[goodbye days // don't do the wrong thing.]
just when you thought you would be feeling all better after retreat.
damn. maybe i was getting too worried, which kinda explains why i'm feeling so down and all. and when i came home, log onto the com, went through some websites and spotted something just so not in the right place, i just felt worse. really. if you decided on something, and was so excited about doing it, then why come to me as though it was such a big problem of whether you should do it or not. because if you really wanted it so much, i'm in no position to stop you or anything. neither do i want to give in to you, having the idea of you just trying it out and then the next day, i realised your eagerness to do it. so may i ask again, why ask me that funny question?
argh. when problems arise, i cant stop thinking about it. dragging me back into my old problems that i havent got the guts to solve them, because i needed to confront in order to do so. my fear of a bad outcome just stops me from doing so.
during retreat today, father was urging us to believe in ourselves. although it was the right thing to do, i cant seem to find a reason to believe in myself now. all that's in my mind is the tiny and whiny problems i've been facing all this while. i feel extremely lethargic and just sick.
and i know its not pms.
damn. damn. damn.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
[taiyo no uta]
was in the mood to blog so i did.
was watching animax this afternoon and happened to come across one of yui's music videos. the song's tokyo. super nice.
yeah she can sing very well. was randomly looking at her website and since it was japanese i could only guess. so i clicked on something and it brought me to another website. a new movie. released in japan on 17th june. looks really nice. so yui is a main character with another guy. the synopsis was really good. storyline is good too.
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synopsis:
A girl who can only live at night and a high school student who loves to surf as the sun rises... The two had nothing in common...
Kaoru Amane, 16 years old, did not attend school but instead sang herself away every night after dark at a square in front of a train station with a guitar in her hands. She led a lifestyle opposite the norm, sleeping during the day and active at night. Kaoru was suffering from xeroderma pigmentosum (XP), an illness, which also might be described as the allergy to the sun, and was not allowed to be exposed to sunlight. The only motivation in her life was singing, which also was the only connection to the outside world. One day, an incident drastically changes her life...
Kaoru returns home at 4:00 am, before sunrise. Outside her room window, she spots a high school student standing with a surf board in his hands. It becomes her routine to watch him and his friends come and go to the ocean every morning, before going to sleep.
Their destined encounter takes place during the few hours before the break of day, drawing together two individuals that would have never met in daylight. However, Kouji does not know about her illness. The two rapidly fall for one another and continues to meet in the city at night. Then one day, an incident leads Kouji to learn of Kaoru's illness. Kaoru gives up her first love telling herself that, "I shouldn't have allowed myself to dream of a happy life. I am not normal after all." She even gives up singing. Kouji seeing Kaoru at such a state encourages her by suggesting, "Let's meet only at night," and comes up with a brilliant present for her.
She had been leading a life carefully placing herself beyond the reach of harm, with no intent to pursue a dream. However, Kouji had shone a light on her heart making her want to sing once again. However, her illness which has quietly progressed, has started to pressure her nerve system, keeping her from playing the guitar at her will
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poor girl... so the trailer is really good. there are two. the short one is subbed but the official trailer isnt. it shows a lot though.
short trailer:
official trailer:
yeah... and the theme song for this movie also rocks.
Good-bye Days - YUI
not to mention YUI being a really cool person. she was a songwriter cum singer at the age of 16. she plays the guitar too, sings really well and can play the guitar really well. she sung one of bleach's ending themes. but sadly, taiyo no uta, the movie is only released in japan so far. i hope it'll come to sg. it looks really good, but i dont think i will have the chance to watch it.
was just blog hopping round the usual blogs and things started to answer for themselves. like who is who and what is what. i started to think about why things happened that way and how ridiculous they have turned out. turning it back would of course be difficult because it has left a mark, a scar. no matter what happens, our thoughts and feelings about these would never vanish but live in us and when we think of it once again, we feel a sense of guilt.
ah well... staying up till 3am again to watch digimon adventure. shall go do my homework. and the sound of the rain at this hour sounds really pleasant. i like the rain :)
was in the mood to blog so i did.
was watching animax this afternoon and happened to come across one of yui's music videos. the song's tokyo. super nice.
yeah she can sing very well. was randomly looking at her website and since it was japanese i could only guess. so i clicked on something and it brought me to another website. a new movie. released in japan on 17th june. looks really nice. so yui is a main character with another guy. the synopsis was really good. storyline is good too.
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synopsis:
A girl who can only live at night and a high school student who loves to surf as the sun rises... The two had nothing in common...
Kaoru Amane, 16 years old, did not attend school but instead sang herself away every night after dark at a square in front of a train station with a guitar in her hands. She led a lifestyle opposite the norm, sleeping during the day and active at night. Kaoru was suffering from xeroderma pigmentosum (XP), an illness, which also might be described as the allergy to the sun, and was not allowed to be exposed to sunlight. The only motivation in her life was singing, which also was the only connection to the outside world. One day, an incident drastically changes her life...
Kaoru returns home at 4:00 am, before sunrise. Outside her room window, she spots a high school student standing with a surf board in his hands. It becomes her routine to watch him and his friends come and go to the ocean every morning, before going to sleep.
Their destined encounter takes place during the few hours before the break of day, drawing together two individuals that would have never met in daylight. However, Kouji does not know about her illness. The two rapidly fall for one another and continues to meet in the city at night. Then one day, an incident leads Kouji to learn of Kaoru's illness. Kaoru gives up her first love telling herself that, "I shouldn't have allowed myself to dream of a happy life. I am not normal after all." She even gives up singing. Kouji seeing Kaoru at such a state encourages her by suggesting, "Let's meet only at night," and comes up with a brilliant present for her.
She had been leading a life carefully placing herself beyond the reach of harm, with no intent to pursue a dream. However, Kouji had shone a light on her heart making her want to sing once again. However, her illness which has quietly progressed, has started to pressure her nerve system, keeping her from playing the guitar at her will
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poor girl... so the trailer is really good. there are two. the short one is subbed but the official trailer isnt. it shows a lot though.
short trailer:
official trailer:
yeah... and the theme song for this movie also rocks.
Good-bye Days - YUI
not to mention YUI being a really cool person. she was a songwriter cum singer at the age of 16. she plays the guitar too, sings really well and can play the guitar really well. she sung one of bleach's ending themes. but sadly, taiyo no uta, the movie is only released in japan so far. i hope it'll come to sg. it looks really good, but i dont think i will have the chance to watch it.
was just blog hopping round the usual blogs and things started to answer for themselves. like who is who and what is what. i started to think about why things happened that way and how ridiculous they have turned out. turning it back would of course be difficult because it has left a mark, a scar. no matter what happens, our thoughts and feelings about these would never vanish but live in us and when we think of it once again, we feel a sense of guilt.
ah well... staying up till 3am again to watch digimon adventure. shall go do my homework. and the sound of the rain at this hour sounds really pleasant. i like the rain :)
Thursday, June 22, 2006
[torchlight]
I HAVE BEEN TAGGED. (not exactly.... just that i saw this on debby's blog)
Golden Rules:
[] Do the following WITHOUT complaint. *GRUMBLE D:*
[] Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
[] Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
[] Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
(sorry, I just think the rules are pointless. T_T)
Your 10 Favourites::
Favourite Colour -- white
Favourite Food -- dimsum (haha they are tasty!)
Favourite Song -- dont have particular one, just have lots of them.
Favourite Movie -- X-Men 3 (at the moment)
Favourite Sport -- haha i don't know! oh! oh! rollerblading!
Favourite Season -- winter :)
Favourite Day of the week -- saturday
Favourite Ice-cream Flavour -- chocolate chip (love the chips)
Favourite Book -- pendragon (black water)
9 currents::
Current mood -- jealous (because dom and en chou are watching bleach! and i'm still dling) and rather tired
Current clothes -- tshirt and shorts
Current desktop -- kenshin! from rurouni kenshin. haha damn cool lar.
Current Toe-nail colour -- natural colour. dont like to paint toe nail.
Current Time -- 1.28am!
Current Annoyance(s) --
1. doomic and enchou are watching bleach
2. my slow downloads
3. school reopening.
Current thought -- guilt.
Current boyfriend/girlfriend -- i don't have one -.-
Current book you are reading -- none actually.
8 Firsts::
First Best Friend -- marissa (in ij, still in ij)
First Crush -- erm. not gonna answer.
First Movie -- i dont know... some disney movie... maybe cinderella or snow white. haha.
First Piercing -- ears.
First Lie -- haha i think i lied to my maid. told her i drunk the soup, but actually i didnt. haha. she found out -.-
First Music -- nursery rhymes. unless my mum plays classical music when i was still a baby. bleagh?
First Handphone -- nokia 3315
Lasts::
Last Cigarette -- none. i'm underaged.
Last Drink -- green tea from gina's birthday bbq
Last Car Ride -- cab ride? from east coast park to home
Last Crush -- please dont aske me.
Last movie seen -- X-Men III: The Last Stand.
Last Phone Call -- gina. told her i was home :)
Last CD played -- ermmm cant remember. oh the corrs' borrowed heaven
Have you evers::
Have you ever dated one of your best friends -- no.
Have you ever broken the law -- yeah downloading
Have you ever been arrested -- no. what kind of question is that?
Have you ever skinny-dipped -- no. man no way.
Have you ever been on TV -- yeah in the bg. haha.
Have you ever kissed someone u didnt know -- no.
5 things you are wearing:
1. T shirt
2. shorts
3. underwear
4. the usual necklace with the ring
5. and this tired expression
4 things you've done today::
1. went to gina's birthday bbq
2. bbq-ed for a while
3. came home
4. cycled
3 Things you can hear right now::
1. my bro on his phone with his friend
2. my bro's dota game
3. let me go by 3 doors down
2 things you cant live without::
1. computer
2. sleep
Things you do when you are bored: i just stare at the monitor
people to do this quiz:
anyone who reads this.
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decided to do that quiz after reading debby's blog.
gina's bbq party today. hvnt been to ecp for a long time. so kinda miss that place. so ate and played. switching songs. yeah... haha it was quite entertaining.
i'm waiting for digimon adventures on animax. haha miss that show after i knew it was on animax, haha was so happy.
I HAVE BEEN TAGGED. (not exactly.... just that i saw this on debby's blog)
Golden Rules:
[] Do the following WITHOUT complaint. *GRUMBLE D:*
[] Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
[] Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
[] Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
(sorry, I just think the rules are pointless. T_T)
Your 10 Favourites::
Favourite Colour -- white
Favourite Food -- dimsum (haha they are tasty!)
Favourite Song -- dont have particular one, just have lots of them.
Favourite Movie -- X-Men 3 (at the moment)
Favourite Sport -- haha i don't know! oh! oh! rollerblading!
Favourite Season -- winter :)
Favourite Day of the week -- saturday
Favourite Ice-cream Flavour -- chocolate chip (love the chips)
Favourite Book -- pendragon (black water)
9 currents::
Current mood -- jealous (because dom and en chou are watching bleach! and i'm still dling) and rather tired
Current clothes -- tshirt and shorts
Current desktop -- kenshin! from rurouni kenshin. haha damn cool lar.
Current Toe-nail colour -- natural colour. dont like to paint toe nail.
Current Time -- 1.28am!
Current Annoyance(s) --
1. doomic and enchou are watching bleach
2. my slow downloads
3. school reopening.
Current thought -- guilt.
Current boyfriend/girlfriend -- i don't have one -.-
Current book you are reading -- none actually.
8 Firsts::
First Best Friend -- marissa (in ij, still in ij)
First Crush -- erm. not gonna answer.
First Movie -- i dont know... some disney movie... maybe cinderella or snow white. haha.
First Piercing -- ears.
First Lie -- haha i think i lied to my maid. told her i drunk the soup, but actually i didnt. haha. she found out -.-
First Music -- nursery rhymes. unless my mum plays classical music when i was still a baby. bleagh?
First Handphone -- nokia 3315
Lasts::
Last Cigarette -- none. i'm underaged.
Last Drink -- green tea from gina's birthday bbq
Last Car Ride -- cab ride? from east coast park to home
Last Crush -- please dont aske me.
Last movie seen -- X-Men III: The Last Stand.
Last Phone Call -- gina. told her i was home :)
Last CD played -- ermmm cant remember. oh the corrs' borrowed heaven
Have you evers::
Have you ever dated one of your best friends -- no.
Have you ever broken the law -- yeah downloading
Have you ever been arrested -- no. what kind of question is that?
Have you ever skinny-dipped -- no. man no way.
Have you ever been on TV -- yeah in the bg. haha.
Have you ever kissed someone u didnt know -- no.
5 things you are wearing:
1. T shirt
2. shorts
3. underwear
4. the usual necklace with the ring
5. and this tired expression
4 things you've done today::
1. went to gina's birthday bbq
2. bbq-ed for a while
3. came home
4. cycled
3 Things you can hear right now::
1. my bro on his phone with his friend
2. my bro's dota game
3. let me go by 3 doors down
2 things you cant live without::
1. computer
2. sleep
Things you do when you are bored: i just stare at the monitor
people to do this quiz:
anyone who reads this.
------------
decided to do that quiz after reading debby's blog.
gina's bbq party today. hvnt been to ecp for a long time. so kinda miss that place. so ate and played. switching songs. yeah... haha it was quite entertaining.
i'm waiting for digimon adventures on animax. haha miss that show after i knew it was on animax, haha was so happy.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
[famine camp]
famine camp rocked. got that photo from mag's blog because i was too lazy to scan in my id card.
17 June '06
haha started out day 1 with a disaster and everyone had to look for their family members. so my dad had to look for me, while i was out in the field (evacuation centre 3) folding cranes. i remember mag with that big tag on her that said 'I HAVE AIDS'. haha. but anyways i was found shortly after and reunited with the rest of my family. i was the youngest though. haha the rest of my family were all pre u students. felt totally out. haha. a sibling died (he/she didnt come for the camp), so we were a family of 12. we then had workshops and talks. bleagh i guess lots of people were like sleeping during the presentations but awoke when there were videos. it was rather heart-wrenching to see the poor children and the families in poverty. there was so much learnt from famine camp.
on day 2, we all had to earn money to survive, make a shelter. so there were jobs like prostitution, bean picking, crane folding, etc. haha the first job our family took up was prostitution because we could earn money quick. 5 mins = $12. haha it was rather popular i guess, but bad of course. haha so mama had aids. then papa lost his id card, so he got aids too. haha. when you have aids, you get thrashed (thrash bag put over you and you get taped up) it was quite cute. all the moral jobs like crane folding were paid less but the likely chance of being caught by the police would be none. we even got caught on day 3 at the prostitution centre. haha a few more got aids and had to pay a fine of $10. not to mention the black market, where children could be sold. haha our parents couldnt bear to sell us so we were still a happy family of 12 we so we bought tables, chairs, cardboards, rafia string and thrash bags for our shelter. we had to build out shelter out in the field, on the track. no tent so we spent lots of time building the shelter. in the end, the guys had to sleep in the shelters and the girls at the parade square. by then, i was really tired.
haha instead of sleeping, i spent the entire night folding cranes with glory and suhui despite my fatigue. haha ever since they graduated from ij, hardly ever saw them... and was kinda missing them, so we were kinda catching up. the reason why we were folding cranes was because there was this thing from songhe, a rice company. each crane folded would be equivalent to a bowl of rice, that was 100g of rice, for charity organisations. world vision was intending to fold 12 000 cranes, that would be over a thousand packets of rice for the needy. so glory, suhui and i were getting really high on folding cranes. we folded a lot in the parade square where everyone else was sleeping. haha many folded till they fell asleep so we, including stef, her friends and matilda were still awake and all with jn's friends. i guess ij girls like to stay up. from the parade square, we moved out and went over to the foyer because stef and her friends wanted to sleep already. so we realised we ran out of paper and started hunting for more. moved over to the canteen where we found the facilitators folding cranes, we decided to sette ourselves in the canteen and continued folding. the facilitators left shortly to go sleep. guess they were even more tired. we folded like over 200 cranes by 5am. and were pretty much satisfied. haha we were laughing and joking for 5 hours, without stopping. haha we looked drunk. after folding everything, glory started to arrange them as though they were an army. haha i will post some of the photos the next time. it was a fun night.
18 June '06
we could either go for the exercise or worship. i went for worship instead, but fainted. well, they did give us sugared drinks but maybe cause i didnt sleep the night before and my fatigue, i fainted. for a few seconds. it was a horrible feeling. bleagh the world was like black to me and i felt nausea eating my stomach walls. mingna (mummy) and alicia (sis) grabbed hold of me before i really fell to the ground. so they helped me to my chair and i took a little nap. felt better but extremely tired. haha thanks to them, i made it through that day without fainting a second time. haha i never fainted in my life.
by the time i awoke, the other teams were leaving for the buses to tampines to collect newspapers. yeah, we were supposed to cover block 272 - 279, but we didnt finish in time. so we collected lots of newspapers and it was kind of a happy thing. on our way back, mingna was massaging my right hand for me. haha she's kinda good at it. then darren (daddy), mingna and i were watching the people sitting at the back who were sleeping rather amusingly. haha. when we got back, we cleaned up our shelter. then i was sleeping on xiaohui's (sis) shoulder since she realised i was like swaying and swaying. so she offered. and later, we headed out to get our bags. went back to where we were and i was sleeping there. when i awoke 2 hours later, no one was around. felt lost. but fortunately, lizhen (sis) and nelly (sis) came along. yeah searched for the rest and headed to the cc for the concert.
the concert rocked!!! definition crew was there too! haha they were performed the same dance as the one at dance night but yeah it was still enjoyable. then joi chua was there too. she sung two songs and made zhiyang sing a line or two. haha yeah he was here. but he looked different from what i expected. the entire concert rocked! there were two bands performing and all. oh man, it was so totally cool.
after the concert, there was dinner. haha we had burger king. but it was difficult to have food down your throat after not eating for 30 hours. but it was still enjoyable. will upload group photo once i get it.
all in all, famine camp rocked. and i miss my papa, my mama and my 9 siblings!!!! haha. yeah miss them a little. and i've really learnt a lot from this.
whoa i spent an hour on this post. ah well.
haha love this song. and the music video rocks.
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For You I Will - Teddy Geiger
Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
famine camp rocked. got that photo from mag's blog because i was too lazy to scan in my id card.
17 June '06
haha started out day 1 with a disaster and everyone had to look for their family members. so my dad had to look for me, while i was out in the field (evacuation centre 3) folding cranes. i remember mag with that big tag on her that said 'I HAVE AIDS'. haha. but anyways i was found shortly after and reunited with the rest of my family. i was the youngest though. haha the rest of my family were all pre u students. felt totally out. haha. a sibling died (he/she didnt come for the camp), so we were a family of 12. we then had workshops and talks. bleagh i guess lots of people were like sleeping during the presentations but awoke when there were videos. it was rather heart-wrenching to see the poor children and the families in poverty. there was so much learnt from famine camp.
on day 2, we all had to earn money to survive, make a shelter. so there were jobs like prostitution, bean picking, crane folding, etc. haha the first job our family took up was prostitution because we could earn money quick. 5 mins = $12. haha it was rather popular i guess, but bad of course. haha so mama had aids. then papa lost his id card, so he got aids too. haha. when you have aids, you get thrashed (thrash bag put over you and you get taped up) it was quite cute. all the moral jobs like crane folding were paid less but the likely chance of being caught by the police would be none. we even got caught on day 3 at the prostitution centre. haha a few more got aids and had to pay a fine of $10. not to mention the black market, where children could be sold. haha our parents couldnt bear to sell us so we were still a happy family of 12 we so we bought tables, chairs, cardboards, rafia string and thrash bags for our shelter. we had to build out shelter out in the field, on the track. no tent so we spent lots of time building the shelter. in the end, the guys had to sleep in the shelters and the girls at the parade square. by then, i was really tired.
haha instead of sleeping, i spent the entire night folding cranes with glory and suhui despite my fatigue. haha ever since they graduated from ij, hardly ever saw them... and was kinda missing them, so we were kinda catching up. the reason why we were folding cranes was because there was this thing from songhe, a rice company. each crane folded would be equivalent to a bowl of rice, that was 100g of rice, for charity organisations. world vision was intending to fold 12 000 cranes, that would be over a thousand packets of rice for the needy. so glory, suhui and i were getting really high on folding cranes. we folded a lot in the parade square where everyone else was sleeping. haha many folded till they fell asleep so we, including stef, her friends and matilda were still awake and all with jn's friends. i guess ij girls like to stay up. from the parade square, we moved out and went over to the foyer because stef and her friends wanted to sleep already. so we realised we ran out of paper and started hunting for more. moved over to the canteen where we found the facilitators folding cranes, we decided to sette ourselves in the canteen and continued folding. the facilitators left shortly to go sleep. guess they were even more tired. we folded like over 200 cranes by 5am. and were pretty much satisfied. haha we were laughing and joking for 5 hours, without stopping. haha we looked drunk. after folding everything, glory started to arrange them as though they were an army. haha i will post some of the photos the next time. it was a fun night.
18 June '06
we could either go for the exercise or worship. i went for worship instead, but fainted. well, they did give us sugared drinks but maybe cause i didnt sleep the night before and my fatigue, i fainted. for a few seconds. it was a horrible feeling. bleagh the world was like black to me and i felt nausea eating my stomach walls. mingna (mummy) and alicia (sis) grabbed hold of me before i really fell to the ground. so they helped me to my chair and i took a little nap. felt better but extremely tired. haha thanks to them, i made it through that day without fainting a second time. haha i never fainted in my life.
by the time i awoke, the other teams were leaving for the buses to tampines to collect newspapers. yeah, we were supposed to cover block 272 - 279, but we didnt finish in time. so we collected lots of newspapers and it was kind of a happy thing. on our way back, mingna was massaging my right hand for me. haha she's kinda good at it. then darren (daddy), mingna and i were watching the people sitting at the back who were sleeping rather amusingly. haha. when we got back, we cleaned up our shelter. then i was sleeping on xiaohui's (sis) shoulder since she realised i was like swaying and swaying. so she offered. and later, we headed out to get our bags. went back to where we were and i was sleeping there. when i awoke 2 hours later, no one was around. felt lost. but fortunately, lizhen (sis) and nelly (sis) came along. yeah searched for the rest and headed to the cc for the concert.
the concert rocked!!! definition crew was there too! haha they were performed the same dance as the one at dance night but yeah it was still enjoyable. then joi chua was there too. she sung two songs and made zhiyang sing a line or two. haha yeah he was here. but he looked different from what i expected. the entire concert rocked! there were two bands performing and all. oh man, it was so totally cool.
after the concert, there was dinner. haha we had burger king. but it was difficult to have food down your throat after not eating for 30 hours. but it was still enjoyable. will upload group photo once i get it.
all in all, famine camp rocked. and i miss my papa, my mama and my 9 siblings!!!! haha. yeah miss them a little. and i've really learnt a lot from this.
whoa i spent an hour on this post. ah well.
haha love this song. and the music video rocks.
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For You I Will - Teddy Geiger
Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
Sunday, June 11, 2006
[shining like the sun]
wahhhhh
hee
okay... random random random. CHEESE! haha
okay... so i'm going "nuts" for no reason. bleagh... finished lu guang sen lin. it was nice nice nice. yeap...
have been playing warcraft for three nights or so and it's super exciting. haha. i get up at like 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
world cup! haha dont know much but.. just last night, germany won with 4 goals. costa rica with one goal. dont know about the 3am match though... hmmm...
nothing to blog about because i'm grounded... and haha have been wasting away on games and such. haha have i done anything productive? lets see... i finished my chem homework and done like half my physics homework... haha and guess what? its almost the third week already! man.. need to start soon.
my mum gave me a new pair of headphones! ah whee... now i hear better... haha kidding. but yeah, its new and nice. and yeah it kinda sounds better. haha.. but bring it out will be haha troublesome? haha dont know...
cant wait for famine camp! gonna be super fun!
wahhhhh
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okay... random random random. CHEESE! haha
okay... so i'm going "nuts" for no reason. bleagh... finished lu guang sen lin. it was nice nice nice. yeap...
have been playing warcraft for three nights or so and it's super exciting. haha. i get up at like 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
world cup! haha dont know much but.. just last night, germany won with 4 goals. costa rica with one goal. dont know about the 3am match though... hmmm...
nothing to blog about because i'm grounded... and haha have been wasting away on games and such. haha have i done anything productive? lets see... i finished my chem homework and done like half my physics homework... haha and guess what? its almost the third week already! man.. need to start soon.
my mum gave me a new pair of headphones! ah whee... now i hear better... haha kidding. but yeah, its new and nice. and yeah it kinda sounds better. haha.. but bring it out will be haha troublesome? haha dont know...
cant wait for famine camp! gonna be super fun!
Sunday, June 04, 2006
[dumdeedum]
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wahahaha. i do kinda agree with a few points.
dance night was fab, but short... well, if they made it longer, the dancers would die of exhaustion so yeah... intermission was way too long. but yeah. haha bumped into navin there! haha have no idea how come he was there, but he was. gerri, zl and i had nice seats in front because we bought the $30 tickets. right next to jaslyn, savie, smelly and clara. after dance night, clara, savie zl and i went to kap for macs! haha had DUPPER!. decided to combine supper and dinner. it was either sinner or dupper, but yeah, settled with dupper. so zl went home, savie and i sent clara home before i headed home. haha the journey home with clara was interesting. we had like two experiences with roaches. haha okay maybe the first one was a false alarm.... but the second was not. yeah... it was quite funny.
haha the entire afternoon was really fun. sentosa! no sun-tanning. dont like it. but played in the sea and in the sand. fun. haha. bleagh just cant say much because..... maybe i shouldnt. haha ah well.
fell in love with another ou xiang ju. green forest my home. lu guang sen lin. haha super nice. like the 1st episode. its super nice. so watch it on ch u, wed - fri, 7pm, if you wanted to watch. yeap yeap.
Your #1 Match: ISFJ |
The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. |
Your #2 Match: ISFP |
The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. |
Your #3 Match: ESFJ |
The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. |
Your #4 Match: ESFP |
The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor. |
Your #5 Match: ISTJ |
The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. |
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wahahaha. i do kinda agree with a few points.
dance night was fab, but short... well, if they made it longer, the dancers would die of exhaustion so yeah... intermission was way too long. but yeah. haha bumped into navin there! haha have no idea how come he was there, but he was. gerri, zl and i had nice seats in front because we bought the $30 tickets. right next to jaslyn, savie, smelly and clara. after dance night, clara, savie zl and i went to kap for macs! haha had DUPPER!. decided to combine supper and dinner. it was either sinner or dupper, but yeah, settled with dupper. so zl went home, savie and i sent clara home before i headed home. haha the journey home with clara was interesting. we had like two experiences with roaches. haha okay maybe the first one was a false alarm.... but the second was not. yeah... it was quite funny.
haha the entire afternoon was really fun. sentosa! no sun-tanning. dont like it. but played in the sea and in the sand. fun. haha. bleagh just cant say much because..... maybe i shouldnt. haha ah well.
fell in love with another ou xiang ju. green forest my home. lu guang sen lin. haha super nice. like the 1st episode. its super nice. so watch it on ch u, wed - fri, 7pm, if you wanted to watch. yeap yeap.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
[torn between this life i lead and where i stand]
whenever someone apologises to me, i feel sad. for some reason i do... i know that particular person feels guilty and all, but i just feel very irritated with myself. before someone apologises, i would be totally fine, taking it as though nothing happened. sigh.
i've been wanting to go to bed early... whenever i'm not watching anything. for some reason, things start to take a turn and remind me of what seems so unhappy, even though i didnt ask for it. i want to sleep early so that i can forget about all these. it is a fact that i can never seem to forget and it is also a fact that what i've always seen, isn't exactly what i'll see now.
if i told you how abandoned i feel now, would you believe? would you have that shocked expression printed on your face? but in fact, i do. when i look at every particular person, i will recall one bad incident. one that made me feel helpless and abandoned by that particular person.
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
-let me go
whenever someone apologises to me, i feel sad. for some reason i do... i know that particular person feels guilty and all, but i just feel very irritated with myself. before someone apologises, i would be totally fine, taking it as though nothing happened. sigh.
i've been wanting to go to bed early... whenever i'm not watching anything. for some reason, things start to take a turn and remind me of what seems so unhappy, even though i didnt ask for it. i want to sleep early so that i can forget about all these. it is a fact that i can never seem to forget and it is also a fact that what i've always seen, isn't exactly what i'll see now.
if i told you how abandoned i feel now, would you believe? would you have that shocked expression printed on your face? but in fact, i do. when i look at every particular person, i will recall one bad incident. one that made me feel helpless and abandoned by that particular person.
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
-let me go