment's grace again
There's so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined
I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
And learning how to love again
And all I want is something real
That I can feel

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be

'Cause here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

My resolution
(Ooh oh oh)