the mass today was great. so fun. said hi 2 mrs eugenie tan but she din sound 2 happy. den i found out esti, anne-marie lee n jessica teo were e 3 toots.anne-marie lee's pinafore was short n her socks were low. esti n jessica purposely put deir belts at deir hips n folded deir socks. no wonder mrs tan din sound happy. i was like "hi mrs tan" n she was like "hi briana" in a vry annoyed tone. i was wonderin y she wasnt one bit happy abt founders day until jessica told me. i was like "ohhhhhhh............." ooookkkkkkkkkk..... hmmmmmmmm...........
went out wif mag, matilda n liz. omg. bumped in2 ashley shanti n cherry tan at j8. matilda was buggin abt ashley "lyin" 2 her abt cumin baq 2 ij. well she din. she went 2 crenscent instead. haha, den bumped in2 cherry tan. o no, 4got 2 ask cherry 4 her email addie. o well, nvm. haha....
went baq 2 sch after returnin 2 tp. was wonderin y jocelyn din cum 4 arc trainin. saw her at j8 but din say hi 2 her. she was wif her friend. hmmmmmmmmm........... did she 4get? hope she remembers 2 cum 2mrw. blah...blah...blah....had trainin till 6+, waited 4 diana, bought batteries, den went home. heehee, dun feel like bloggin now. bb
Mandy
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
Shadows of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into
Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy
[Chorus:]
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy
I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are on my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy
[Chorus]
You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy
Thursday, May 27, 2004
sry if my attitude change so abruptly. sry f i've bcum bad n loud n all. real sry, i have a reason 4 doin it. i know dat sum pple r not vry happy with who i m. im tryin my vry best 2 ignore it. its hard but i will try. i have 2 finish e robot. i must, by 2nite. i really hope all dese din happen n i hope i cud turn baq time. its really hurtin 2 see wat i've bcum. i really wan 2 let it all out. i cant keep it in anymore. i simply cant. y cant i accept myself? y? its really depressin. i wish all dese din happen, i really do. haiz..... i noe i wun make it anymore, i'm bound 2 lose. i'm a jinx. i received n email abt "simple friends VS real friends". its makin me worse. hu's a true friend? i juz realized i'm really alone n doesnt really have friends. even though i know so many pple, i dun have a real, true friend. i trust pple, i do. but when i trust dat person a lot, dey start 2 turn deir backs 2wards me. it happens often. izzit juz me? m i e cause of all dese??? i tink i m. im e worst person on earth. i noe dat e person nxt 2 me is sum1 hu doesnt really care if i'm dead or wat. my mum tinks i'm a failure. my dad tinks i'm a bully. my bro takes me as sumone 2 make fun of. my grandma tinks i'm always in e wrong. e whole world hates me, i noe dat. my friends tink i'm a total freak. i tried my best 2 ignore all dese but a voice in my head keeps tellin me all dat happen n it reminds me of everything. i really wan 2 let it all out. i wanna go 2 sleep n never ever open my eyes again. i dun even noe wat im like. wat m i supposed 2 do??
Monday, May 24, 2004
i'm really tired. not physically. but tired of wats happenin in 1/3. y did i have 2 break down at a bad time. y?y? it cant b. y cudnt hold baq my tears. i cudnt. i was really pushed 2 e end. i cudnt pick myself up, i juz cudnt, i cudnt hold baq my tears, y? y? wat happened 2 me? i cant believe i broke down in school, when i was trying 2 do wats rite, doin wats fair 2 others.
y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*
y is 1/3 like dis? y?
many things happened after e exams....
it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.
wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*
Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
y did ofelia have 2 b like dis, y did i have a classmate like her? i really wan 2 give up being e class secretary. i give up, i'm a failure, i'm not fit 2 b a secretary. *sobz*
y is 1/3 like dis? y?
many things happened after e exams....
it all happened on e day of e post-exams activities. it all started dere. i was supposed 2 b cumin up wif new cheers and all for dat cross-country ting n e banner wasnt wat i was supposed 2 do. i was concentrating on e cheers n i almost died juz tryin 2 get e class 2 do a cheer. i saw danielle hvin problems wif e banner n helped out. so dat makes me doin e banner n e cheers. both. but dere was a problem, e class was either unwillin 2 contribute or dey cudnt b bothered at all. those "banner pple" were supposed 2 stay 2 paint e banner on friday, but dey din turn up. danielle counted abt 10 pple n evryone told her dey had sumtin on e last minute. dat leaves dan all alone. gerri, mag n i accompanied her on friday n helped her clean up. dat was all 4 e day. when it was monday(today), we had 2 make dem stay baq, sum of course came up wif an excuse sayin dey cudnt make it n all. so clare, jess n i decided 2 do sumtin. dey had 2 talk 2 dem abt it. we closed e doors. jess "guarded" e front door n i "guarded" e baq door. ofelia lim was really rebelious. even mrs leong said 2 ignore her, even if she cries. she kept tellin me she had cca at 2.30pm. well, gerri n i had cca as well, we still stayed baq. jess was telin e whole class how much danielle n i chipped in n i was doin both e banner n cheers. n we had 3 banners!!! so i said 2 ofelia "ok fine, den u tell me, e last time u stayed baq, did u use e class computer?" she kept sayin no. so i said "but u were tryin 2 log in2 msn messenger" n she kept denyin. danielle was dere, she wudnt lie. danielle is one hu hardly lies. ofelia said "i have chess at 2.30pm." i told her "well, geraldine n i have arc at 2.30pm n it's vry important" she juz kept sayin "so" so i said "we have 2 register 4 a competition" n she still kept goin so. li juin came in n asked me 2 cool down. i shouted "how m i supposed 2 cool down when no 1's stayin 2 paint e banner?!!!! e cross-country is in 2 days!" den i really cudnt take it nemore, i screamed "if dis goes on, i'm gonna blow!!!!" n i ended up crying. i cudnt hold baq my tears. i felt cold. not physically. i cried n those who were still in class walked 2 me, lyn li tried 2 calm me down. ofelia started cryin. evry1 tried 2 console me. i was standin dere while tears trickled down my cheeks. i was standin dere 4 like a min b4 i went 2 wash my face. den i went down 2 e canteen n i shared a sandwich wif gerri. i was really upset n wanted 2 cry. i juz cudnt believe i broke down like dat. i cudnt stop myself.
wat has happened 2 me? wat really happened? can ne1 tell me? *sobz*
Once Upon A December
Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Monday, May 17, 2004
Saturday, May 15, 2004
14 May 2004
yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb
yay, exams over!!!!!! went 2 watch van helsing wif gerri. haha, she screamed once. but luv e movie, effects were great, cool movie n i was freezin in dere. so cold. den we went 2 orchard in our sch uniform, we were supposed 2 meet our mums dere so yeah. gerri n i wandered abt heeren coz we cudnt go newhere. at first, we were supposed 2 alight at somerset, coz gerri said so. but when we were at orchard mrt station, gerri alighted n i juz followe. she realized it was e wrong place n we were like "lost" coz we werent familiar wif e place. so we juz picked n exit. n ended up sumwhere opp tang plaza. we were wonderin wich direction 2 go...left or right? we picked right den turned baq. we picked left den turned baq. we were like where where where. so i picked left(i tink) n juz continued walkin....walkin den gerri recognized e buildin n yay we finally reached heeren. it was rather freaky coz we cud get LOST. met grace yow a-t 77th street. i dun noe y but i'm startin 2 fear dat place. haha... ok, i'm real bored so i'm gonna go play sum com games...bb
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Night Walker, the second class of vampire. You are
depressive and introverted, making it hard to
reach you. Your servants are very few, because
you do not like to take prisoners. Your powers
are comprised of shadow magic. You are lonely
deep down inside, but won't let others see your
true self. You should try to open up more
often.
What class of vampire are you? (more new images!)
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Sunday, May 09, 2004
Cant take it nemore!!!!!!! my idiotic brother keeps makin up stories n I bcome e 1 at wrong. He has no respect at all!!! He doesn’t noe e meaning of privacy. I wanna leave home, never 2 go baq. But I cant, I juz cant. I wanna kill myself, once n 4 all. It keeps happenin but I cant do neting abt it.i cant fight baq like wat I did years baq. It wun work n I cant take nemore. evr1 muz pick on me. Life can never b meaningful 2 me nemore. as long as I can leave dis place I dun care nemore. i juz wan dis 2 b over once n 4 all. my mum keeps tellin me my dad's bad my dad is suspectin me. my brother luks down on me... sobz.... i'm always bullied. i'm e black sheep...
Friday, May 07, 2004
6th May 2004, Thursday
sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.
went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...
7th May 2004, Friday
2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......
i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...
sry 4 not updating my blog. cant blieve dere are sum heartless people livin wif me. poor tortoise...my bro's is tortured by of course his owner. told him 2 change e water, but he refused 2 so told my mum 2 convince her precious son and she said "dun nd 2 care abt his tortoise. he'll noe when it dies" i gaveher dat u've gotta bkiddin lukand said "heartless people" n she heard it. well, she din say neting. fine, watever, buti dun wanna see the poor creature die juz like dat, its innocent! i wanna sue my bro 4 murder n abuse. he is such a toot.
went to tampines mall wif geraldine after sch 2 buy mother's day prezzie. no, actually, went baq home, got my stuff n took the 506 bus 2 geraldine's house in like half an hr at bedok. ok, spent like half hour at my place n abt 45 mins at geri's well, was gg thru her mindstorm kit(of course i had geri's permission). had so many missin parts n extra parts. actually, it din really belong 2 her, it belongs to her cuz, her cuz lent it 2 her. ok, had sum yakult, got her stuff n off to tampines mall. it was kinda weird 2 me coz i was in my sch socks n shoes while she was in her sandals on. ok, took e 28 bus all the way 2 e interchange. sincei wasnt 1 bit familiar wif e place,geri had 2 lead. she actually brought us 2 e wrong place, we turned baq n headed 4 tampines mall. she bought a pair of earrings that cost her $36. vry ex. we were done at arnd 6.30pm. left 4 mrt train station. i was on my own n it wasreally borin, i almost fell asleep on the train n i was in my sch uni. reached tp at exactly 6.55pm.haha....then was walkin home. was at e void deck, when i bumped in2 marian fernandez. said hi bye n yeah. Actually she was wearin a skirt wich i wud sayshort. well, its short 2 me but i dun noe abt e others....reachedhome at exactly 7pm, serious, no kiddin. e 7pm programme was on ch 8 n my bro was watchin it. haha...
7th May 2004, Friday
2day was rather a borin day. n yay, i bought she's new album!!!!!!! haha... was in sch, den went over 2 e ais(australian international sch) where my mum was workin. her colleagues kept jokin abt my chinese wksht. teasin each other's chinese. but i din go home. my mum n i went 2 sim lim square. to buy her mouse n cd-r. sry liz, cudnt find e cute looney toons diskette. :'( den went 2 bugis village bought sum stuff. den went 2 orchard 4 dinner. was afraid 2 c jo teo coz i was in my uni. well, at least i was wif my mum. phew....haha...durin dinner, dere was dis stall sellin sum jap dish, its omu-rice(i tink) yup n when the chef was like fryin e rice, he had 2 "flip" the rice. n when he did, he was dancin up n down. dere was dis couple. e lady was actually dancin up n down 2...haha....it seemed as though there were 2 rabbits poopin out of their burrows....haha....i was gigglin as i was eatin. it was real funny. den went 2 kinokuniya n saw e new charmed bk, waaaaaaaaaaaa......gotta get it!!!!!!!!!!! den wandered arnd in kinokuniya. dey actually had dis "kino-navi" wich was kinda cool, if u nd 2 luk 4 e bks u nd, juz go 2 e "kino-navi" n print e info 4 free!!!!! haha......
i got dis feelin i wud fail my exams n i have 2 say sayonara 2 arc. i've lost confidence. panickin. :'( haiz.....well, gtg, sayonara...gd uck 4 e exams...
Life is so stressful
this poem may suck
and some waddle like a duck
but i did my best
its never better than the rest
Everyday's a busy day
Homework, homework and more homework
and there i lay
on that pile of work
School seems like forever
but friends dont seem to last forever
they leave you one day
on the bed you lay
wondering where they are
but they are really far
you may not catch up wif them
but they will live in your heart
as long as they're your best friends
they will one day return
Exams are round the corner
and it doesnt seem like forever
life is so stressed
you'll never feel the best
Everytime
you think of the sad times
it'll make you cry
till your eyes are dry
life is just so stressed
i wanna wish for the best
haha, i noe the poem is lame n sum dont even rhyme. cherlynn n i wrote it. was bored in class so yeah.....deres another poem written by her over at her blog. heehee....
this poem may suck
and some waddle like a duck
but i did my best
its never better than the rest
Everyday's a busy day
Homework, homework and more homework
and there i lay
on that pile of work
School seems like forever
but friends dont seem to last forever
they leave you one day
on the bed you lay
wondering where they are
but they are really far
you may not catch up wif them
but they will live in your heart
as long as they're your best friends
they will one day return
Exams are round the corner
and it doesnt seem like forever
life is so stressed
you'll never feel the best
Everytime
you think of the sad times
it'll make you cry
till your eyes are dry
life is just so stressed
i wanna wish for the best
haha, i noe the poem is lame n sum dont even rhyme. cherlynn n i wrote it. was bored in class so yeah.....deres another poem written by her over at her blog. heehee....
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
You are Ruchia, you are a born leader. You never
forget those close to you even after they are
gone. You have never forgotten your first love,
even if you have lost hope of ever seeing him
again. You have a pure heart that no one can
break. You face danger instead of running away.
You live to protect those close to your heart.
What Mermaid Melody Princess Are You?{for girls}(Seven outcomes)
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you gotta be Vincent the dark and mysterious one
Which Final Fantasy character are you?
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Which Final Fantasy character are you?
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You're a sad, failed teen. If you wear black,
you're an angst-teen but a real one. Keep on
living, you'll be an adult in about five years
and then you can remember how bad childhood you
had and laugh your head off.
Stupid Teenangst test: Where do you belong?
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You Are Like Piper! Sarcastic and always stressed
out. You are also down to earth and a bit of a
control freak too. But you're always there to
support your sisters. You have good leadership
skills too
Which Charmed One Are You?
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Monday, May 03, 2004
haha........cheryl lim changed sooooo much......she's bcum cooler den she was cool in pri sch......haha......e gal rox totally..... shes damn nice n cool 2 b wif. haiz........ shes currently studyin in tkgs...... haiz, was really cool when we were all P6s..... had sooooooooo much fun... still remember e p6 ixora class anthem. haha... hew lyn li n her crazy ideas. newae, still cant blieve our class was even close 2 winnin e global citizenry ting lor. i expected 1/3 2 b e one of e last. datz coz we have countless incidents of teachers cumin in n scoldin us of makin sooooooo much noise. n its like xie lao shi is tryin 2 teach us n e class juz wudnt listen... really pity her...... did soooooo much 4 us but get notin but noise n more noise in return... feel sad 4 her. she muz b under a lot of stress bcoz of us. :'( poor xie lao shi......... if only e class wud juz listen 2 her.....