[wrong fever.]
i'm a having a fever...
and i got scolded for having a fever...
i have been having a fever since last night. when i realised my fever hasnt subsided this morning, i told my mum i wasnt going to school because of the fever and she scolded me and wanted me to go to school. but my temp was about to reach 39 degrees celsius. i didnt go in the end, but because of the fever, she said i was slacking and said i didnt want to go school. i proved to her i did have a fever but she just scolded me and gave me that silent treatment.
is it wrong to have a fever?
then she said i'll go to ITE and that my mid year results cant even get me to poly. thats when i started to doubt mrs kunna's words about not worrying about the mid years. she said
"dont worry about your mid year results. you dont have to sit there and cry. just as long as you know where you went wrong, work hard for the prelims and your o levels"
then she starts to say a lot of things contradicting what she say earlier. i dont know what she told my mum, but i doubt what she said. because it seems to me that the mid years really is a BIG thing and we ought to sit and cry about it.
not only that... i totally got condemned. my bro just said to me this afternoon "you no o levels arh? prepare to stay back one year"
instead of saying stuff about me ending up nowhere, cant i hear something encouraging from you people?
i'm having a fever and a really bad headache that has been going on since last night. i have to sleep with the headache, do everything with the headache. and all i got today was for me to cry even more, and it made my headache worse...
my mum even said things like "now that you stopped gaming, you're moving to your animations?" i hvnt even touched my anime for a long time and i was just gonna watch that few bleach episodes i missed. she even said things like "then you didnt get a fever from watching your animations yesterday afternoon?"
i got the fever LAST NIGHT. omg.
and so, i got condemned just like that, all cause of the fever.
if i could, i choose not to have the fever because it's relly painful and having to bear with the headache, the sore throat and the fatigue, it's bad. and i feel so weak already... honestly, i feel like i'm about to faint.
got 2days mc. even so, it doesnt help but answer for my absence in school. cause even if i still have a fever tomorrow, i HAVE to go to school.
suddenly, the O levels just seem so much more important than trying to get well soon. i wonder if i go on like this, am i gonna die tomorrow?
sigh.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
[o levels. sian.]
ah this sucks.
nagged at for o levels....
this really sucks
did DAMN badly for mid years.
1. never study properly T.T
2. papers damn difficult, plus some were super modified.
eg physics paper, no mcq, failed
i never failed science before. so damn sian lar. and today mrs kunna says i looked so spaced out in her class. if that was the case, how the heck did i get A1 for emath? you tell me lar... she said i looked spaced out in HER class (emath) and i get an A1 for emath.
really damn sian. i need someone to talk to now. like really talk heart to heart ya know? sheesh, just really need someone now... sigh.
chinese Os next monday, i feel dead. i will go through all my worksheets and keep doing them.
sigh, o levels - sian
not to mention the o levels are pushed 2 weeks forward. sucks.
and i might just consider applying for DPA (Direct Polytechnic Admission) for Temasek Poly, either biotech or chem... i think i'll most prolly go for biotech. i dont feel safe having to study econs in JC, honestly. now that they made it compulsory to take a non-mat/science sub in JC, going to JC would prolly mean seeking my own death. EVEN IF i tyco tyco (okay not possible, but managed to) get into a science stream at JC, math and science would be in depth already, not to menation econs need a lot of memory space and i dont have enough ram to be that good, i would be asking myself to go to hell if i were to go to JC right?
damn, this entire entry is all about O levels. RAH
plus, we have to like write our own testimonials... or rather, they want us to write out statement of experiences in IJ so that it makes things easier for the teachers to write our testimonials... WTH. all by 1st june lar. hello? i've done so much in my past 4 years, participated in so many competitions... tell me what to write... not to mention a really really really really long reflection (like prolly 40 pages long) to prove our teachers how mature we are... i dont know if i can rememeber every slightest thing i did. lemme think
secretary sec 1
class comm sec 2
class comm sec 4
frs
njrc
space robot
robofest
fll
netball carnival sec 1 2 3
games festival
cross country
sports day sec 1 2 3 4
honours day sec 1 and 3
.
.
.
.
.
.
A LOT LAR i cant remember, a large chunk in cca records, but not every single thing is in there... have to include all the other random things too, which i cant hardly rememeber. i've done so much in sec 1, worked my guts out in the class comm, in all three committees for netball carnival for two years. played and salvaged cheerleading team with shar in sec 2 (honestly that was horrendous because jess and clare told the two of us they were ponning netball carnival the next day without telling anyone else and we, the tomboyish people in class, had to cover them up by being reserves in the cheerleading team for them lar....). we won in the end haha. plus in sec 2, the rest of the class pang sehed me and mrs wong and i was the only student there at novena church trying to clear the cocoa tree vouchers with mrs wong's daughter (she's not even in ij....)
it went like this...
this is a post i copied and pasted from my past entries dated 6 February 2005... damn old, but it's still around and it totally depicts what exactly happened that day... i really hated the way i typed in the past, with all the short forms. please bear with it. haha and bear with the really immature writing, rah sorry, paiseh paiseh, sec 2 at that point of time...
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
today was a vry bad day for me.
- i was abandoned in orchard, n someone like me, who doesnt have a sense of direction, took forever to find taka.
- the sales of vouchers in the morning was pretty bad
- no one came for the evening shift
great just great! this is not my worst day ever though... anyway. thanks to my DEAR FRIENDS who have clearly n totally forgotten abt me, i was stuck in orchard like a lost sheep. aparently pple, i dun go to orchard much n neither do i really enjoy gg there that much. i got to far east only for the sake of sunny bookshop n thats where it started. they left me behind. n when im done browsing the shop, they were at the mrt station...
to dear dan, lyn, mich n lynette:
my dear friends, thanks for leaving me behind and forgotten abt me. wahaha
so then i spent an hour in kino reading n spent 10 mins looking for the rurouni kenshin manga series. they only have volume 2, 3 n 5. its 15 bucks. i shall start having the habit of saving up. n in case my mum doesnt know, i dun spend money like i waste water. man, u juz dun know, so juz stop comparing me with mr businessman, coz i dun need that at all. anywa, as i was saying, i was forgotten by my dear friends and finally found my way to taka, then spent time in kino. then i went down to basement 2 n bought muah chee n ding ding candy. then walked around aimlessly until 4pm n took a bus back to novena for evening shift. reached at 4.25pm. prayed n waited.... waited... finally, mrs wong appears. n it was 4.55pm by then. so she actually tght the others have not cum coz its not 5pm yet. but in the end, no one came. n so i was the only ij girl in uniform walking arnd. mrs wong's daughter came along too. so the both of us sold the vouchers and we earned $160 frm there. mrs wong told me to go home coz celine (mrs wong's daughter)n i were the only ones selling n it was also difficult for us. so i did go home.
in the morning, we saw mrs eugenie tan, n she looked weird. she cut her hair n dyed it brown. she was wearing a green n white striped shirt, so i cudnt recognize her, even though she was standing right in front of me. marian fernandez, mel soh n mrs stephen was there too.
had reunion dinner after the evening shift n blah. not much, excet my bro had to fight with me over salmon. we didnt fight. but when im reaching out for that particular salmon piece, he will snatch it on purpose. my mum's bf thinks its funny. well, i dun think it is, coz it was pissing me off. then was pissed off for an entire evening thanks to him coz he had to come into the room to spite me. ok im really tired now coz of the amt of energy i have spent walking n talking, especially if u had to say the same things over n over again... ok, good night n bb! =]
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ah sian...
ah this sucks.
nagged at for o levels....
this really sucks
did DAMN badly for mid years.
1. never study properly T.T
2. papers damn difficult, plus some were super modified.
eg physics paper, no mcq, failed
i never failed science before. so damn sian lar. and today mrs kunna says i looked so spaced out in her class. if that was the case, how the heck did i get A1 for emath? you tell me lar... she said i looked spaced out in HER class (emath) and i get an A1 for emath.
really damn sian. i need someone to talk to now. like really talk heart to heart ya know? sheesh, just really need someone now... sigh.
chinese Os next monday, i feel dead. i will go through all my worksheets and keep doing them.
sigh, o levels - sian
not to mention the o levels are pushed 2 weeks forward. sucks.
and i might just consider applying for DPA (Direct Polytechnic Admission) for Temasek Poly, either biotech or chem... i think i'll most prolly go for biotech. i dont feel safe having to study econs in JC, honestly. now that they made it compulsory to take a non-mat/science sub in JC, going to JC would prolly mean seeking my own death. EVEN IF i tyco tyco (okay not possible, but managed to) get into a science stream at JC, math and science would be in depth already, not to menation econs need a lot of memory space and i dont have enough ram to be that good, i would be asking myself to go to hell if i were to go to JC right?
damn, this entire entry is all about O levels. RAH
plus, we have to like write our own testimonials... or rather, they want us to write out statement of experiences in IJ so that it makes things easier for the teachers to write our testimonials... WTH. all by 1st june lar. hello? i've done so much in my past 4 years, participated in so many competitions... tell me what to write... not to mention a really really really really long reflection (like prolly 40 pages long) to prove our teachers how mature we are... i dont know if i can rememeber every slightest thing i did. lemme think
secretary sec 1
class comm sec 2
class comm sec 4
frs
njrc
space robot
robofest
fll
netball carnival sec 1 2 3
games festival
cross country
sports day sec 1 2 3 4
honours day sec 1 and 3
.
.
.
.
.
.
A LOT LAR i cant remember, a large chunk in cca records, but not every single thing is in there... have to include all the other random things too, which i cant hardly rememeber. i've done so much in sec 1, worked my guts out in the class comm, in all three committees for netball carnival for two years. played and salvaged cheerleading team with shar in sec 2 (honestly that was horrendous because jess and clare told the two of us they were ponning netball carnival the next day without telling anyone else and we, the tomboyish people in class, had to cover them up by being reserves in the cheerleading team for them lar....). we won in the end haha. plus in sec 2, the rest of the class pang sehed me and mrs wong and i was the only student there at novena church trying to clear the cocoa tree vouchers with mrs wong's daughter (she's not even in ij....)
it went like this...
this is a post i copied and pasted from my past entries dated 6 February 2005... damn old, but it's still around and it totally depicts what exactly happened that day... i really hated the way i typed in the past, with all the short forms. please bear with it. haha and bear with the really immature writing, rah sorry, paiseh paiseh, sec 2 at that point of time...
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
today was a vry bad day for me.
- i was abandoned in orchard, n someone like me, who doesnt have a sense of direction, took forever to find taka.
- the sales of vouchers in the morning was pretty bad
- no one came for the evening shift
great just great! this is not my worst day ever though... anyway. thanks to my DEAR FRIENDS who have clearly n totally forgotten abt me, i was stuck in orchard like a lost sheep. aparently pple, i dun go to orchard much n neither do i really enjoy gg there that much. i got to far east only for the sake of sunny bookshop n thats where it started. they left me behind. n when im done browsing the shop, they were at the mrt station...
to dear dan, lyn, mich n lynette:
my dear friends, thanks for leaving me behind and forgotten abt me. wahaha
so then i spent an hour in kino reading n spent 10 mins looking for the rurouni kenshin manga series. they only have volume 2, 3 n 5. its 15 bucks. i shall start having the habit of saving up. n in case my mum doesnt know, i dun spend money like i waste water. man, u juz dun know, so juz stop comparing me with mr businessman, coz i dun need that at all. anywa, as i was saying, i was forgotten by my dear friends and finally found my way to taka, then spent time in kino. then i went down to basement 2 n bought muah chee n ding ding candy. then walked around aimlessly until 4pm n took a bus back to novena for evening shift. reached at 4.25pm. prayed n waited.... waited... finally, mrs wong appears. n it was 4.55pm by then. so she actually tght the others have not cum coz its not 5pm yet. but in the end, no one came. n so i was the only ij girl in uniform walking arnd. mrs wong's daughter came along too. so the both of us sold the vouchers and we earned $160 frm there. mrs wong told me to go home coz celine (mrs wong's daughter)n i were the only ones selling n it was also difficult for us. so i did go home.
in the morning, we saw mrs eugenie tan, n she looked weird. she cut her hair n dyed it brown. she was wearing a green n white striped shirt, so i cudnt recognize her, even though she was standing right in front of me. marian fernandez, mel soh n mrs stephen was there too.
had reunion dinner after the evening shift n blah. not much, excet my bro had to fight with me over salmon. we didnt fight. but when im reaching out for that particular salmon piece, he will snatch it on purpose. my mum's bf thinks its funny. well, i dun think it is, coz it was pissing me off. then was pissed off for an entire evening thanks to him coz he had to come into the room to spite me. ok im really tired now coz of the amt of energy i have spent walking n talking, especially if u had to say the same things over n over again... ok, good night n bb! =]
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ah sian...
Monday, May 07, 2007
[the answer.]
wtf. the area where i dumped all my books after i study for the exams is messy, and my brother made it worse by dumping his ps2 games there, all of them. crumpling my notes and papers. WTF. not only that, my computer area is messy too, because he dumped his fucking bowl of ice cream there. he left it there since last night after not being able to finish it. WTF. it's not mine but i have to sit in front of it. if i make noise, he scolds me WTF WTF WTF.
my room is like a junkyard. esp my com area. WHY?! because my brother dumps his food wrappers and food there. so his fucking area is supposed to be cleaner becuase my area is a junkyard? WTF!
3 bleddy papers LEFT!
AHHHHHHH
english
chinese
social studies
emath
geography
chemistry
amath
history
physics
on the 28th of May, i'm having my GCE 'O' Level CHINESE sia...
can die can die.
i'm damn scared. how how how.
rah, no point getting scared.
three days before another difficult farewell. i didnt think it would have been this soon, but it is. sigh sigh.
the ice cream staring at me is making me sick. seriously it is. i told my bro and all he says is "WAIT LAR! @#$%^&*!!!! " but i know he'll NEVER, and i mean NEVER EVER do it, because he's too busy mapling. CRAP MAPLE LAR! it wrecks lives!
i want the corrinne may chiristmas album hahaha. the song 'the answer' is nice.
http://profile.imeem.com/LxAFGb/music/HnnMth61/the_answer/
i know it's a little too late right? cause christmas was like 5 months ago? hahaha but it's nice man.
i wonder if mag got the album... maybe she did? hahaha considering we were both always talking abuot corrinne may songs and stuff. let's just say she was the only one i know that likes corrinne may other than me before i met lester. haha.
i recently uploaded a playlist on my friendster profile page. it's.. haha nice...
http://profile.imeem.com/IaJUjR/playlist/X8uPnXxj/
watched spidey 3, it's nice, damn nice, but so many people died. ahh, sad man... strongly encouraged to watch man... dont understand why that bugger who commented on yahoo movies said it was BBBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG
haha he dont know how to appreciate sia...
oh i need headphones like the ones lester has, because i need to cancel the noise around me when i'm at home....
yeah i should go eat, study and have tuition. bye then. good luck to those having exams :)
wtf. the area where i dumped all my books after i study for the exams is messy, and my brother made it worse by dumping his ps2 games there, all of them. crumpling my notes and papers. WTF. not only that, my computer area is messy too, because he dumped his fucking bowl of ice cream there. he left it there since last night after not being able to finish it. WTF. it's not mine but i have to sit in front of it. if i make noise, he scolds me WTF WTF WTF.
my room is like a junkyard. esp my com area. WHY?! because my brother dumps his food wrappers and food there. so his fucking area is supposed to be cleaner becuase my area is a junkyard? WTF!
3 bleddy papers LEFT!
AHHHHHHH
chinese
social studies
emath
geography
chemistry
amath
history
physics
on the 28th of May, i'm having my GCE 'O' Level CHINESE sia...
can die can die.
i'm damn scared. how how how.
rah, no point getting scared.
three days before another difficult farewell. i didnt think it would have been this soon, but it is. sigh sigh.
the ice cream staring at me is making me sick. seriously it is. i told my bro and all he says is "WAIT LAR! @#$%^&*!!!! " but i know he'll NEVER, and i mean NEVER EVER do it, because he's too busy mapling. CRAP MAPLE LAR! it wrecks lives!
i want the corrinne may chiristmas album hahaha. the song 'the answer' is nice.
http://profile.imeem.com/LxAFGb/music/HnnMth61/the_answer/
i know it's a little too late right? cause christmas was like 5 months ago? hahaha but it's nice man.
i wonder if mag got the album... maybe she did? hahaha considering we were both always talking abuot corrinne may songs and stuff. let's just say she was the only one i know that likes corrinne may other than me before i met lester. haha.
i recently uploaded a playlist on my friendster profile page. it's.. haha nice...
http://profile.imeem.com/IaJUjR/playlist/X8uPnXxj/
watched spidey 3, it's nice, damn nice, but so many people died. ahh, sad man... strongly encouraged to watch man... dont understand why that bugger who commented on yahoo movies said it was BBBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG
haha he dont know how to appreciate sia...
oh i need headphones like the ones lester has, because i need to cancel the noise around me when i'm at home....
yeah i should go eat, study and have tuition. bye then. good luck to those having exams :)